Selected quad for the lemma: conscience_n
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A60847
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Some remarkable passages in the holy life and death of Gervase Disney, Esq. to which are added several letters and poems.
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Disney, Gervase, 1641-1691.
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Wing S4594; ESTC R33846
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flame_n mr._n flavel_n himself_o die_v a_o martyr_n for_o christ_n the_o year_n before_o viz._n 1665_o remarkable_a in_o that_o dreadful_a mortality_n by_o the_o plague_n good_a man_n he_o dare_v not_o fly_v from_o it_o when_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n in_o that_o plague_n seem_v to_o be_v go_v out_o against_o the_o city_n he_o be_v willing_a be_v a_o minister_n to_o hazard_v his_o own_o body_n for_o the_o advantage_n of_o other_o soul_n and_o so_o true_o he_o do_v for_o be_v take_v at_o a_o religious_a meeting_n he_o be_v carry_v before_o some_o magistrate_n who_o after_o some_o debate_n with_o he_o plain_o tell_v he_o they_o will_v set_v before_o he_o life_n and_o death_n and_o leave_v he_o to_o make_v his_o choice_n they_o tell_v he_o he_o must_v either_o promise_n never_o to_o preach_v at_o a_o conventicle_n more_o or_o they_o must_v commit_v he_o to_o a_o prison_n at_o that_o time_n sore_o infect_v with_o the_o sickness_n he_o be_v too_o great_a a_o champion_n for_o christ_n and_o a_o more_o faithful_a servant_n to_o his_o lord_n and_o master_n than_o to_o stand_v long_o to_o consider_v a_o answer_n but_o ready_o tell_v they_o as_o to_o their_o former_a proposal_n he_o do_v abhor_v the_o thought_n of_o a_o compliance_n by_o desert_v his_o saviour_n service_n and_o as_o to_o their_o latter_a threaten_v he_o be_v free_o willing_a to_o comply_v with_o the_o will_n and_o pleasure_n of_o god_n and_o can_v hearty_o say_v his_o will_v be_v do_v so_o that_o he_o be_v o_o height_n of_o wickedness_n and_o cruelty_n commit_v to_o prison_n there_o present_o take_v the_o infection_n and_o in_o a_o few_o day_n transplant_v from_o earth_n to_o heaven_n after_o i_o be_v acquaint_v with_o this_o worthy_a divine_a and_o have_v taste_v and_o receive_v some_o benefit_n by_o his_o ministry_n being_n introduce_v at_o first_o by_o john_n southam_n a_o journy-man_n drugster_n in_o london_n a_o very_a serious_a young_a man_n and_o one_o i_o must_v bless_v god_n for_o i_o become_v a_o constant_a attendor_n upon_o he_o wherever_o he_o preach_v either_o in_o city_n or_o suburb_n he_o sure_o be_v as_o powerful_a plain_a and_o practical_a a_o preacher_n as_o i_o ever_o do_v or_o reasonable_o can_v expect_v ever_o to_o hear_v he_o have_v one_o practice_n though_o exceed_v useful_a i_o think_v peculiar_a to_o himself_o which_o be_v this_o he_o will_v at_o his_o first_o entrance_n upon_o sabbath-day-publick-exercise_n endeavour_v to_o raise_v his_o people_n affection_n and_o to_o engage_v they_o to_o seriousness_n by_o a_o most_o awaken_n exhortation_n press_v they_o to_o consider_v with_o who_o they_o have_v to_o do_v the_o great_a and_o eternal_a god_n that_o search_v heart_n what_o they_o come_v about_o no_o less_o than_o soul_n concern_v and_o that_o for_o aught_o they_o know_v their_o eternal_a welfare_n may_v depend_v upon_o their_o improve_n that_o opportunity_n which_o prayer_n may_v prove_v their_o last_o prayer_n and_o that_o sermon_n the_o last_o sermon_n that_o ever_o they_o shall_v hear_v it_o be_v about_o the_o 25_o year_n of_o my_o age_n when_o the_o lord_n be_v please_v again_o to_o