believe Obedience to our King to be a Divine Law and that we are bound to obey His Commands in Temporal Laws and I believe it too a sin of Damnation for any Subject of His to Rebel against Him or His Kingdom and I believe it as certain a sin to Damnation for any Subject to endeavor either by thoughts words or deeds to take away His Life or act any thing of that nature either by himself or any others or other against His Sacred Majesty as I believe it was a sin in Judas to Damnation to betray Christ And I do declare upon my salvation that I never did nor do know any Catholick that ever was or is the least guilty either by thought word or deed by any Plot or otherwise to have any design or concurrence to kill His Sacred Majesty or rebel against His Kingdom whom God long preserve with his Subjects in all happiness in this World and crown Him in the World to come with eternal glory And now it remains that with all the powers and forces of my Soul I make my address to God for mercy ere I appear before him for Judgment and you dear Friends here present who believe in one Holy Catholick Church and Communion of Saints be pleased in charity to make the same address to God with me and for me that we may obtain true sorrow and repentance for all our sins and a merciful forgiveness and first let us wish from the bottom of our hearts that we could express and make good Psal 119. 8. our sorrow as David did Psal 119. Whil'st rivers of waters run down our eyes like his because we have not kept according to our faith Gods commands for which had we that Fountain of tears which the Prophet wished for we ought spend it all we ought with Jeremy Lam. 3. 48 49. to weep till our eyes as his failed and as his eye with tears afflicted as he saith his heart so ought ours to do because we have made so ill use of that Faith Hope and Charity which God hath bestowed upon us But forasmuch as Tears now at this present and in these circumstances of rash censuring times Tears I say from me might seem to some either the off-spring of Fear to dye which God forbid I should have in so good a Cause as my Religion or least others might judge my Tears might fall by reason of some other guilt of which I am free and innocent I have endeavoured to stop the course of Tears and instead of drops of waters from my eyes I 'll spend the drops of blood from every sorrowful vein of my heart and my whole body that God may please to wash away the sins of all my life past and I wish each drop an Ocean for my self and all the World because I have nothing now left more than wishes which I beseech thee O gracious God of thy mercy to accept of and if you will vouchsafe to accept of wishes to supply the deeds by wishes I offer up all that 's good to you that ever you gave to any since the Worlds Creation I offer up David's broken heart together with my own that so like him after my repentance I may become a man according to your own heart I offer up the sighs of Magdalen and wish I could make such use of them as she did to sob out my sins I wish her repentant Arms that I may lay fast hold at the Feet of thee my gracious God I wish I had the longanimity of all the Holy Confessors I wish I had the sufferings of all thy constant Martyrs I wish I had the lamps of all thy sacred Virgins that I might offer all to thee that in them was pleasant in thy sight I wish I could offer up to thee O God the Sacrifices of just Abel Lot Job and all other Sacrifices that ever did gratefully ascend up in thy sight that thou being pleased by the sight of them thou mightst look no more upon my sins For if thou wilt observe mine iniquities who shall endure let therefore thy mercy hide thy face from my sins but let not the rigor of thy justice cast me away from thy presence cast me not away from thy Face and thy holy Spirit take not from me but turn away thy Face from sin and blot out all my iniquities and I will offer my Body as a Sacrifice to thee by death to appease thy just anger I own my sins and I own your mercies You gave me Faith to know and believe what was the Will of you my heavenly Master but I acknowledge my fault that although I knew your Will I did not fulfill it and therefore I ought to be beaten with many stripes because you foretold me that many are the stripes of a sinner but be pleased dear Lord also to remember that in the same place you promised that notwithstanding this yet mercy should encompass him that hopes you have given your Divine Hope vouchsafe to let this Hope defend me and although I know I have not made good use of Hope and Hope not well us'd of which I am guilty makes a Sinner defer Repentance and so puts in danger to fall into Presumption by long neglect yet the last hour of calling being not yet past and your mercy being above all your works I hope and humbly beg to be Partaker with those who were accepted at the last hour I humbly acknowledge with thanks O gracious God that you gave me Charity as your Livery in which I always ought to have appeared in your sight and never to have been divested of it but how oft have I been spoiled through my own fault of this garment how oft have I by descending to Jericho instead of going up to Jerusalem how oft I say have I been rob'd of this garment of Charity even as often as I have preferred any sublunary object and the love of that before the love of you and before your goodness which is above all goodness and the object of