Ahab Saul and Judas Yea they may go further to leave some Sins at least for a time as it is probable Herod did at St. John's Preaching and yet for all this they may not repent Evangelically so as to be grieved and throughly changed But this is it we say No Man in a state of Nature can see Sin and be troubled about it as David here was Vebridius * Aug. refert Epist 23. ad Bonificium non proculà fine exceedingly hated de quaestione magna responsionem brevem a short Answer to a weighty Question A little more therefore to clear this in hand see the difference of the sight of Sin that is in Natural Men and Unregenerate from that of true Converts viz. First David's sorrow proceeded from Love When he considered that God who had done so great things for him was dishonoured by him and displeased with him that his own Heart was made unfit for God's Service and that the common Enemies were occasioned to rejoyce and blaspheme then he burst out into this supplicatory Confession This was the Fountain whence his penitential Tears did flow But thus it is not with any meer graceless Person his sorrow for Sin is at the best from Fear not from Love Judas had an hellish sorrow a desperate grief for Sin David was Evangelical Against thee thee only have I sinned Lo there lay the pinch of his grief in that he had offended so good a God that had maintained him loved delivered crowned and redeemed him Oh against thee thee only Such matchless Love melting Bowels such precious Blood of such a Saviour He is pricked with the Thorns of Christ's Crown he bled over his bleeding Wounds with the truly sorrowful Soul even tares himself in pieces for taring Christ's Side open Secondly It was free like Water out of a Spring Fained forced Grief is nothing worth * Virtus nolentium nulla est it is like that of Judas which was fired out of him as sweet Water is out of Roses and squeezed out of him as Verjuice is out of Crabs But gracious Persons are Volunteers in their sorrow which we see practised by David after he had numbred the People 2 Sam. 24.10 His Heart smote him and David said to the Lord Take away the iniquity of thy Servant for I have done very foolishly And a shadow hereby we find in the example of Epaminondas the Theban General who the next day after Victory and Triumph went drooping and hanging down his Head and being asked why he did so Answered Yesterday I found my self too much elated with Vain glory therefore I correct my self to day But a better example we have of David whose Heart smote him as before He was not smitten by God's Hand or the Prophet's Reproof as afterwards yet his sanctified Conscience did its Office that of a faithful Monitor his Heart misgave him Bee-masters tell us those are the best Hives that make the greatest noise Sure it is that Heart is best that suffers a Man not to sleep in Sin As for Unregenerate Men it is not so with them Thirdly David saw Sin and was troubled about it as it was Sin ugly as Hell opposite to the holy and pure Nature of God a defacer of his Image and pleasing only to the Devil God's greatest Enemy But Natural Men see and grieve for Sin only as it is attended with pain of loss and sense Take away this Plague said Pharaoh the outward Scourge not take away this hard Heart the greatest Plague of all All trouble like Mercury's Influence is good only if joyned with a good but bad if joyned with a bad Planet The Object of sorrow must be observed and that will shew the nature of it Fourthly David saw Sin with more hatred indignation and abomination than ever It swell'd like a Toad in his Eyes he spat it out of his Mouth with utmost abhorrency resolving to watch for ever after more carefully all his ways I considered my ways that they were not good and turned my Feet unto thy Testimony I have now hid thy Word in my Heart that I may not sin against thee Turn away mine Eyes from beholding Vanity and set a watch before the door of my Lips Thus David saw it and these effects followed So then that sight of Sin which I account an infallible consequent of renewing Grace that none may be mistaken is and must be timely kindly fully and constantly Timely while the Day of Grace lasteth as Judas saw Sin when it was too late Kindly and willingly being led and kept in view thereof by an inward light and power of Grace fighting against Corruption and thereby keeping it still in Memory else Reprobates may and do often see their Sins here by force driven to it by Judgments casting out their Sins as Mariners do their Goods in a Storm wishing for them again in a Calm Fully it must be both for Intention and Extension for the nature of it it must be hearty and for the Object it must