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that_o have_v store_n of_o grace_n mourn_v for_o the_o want_n of_o it_o and_o they_o that_o indeed_o want_v it_o chant_v their_o abundance_n none_o so_o apt_a to_o doubt_v their_o adoption_n as_o they_o that_o may_v be_v assure_v of_o it_o nor_o none_o more_o usual_o fear_n than_o they_o that_o have_v the_o great_a cause_n to_o hope_n we_o feel_v corruption_n not_o by_o corruption_n but_o by_o grace_n and_o therefore_o the_o more_o we_o feel_v our_o inward_a corruption_n the_o more_o grace_n we_o have_v contrary_n the_o near_o they_o be_v to_o one_o another_o the_o sharp_a be_v the_o conflict_n betwixt_o they_o now_o of_o all_o enemy_n the_o spirit_n and_o flesh_n be_v near_a one_o to_o another_o be_v both_o in_o the_o soul_n of_o a_o regenerate_a man_n and_o in_o all_o faculty_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o in_o every_o action_n that_o spring_v from_o those_o faculty_n the_o more_o grace_n the_o more_o spiritual_a life_n and_o the_o more_o spiritual_a life_n the_o more_o antipathy_n to_o the_o contrary_a whence_o none_o be_v so_o sensible_a of_o corruption_n as_o those_o that_o have_v the_o most_o live_a soul_n sect._n xxxvi_o now_o for_o remedy_n of_o the_o contrary_a there_o can_v be_v a_o better_a lesson_n for_o carnal_a man_n to_o learn_v than_o this_o all_o the_o promise_n of_o god_n be_v conditional_a to_o take_v place_n if_o we_o repent_v as_o all_o the_o threaten_n of_o god_n be_v conditional_a to_o take_v place_n if_o we_o repent_v not_o but_o wicked_a man_n as_o they_o believe_v without_o repent_v their_o faith_n be_v mere_a presumption_n so_o they_o repent_v without_o believe_v their_o repentance_n be_v indeed_o desperation_n and_o this_o observe_v we_o be_v cast_v down_o in_o the_o disappoint_a of_o our_o hope_n in_o the_o same_o measure_n as_o we_o be_v too_o much_o lift_v up_o in_o expectation_n of_o good_a from_o they_o whence_o these_o perremptory_a presumer_n if_o ever_o they_o repent_v it_o be_v common_o as_o francis_n spira_n a_o advocate_n of_o 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he_o have_v no_o feel_n thereof_o in_o like_a manner_n whilst_o they_o suppose_v themselves_o to_o be_v free_a from_o judgement_n they_o be_v already_o smite_v with_o the_o heavy_a of_o god_n judgement_n a_o heart_n that_o can_v repent_v rom._n 2.5_o in_o a_o lethargy_n it_o be_v needful_a the_o patient_n shall_v be_v cast_v into_o a_o burn_a fever_n because_o the_o sense_n be_v benumb_v and_o this_o will_v waken_v they_o and_o dry_v up_o the_o besot_v humour_n so_o in_o our_o dead_a security_n before_o our_o conversion_n god_n be_v fain_o to_o let_v the_o law_n sin_n conscience_n and_o satan_n loose_v upon_o we_o and_o to_o kindle_v the_o very_a fire_n of_o hell_n in_o our_o soul_n that_o so_o we_o may_v be_v rouse_v out_o of_o our_o security_n but_o thousand_o of_o these_o block_n both_o live_v and_o depart_v with_o as_o great_a hope_n as_o man_n go_v to_o a_o lottery_n even_o dream_v of_o heaven_n until_o they_o awake_v in_o hell_n for_o they_o too_o often_o die_v without_o any_o remorse_n of_o conscience_n like_o block_n or_o as_o a_o ox_n die_v in_o a_o ditch_n yea_o thousand_o that_o live_v like_o laban_n die_v