all Beatitude Vouchsafe again O gracious Lord to restore in mercy to me this Nuptial Vestment ere I dare appear at the Supper of the Lamb. Make me O heavenly Father a penitential Prodigal and then I shall have put on me again this best Robe of Charity This I beg from the bottom of my Soul for his dear sake who was devested of his garments out of Charity that I might be invested in his Charity who also suffered his garments to be divided that he might purchase grace that we might never be divided from the unity of his Faith and Church but rather willingly suffer for his sake the separation of our lives from our bodies the separation of our bodies from our souls and the separation of our bodies into its quarters that we may the more perfectly by these sufferings and separations from our selves be united to him Therefore in the faithful communion and perfect union of the sufferings of all Saints that ever have been or now are or ever will be in the union of the most sacred merits of the life passions and death of God and man my dear Redeemer and Saviour Christ I offer my self willingly to what I am now to suffer begging by all that 's good in Heaven and in Earth remissions of sins for my self and the world particularly for all that may appear to have been my Enemies in the concern of my Life as Witness Jury Judge and others whom I do not esteem as Enemies but as the best of Friends I heartily forgive them and beg the best of Blessings for them all as being the cause of sending me sooner than otherwise I might have gone to the happy state of Hope for the other World Whither before I go I humbly beg pardon of all in this World for whatever in thoughts words or deeds I have committed to offend them or omitted to do for them by which any thing might have been mended in them or my self I beseech God to bless them all I beseech God to bless also all my Friends spiritual and temporal all Benefactors and all by whom I have received good or evil by words deeds or desires I beseech God to bless all those of whom I ever had care or charge spiritually or temporally I beseech God bless his Holy Catholick Church and our chief Bishop thereof with all other Bishops Priests and Clergy I beseech God bless this Nation and unite all amongst themselves and to God in true Faith Hope and Charity I beseech God to bless His Majesties Privy Council and make all the secrets of their hearts and their desires such as that both Charles our King on earth and God our great King in Heaven and Earth may be serv'd pleas'd and honour'd by them that men and Angels may rejoyce at it now and be publick witness of it at the last great day at the great and last Council Table where every secret shall be laid open Luke 12. as Solomon saith Eccles ult when God will bring into judgment every secret thing whether it be good or evil I beseech God to bless the Parliament now Elect and be so present with them when they sit to judge and discuss the Causes of this Nation they may imitate the Assembly of those that are to sit upon the Twelve Thrones at the last great Assembly that they may now judge or determinate of things no otherwise than they hope or fear then to be judged themselves and determined of to all eternity I beseech God to bless all that suffer in this Persecution and let the blessing exprest in the 126th Psalm light upon them speedily that God turning their Captivity all mouths may be filled with joys and tongues with singings Convert O Lord our Captivity as streams in the South that those who now sowe in tears may reap in joy and for this temporal death O blessed Trinity give me eternal life let my Body dye to the World for the love of thee that my Soul may live for ever and love in thee my God and dear Redeemer Amen Sweet Jesus Amen FINIS
indeed I never had spoken to him either about Confession or Communion to come to either neither did he know what I said to him when I gave him Bread like a Wafer but he of his own accord did desire me to hear his Confession and give him the Wafer which he took Whereupon the Judge asked how it came to pass that he never having known nor seen me before nor I spoke with him about Confession or Communion how could he now tell who I was or how could he desire such a thing of me who was a meer stranger to him neither of us knowing any thing of one anothers condition sure said the Judge we do not give the Communion on such terms To which he answered that his Father had told him that if he would he might confess to me and that I would give him the Communion So although he had sworn before that none in the house was witness or saw him confess or receive yet rather than be confounded he would bring his Father into confusion and accuse him as guilty of being the cause of what he did which might be the ruine of his Family But the Judge taking no notice of what he had accused his Father spake to me and told me by this it might appear That I had taken upon me what belonged to the Priests Office by hearing his Confession and giving him the Wafer To which I replied that with his leave I would make it appear that all which this Witness had said against me did not at all prove me to be a Priest or to have taken the office of a Priest upon me for all he said I had done I might do it lawfully though no Priest so might other men that never were nor would be Priests do the same as many thousands had done and did do through the world He asked