check_v and_o stop_v i_o in_o my_o career_n of_o sin_n to_o awaken_v my_o drowsy_a conscience_n to_o give_v i_o a_o sense_n of_o sin_n be_v damn_v and_o defile_v nature_n and_o of_o the_o necessity_n of_o a_o save_a change_n which_o shall_v be_v accompany_v with_o a_o strict_a serious_a and_o holy_a conversation_n if_o i_o will_v not_o eternal_o miscarry_v here_o i_o make_v a_o stand_n and_o begin_v to_o consider_v what_o i_o have_v do_v and_o what_o i_o must_v do_v now_o begin_v i_o to_o be_v sensible_a that_o i_o can_v never_o enough_o bewail_v the_o sin_n of_o my_o youth_n never_o enough_o live_v to_o the_o honour_n and_o glory_n of_o that_o god_n who_o have_v give_v i_o to_o outlive_v those_o day_n of_o vanity_n who_o have_v bestow_v upon_o i_o not_o only_a space_n for_o repentance_n but_o the_o grace_n of_o repentance_n too_o as_o i_o trust_v he_o do_v about_o that_o time_n now_o it_o be_v that_o the_o remembrance_n of_o my_o sin_n be_v more_o grievous_a to_o my_o soul_n than_o the_o forsake_v of_o they_o the_o sin_n i_o once_o love_v i_o now_o loathe_v and_o will_v if_o that_o have_v be_v possible_a have_v give_v ten_o thousand_o world_n i_o have_v never_o commit_v they_o now_o it_o be_v i_o by_o experience_n feel_v what_o before_o i_o will_v not_o believe_v that_o the_o best_a of_o sin_n sweet_n be_v real_o most_o intolerable_o bitter_a i_o now_o experience_v the_o truth_n of_o that_o passage_n i_o meet_v with_o in_o a_o reverend_a author_n mr._n hardcastle_n say_v he_o let_v every_o person_n that_o lie_v under_o a_o temptation_n to_o commit_v sin_n serious_o consider_v thus_o if_o i_o commit_v this_o sin_n i_o must_v either_o repent_v of_o it_o or_o i_o must_v not_o if_o i_o do_v not_o repent_v it_o damn_v i_o and_o if_o i_o do_v repent_v aright_o i_o shall_v find_v it_o cost_v i_o more_o pain_n and_o trouble_v and_o sorrow_n than_o the_o sin_n be_v worth_a that_o i_o do_v commit_v and_o this_o i_o have_v often_o think_v upon_o since_o upon_o any_o temptation_n conscience_n now_o fly_v in_o my_o face_n and_o be_v more_o than_o a_o thousand_o witness_n against_o i_o now_o i_o do_v by_o sad_a experience_n feel_v the_o truth_n and_o terror_n of_o that_o single_a text_n a_o wound_a conscience_n who_o can_v bear_v and_o this_o through_o grace_n i_o can_v say_v that_o when_o i_o do_v not_o sinful_o stop_v its_o mouth_n it_o be_v a_o faithful_a monitor_n to_o i_o that_o scripture_n terrify_v i_o great_o the_o soul_n that_o sin_n shall_v die_v and_o here_o be_v my_o argument_n upon_o it_o the_o law_n say_v the_o soul_n that_o sin_n must_v die_v my_o conscience_n tell_v i_o but_o thou_o o_o soul_n have_v sin_v and_o what_o be_v the_o conclusion_n why_o very_o dreadful_a thou_o must_v die_v i_o set_v about_o the_o work_n of_o repentance_n but_o must_v confess_v till_o the_o lord_n do_v save_o by_o his_o word_n and_o spirit_n shine_v in_o upon_o my_o soul_n i_o think_v that_o bare_a repentance_n be_v enough_o without_o consider_v that_o true_a and_o save_a repentance_n consist_v in_o forsake_v as_o well_o as_o in_o confess_v sin_n but_o here_o the_o lord_n set_v home_o upon_o my_o heart_n such_o consideration_n as_o these_o that_o his_o holy_a and_o righteous_a law_n be_v break_v and_o satisfaction_n must_v be_v make_v that_o he_o himself_o be_v just_a and_o his_o justice_n must_v be_v satisfy_v and_o that_o all_o my_o prayer_n and_o tear_n and_o duty_n and_o repentance_n though_o i_o shall_v use_v they_o as_o mean_n be_v yet_o no_o good_a foundation_n to_o build_v my_o hope_n of_o heaven_n upon_o that_o though_o i_o can_v shed_v a_o thousand_o tear_n and_o those_o of_o blood_n