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dreadful_a condition_n so_o dreadful_a that_o i_o believe_v few_o son_n of_o adam_n be_v ever_o in_o a_o worse_o that_o do_v not_o do_v the_o thing_n that_o i_o fear_v i._n e._n blaspheme_v god_n and_o destroy_v himself_o i_o say_v be_v in_o such_o a_o condition_n and_o the_o sin_n so_o often_o speak_v of_o lie_v still_o heavy_a upon_o i_o and_o shame_n withhold_v i_o from_o reveal_v it_o for_o many_o year_n it_o please_v god_n to_o over-rule_v my_o spirit_n that_o i_o send_v for_o a_o worthy_a minister_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o come_v to_o i_o the_o day_n before_o my_o deliverance_n i_o acquaint_v he_o with_o that_o sin_n which_o do_v so_o lie_v upon_o my_o conscience_n and_o never_o be_v reveal_v before_o well_o remember_v how_o holy_a david_n ps_n 32.3.5_o who_o while_o he_o keep_v silence_v his_o wax_a old_a through_o his_o roar_v all_o the_o day_n long_o do_v but_o say_v he_o will_v confess_v his_o sin_n and_o the_o lord_n forgive_v his_o iniquity_n so_o the_o lord_n the_o very_a next_o day_n come_v and_o set_v my_o soul_n at_o rest_n the_o comfort_n and_o help_v that_o i_o find_v from_o my_o natural_a relation_n and_o friend_n this_o woeful_a condition_n be_v none_o at_o all_o but_o instead_o of_o pity_n i_o meet_v with_o reproach_n from_o many_o only_o my_o dear_a yoke_n fellow_n be_v my_o fellow_n sufferer_n of_o who_o i_o can_v say_v the_o lord_n give_v she_o to_o i_o for_o such_o a_o day_n as_o this_o to_o be_v his_o bless_a instrument_n of_o my_o deliverance_n for_o when_o i_o be_v even_o distract_v she_o lay_v the_o glory_n of_o the_o lord_n deep_o to_o her_o heart_n and_o do_v daily_o bring_v the_o word_n of_o god_n to_o my_o soul_n read_v with_o great_a diligence_n the_o holy_a scripture_n which_o be_v do_v then_o pour_v forth_o her_o soul_n to_o the_o lord_n with_o ardent_a affection_n and_o with_o a_o mighty_a faith_n in_o our_o gracious_a god_n who_o have_v manifest_v his_o great_a love_n to_o she_o in_o former_a trouble_n the_o experience_n of_o which_o encourage_v she_o to_o go_v on_o still_o in_o earnest_n and_o frequent_a prayer_n and_o expectation_n that_o the_o lord_n will_v accomplish_v the_o work_n of_o deliverance_n and_o upon_o the_o sixteenth_o day_n of_o april_n 1669._o ah_o day_n for_o ever_o to_o be_v solemnize_v as_o glorious_a and_o honourable_a to_o the_o lord_n by_o i_o his_o poor_a creature_n she_o go_v on_o in_o her_o constant_a course_n of_o prayer_n after_o she_o have_v give_v the_o lord_n his_o holy_a and_o reverend_a title_n use_v moses_n his_o argument_n break_v forth_o into_o these_o word_n my_o father_n my_o father_n what_o will_v thou_o do_v with_o my_o husband_n he_o have_v be_v speak_v and_o act_v still_o in_o thy_o cause_n oh_o destroy_v he_o not_o for_o thy_o own_o glory_n oh_o what_o dishonour_n will_v come_v to_o thy_o great_a name_n if_o thou_o do_v it_o oh_o rather_o do_v with_o i_o what_o thou_o will_v oh_o do_v with_o i_o what_o thou_o will_v but_o spare_v my_o husband_n etc._n etc._n thus_o lay_v hold_n of_o that_o word_n of_o god_n in_o the_o prophet_n with_o a_o lively_a faith_n concern_v your_o son_n and_o your_o daughter_n command_v you_o i_o and_o strive_v mighty_o in_o prayer_n the_o duty_n be_v eâ—ded_v the_o lord_n immediate_o appear_v and_o then_o that_o lion_n of_o the_o tribe_n of_o judah_n that_o bless_a seed_n of_o the_o woman_n that_o second_o adam_n that_o promise_v messiah_n the_o son_n of_o the_o live_a god_n who_o have_v former_o break_v the_o serpent_n head_n he_o who_o in_o a_o single_a duel_n