me how I could prove that I answered as to his Confession he spoke of in the nature he declared it it was only an act of charity for me to do as I did and every Christians duty obliges every man to do the same that he said I had done for him and the same was practised by all Sects whatsoever that never knew what belonged to Priesthood For if our Neighbor have any thing that perplexed his mind there is no better way to ease it than by speaking of it to any whom he supposed might know how to take away or mitigate his Grievances by counsel or advice And therefore this Witness having understood something from his Father that might move him to confide in me came of his own accord as he said he did to impart his mind to me and therefore I should not have fulfilled Christian duty if I should have slighted his trouble and not have given him leave to ease his mind to me and in the best way I could endeavor to assist him and divert his trouble though I was a stranger being that he of his own accord as he said came to me for that intent and therefore I desired the Judge to ask him if it were otherwise than what I had told his Lordship The Judge replied that I went further for as he says I gave him the Wafer or Communion I answered that suppose I had given him the Wafer or Communion which whether I did or no I was not certain yet according to his own word this could no way prove that I gave him the Sacrament for let him speak if I told him it was so or let him declare if I said any thing to him concerning the Communion or what I said he could not say I did only I gave him something therefore I told the Judge that if he pleased to give me leave I would tell his Lordship what practice ever had been and is constantly used in the Catholick Church throughout the world in giving hollowed bread or water which is nothing belonging to the Communion or Sacrament for I told my Lord as there was holy water kept in all private houses as well as in the Chapels and places of Prayer so there was also holy bread and sometimes of the same nature as the Wafer or the Communion and of this as well as of the other sort of bread was on Sundays and other certain daies not consecrated as the Communion but only blessed as holy water by the word and prayer and so distributed to men women and little children of two or three years old and such like hallowed bread thousands of men women and children take and may carry about them and keep in their houses and eat it at any time and give it when and to whom they would to children or others and for my part I have many times in my life taken it from others at any time when I had it or was in any private house where I found it I have taken it to eat my self and given it to any man woman or child sometime they desiring it sometime of my own accord I gave it and so possibly I have given it to the man that witnesseth here against me and if he know the contrary but that it was as I said I desire that he would speak But he had nothing to say of me to the contrary I appealed to my Lord to judge whether this testimony or any other testimony this Witness brought against me were of any force or value to make me guilty in this matter which no waies could be made out against me I proceeded therefore to answer his third Accusation against me which was that I should have told him that if he did not return to the Faith from whence he had fallen he would be damned To this my Answer to my Lord was That I had all my life time been so fearful of such rash Judgment that I do 〈◊〉 it in the presence of God as I did before him that I had rather dye thâ—â—â—â—sume to pronounce the sentence of damnation against any man but I told his Lordship that if he pleased to give me leave I would relate what I had said to him and others upon the like occasion which the Judge being willing to hear I told him that I being at this man's Mother-in-law's house who was of no Religion no more than this Witness and the Mother desiring to hear what Catholicks held and the reasons for which we believe such points of Faith I told her what we held and shewed her the proofs for what we held in her own Bible and when she made any difficulty whether such texts of Scripture were to be understood as we understood them or in any other sense I shewed her out of the Protestant Practice of Piety and out of the Protestant Common Prayer-Book that not only Catholicks but all Protestants understood them in such a sense and she having those Books by her I turned those places to her to read in her own Books and so she did and yet neither the Bible nor Common Prayer-Books nor Practice of Piety could satisfie or make