like_o nabal_n which_o be_v but_o the_o same_o word_n invert_v whilst_o other_o the_o dear_a child_n of_o god_n die_v in_o distress_n of_o conscience_n for_o it_o be_v not_o every_o good_a man_n hap_n to_o die_v like_o antoninus_n pius_fw-la who_o death_n be_v after_o the_o fashion_n and_o semblance_n of_o a_o kindly_a and_o pleasant_a sleep_n however_o saint_n augustine_n rule_n will_v be_v sure_a to_o hold_v he_o can_v die_v ill_o that_o have_v live_v well_o and_o for_o the_o most_o part_n he_o that_o live_v conscionable_o die_v comfortable_o and_o depart_v rich_a and_o so_o you_o see_v how_o it_o fare_v with_o the_o wicked_a and_o worst_a of_o man_n wherefore_o
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not_o only_o weak_a but_o even_o dead_a to_o what_o be_v good_a move_v no_o morâ—_n than_o they_o be_v move_v that_o their_o best_a work_n be_v faulty_a all_o their_o sin_n deadly_a all_o their_o nature_n corrupt_v original_o you_o have_v he_o quicken_v that_o be_v dead_a in_o trespass_n and_o sin_n ephes_n 2.1_o yea_o we_o be_v altogether_o so_o dead_a in_o sin_n that_o we_o can_v stir_v the_o least_o joint_n no_o not_o so_o much_o as_o feel_v our_o own_o deadness_n nor_o desire_n life_n except_o god_n be_v please_v to_o raise_v and_o restore_v our_o soul_n from_o the_o death_n of_o sin_n and_o grave_n of_o long_a custom_n to_o the_o life_n of_o grace_n apt_a we_o arâ—_n to_o all_o evil_a but_o reprobate_a and_o indispose_v to_o all_o grace_n and_o goodness_n yea_o to_o all_o the_o mean_n thereof_o my_o power_n be_v all_o corrupt_a corrupt_v my_o will_n marble_n to_o good_a but_o wax_n to_o what_o be_v ill_a insomuch_o that_o we_o be_v not_o sufficient_a of_o ourselves_o to_o think_v much_o less_o 〈◊〉_d speak_v least_o of_o all_o to_o do_v that_o which_o be_v good_a 2_o cor._n 3.5_o joh._n 15.4_o 5._o iâ—_n we_o have_v power_n to_o choose_v or_o refuse_v the_o object_n to_o do_v these_o well_o we_o have_v 〈◊〉_d power_n we_o have_v ability_n we_o have_v will_v enough_o to_o undo_v ourselves_o scopel_v enough_o hellward_n but_o neither_o motion_n nor_o will_v to_o do_v good_a that_o must_v bâ—_n put_v into_o we_o by_o he_o that_o give_v both_o power_n and_o will_n and_o power_n to_o will_n final_o each_o sanctify_a heart_n feel_v this_o but_o no_o word_n be_v able_a sufficient_o to_o express_v what_o impotent_a wretch_n we_o be_v when_o we_o be_v not_o sustain_v so_o that_o we_o have_v no_o merit_n but_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n to_o save_v we_o nothing_o but_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n and_o his_o mediation_n to_o cleanse_v and_o redeem_v we_o nothing_o but_o his_o obedience_n to_o enrich_v we_o as_o for_o our_o good_a work_n we_o be_v altogether_o be_v hold_v to_o god_n for_o they_o not_o god_n to_o we_o nor_o we_o to_o ourselves_o because_o they_o be_v only_o his_o work_n in_o we_o whatsoever_o thou_o be_v thou_o owe_v to_o he_o that_o make_v thou_o whatever_o thoâ—_n have_v thou_o owe_v to_o he_o that_o redeem_v thou_o therefore_o if_o we_o do_v any_o thing_n amiss_o let_v we_o accuse_v ourselves_o if_o any_o thing_n well_o let_v we_o give_v all_o the_o praise_n 〈◊〉_d god_n and_o indeed_o this_o be_v the_o test_n of_o a_o true_a or_o