for_o one_o vain_a thought_n they_o will_v be_v no_o better_o than_o puddle_n water_n to_o justify_v and_o save_v i_o now_o do_v those_o scripture_n stâ—ir_v i_o in_o the_o face_n 1_o cor._n 6._o 9_o know_v you_o not_o that_o the_o unrighteous_a shall_v not_o inherit_v the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n be_v not_o deoeive_v neither_o fornicator_n nor_o idolater_n nor_o adulterer_n nor_o effeminate_a nor_o abuser_n of_o themselves_o with_o mankind_n nor_o drunkard_n nor_o reviler_n nor_o extortioner_n shall_v inherit_v the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n and_o that_o of_o gal._n 5._o 19_o now_o the_o work_n of_o the_o flesh_n be_v manifest_a which_o be_v these_o adultery_n fornication_n uncleanness_n lasciviousness_n idolatry_n witchcraft_n hatred_n variance_n emulation_n wrath_n strife_n sedition_n heresy_n envy_n murder_n drunkenness_n revel_v and_o such_o like_a they_o that_o do_v such_o thing_n shall_v not_o inherit_v the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n and_o though_o i_o bless_v god_n the_o most_o of_o these_o sin_n that_o do_v entitle_v to_o eternal_a wrath_n and_o vengeance_n i_o can_v not_o charge_v myself_o as_o guilty_a of_o yet_o some_o i_o can_v and_o the_o least_o of_o they_o in_o their_o own_o nature_n i_o find_v be_v damn_v and_o will_v serve_v to_o exclude_v i_o out_o of_o the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n now_o through_o grace_n be_v i_o ready_a to_o cry_v out_o o_o what_o must_v i_o do_v to_o be_v save_v and_o a_o little_a serious_o to_o inquire_v into_o my_o spiritual_a state_n and_o after_o jesus_n christ_n and_o the_o way_n of_o salvation_n by_o he_o now_o i_o begin_v to_o think_v of_o the_o corruption_n of_o my_o nature_n and_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o that_o all_o the_o impure_a stream_n of_o my_o life_n have_v proceed_v from_o that_o most_o corrupt_a fountain_n mar._n 15._o 19_o and_o that_o it_o be_v not_o enough_o to_o bewail_v the_o outward_a act_n of_o sin_n but_o the_o inward_a principle_n of_o corruption_n lead_v to_o it_o now_o i_o
day_n of_o judgement_n upon_o mr._n dunton_n paraphrase_n of_o mat._n 25.41_o 215_o sentence_n more_o particular_a on_o the_o ignorant_a slothful_a on_o worship-neglecters_a sabbath-breaker_n swearer_n scoffer_n persecutor_n licentious_a glutton_n drunkard_n adultevers_n covetous_a vnmerciful_a unrighteous_a liar_n slanderer_n ambitious_a envious_a wrathful_a moralist_n hypocrite_n apostate_n backslider_n impenitent_a unbeliever_n etc._n etc._n 222_o 223_o etc._n etc._n meditation_n in_o verse_n on_o john_n 6._o 36._o by_o way_n of_o objection_n and_o answer_n 238_o etc._n etc._n the_o die_a soul_n last_o farewell_n to_o the_o world_n 248_o the_o welcome_n to_o heaven_n 249_o a_o hymn_n on_o isa_n 8._o 17._o 250_o a_o meditation_n on_o mat._n 11._o 28_o 29_o 30._o 251_o a_o poetical_a remembrance_n of_o mr._n john_n oak_n 252_o a_o hymn_n on_o mr._n slater_n subject_n eph._n 2._o 5._o 256_o a_o alphabet_n in_o verse_n 260_o a_o hymn_n on_o mr._n perriot_n text_n john_n 14._o 27._o 262_o a_o hymn_n on_o mr._n s_n text_n col._n 3._o 1._o 263_o another_o hymn_n on_o the_o same_o text_n and_o on_o 1_o cor._n 15._o 20_o 21_o 22._o 264_o meditation_n on_o mr._n s_n text_n joh._n 2._o 6._o and_o doctrine_n 265_o etc._n etc._n meditation_n on_o mr._n g_n text_n 1_o john_n 4._o 7._o 269_o meditation_n on_o several_a text_n and_o doctrine_n from_o pag._n 270_o to_o 279_o verse_n on_o the_o french_a king_n persecution_n 280_o a_o acrostic_n and_o anagram_n on_o mr._n g._n d._n 291_o a_o elegy_n on_o mr._n g._n d._n