be universal Greater and lesser Sins open and secret Evils the sins of Youth and riper Age all must be bewailed where one is seen though all are not alike burdensome some wound and terrifie more than others according as there was more or less delight in commission Adultery and Murther did flash most in David's Face bringing along with them into his mind and sight even his Birth-sin St. Austin was much troubled for that he brake into an Orchard when he was a Boy and for that he had staied another time delightfully to behold two Cocks fighting and that but once So much he testifies in his Confessions And if so how will they be troubled another day who spend many Days the most of their Time in Hunting Cock-fighting Bull or Bear-baiting turning Recreation into Vocation How will they be disquieted with the sight of Sin who rob not only Orchards in their School-way but Houses not of Men but of God as our Appriators and Simonists do of whom the Prophet Malachy complains The trouble of others should raise some trouble in their Minds who are guilty in any kind Sin will have Trouble I have read of one who was a Steward to some Gentleman or a Factor to some Merchant that was much afflicted as for other Sins so for one dash with his Pen which was done to wrong another The redounding guilt of a small Act is heavy Sin receiveth weight from the purity and justice of God who forbids it indefinitely not only great Sins but all Sins For if he arm but one Sin against us which Men may deem little if not Venial that little one is enough to hunt and sink a Man as far as it is possible for a Creature to fall from God And as it must be fully so it must be constantly This sight of Sin which is nothing but Evangelical Sorrow for Sin following upon the Spiritual Combat and renewed light of Conscience is not bounded but by Death More
language of a melting Heart breathing out a compassionate Lamentation after Pardon desired obtained and sealed The cause of fear was past Nathan had declaratively removed it upon his acknowledgment The Lord hath put away thy Sin thou shalt not die God had put away his Sin from before him because he loved David but David could not forget his Sin because he loved the Lord. Love maketh God forget it and the Sinner to remember it David's love to God so freely forgiving such hainous Sins did increase daily and with this love his sorrow grew that he should so ill requite the Lord the thought of it carried him more and more into God's Presence whose Purity and Brightness meeting with the light of David s Conscience represented his Sin more clearly as ever before him When he considered what God had done for him and what he had now done against the Lord moving common Enemies to blaspheme he was even ashamed and confounded so Planet-struck he was that he could not durst not lift up his Face Tacita sudant praecordia culpâ Juven he is at the Meridian Zenith Vertical Point of Shame he could not mount higher The End why it was penn'd and published was partly in respect of himself to get further assurance of God's re-promised Favour in his own apprehension and partly with reference to others to leave a ground of encouragement for poor Souls that fall after Baptism against that Spirit-quenching Doctrine of the Novatians who leave no room for pardon of Sin after Baptism or Repentance to assure them it is possible they may be forgiven and received into Favour as also to leave a pattern of Penitency to all Posterity After grievous falls even into â—resumptuous Sins it is possible Men may â—e raised return'd and entertain'd but it â—ust be done thus after the pattern shewed â—s in this Mount such Sins will be ever beâ—ore them in Memory and Detestation and â—he burden will be intollerable so that they â—ill often cry out with David My Sins are â—er before me The meaning may be thus unfolded as â—f David had said and enlarged himself after â—his manner First I am mindful of my Fault as if it â—ere written upon every Wall God hath â—orgiven the Guilt that it should not redound â—o Condemnation but my Conscience cannot â—et go the Memory of that I have done in â—he Day-time I think of it and in the Night 〈◊〉 dream of it as my Book it is when I reade â—nd as an Image when I pray ever before â—e while I am alone it doth accompany me and when I am in Company the thought â—f it doth not forsake me Whither-soever 〈◊〉 go that woful Story is still presented with all the aggravating Circumstances Bathsheba defiled Vriah slain a harmless Sacrifice and both by David a Man called from the Sheepâ—ook to the Scepter raised to highest Digâ—ity out of deep Obscurity and honoured with such a Style as never any