false_a religion_n that_o which_o teach_v we_o to_o exalt_v god_n most_o and_o most_o to_o depress_v ourselves_o be_v the_o true_a that_o which_o do_v most_o prank_n up_o ourselves_o and_o detract_v from_o god_n be_v thâ—_n false_a as_o bonaventure_n well_o note_n sect._n xl._n now_o to_o wind_v up_o with_o a_o word_n of_o exhortation_n if_o thou_o be_v convinceâ—_n and_o resolve_v upon_o a_o new_a course_n let_v thy_o resolution_n be_v peremptory_a anâ—_n constant_a and_o take_v heed_n you_o harden_v not_o again_o as_o pharaoh_n the_o philistinâ—_n the_o young_a man_n in_o the_o gospel_n pilate_n and_o judas_n do_v resemble_v not_o the_o irâ—â—_n which_o be_v no_o long_o soft_a than_o it_o be_v in_o the_o fire_n for_o that_o good_a say_v gregory_n will_v do_v we_o no_o good_a which_o be_v not_o make_v good_a by_o perseverance_n if_o wiâ—â—_n these_o premonition_n the_o spirit_n have_v vouchsafe_v to_o stir_v up_o in_o thy_o heart_n anâ—_n good_a motion_n and_o holy_a purpose_n to_o obey_v god_n in_o let_v thy_o sin_n go_v quench_v not_o grieve_v not_o the_o spirit_n 1_o thes_n 5.19_o return_v not_o with_o the_o dog_n to_o thy_o vomit_n lest_o thy_o latter_a end_n prove_v sevenfold_a worse_o than_o thy_o beginning_n matth._n 12.43_o 45._o o_o it_o be_v a_o fearful_a thing_n to_o receive_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n in_o vain_a and_o a_o desperate_a thing_n be_v warn_v of_o a_o rock_n wilful_o to_o cast_v ourselves_o upon_o it_o neither_o let_v satan_n persuade_v you_o to_o defer_v your_o repentance_n no_o not_o a_o hour_n lest_o your_o resolution_n prove_v as_o a_o false_a conception_n which_o never_o come_v to_o bear_v beside_o death_n may_v be_v sudden_a even_o the_o least_o of_o a_o thousand_o thing_n can_v kill_v you_o and_o give_v you_o no_o leisure_n to_o be_v sick_a three_o if_o thou_o will_v be_v safe_a from_o evil_a work_n avoid_v the_o occasion_n have_v no_o fellowship_n with_o the_o worker_n of_o iniquity_n neither_o fear_v their_o scoff_v for_o this_o be_v sure_a of_o if_o your_o person_n and_o way_n please_v god_n the_o world_n will_v be_v displease_v with_o both_o if_o god_n be_v your_o friend_n man_n will_v be_v your_o enemy_n if_o they_o exercise_v their_o malice_n it_o be_v where_o he_o show_v mercy_n but_o take_v heed_n of_o lose_v god_n favour_n to_o keep_v they_o beda_n tell_v of_o a_o great_a man_n that_o be_v admonish_v by_o his_o friend_n in_o his_o sickness_n to_o repent_v who_o answer_v he_o will_v not_o yet_o for_o that_o if_o he_o shall_v 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people_n feel_v and_o be_v ravish_v with_o as_o o_o the_o calm_a and_o quietness_n of_o a_o good_a conscience_n the_o assurance_n of_o the_o pardon_n of_o sin_n and_o joy_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n the_o honesty_n of_o a_o virtuous_a and_o holy_a life_n how_o sweet_a they_o be_v yea_o even_a plato_n a_o heathen_a can_v say_v that_o if_o wisdom_n and_o virtue_n can_v but_o represent_v itself_o to_o the_o eye_n it_o will_v set_v the_o heart_n on_o fire_n with_o the_o love_n of_o it_o and_o the_o like_a of_o a_o sinner_n sadness_n as_o hear_v what_o seneca_n say_v if_o there_o be_v no_o god_n to_o punish_v he_o no_o devil_n to_o torment_v he_o no_o