have_v disarm_v the_o devil_n in_o the_o wilderness_n tâ—od_v the_o wine_n press_v of_o his_o father_n wrath_n alone_o this_o jesus_n the_o saviour_n who_o know_v how_o to_o succour_v temper_a soul_n make_v hare_n his_o holy_a arm_n and_o his_o own_o right_a hand_n bring_v deliverance_n he_o deliver_v i_o from_o my_o strong_a enemy_n and_o save_v mâ—_n from_o he_o that_o hate_v i_o he_o that_o be_v please_v to_o style_v himself_o a_o god_n hear_v prayer_n and_o in_o most_o of_o his_o great_a work_n delight_n to_o advance_v his_o own_o power_n by_o use_v small_a and_o unlikely_a mean_n after_o long_o tarry_v and_o in_o a_o time_n when_o i_o look_v not_o for_o he_o come_v now_o and_o own_v his_o own_o ordinance_n crown_v the_o cry_n and_o faith_n and_o patience_n of_o a_o poor_a woman_n with_o such_o success_n that_o my_o praise_n shall_v be_v continual_o of_o he_o the_o proud_a mâ—y_a scorn_n but_o the_o humble_a shall_v hear_v there_o of_o and_o be_v glad_a that_o roar_a lion_n my_o adversary_n the_o devil_n that_o old_a serpent_n that_o red-dragon_n that_o unclean_a spirit_n that_o liar_n accuser_n murderer_n from_o the_o beginning_n that_o apollion_n to_o the_o geeckâ—_n abbaddon_n to_o the_o jew_n and_o destroyer_n to_o all_o for_o as_o be_v the_o name_n give_v he_o by_o the_o word_n of_o truth_n so_o be_v his_o nature_n and_o so_o have_v he_o labour_v mighty_o for_o a_o long_a season_n to_o show_v himself_o in_o i_o even_o now_o when_o he_o think_v himself_o almost_o seat_v in_o the_o possession_n of_o his_o long_a seek_v dominion_n and_o that_o there_o be_v no_o cast_n of_o he_o out_o of_o my_o soul_n which_o â—e_v abuse_v make_v it_o his_o dunghill_n whereon_o he_o lay_v all_o the_o filth_n of_o hellish_a thought_n and_o abomination_n that_o he_o can_v want_v nothing_o but_o my_o will_n that_o fort-royal_a to_o have_v put_v i_o under_o a_o eternal_a vassalage_n to_o his_o long_o lay_v design_n now_o i_o say_v be_v that_o accurse_a enemy_n to_o god_n and_o i_o his_o poor_a creature_n send_v to_o his_o own_o place_n by_o my_o dear_a lord_n christ_n that_o holy_a son_n of_o the_o bless_a god_n who_o take_v
why_o say_v you_o my_o way_n be_v hide_v from_o the_o lord_n and_o my_o judgement_n pass_v over_o of_o my_o god_n know_v you_o not_o or_o have_v you_o not_o hear_v that_o the_o everlasting_a god_n the_o lord_n of_o the_o end_n of_o the_o earth_n be_v neither_o weary_a nor_o faint_v but_o give_v strength_n to_o he_o that_o faint_v the_o young_a man_n shall_v faint_v and_o be_v weary_a but_o they_o that_o wait_v on_o the_o lord_n shall_v renew_v their_o strength_n and_o lift_v up_o their_o wing_n as_o the_o eagle_n they_o shall_v run_v and_o not_o faint_a in_o that_o day_n when_o the_o mountain_n of_o the_o lord_n house_n shall_v be_v establish_v above_o the_o mountain_n of_o the_o earth_n for_o which_o glorious_a day_n i_o shall_v not_o cease_v to_o pray_v for_o o_o thou_o eternal_a be_v of_o being_n who_o name_n be_v jehovah_n the_o lord_n of_o host_n who_o have_v make_v the_o heaven_n the_o earth_n the_o great_a sea_n and_o all_o the_o creature_n therein_o for_o the_o manifest_v of_o thy_o bless_a self_n in_o thy_o excellency_n that_o so_o by_o the_o display_v of_o thy_o glorious_a attribute_n we_o may_v know_v thy_o power_n wisdom_n and_o goodness_n and_o fear_v thy_o great_a and_o glorious_a name_n and_o true_o lord_n thou_o have_v do_v a_o most_o sweet_a work_n in_o the_o day_n wherein_o thou_o behold_v the_o work_n of_o thy_o hand_n and_o say_v they_o be_v very_o good_a o_o the_o great_a engagement_n of_o love_n and_o obedience_n thou_o have_v