the world is but like that knowledge of sinne which Dauid had in time of his security they confesse they are sinners they know that blasphemy drunkennesse fornication and such like are sinnes but their conscience being sleeping they walke still on in their sinnes and thinkes it is Christianity good enough if euery morning they say God be merciful to mee for I am a poore sinner but alas poore art thou indeed and pittifully deceiued this knowledge will but make thee inexcusable because in thy words confessing and condemning sinne in thy workes thou practisest it but there is an other knowledge of sin which the Lord shall once discouer vnto thee either in mercy for thy amendment as hee doth heere to Dauid or in wrath as he did to Iudas Pray vnto the Lord that this knowledge of sinne may be giuen you in his mercy for your conuersion and not in his wrath for your consusion And my sinne is euer before me What meanes Dauid by How sinne lookes not alway with one face this was not sinne before him ere now It was indeede ere he committed it it stood before alluring him and hee liked it and sought occasion to commit it when he had committed it was before him also But it looked with so ill fauoured a face that hee sought to hide it and now when his conscience is wakened it stood before him directly to accuse him and it troubles him so that hee would faine be quit of the sight therof Oh that men could consider this in time how sinne will change her countenance before the action sinne comes like a laughing enemy purposing to slay but in flattering manner pretending friendship In the action like sweet poyson deadly and yet delights the sense but after the action a stinging Scorpion leauing no other fruit behinde it but guiltinesse in the conscience terror in the minde anguish in the spirit Si cupis peccati cognoscere Chrys in Ioan. 8. hom 51. turpitudinem commissum considera cum liber non amplius eius perturbaris affectibus If men could thinke of this in time they would not bee much moued with the beautifull face of sinne at the first comming to them because it is certaine that sinne which at the first is before a man to tempt him and will not let him to rest till he doe it that same sinne at the next time shal stand before him to torment him and not let him rest because hee hath doe it And this he further amplifies The action of sinne is momentarie the effects of it remaines when he saies it is euer before him both night and day sleeping and waking go where I will it goes with mee no change of place changes my trouble Sine intermissione video Basil malorum meorum imagines and it is so before me that it is against mee Semper coram me Saua opponens se mihi ne ad te transeat oratio mea Sinne is soone committed in a moment passeth the pleasure of it but the gilt and terror is not so soone done Paruum est ad horam peccatum Cyrill Catechis 12. longaeua autem est ex eo aeterna verecundia That for which a man sinnes shall not abide with him try when yee will yee shall finde it so wilt thou slay Naboth for his Vineycard thou must go from it wilt thou incurre the curse with Achan for a wedge of gold thou shalt not keepe it the curse bides with thee the gilt of sinne remaines but that for which thou didst sin shall bee taken from thee and thou from it The remembrance of this were a singular preseruatiue against sinne It is an opinion of carnall men blinded with the deceit of sinne that when sinne is committed Sin is not alwaies done when it is ended as the foolish thinke they thinke it done and away and so casts it behinde their backe as a thing neuer any more to be remembred but truth shall teach them by experience when they are iudged that it is before them It is now nine moneths since Dauid sinned yet he finds his sinne before him the cruelty of Iacobs sonnes against their brother Ioseph which they committed in Canaan mette them twenty yeeres after that in Aegypt though for a long time they beleeued it had been done and forgotten No No length of time takes away sinne without repentance length of time can we are sinne away if it be not taken away by repentance the sinnes wee haue done many yeeres since if we mourne not for them till we get mercy shall stand vp as fresh and young against vs when we come to bee iudged as they were the first houre that we committed them The Lord make vs wise to thinke vpon it our selues waxe old our bodies are declyning to the graue our yeeres are neere an end and will wee take no paines to weare away our sins to make them as if they had neuer beene or shall wee let them stand in their strength and vigour against vs this were a pittifull folly which will not faile to trouble vs at the last happy are they who are iudged in this world that they be not condemned in the world to come Further we note heere the The folly of sinners they redeeme a perishing pleasure with an enduring paine folly of sinners and iust manner of the Lords dealing with them their folly is heere that that they redeeme a perishing pleasure with an enduring paine Gods iustice is here that he punisheth the wicked with their owne sinfull deedes and