hell_n to_o burn_v he_o no_o man_n to_o see_v he_o yet_o will_v he_o not_o sin_n for_o the_o ugliness_n and_o filthinesss_n of_o sin_n and_o the_o guilt_n and_o sadness_n of_o his_o conscience_n but_o experience_n be_v the_o best_a informer_n wherefore_o take_v the_o counsel_n of_o holy_a david_n psalm_n 34.8_o o_o taste_n and_o see_v that_o the_o lord_n be_v good_a bless_a be_v the_o man_n that_o trust_v in_o he_o to_o which_o accord_v that_o of_o holy_a bernard_n good_a be_v thou_o o_o lord_n to_o the_o soul_n that_o seek_v thou_o what_o be_v thou_o then_o to_o the_o soul_n that_o find_v thou_o as_o i_o may_v appeal_v to_o â—ny_v man_n conscience_n that_o have_v be_v soften_v with_o the_o unction_n of_o grace_n â—nd_v true_o taste_v of_o the_o power_n of_o the_o world_n to_o come_v to_o he_o that_o have_v the_o â—ove_n of_o god_n shed_v abroad_o in_o his_o heart_n by_o the_o holy_a ghost_n whether_o his_o whole_a â—ife_n be_v not_o a_o perpetual_a halellujah_o in_o comparison_n of_o his_o natural_a condition_n whence_o
hate_v all_o that_o resemble_v he_o in_o holiness_n yea_o i_o so_o hate_v holiness_n that_o i_o most_o bitter_o hate_a man_n for_o be_v holy_a insomuch_o that_o my_o blood_n will_v rise_v at_o the_o sight_n of_o a_o good_a man_n as_o some_o stomach_n will_v rise_v a_o the_o sight_n of_o sweetmeat_n i_o be_v a_o christian_a in_o name_n but_o i_o can_v scoff_n at_o a_o christian_a indeed_o i_o can_v honour_v the_o dead_a saint_n in_o a_o formal_a profession_n while_o i_o worry_v the_o live_a saint_n in_o a_o cruel_a persecution_n i_o condemn_v all_o for_o roundhead_n that_o have_v more_o religion_n than_o a_o heathen_a or_o knowledge_n of_o heavenly_a thing_n than_o a_o child_n in_o the_o womb_n have_v of_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n or_o conscience_n than_o a_o atheist_n or_o care_v of_o his_o soul_n than_o a_o beast_n i_o have_v always_o the_o base_a thought_n of_o the_o best_a man_n make_v ill_a construction_n of_o whatsoever_o they_o do_v or_o speak_v as_o the_o scribe_n and_o pharisee_n deal_v by_o our_o saviour_n sect._n xxix_o as_o o_o what_o a_o poor_a slave_n do_v i_o hold_v the_o man_n of_o a_o tender_a conscience_n to_o be_v yea_o how_o do_v i_o applaud_v myself_o for_o be_v zeallesse_a and_o fearless_a together_o with_o my_o great_a discretion_n and_o moderation_n when_o i_o see_v this_o man_n vex_v for_o his_o zeal_n that_o other_o hate_a for_o his_o knowledge_n a_o three_o persecute_v for_o the_o profession_n of_o his_o faith_n etc._n etc._n for_o be_v like_o cain_n ishmael_n eliab_n michael_n pharaoh_n and_o festus_n i_o think_v their_o religion_n puritanisme_n their_o conscience_n of_o sin_n hypocrisy_n their_o profession_n dissimulation_n their_o prudence_n policy_n their_o faith_n and_o confidence_n presumption_n their_o zeal_n of_o god_n glory_n to_o be_v pride_n and_o malice_n their_o obedience_n to_o god_n law_n rebellion_n to_o prince_n their_o execution_n of_o justice_n cruelty_n etc._n etc._n if_o they_o be_v any_o thing_n devout_a or_o forward_o to_o admonish_v other_o that_o so_o they_o may_v pluck_v they_o out_o of_o the_o fire_n i_o conceive_v they_o to_o be_v beside_o themselves_o as_o our_o saviour_n be_v think_v to_o be_v by_o his_o