Man had Oh Ingratitude Shall not all Men in all Ages cry out upon David that he should so far forget God as to leave his own many of his own and to take his poor Neighbour's Lamb to dress for his Stranger Oh fearful These or the like are my thoughts by Day and no other are my conceits by Night in Company I am alone and while I am alone I have these Companions My Sins are ever before me Secondly I am wonderfully troubled about it For me-thinks mine Eyes and Ears have no other Object I see my Sins in that order as they were acted Idleness first but followed with Adultery first of the Eye next of the Mind and lastly of the Body Adultery is attended by Drunkenness-active he made Uriah drunk and that Drunkenness by Murther See the Bead-roll viz. Idleness Adultery Drunkenness and Murther and hearken to the cry of them one answering another but all are against David one was occasioned by another and the former still punished in the latter Many and fearful they are more hideous than Hell pursuing me like so many Furies into every place as of the whole Army accusing me of Negligence and Security of Bathsheba bewailing the stain of her own Body and her Husband's Bed of Vriah's Blood calling from the Ground for vengeance of all my Subjects brought in danger by their Prince's Folly yea of all the Birds in the Air whistling David's Crime on every Tree of Heaven and Earth groaning under the burden of such a Report That David a Man after God's own Heart so beloved and advanced should be thus fouly overtaken and lastly of Jesus Christ shewing his Wounds rub'd up afresh by these Abominations of mine What Ear â—an endure or Heart hold to see and hear his â—ins thus set in order before him Thirdly I am horribly afraid not so much â—f Damnation God hath graciously put away my Sin I know I shall not die as of the ugly face of Sin at first it was not apprehended by me I little thought of what I how feel but now it is presented to me in true Colours black as Hell bitter as Gall and more heavy than Mountains the pleasure was small and past but the bitterness â—s present and doth far exceed it was momentany that delighted me but lasting that â—exeth me I am ashamed of every passage that I knowing so much and professing the contrary should be so foolish and forgetful â—irst to perpetrate the Act then to cover it with Fig leaves as if any Person Thing or Act could be hid by any means from this bright Eye of the Word Well may God be hid from me but I can never be hid from God All things are naked and open to him Sin deceiveth most when it promiseth most and bringeth a Curse with its sweetest Morsels being like that Gold which ever brought destruction to the Owners of it Aurum Tholosanum Or like that Horse which had all perfections that could be named belonging to an Horse Of Cn. Cejus for stature feature colour strength limbs comliness but withal the Owner of him was sure to die an unhappy death This is the misery of Sin how pleasant profitable or advantagious soever it may seem to be unto Flesh and Blood it hath always Calamity in the end it ever expires in Trouble Fourthly I acknowledg all not confusedly as before through the light of Conscience but distinctly and feelingly by the Light of God's Word closing with the light of Conscience All this while I went about to please my self but now I find by woful experience that the things which I have done displease the Lord and therefore now I desire my Repentance may be answerable to my Sin i. e. multiplied and ever before me that others may hear and learn by my example how deceitful Sin is taking away from Men what it promiseth to bring viz. Pleasure and Contentment and for one pleasing sight or touch it presents it presents an ugly face for ever after O that Men were Wise
aforehand or would be warned by my Example thus tormented with the sight and thought of former Sins to consider what Sin will do either sooner or laer when it is once committed as it is implied in this short Sentence a part of David's Confession viz. My Sin is ever before me The sum whereof may be comprised and presented in these two Positions viz. First That Sin once committed will be often presented Secondly That whosoever is thus mindful of Sin and troubled about it to him it is a good sign of the Pardon of it First That Sin once committed will be often presented The Act is soon past but the Guilt remains more firm Before Repentance Forgetfulness may cover it but after nothing can hide it Although a Person should be willing yet Conscience will not suffer it to be out of sight It is so bitter to the taste so ugly to the sight and so heavy a burden to a tender awakened Conscience that it