lets them eat the fruit of their owne labours This he threatneth by Ezechiel I shall turne your waies vpon your owne heads and truely it were a punishment greater then men are able to beare if the Lord should set their iniquities before them and let them see them as they are Let wicked Psalm 50. men consider this that while they are multiplying sinnes they are but pletting coardes wherewith they shall be whipped the next day with their owne hands they are heaping vp wrath to themselues No place of complaining against the Lords iustice shall bee left Rom. 2. vnto them when they shall clearely see it is their owne iniquitie that vexeth and torments them But now seeing Nathan the Remembrance of sinne remaines after remission in the godly and why Prophet had proclaimed to Dauid the remission of his sin how is it that yet it is before him I answere in his deerest children after remission of sin he will haue the remembrance of sinne to remaine First to keepe them in minde of God his great mercie who slewe them not in their sinnes as hee hath done many that so hee may make them the more thankfull Vt gratior sit misericordia dei vt sentias quid tibi Chrysost concesserit Si enim semper memor fuer is cumuli peccatorum tuorum eris etiam memor magnitudinis beneficentiae dei Next the memorie of sinne past serues
sinne yet is be sore troubled because he knew that God knew it creature but himselfe Bathshabe and Nathan were priuie to it yet this terrifies him that he saw the Lord looking vpon it It is no comfort to a man to haue his sinne hidden from all the world vnlesse hee knew that the Lord also hath couered and forgiuen it alioqui Ambros de paeniten li. 2. cap. 11. ita grauis est culpa conscientiae vt sine iudice ipsa se puniat So heauie is the sinne of any euill conscience that albeit no creature were to iudge it it iudges and punishes it selfe He said in the third verse that God will looke to our sinnes if we looke not to them his sin was alway in his sight and now hee praies that God would put it out of his sight this is a very good ordor if we hold our sinnes in our eies to persue them God will cast them behinde his backe to pardon them if we remember them and repent hee will forget them and forgiue otherwise peccatum vnde se homo non auertit aduertit deus si aduertit animaduertit the sinne from which man turnes not God lookes to it and if he looke to it sure he will punish it Thy face The face of God is The face of God put sometime for his mercy sometime for iustice sometime put for his fauor and with this he lookes on the persons of them who are the children of his good will this Dauid praies may be lifted vp vpon him Psa 4. that God would not hide it from him Psal 27. the hyding of his face did trouble him sore Psal 30. therefore it is his customable prayer Lord cause thy face to shine vpon vs Psa 4. sometime againe it is put for his anger or angry face whereby he lookes on the persons of the wicked when he wil vex them in his displeasure or vpon the sinnes of his owne children when he wil humble them How fearefull a sight this How fearefull a sight Gods angry face is angry face of God is see it in Dauid for his good the Lord who loued Dauids selfe looked with an angry countenance at Dauids sinnes but hee protests hee may not indure it and praies God to hide it from him See it againe in Christ Iesus who endured the looks of that angrie face not for himselfe but for vs how did it make his soule heauy and his flesh so weary that he did sweat blood How miserable then are the reprobates who must endure for euer the sight of Gods angry face looking vpon them for they and their sins are one no maruell they shall cry hils and mountaines fall vpon vs and hide vs from the face of him that sits vpon the throne Let vs feare and looke with anger vpon our sins in time that God in mercy may looke vpon our selues and wee may finde ioy in his face wherein the wicked shall see nothing but terror VERSE 10. Greate in mee a cleane heart O God and renew a right spirit within mee NOw followes Dauids third petition The third ranke of Dauids petitions wherein he craueth the grace of sanctification hee sought before the forgiuenesse of his sin now hee seekes to be deliuered from it in time to come for it is for this end that hee praies for a cleand heart and a renewed spirit that hee should not any more fall to the like vncleannesse This is a good order in our prayer when first we seeke the Remission of sinne and renouation go together grace of remission and then the grace of renouation for these two goe inseparably together to whom the Lord giues remission them hee makes new creatures so that renouation of the heart is alway an vndoubted token of the remission of thy sinnes and by the contrary he whose heart is not renewed but abides stil in his former vncleannesse hee deceiues himselfe if so be he thinkes that his sinnes are forgiuen This is to be marked for the common sort of prophane men They who seeke forgiuenesse and not sanctification seeke but liberty to sinne in this age who seeke from God mercy to forgiue for feare of his plagues but not grace