kinsfolk_n and_o saint_n paul_n by_o festus_n mark_n 3.21_o john_n 10.20_o act_n 26.24_o 1_o cor._n 1.18_o my_o religion_n be_v to_o oppose_v the_o power_n of_o religion_n and_o my_o knowledge_n of_o the_o truth_n to_o know_v how_o to_o argue_v against_o the_o truth_n 〈◊〉_d never_o affect_v christ_n ambassador_n that_o preach_v the_o glad_a tiding_n of_o salvation_n but_o have_v a_o spleen_n against_o they_o yea_o i_o hate_v a_o minister_n for_o be_v a_o minister_n especial_o if_o a_o godly_a and_o zealous_a one_o that_o speak_v home_o to_o my_o conscience_n and_o tell_v i_o of_o my_o sin_n much_o more_o if_o he_o will_v not_o admit_v i_o to_o the_o lord_n table_n without_o trial_n and_o examination_n yea_o then_o like_o ahab_n to_o micah_n i_o become_v his_o enemy_n and_o hate_v he_o ever_o after_o will_v impeach_v his_o credit_n and_o detain_v from_o he_o his_o due_n and_o be_v not_o all_o these_o strong_a evidence_n that_o i_o love_v and_o serve_v god_n and_o my_o redeemer_n as_o i_o ought_v but_o to_o make_v it_o more_o manifest_a what_o a_o rare_a christian_a i_o be_v i_o think_v myself_o a_o believer_n yea_o i_o can_v boast_v of_o a_o strong_a faith_n when_o yet_o i_o fall_v short_a of_o the_o very_a devil_n in_o believe_v for_o they_o believe_v the_o threat_n and_o judgement_n contain_v in_o the_o word_n and_o tremble_v thereat_o james_n 2.19_o whereas_o i_o think_v they_o but_o scarecrow_n to_o fright_v the_o simple_a withal_o yea_o i_o hold_v hell_n itself_o but_o a_o fancy_n not_o worth_a the_o fear_v because_o i_o be_v not_o notorious_o wicked_a but_o have_v a_o form_n of_o godliness_n be_v civil_a etc._n etc._n i_o be_v able_a to_o delude_v my_o own_o soul_n and_o put_v off_o all_o reproof_n and_o threaten_n by_o compare_v myself_o with_o those_o that_o i_o presume_v be_v worse_a than_o myself_o as_o drunkard_n adulterer_n blasphemer_n oppressor_n shedder_n of_o blood_n and_o the_o like_a count_v none_o wicked_a but_o such_o yea_o look_v upon_o these_o i_o admire_v my_o own_o holiness_n and_o think_v my_o moral_a honesty_n will_v be_v sufficient_a to_o save_v i_o nor_o do_v i_o know_v wherein_o i_o have_v offend_v and_o whereas_o the_o law_n be_v spiritual_a and_o bind_v the_o heart_n from_o affect_v no_o less_o than_o the_o hand_n from_o act_v i_o be_v so_o blind_a and_o ignorant_a that_o i_o think_v the_o commandment_n be_v not_o break_v if_o the_o outward_a gross_a sin_n be_v â—orborn_v whence_o these_o be_v my_o thought_n i_o never_o break_v the_o first_o commandment_n of_o have_v many_o god_n for_o i_o be_v no_o papist_n nor_o idolater_n nor_o the_o second_o for_o i_o worship_v god_n aright_o nor_o the_o three_o for_o i_o have_v be_v no_o common_a swearer_n only_o a_o few_o petty_a oath_n nor_o the_o four_o for_o i_o have_v every_o sabbath_n go_v due_o to_o church_n not_o the_o five_o for_o i_o ever_o honour_v my_o parent_n and_o have_v be_v a_o loyal_a subject_n not_o the_o six_o seven_o eight_o nine_o or_o ten_o for_o i_o never_o commit_v murder_n or_o adultery_n never_o stale_a aught_o never_o bear_v false_a witness_n nor_o can_v i_o call_v to_o mind_n that_o i_o have_v at_o any_o time_n covet_v my_o neighbour_n wife_n servant_n estate_n etc._n etc._n and_o nothing_o more_o common_a with_o