will not easily out of Memory again and for any thing is known to the contrary this was true of David to his dying Day though not always alike for Degrees If you do not well Sin lieth at the Door Gen. 4.7 The presence and conscience of Sin like a bawling Ban-Dog will be ever Barking at you when you go out and when you go in it is ready to fill your Ears with terrifying Clamours If you sin against the Lord be sure your Sin will find you out Numb 32.23 both by way of Manifestation and Vindication as it did our first Parents Righteous Job Zealous Paul 1 Tim. 1.13 I was a Persecutor a Blasphemer Injurious these were always before him after his Eyes were once opened and Religous Austin as his Confessions do abundantly testifie All these cried out as David did My Sins are ever before me This Man complains of one Sin and that of another according to the nature of the Sin and measure of delight taken in Commission Much delight argueth much consent of the Will and great Sins do trouble greatly they appear as it were in Battel Array and compass a Man about till they make him cry out Wretched Man that I am I was conceived in Sin enough to have sunk me to the lowest Hell and yet I have not ceased daily to add unto it by a wilful omission of Duties and a greedie commission of foul Enormities I have been Ignorant and Idle I have been addicted to Drunkenness Uncleanness Murther and Lying to Pride Covetousness and Swearing to Sacrilege Bribery with an infinite more besides those inward Sins of a more Spiritual Nature as Infidelity Idolatry Impenitency Hypocrifie Vain-Glory Covetousness c. Once they appeared but Toys and tricks of Youth but now the least of them seems heavier than Weight it self Thus Conscience awakened and set on work by Justice brings in many Bills of Account some of long standing others lately entred happy is he that can over-look them without Horror and Delight It is a great work of the Spirit and doth argue a mighty work of Grace to stand before the sight of Sin without horror for â—t or delight in it as it was with David here otherwise it will fall out that upon every presentation of Sin we should either turn again to act it a-new at least in Speculation or sink under it For commonly if it appear not delightful it appeareth very fearful For the further opening and illustrating of this Point it may not be unprofitable to enquire after the Time when the Grounds whereupon and the Ends why Sin once committed should be so often presented to the â—rue Penitent First The Time when is either in our Life and Health or at the hour of Death â—ometimes and to some Persons it is preâ—ented in both To all those living under â—he Means and Covenant of Grace commonly the Lord causeth it to be presented in their Life and Health at one time or other by one means or other either by the Ministry of the Word so the Law presents it and makes Men mourn out of fear the Gospel presents it and causeth more kindly Grief out of Love or else by the Tongues of Men our Neighbours and they our Christian Friends who do it privately in Love not carrying their Teeth in their Tongues nor bite whilst they speak not leaving a Scaâ— upon their Persons when they are endeavouring to heal a Wound in their Brethrens Actions And such reprehension should be ever well taken yea the Gracious will say Let the Righteous smite me Or by our Enemies in anger As Augustin reports of his Mother Monica that her Sin was set before her * A young Maid formerly her Partner in Potting fell at Variance with her and as Malice when she shoots draws her Arrows to the head called her Tosspot and Drunkard whereupon Monica reformed her Life and became Temperate Thus bitter Taunts sometimes make wholesom Physick when God sanctifies unto us the malice of our Enemies to perform the office of good Will So Fuller in his Holy State in the Life of Monica by a Servant Maid and as Shimei dealt with David Thus a Man may gain by an Enemy as Poison unto some Creatures affords Nourishment As Telephus his Imposthume was open'd by the Dart of an Enemy which was intended for his hurt And as they say those Roses are sweetest which grow near unto Garlick so the nearness of an Enemy makes a good Man better For both Friends and Enemies the Lord makes use of to set our Sins in order before us According to the saying of an Heathen though no Heathenish saying That he who would be good must either have a faithful Friend to instruct him or a watchful Enemy to correct him Exclude not the good use of many excellent Discourses sent abroad for this end By reading what another speaks a Man may by reflexion observe and learn what himself hath been and what he is for