to renew them to his image for loue of himselfe this in effect is no other but to seeke a liberty to sinne while as men seeke sin to be forgiuen but not to be restrained it is an argument they haue not a right hatred of sin but wee see in Dauid what the disposition of the godly is as they desire mercy for be-gone sinnes so also grace to renew them and preserue them from the power and deceit of sinne in all time to come otherwise to craue that the Lord would pardon these sins which thou art of purpose to commit it is but to mocke the Lord by turning his grace into wantonnesse The vncleanesse of sinne originall encreased by actuall Iob. Dauid his heart was two waies vncleane first by reason of originall sinne wherein hee was conceiued and borne Who can bring a clean thing out of that which is vnclean this vncleannesse of heart is common to al mankind but beside this he had defiled it with many actual sins specially this foule adultery murther for euery sin pollutes the heart leaues a new giltines vpon the conscience wherwith now Dauid finding his heart ouergrowne that it is not like the heart he had before he praieth the Lord to giue him a new heart He had now not only sinned but fallen as Basile expounds it in Senium peccati into Basil the very old age of sin and therefore hee desires that the Lord would begin with him againe and make him to renew his youth like the Eagle Many circumstances are to bee marked heere whereby Sinne seeks the very life of the soule Dauid aggrauateth the greatnesse of his misery as first that his disease was in his heart which is the fountaine of life As the naturall heart is the life of the body which when it is not well vitall humor health beauty ability and all decaies in the body so is the Lord the life of the soule So Dauids meaning is O Lord by my sinne I haue grieued thy holy spirit and forced thee to forsake me Tu proprie cordis The heart of any Christian his heart mei proprium es cor vita thou properly art the proper heart and life of mine heart Come againe Lord and restore life vnto mee without thee I am dead and senslesse and an abominable creature like a body which wanting an heart is an vncleane carion thou art the light of my minde the peace of my soule the life of my heart I haue lost life by my sinne I am like a man wanting his quickning spirit when thou wentest away my life went away Lord come againe and create a new heart within me Againe in that hee craues a Repentance is a new creation cleane heart may bee
for a warning to vs all If I wash thee not thou shalt haue no part with me Oh that it moued vs as it mooued him that wee might also pray with him O Lord rather then my vncleannes banish me from thy fellowship wash I beseech thee not my feete onely but my hands and my head also Wash my feete that is my vncleane affections Wash my head that is my vncleane imaginations and senses And wash also my hands that is the vncleannesse of mine actions But the word that Dauid vseth A cōfort able meditation of Gods manifold mercies imports much washing hee knew his sinne was a deepe spot not easily rubbed away and therefore craues he much washing so then his meaning is Many sinnes hast thou Lord forgiuen me now I pray thee yet further wash me from this sinne also Are thy mercies numbred or are they so narrow that they cannot couer this transgression among the rest how great so euer it bee So that heere Dauid doth still depend vpon the greatnesse of Gods compassion and by it is he sustained that the greatnes of his transgression driueth him not to despare when the Apostle Saint Peter enquired at the Lord Iesus how oft shall I forgiue my brother in Since hee will haue vs to forgiue an other seuen times in the day what will he doe himselfe the day if he offend me shall I forgiue him seuen times Our Sauiour answered not seuen times only but seuenty times seuen times also O word full of consolation how doth it animate vs to repose on the the Lords mercy Nonne maior Deus homine nonne melior homine Is not the Lord greater then man is he not better then man If he will haue so great compassion in a man to forgiue his brother so often in a day what compassion is in himselfe to forgiue his owne poore penitent creature that prostrates himselfe for mercy before him VERSE 3 For I know mine iniquity and my sinne is euer before me HEere is subjoined a reason of his Confession from a penitent hart obtaines mercy former petition O Lord I doe not hide conceale the iniquitie of my bosome I seeke not now to couer it as I did before but now I acknowledge it and I confesse it to thee against my selfe therefore Lord haue mercy vpon me and forgiue it this is a good reason for it is grounded on the Lords promise He that hideth his sinnes shall not prosper Prou. 28. but hee that confesseth and forsaketh them shall haue mercy And againe If wee confesse our sinnes 1. Ioh. 1. 