is said That whosoever will be saved 't is necessary before all things that he hold the Catholick Faith and that if he keep not that Faith whole and undefiled he shall perish everlastingly And as St. James saith Jam. 2. 10. He that keepeth the whole Law and yet offendeth in one point is guilty of all so they that believe must be all of the same Faith And that this ought to be done I appeal to all the Saints that are gone before of whom it is said That their Faith was such as by it they stopt the mouths of Lyons they turned the edge of the Sword and caused the Fire to cease that it should not burn so they were oppressed they wandered about in Sheeps-cloathing and Goats-cloathing Heb. 11. Therefore I say there must be an unity of Faith I desire all Catholiques to consider this That it is better to be reviled by man now in this World than be reviled by God in the World to come Mat. 16. it is said The Catholique Church is built upon a Rock And Mat. 18. He who will not believe the Church let him be as a Heathen and Publican This Faith must be establisht so in every one because Christ said He would send the Holy Ghost and he will shew us or them what to do This is the Rule of Faith This Faith was publisht at Rome And St. Paul writing to the Christians there rejoyceth that their Faith was renowned in the whole World Go ye therefore Baptizing all Nations in the Name of the Father And this is the Faith I confess and believe in and which I dye for I come now to speak of the second Virtue which is Hope I hope I shall have such Reward that neither eye hath seen nor ear heard nor can it enter into the heart of man to conceive Those that have Hope shall be as Mount Sion that shall not be removed Those that have firm Hope there 's nothing can disturb them as David faith God is round about those that do hope in him as the Mountains are round about Hierusalem I come to the third Virtue and that is Charity It 's true now this Body of mine in this shipwrack is full of sin but when that shipwrack is over I shall come to inherit that Rock that shall never fail Now welcome shipwrack that makes the Body suffer but brings the Soul to that Haven which is joyful Now many there be that talk much of Charity few understand it and fewer that practise it This is the greatest Virtue 1 Cor. 13. Though ye speak with tongues of Men and Angels and have not Charity it availeth nothing So then we ought to have Love and Charity or else it prevaileth nothing 'T is expected I should say something of the Plot. As to this I shall declare two Points of my Faith First I believe that all are bound to obey the King's Laws Secondly I do declare That those that do break the Law in word or any action or that do act any thing against His Majesties Life that is a Sin unto damnation as much as it was a Sin in Judas to betray Christ An Oath is a taking God to witness and is as much as if he took his Life and Justice to stake So that he who takes a false Oath is guilty of destroying the Life of God and his Justice and of his own Damnation And if I were but guilty of this I do declare That all the Sin of Damnation would fall upon me because I denied the Truth and so struck at God by my Sin in denying the Truth that 's one Damnation A second Damnation is That if any man know of an Evil against His Majesty His Kingdom and Nation and to hide and not discover it he shall answer for those mischiefs that come thereby so that a man would have made and committed as many Sins as there be men in England that had suffered A third Damnation is to dye in this Lye and with this Perjury in his mouth whereby he loses Heaven and all its enjoyments and dies in greater Sins than the Devils themselves Fourthly I should have been guilty of my own Death For that Judge Atkins offered me my Life if I would confess what I knew of the Plot which had I known and not discovered would have made me the cause of my own Death which would have been a fourth Damnation I would have said more but that I gave my Speech to a Friend to be Printed Mr. Sheriff I pray Sir speak on what you have to say and none shall interrupt you Mr. Johnson Now I have no more to do but to make my Address to Almighty God with all the powers of my Soul that I may have his mercy and pardon of my Sins And therefore I beg that all Catholiques who join in union of this same Faith would make an address unto God for me that we may receive pardon for our Sins I have nothing now but wishes left I wish I may imitate David in his Repentance and that my eyes may run down with tears because I have not kept God's Law I wish with the Prophet Jeremiah That Rivers of waters may fall from my eyes by reason of sin Lam. 3. 48. But Tears will not be proper for me at this time I have kept my self from them lest by shedding Tears some might say I was unwilling to dye or feared Death But instead of Tears I offer all the Blood in my veins and I wish every drop were an Ocean and I would offer it up to God I wish I might become a man like David I wish I had Mary Magdalens penitential Tears I wish I had her arms to embrace the feet of mercy I wish I had all the graces of Saints and Angels I would offer them all to God for the remission of my sin This is my desire and this I wish for as much as is in me I offer first my Life and I beseech and desire of God to turn his Face from my Sins but not from me I offer up my Life in satisfaction for my Sins and for the Catholick Cause And I beg for those that be mine Enemies in this my Death and I desire to have them forgiven because I go to that world of happiness sooner than I should have gone And I humbly beg Pardon from God and the world And this I beg for the merits and mercy of Jesus Christ I beseech God to bless His Majesty to give Him a long Life and a happy Reign in this world and in the world to come I beseech God to bless all my Benefactors and all my Friends and those that have been any way under my charge I beseech God to bless all Catholicks and this Nation and His Majesties Privy Council and grant that they may Act no otherwise than what may be for the glory of God who will bring to light and to judgment all both good and evil Luke 12. So I beseech God that he will