the present So for the time of Life And then for the hour of Death â—ain and fear do stir up Conscience to call back and present Sin to the Sinner's Eye God withdraws the Vail and gives the Sinner penitent once more a full view of his own Fruits that they may be as much loathed as ever they were loved nay he perâ—itteth Satan sometimes to come after and â—hew his black Claws to joyn with Sin and â—o second these accusing Cries whereby the â—anguishing Spirits of a poor Penitent who may not live and yet dares not die â—re much moved and affrighted to the astonishment of unexperienced beholders This â—s a heavy Conflict for such as have endured â—he heat of the Day in the close when they â—hought all Enemies had been overcome and subdued to meet with such an Assault and yet it may be so order'd in great Love and Mercy Either because they had not seen it â—right before or that now they might take their farewel of it never to see it more And so truly gracious Souls have
it hasteneth when you shall see them all presented at once and shall no way avoid that sight when you will think you see nothing but Fire that you hear nothing but a sudden noise passing the greatest clap of horrid Thunder and shall choose Death rather if it were possible to annihilation than Life with such an object before you As it fell out to that usurping Richard after the horrible Murther committed upon his innocent Nephews he could rest no where he could be no where free a tumultuous army of Thoughts struck an Alarm to his Repose at Bed and Board Day and Night alone and in company he thought he saw and heard them when as in truth it was his Sin that was ever legally before him and his own guilty Conscience that did pursue him And to that Judg Morgan who gave Sentence upon that vertuous and innocent Lady Jane in so much that he grew Mad shortly after and still cried out Take away the Lady Jane from me and in that Horror ended his Days and wretched Life As Mr. Speed relates in the Life of Q. Mary and Mr. Clark in his Life of the Lady Jane And so it will be with you here or hereafter Tell me then is it not better to see them apart now when you may repent and be freed than to put them off unto another Day when you must see them altogether and sink under them without any hope of recovery O consider this all ye that forget God lest he tear you iâ— pieces and there be none to deliver Thirdly The use of this Point may be to instruct the Person in matter of Duty and so like a well drawn Picture looks upon all that look upon it If this be so that Sin once committed will be often presented it prompts all 1. To think thus of Sin When you are tempted remember this Text set before you here or else you will think of it after to your pain It is momentany and frothy that delighteth you in Sin but it is eternal that will vex and torment you To repent is to take a bitter though wholesome Potion and Impenitency is followed with Damnation Say you purpose and do repent yet your Sin will ever be before you either to grieve and terrifie you as it did David or to allure you to the same again as it did Augustin often Especially the sins of Blood corporal Vncleanness Apostacy after knowledg and profession of the Truth These sink Men either under sensless Sottishness or unsupportable Horror Witness Cain for the first David for the second and Francis Spira for the third because they are not only Sins but Scandals David thought he might have cover'd one Sin with another Adultery with Murther but hereby they were both augmented and seen further Not only he himself but all Posterity must know it David did that which was right in the Eyes of the Lord save only in the matter of Uriah That stuck in Memory and shall in History Not because he had never committed other Sins but because none of the rest were so scandalous none so accented none so burdensome to the Conscience as these being against so much Light of Nature of Scripture and of Humane Laws few Repenting none without difficulty and many falling into presumption or despair by them Under the guilt of any of these for the most part Men feel either too much or too little either they keep themselves out of sight always when the Conscience is seared the Heart hardened and Men are past feeling or else they are still present and staring in the face of Conscience as it were with the eyes of many Devils Think of this aforehand and beware 1. Of Apostacy in whole or in part because it is better never to know the way of Righteousness than to sin against Knowledg 2. Of Murther because Men are made after God's Image and such Blood crieth from the Earth till it have hearing So many drops of Blood so