9. God is faithfull and iust to forgiue them Or otherwaies we may take vp these words as Vatablus doth Lord thou knowest that I seeke not mercy from thee dissemblingly or for fashion as the manner of hypocrites is who make supplication for mercy of custome rather then of contrition nay Lord I feele my sinne a burden which troubles me the very sight of it terrifies and afraies me therefore Lord take it away from thee So long as sinne is in a mans So long as sinne is in the affection that a man loues it there is no remission of it affection that hee likes it and hath pleasure in it it is but a mocking of God to desire him to forgiue it shall hee forgiue that which thou wilt not forgoe shall he pardon thine offences so long as thou hast pleasure to offend No no vnlesse thou put thine iniquity from thee out of thine affection vnlesse thou find it a burden vnto thee whereof thou art weary goe not to him to seeke mercy for so his promise is Come vnto mee all yee that are weary and laden and I will refresh you But alas it is farre otherwise with many who vse in babbling manner these words of Dauid O Lord consider my distresse when as they had neuer such a thing as a distressed soule for sinne and cannot say with Dauid I know mine iniquity and my sinne is euer before me But when is this that Dauid An example of that deepe security wherein Gods children may fall comes to know his sinne after that Nathan had reproued him without and God had wakned his owne conscience within to accuse him and this was nine moneths after the committing of the sin al this time he slept in a carelesse security albeit he haunted the exercises of religion and had some general knowledge of his sinnes yet it moued him not till now God lets him see an other sight of his sinnes then hee had before In him wee see an image of To sinne is of our selfe to repent is of grace our corrupt disposition wee fall easily into sinne and when we haue fallen we can doe nothing but lye still in sinne except the Lord put vnder his mercifull hand and raise vs vp As Adam when he had sinned ran away from the Lord so is it the manner of Adams children after sinne insteede of running to the Lord to runne away alwaies the longer and the further from him if the Lord doe not follow and recouer them For this is a peece of Satans pollicy that as hee is subtill in Satans policie first drawes a man to sin then keepes him vnto it alluring man to commit sinne so when he hath done it he labours to blind the minde that man should neuer come to the knowledge of his sinne till hee be past remedy a fearefull example whereof wee haue in Iudas And therefore it is a great mercy of God towards his owne that he opens their eies in time to see their sinne so long as he sits vpon his mercy-seat to pardon and forgiue them Satan knows he hath no vantage by sinne when true repentance followeth it For wher sinne hath abounded there grace hath much more super abounded It is not sinne so much which condemnes men as impenitency that despises mercy and therefore Satan contents not to draw his miserable captiues into sinne but when hee hath done it hides the sight of it from them alwaies till the time of grace bee expired and they bee past recouery then lets he them see the vglinesse of their sin and with restlesse torments disquiets their soules for it Further wee see heere that ther are two sorts of the knowledge A twofold knowledge of sinne of sin one which is but general idle works no reformation and an other which is effectuall to worke conuersion Dauid as I said before that Nathan came to him he knew that One that is idle and workes no remorse another that breeds repentance murther adultery were sins but that troubled him not But now God works another know ledge of sin in him hee sees his sins in another maner he feeles now the iust weight of them he tastes now the bitter fruits of them his spirit is filled with anguish for them and his soule abhors them It is to be lamented that the knoweledge of sin which now is in most part of
sinnes are forgiuen thee as heere Nathan doth vnto Dauid and yet thou not feele that it is so wee must not therefore bee so discouraged as to thinke wee want that grace alwaie which we cannot Therefore Dauid craues not onely mercy but sense of mercy feele It is now cleare what is the benefit which DAVID here craues To wit not mercie only that he hath sought before but the sense of mercie also make me to heare ioy so that I may feele it For all the inward senses of the soule are in feeling to heare the Lord to see him to tast how good he is is no other but to enioy him and to feele his consolations It is thy praise ô Lord that thou speak'st peace to thy Saints among the rest speake peace vnto mine heart also O what a ioy was it to that man sicke of the palsie when he heard that voice thy sinnes are forgiuen thee And such like to that sinfull woman when shee heard goe in peace thy faith hath saued thee And how was the soule of that conuerted sinner comforted in the middes of the dolors of death when he hard that voice This night thou shalt be with me in paradise This is the exceeding great Great comfort that God not only forgiues our sinnes but telles vs they are forgiuen loue of the Lord toward his children that he hath not only prouided a sure saluation for them through the remission of their sinnes in Christ Iesus but also