by_o his_o nophew_n j._n d._n 293_o some_o passage_n most_o remarkable_a in_o the_o whole_a course_n of_o my_o life_n collect_v take_v and_o methodise_v by_o my_o own_o hand_n out_o of_o my_o diary_n for_o the_o most_o part_n though_o i_o have_v not_o omit_v other_o thing_n as_o they_o have_v occur_v to_o memory_n in_o which_o i_o have_v discover_v my_o dark_a side_n in_o the_o day_n of_o my_o unregeneracy_n as_o also_o my_o bright_a side_n after_o it_o please_v the_o lord_n to_o touch_v my_o heart_n with_o a_o sense_n of_o sin_n to_o awaken_v my_o conscience_n to_o show_v i_o my_o undo_v and_o lose_v condition_n by_o nature_n and_o my_o need_n of_o a_o saviour_n by_o g._n disney_n in_o the_o month_n of_o october_n 1690._o the_o epistle_n dedicate_a this_o little_a book_n as_o my_o last_o legacy_n to_o my_o dear_a wife_n m._n disney_n my_o honour_a mother_n brother_n sister_n with_o other_o my_o dear_a relation_n and_o friend_n who_o may_v have_v the_o perusal_n of_o god_n dispensation_n towards_o i_o both_o in_o young_a and_o riper_n year_n from_o my_o own_o pen_n who_o though_o dead_a yet_o thus_o speak_v my_o dear_a wife_n etc._n etc._n since_o the_o lord_n in_o his_o providence_n have_v be_v please_v to_o remove_v i_o from_o you_o by_o death_n and_o â—all_n i_o hâ—me_o so_o that_o i_o can_v no_o further_o nor_o other_o way_n be_v serviceable_a to_o you_o i_o i_o must_v beg_v your_o acceptance_n and_o perusal_n of_o this_o the_o last_o legacy_n of_o your_o decease_a friend_n who_o though_o dead_a you_o find_v speak_v you_o may_v now_o take_v a_o review_n of_o i_o if_o so_o vile_a a_o thing_n as_o i_o be_v can_v be_v worth_a your_o pain_n i_o have_v in_o the_o follow_a paper_n give_v you_o some_o passage_n of_o my_o diary_n methodise_v in_o which_o i_o have_v endeavour_v as_o impartial_o as_o i_o can_v if_o my_o heart_n deceive_v i_o not_o to_o give_v you_o the_o view_n of_o my_o dark_a side_n as_o well_o as_o my_o bright_a and_o both_o for_o these_o reason_n by_o the_o former_a you_o may_v take_v a_o view_n of_o the_o miserable_a corruption_n of_o my_o most_o wretched_a nature_n you_o have_v there_o the_o very_a picture_n and_o character_n of_o one_o post_v to_o hell_n the_o wiles_n and_o subtlety_n of_o a_o active_a busy_a devil_n the_o snare_n and_o bait_n of_o a_o bewitch_a world_n and_o the_o mischievous_a consequence_n of_o bad_a company_n by_o the_o latter_a you_o may_v behold_v the_o wonderful_a rich_a and_o free_a grace_n of_o god_n in_o christ_n to_o i_o to_o i_o i_o say_v one_o of_o the_o vile_a and_o great_a of_o sinner_n to_o i_o that_o have_v harden_v my_o heart_n after_o many_o and_o many_o a_o reproof_n and_o may_v upon_o that_o account_n have_v expect_v sudden_a destruction_n and_o that_o without_o remedy_n to_o i_o that_o have_v not_o only_o sin_v myself_o but_o have_v draw_v other_o into_o sin_n too_o here_o stand_v and_o wonder_n at_o free_a grace_n in_o snatch_v such_o a_o brand_n out_o of_o the_o fire_n and_o in_o bring_v i_o from_o under_o satan_n slavery_n and_o dominion_n into_o his_o own_o marvellous_a kingdom_n o_o that_o the_o lord_n may_v have_v the_o glory_n of_o the_o mercy_n he_o have_v so_o eminent_o give_v i_o the_o comfort_n of_o come_v then_o my_o dear_a friend_n away_o christ_n to_o christ_n and_o if_o you_o have_v do_v this_o as_o i_o hope_v you_o have_v why_o then_o stay_v with_o he_o abide_v here_o and_o mend_v your_o pace_n heavenward_n you_o can_v never_o i_o be_o sure_a either_o mend_v your_o master_n your_o work_n or_o your_o wage_n have_v you_o set_v your_o face_n heavenward_n o_o never_o think_v of_o look_v back_o be_v you_o not_o far_o from_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n o_o yet_o go_v further_o for_o it_o will_v be_v dreadful_o sad_a to_o perish_v at_o the_o very_a gate_n of_o glory_n you_o have_v it_o may_v be_v escape_v many_o of_o the_o pollution_n of_o the_o world_n and_o 〈◊〉_d and_o suffer_v too_o something_o for_o dear_a christ_n well!