i_o than_o to_o brag_v of_o good_a heart_n and_o meaning_n of_o the_o strength_n of_o my_o faith_n and_o hope_n of_o my_o just_a and_o upright_o deal_n etc._n etc._n and_o because_o i_o abstain_v from_o notorious_a sin_n i_o think_v myself_o a_o excellent_a christian_a if_o god_n be_v not_o behold_v to_o i_o for_o not_o wound_v his_o name_n with_o oath_n for_o not_o drink_v and_o play_v out_o his_o sabbath_n for_o not_o rail_v on_o his_o minister_n for_o not_o oppress_v and_o persecute_v his_o poor_a member_n etc._n etc._n sect._n xxx_o and_o yet_o have_v it_o be_v so_o as_o i_o imagine_v admit_v i_o have_v never_o offend_v in_o the_o least_o all_o my_o life_n either_o in_o thought_n word_n or_o deed_n yet_o this_o be_v but_o one_o half_a of_o what_o i_o owe_v to_o god_n this_o be_v but_o to_o observe_v the_o negative_a part_n of_o his_o law_n still_o the_o affirmative_a part_n thereof_o i_o have_v be_v so_o far_o from_o perform_v that_o i_o have_v not_o so_o much_o as_o think_v of_o it_o and_o to_o be_v just_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n and_o gracious_o accept_v of_o he_o these_o two_o thing_n be_v require_v the_o satisfactory_a part_n to_o escape_v hell_n and_o the_o meritorious_a part_n to_o get_v heaven_n and_o the_o true_a method_n of_o grace_n be_v cease_v to_o do_v evil_a learn_v to_o do_v well_o isa_n 1.16_o 17._o the_o figtree_n be_v curse_v not_o for_o bear_v evil_a fruit_n but_o because_o it_o bear_v no_o good_a the_o evil_a servant_n be_v not_o bind_v hand_n and_o foot_n and_o cast_v into_o prison_n for_o waste_v his_o master_n good_n but_o for_o not_o gain_v with_o they_o and_o those_o reprobate_n at_o the_o last_o day_n shall_v be_v bid_v depart_n into_o everlasting_a fire_n not_o for_o wrong_v or_o rob_v of_o any_o but_o for_o not_o give_v for_o not_o comfort_v christ_n poor_a member_n mat._n 25._o so_o that_o my_o case_n be_v most_o desperate_a for_o though_o with_o that_o pharisee_fw-mi luk._n 18.11_o i_o be_v apt_a to_o thank_v god_n and_o brag_v that_o i_o be_v just_a and_o pay_v every_o man_n his_o due_n yet_o i_o never_o think_v of_o be_v holy_a and_o of_o pay_v god_n his_o due_n as_o his_o due_n of_o believe_v or_o repent_v of_o new_a obedience_n his_o due_n of_o pray_v hear_v confer_v meditate_v on_o his_o word_n and_o work_n sanctâ—â—â—ing_v his_o sabbath_n and_o instruct_v my_o child_n and_o servant_n teach_v they_o to_o fear_v the_o lord_n his_o due_a of_o love_n fear_v thankfulness_n zeal_n for_o his_o glory_n charity_n and_o mercy_n to_o christ_n poor_a member_n and_o the_o like_a i_o shall_v have_v serve_v god_n in_o spirit_n and_o according_a to_o christ_n gospel_n as_o all_o that_o be_v wise_a heart_a do_v live_v and_o believe_v and_o hear_v and_o invocate_v and_o hope_v and_o fear_v and_o love_n and_o worship_n god_n in_o such_o manner_n as_o his_o word_n prescribe_v i_o shall_v have_v be_v effectual_o call_v and_o become_v a_o new_a creature_n by_o regeneration_n be_v beget_v and_o bear_v anew_o by_o the_o immortal_a seed_n of_o the_o word_n i_o shall_v have_v find_v a_o apparent_a change_n wrought_v in_o my_o judgement_n affection_n and_o action_n to_o what_o they_o be_v former_o the_o old_a man_n shall_v have_v change_v with_o the_o new_a man_n