seales vp in their heart the testimony thereof by his Holy Spirit of adoption and that for their present consolation least they should bee swallowed vp of heauinesse through continuall temptations Though he speake not to all his children as hee did to Daniel by an Angell O man greatly beloued of God nor as he did to the blessed Virgin Marie haile Marie freely beloued yet doth hee witnesse the same to the hearts of his children by an inward testimonie when they heare it they are aliue when they want it they are but dead their soule refuses all other comfort whatsoeuer That the hones which thou hath A troubled mind sore weakneth the bodie broken may reioyce By these Basil vnderstands Ossa animae spiritualia that is as saith Sauanarola and others Vires animae rationalis but as this agrees not with this sense so there is no reason why it should be enforced Dauid his words Psalme 32. serues for a commentarie to this there hee complaines that through extremitie of the anguish of his Spirit the moisture of his body was turned into the drought of Sommer now the marrow we know is the strength of the bones these being so extenuate no maruell his flesh consumed his skinne was parched his face withered his sight dimmed his knees enfeebled and the whole externall man greatly weakned the Spirit of a man sayes Salomon will sustaine his infirmitie but a wounded spirit who can beare it Of this let vs learne that if The miserable state of the wicked who must beare the burden of their owne sinnes the sight of sinne presented to the godly from a iust accusing conscience doe so terrifie them and breede them such excessiue trouble as for a time doth sorely torment them In what state shall the wicked be when the Lord shall present their sins to them wake their conscience vpon them not in mercie as he doth to his owne but in wrath not for a time but for euer O what anguish and remedilesse tribulation shall be vnto them the dayes of wicked mens sinning are compared to the time of a womans conceiuing but the daies of their punishment are compared to the time of her trauelling they conceiue their sinnes with wantonnesse and pleasure but shall beare them with dolor vnspeakeable their dolors shall exceede the dolor of a woman for shee knowes once to bee deliuered of her paine either by life or death but the wicked shall neuer bee lighter of their sinnes nor bee deliuered from the anguish of their accusing conscience from which most miserable condition the Lord deliuer vs for Christ Iesus sake VERSE 9. Hide thy face from my sinnes and put away all mine iniquities DAVID yet from Guiltinesse of sin soone contracted not so soone put away God the fourth time seekes the remission of his sinnes the gilt of sinne is soone contracted but not so soone gotten away wee are happie if the examples of other men may learne vs to be wise he was a man deerely beloued of God and yet how manie requests makes hee before he can get his heart assured of mercy but the presumption Foolish are they who thinke they may get mercy for a word of this age is so great that men feare not to offend the Lord because they thinke mercie may be gotten for a word But let men remember that fearful sentence which the L. pronounc't vpon the people of the Iewes for the abuse of his mercy When they fast I will not heare their crie And againe Thougb Moses and Samuel stood before me yet mine affection could not be toward this people that so our hearts may be humbled with holy feare which may restraine He that seekes not to hide his sinnes prouokes the Lord to inquire it vs from offending our God vpon presumption of mercy Hide thy face All Dauid his care when hee had committed his sin was to hide it from the Lord for this cause he committed murther and slew Vriah thinking if he were not aliue to perceiue it his iniquity should neuer come to light Now he sees it with a vaine labor Vriah is dead but the angry countenance of God looking vpon his sinne troubles him As the fish called Sepia casting forth a black liquor out of hir mouth of purpose to lurke vnder it doth therby giue notice to the fisher of the place wherin they shall finde hir so foolish man while he thinks to hide one sin by another doth but cast himself the more opē to the eye of God who then looks most narrowly to a sin when man most craftily labours to conceale it Euery sinner in sinning takes frō God the praise of righteousnes as if the Lord were like him were not a God that loues righteousnesse and hates iniquity But he that thinkes to hide Hee that seekes to hide his sin from the Lord makes an idole of him his sinne from the Lord when he hath done it takes also from him the praise of wisedome and makes the Lord so far as he may like an Idoll of the Nations that hath eyes and sees not And therefore the Lord as he will be auenged of euery one that offends so principally vpon them who scorne him by hiding their sinnes from him Woe be to them that seeke in deepe We to such to hide their Councell from the Lord their workes are in secret and they say who sees it At this time Dauids sin was vnknowen to the world no lyuing No man knew Dauids