lay_v upon_o we_o in_o that_o day_n when_o thou_o have_v advance_v we_o and_o make_v we_o not_o only_a lord_n of_o the_o work_n of_o thy_o hand_n and_o for_o our_o use_n put_v all_o thing_n in_o subjection_n under_o our_o foot_n but_o make_v we_o after_o thy_o own_o image_n in_o righteousness_n and_o holiness_n whereby_o thou_o do_v enable_v we_o to_o the_o performance_n of_o worship_n and_o obedience_n thou_o require_v at_o our_o hand_n but_o o_o the_o great_a dishonour_n and_o rebellion_n we_o act_v against_o thou_o 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in_o condescend_v to_o treat_v with_o our_o parent_n let_v out_o that_o gracious_a promise_n that_o the_o seed_n of_o the_o woman_n shall_v break_v the_o serpent_n head_n reveal_v mercy_n by_o a_o second_o adam_n to_o come_v and_o so_o enter_v into_o a_o new_a covenant_n not_o of_o work_n but_o of_o grace_n that_o believe_v in_o he_o we_o shall_v have_v eternal_a life_n o_o gracious_a father_n how_o do_v thou_o magnify_v thy_o mercy_n over_o the_o work_n of_o thy_o hand_n and_o do_v do_v a_o work_n more_o wonderful_a than_o the_o creation_n in_o give_v the_o eternal_a word_n the_o brightness_n of_o thy_o glory_n the_o express_a image_n of_o thyself_o thy_o only_a beget_v son_n by_o a_o eternal_a generation_n to_o take_v upon_o he_o the_o nature_n of_o man_n and_o to_o be_v bear_v of_o the_o bless_a virgin_n that_o so_o he_o may_v by_o a_o hupostatical_a union_n joy_n the_o humanity_n to_o the_o deity_n that_o so_o he_o may_v be_v enable_v to_o undergo_v the_o work_n of_o man_n redemption_n a_o work_n so_o wonderful_a that_o all_o the_o angel_n can_v not_o have_v devise_v and_o into_o which_o they_o pry_v into_o with_o admiration_n that_o thereby_o he_o may_v make_v such_o a_o atonement_n that_o may_v satisfy_v for_o the_o sin_n of_o man_n to_o the_o utmost_a and_o that_o whosoever_o believe_v in_o he_o shall_v not_o perish_v but_o have_v eternal_a life_n and_o now_o dear_a father_n thou_o have_v give_v we_o the_o word_n of_o reconciliation_n the_o witness_n of_o thy_o truth_n wherein_o thou_o have_v make_v know_v to_o we_o that_o thou_o have_v give_v we_o eternal_a life_n by_o jesus_n christ_n that_o immaculate_a lamb_n of_o god_n who_o have_v lay_v down_o his_o life_n upon_o the_o cross_n to_o answer_v thy_o justice_n and_o by_o his_o suffering_n merit_n and_o righteousness_n resurrection_n from_o death_n to_o life_n have_v cancel_v the_o law_n of_o condemnation_n take_v down_o the_o wall_n of_o partition_n and_o make_v admission_n for_o sinner_n to_o come_v to_o the_o throne_n of_o grace_n with_o boldness_n and_o now_o have_v give_v we_o precious_a promise_n that_o what_o we_o ask_v in_o the_o name_n of_o thy_o son_n shall_v be_v do_v for_o we_o and_o now_o dear_a father_n of_o heaven_n what_o be_v i_o or_o my_o father_n family_n but_o a_o sinful_a generation_n of_o man_n that_o thou_o shall_v choose_v i_o to_o salvation_n before_o the_o world_n be_v and_o in_o due_a time_n to_o call_v i_o to_o the_o knowledge_n of_o this_o mystery_n of_o man_n redemption_n and_o by_o the_o witness_n of_o thy_o word_n and_o bless_a spirit_n shall_v seal_v unto_o i_o the_o pardon_n of_o sin_n in_o the_o day_n when_o thou_o deliver_v i_o out_o of_o the_o hand_n of_o that_o roar_a lyon_n and_o after_o my_o seek_v thy_o face_n for_o many_o year_n with_o doubt_n and_o fear_n under_o many_o desertion_n and_o dreadful_a temptation_n and_o many_o various_a dispensation_n which_o thou_o most_o bless_a god_n have_v turn_v all_o to_o my_o advantage_n break_v 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