many Tongues and every drop a Voice to cry for Vengeance Give them Blood to drink for they are worthy Rev. 16.6 And it is threatned He that sheddeth Man's Blood by Man his Blood shall be shed Gen. 9.6 3. Of Adultery because it brings with it much guilt and great stain upon the Soul Hoc grande flagitium est saith Job 31.11 This is an hainous Crime a Wickedness with a witness a Fire that consumeth to destruction God will judg it who ever be slack to punish it Hear what the Scripture saith of this Sin the hainousness and danger thereof as a motive to avoid it Prov. 22.14 A Whore is a deep Ditch and he that is abhorred of the Lord shall fall therein David moiled himself in this deep Pit and there might have stuck in the Mire had not God drawn him out by a merciful Violence and purged him with Hysop from that abhorred filth Prov. 6.32 33. Who so committeth Adultery with a Woman lacketh understanding he that doth it destroyeth his own Soul A Wound and Dishonour shall he get and his Reproach shall not be wiped away It is not therefore leve peccatum a small Sin as the Pope's Canonists call it Divine Justice doth not use to kill Flies with Beetles Briefly it is a Sin that hurts both Body and Soul it hurts Men in Goods in Name Posterity and will be ever before them to make them mourn and say How have we hated Instruction and our Hearts despised Reproof And have not obeyed the Voice of our Teachers O what length and depth of Comfort doth a Man lose for a little Folly not worth the name of Pleasure because it is brutish and brings many and heavy burdens indeed a stain upon the Soul rottenness into the Bones and a blemish indelible on the Name Who would purchase that at so dear a rate which he may have for nothing Or use Violence where he may have leave and a blessing too Run the way of Hell for that Pleasure which they may enjoy more fully in the right Path and Way of Heaven This Men consider not Had David thought of the end he would never have adventured on the beginning had he thought of ever seeing Sin he would have wished he had never seen Bathsheba or that his Eyes had gone alone and left his Heart at home then they could never have brought their Lord into such a straight Remember David and all his troubles His sweet never countervailed his bitter Sawce Bathsheba was a pleasing Object for a time but Sin is fearful and grievous for ever Lust wrestleth till it bring forth Sin but Sin groweth and laboureth till it bring forth Death And although the Combat be healed and the Wound healed yet some Scars remain A great deal of preventing Sorrow and wholsome Suffering must be undergone reade it in David The Child that was born unto him must die Thamar was defiled Ammon murdred and he himself turned out of House and Kingdom by his own Son It is a bitter
or less it continueth during Life and rather increaseth than decayeth as Love doth It is not sufficient to see Sin once a Year and yet it would be better for some then it is did they go so far as our Adversaries require Confession nor once in our Life only at Death to cast an eye upon it and bid it adieu with an O Lord Lord be merciful and open unto me which good words and seasonable too are not blamed but the delaying of so main a Duty till then Heaven is not to be had usually at so cheap a rate Satan ordinarily is not so soon vanquished nor Sin so easily put off Whosoever thinks it so easie a matter to repent and believe as that he hath seen and sorrowed enough for Sin now he may desist from both did never see nor sorrow for it at all What David here said of himself is true of every renewed Heart more or less during Life My Sin is ever before me Vse 1. The use hereof may be 1. To discover to you a two-fold Error to be carefully avoided because common and dangerous First Of the Romanists who in their Doctrine and Practice do place Sin rather before the Ear of the Confessor than before the Eye of the Committer That the one must hear it is absolutely necessary without which there is no Salvation that the other should see it is not so at least not so much prest by them Auricular Confession is more insisted on than inward Contrition And Penance is too far sever'd by them from Repentance We hear much and often of the one but of the other there is too deep a silence Confession and Satisfaction are strictly lookt unto by such as profess their Religion in earnest to give them their due that nothing may be blamed in them but what is blame-worthy But Contrition and Sanctification this personal sight of Sin and Evangelical sorrow for it are not so much urged neither in their Writings nor Practice for ought I can learn However I dislike not Confession