_o have_v a_o care_n of_o loâ—ing_v all_o and_o fall_v short_a of_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n for_o want_v of_o a_o 〈◊〉_d work_n and_o of_o hold_v out_o to_o the_o end_n you_o have_v the_o lamp_n of_o profession_n but_o have_v you_o the_o oil_n of_o grace_n you_o can_v â—ry_v lord_n lord_n but_o do_v you_o do_v the_o will_n of_o your_o heavenly_a father_n dear_a friend_n persevere_v have_v a_o care_n of_o apostary_n lukeâ—â—â—_n 〈◊〉_d or_o a_o 〈◊〉_d form_n of_o godliness_n hold_v so_o the_o end_n whatever_o you_o may_v suffer_v 〈◊〉_d â—ose_n for_o your_o so_o do_v and_o be_v confident_a heaven_n will_v 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d amends_o for_o all_o and_o if_o this_o 〈◊〉_d book_n shall_v 〈◊〉_d friend_n 〈◊〉_d by_o any_o 〈◊〉_d relation_n such_o who_o be_v yet_o in_o the_o â—all_n of_o 〈◊〉_d and_o in_o the_o bond_n of_o iniquity_n i_o must_v earnest_o persuade_v such_o 〈◊〉_d come_v to_o christ_n poor_a 〈◊〉_d sinner_n away_o to_o christ_n come_v you_o must_v at_o last_o be_v good_a nay_o you_o shall_v be_v good_a if_o any_o thing_n i_o can_v do_v 〈◊〉_d say_v may_v prevail_v i_o may_v not_o do_v so_o 〈◊〉_d to_o your_o immortal_a soul_n 〈◊〉_d to_o suffer_v you_o if_o i_o 〈◊〉_d help_v iâ—_n to_o persist_v and_o perish_v in_o a_o way_n of_o wickedness_n in_o a_o way_n you_o as_o well_o as_o i_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d â—o_o hell_n and_o destruction_n it_o be_v not_o i_o believe_v too_o late_o yet_o for_o you_o to_o accept_v of_o christ_n free_o 〈◊〉_d full_o offerin_o the_o gospel_n to_o the_o great_a of_o sinner_n do_v but_o sincâ—â—â—â—â—_n 〈◊〉_d of_o siâ—â—_n abandon_v your_o wicked_a counsel_n and_o companion_n give_v up_o yourselves_o to_o a_o 〈◊〉_d stricâ—_n and_o serious_a life_n and_o by_o faith_n lie_v hold_v of_o christ_n as_o offer_v and_o hearty_o implore_v aid_n and_o assistance_n to_o this_o purpose_n and_o your_o work_n be_v do_v come_v poor_a soul_n in_o time_n for_o sake_n your_o sin_n and_o embrace_v the_o way_n of_o holiness_n that_o christ_n may_v be_v you_o i_o have_v try_v both_o way_n myself_o and_o can_v from_o my_o own_o experience_n assure_v you_o that_o the_o way_n of_o god_n be_v abundant_o the_o best_a way_n and_o heaven_n wage_n the_o best_a wage_n i_o have_v find_v more_o real_a pleasure_n and_o substantial_a delight_n in_o the_o peace_n of_o a_o good_a conscience_n in_o wellgrounded_n hope_n that_o my_o sin_n be_v pardon_v in_o serve_v god_n and_o in_o expectation_n of_o eternal_a life_n through_o christ_n than_o i_o ever_o do_v or_o can_v take_v in_o the_o folly_n and_o vanity_n of_o a_o ill-spent_a youth_n i_o confess_v i_o be_v once_o of_o your_o mind_n but_o can_v now_o assure_v you_o that_o i_o repent_v nothing_o more_o god_n have_v convince_v i_o of_o my_o folly_n and_o i_o hearty_o invite_v you_o to_o taste_v and_o try_v with_o i_o how_o good_a god_n be_v to_o repent_v retarn_v sinner_n and_o if_o what_o i_o have_v here_o through_o the_o assistance_n of_o divine_a grace_n offer_v may_v be_v to_o god_n honour_n and_o the_o advantage_n of_o poor_a soul_n it_o will_v be_v a_o sufficient_a requital_n of_o his_o pain_n who_o hearty_a desire_v it_o be_v to_o meet_v you_o all_o in_o heaven_n gervase_n disney_n london_n october_n 10._o