it is a Duty very comfortable and useful the abuse set aside I could wish it more frequent among us but never used in publick or private without Contrition Let the Heart accompany the Tongue else it is the most unsavoury piece of Formality that can be Secondly Of our common People who deem the worst of such as are thus troubled condemning rash judgment in others do yet pass the bounds of Charity towards them As if poor Souls they only were curst of God and hated of others because they are thus pursued by Sin and baited by Satan especially if it be on their Sick-bed Strange it is to hear them cry out upon profession of Religion as if Religion were the worse for it because her followers are thus affrighted for their good They will not profess Religion no not they nor be tied to frequent the Church to perform Duties in private because such and such are distracted by it Sure they are out of their Wits this Book-learning hath made them Mad else they would never complain and cry out so that their Sins are ever before them Why say they are not we all Sinners as well as they and yet our Sins never trouble us More is the pity and greater is their Misery Poor Souls you cannot distinguish between trouble for Sin and senslessness under Sin between the desperate pangs of Despair and the genuine thâ—ows of a troubled Mind Miâ—ht you not as truly have said the same of David St. Paul and all the rest of God's Saints in every Age who have passed through this Wilderness to Canaan But in so doing know you dishonour God lay a blemish on his Work and often condemn the Generation of the Righteous This trouble of Mind being one of the most infallible marks of true Penitency the Road-way to Heaven for adult Persons and one of the best signs of this Nature that any one can see in himself or desire in his Friend Let my Sins good Lord be always before me as David 's were Let all thine be so disquieted here that so all our Sins may never come in sight at that Day but be buried in everlasting forgetfulness True it is some Men may superstitiously endeavour to make the Way to Heave narrower than indeed it is but far more there are who voluptuously endeavour to enlarge it and make it more broad and easie than God hath made it without any such sight of Sin or trouble about it crying out To what end serveth this waste What needeth all this ado Cannot Men be saved without this sight of Sin and sorrow for it Whether they can or no I will not stand to determine sure I am ordinarily they will not Till they be brought into the Wilderness they are intractable indocible therefore the Lord troubleth them that they may be willing to be saved To all such as think otherwise I should commend these following passages of holy Scripture to be considered in their most retired Thoughts Numb 32.23 Gen. 4.7 Psal 50.21 22. Mat. 7.13 14. Phil. 3.11 1 Pet. 4.18 The Righteous shall scarcely be saved ad praesentis Vitae difficultates debet referri c. saith a judicious Interpreter on that place Our Race or Warfare here in this World is like a Voyage by Sea beset and encountred with many Difficulties Rocks Tempests Pirats open Enemies and false Brethren Ardua prima via est which made St. Paul say If by any means I may attain unto the Resurrection of the Dead A phrase importing difficulty without doubtting he was perswaded he should attain it but not without the use of such means and after much strugling What else is meant by the Wrestling of Jacob the Praying and Fasting of David the Running of Paul the Scruples and Cases of Conscience proposed by the Saints of God frequently and in great variety when once they begin to benefit by the Word Men and Brethren what shall we do Sirs What must I do to be saved And the like Complaints are very frequent where the Word hath awakened them The Pains and bitter Sufferings of all our renowned Martyrs both of the Primitive Times and in the late Marian-Days do preach unto us the Straight-way The difficulty of obtaining and keeping a grounded persuasion of God's Favour in the free pardon of all our Sins through the Satisfaction and Intercession of Christ The Church Militant is a Lilly among Thorns having Enemies ever about her and her Sins always before her Non est ad astra mollis è terris via We may not expect to be carried to Heaven on Beds of Down but through many Tribulations not to go to Paradise through Paradise a Way â—â—rowed with Roses The Kingdom of Heaven suffereth Violence few arrive in this Harbour without danger and difficulty It is not so easie a thing to work out Salvation as most deem and yet through Christ it is easie to all them that receive him Thirdly Hereunto may be added another