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shall_v quick_o make_v answer_n that_o i_o have_v rather_o be_v glad_a and_o if_o he_o shall_v ask_v i_o yet_o again_o whether_o i_o have_v rather_o be_v that_o beggar_n or_o myself_o i_o shall_v then_o rather_o choose_v to_o be_v myself_o though_o i_o be_v then_o full_a of_o affliction_n but_o yet_o for_o aught_o i_o know_v i_o shall_v have_v no_o reason_n to_o make_v this_o choice_n for_o i_o ask_v what_o cause_n i_o can_v allege_v for_o my_o being_n more_o learned_a give_v i_o then_o no_o contentment_n at_o all_o but_o only_o desire_v to_o give_v contentment_n to_o other_o by_o my_o knowledge_n and_o yet_o that_o not_o by_o way_n of_o instruct_v they_o but_o but_o without_o doubt_n say_v he_o that_o poor_a man_n be_v more_o happy_a than_o i_o not_o only_o because_o he_o be_v merry_a and_o jolly_a when_o i_o be_v full_a of_o cogitation_n and_o care_n which_o draw_v even_o my_o very_a bowel_n out_o of_o my_o body_n but_o because_o he_o have_v get_v his_o wine_n by_o lawful_a mean_n 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and_o those_o ancient_a father_n but_o of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n himself_o and_o that_o in_o those_o very_a term_n whereby_o we_o have_v express_v it_o here_o the_o wise_a man_n in_o the_o book_n of_o wisdom_n set_v express_o down_o both_o the_o theory_n and_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o point_n in_o these_o word_n et_fw-la ut_fw-la scivi_fw-la quoniam_fw-la aliter_fw-la non_fw-la possem_fw-la esse_fw-la continens_fw-la nisi_fw-la deus_fw-la det_fw-la &_o hoc_fw-la ipsum_fw-la erat_fw-la sapientia_fw-la scire_fw-la cvius_fw-la esset_fw-la hoc_fw-la donum_fw-la adij_fw-la dominum_fw-la &_o deprecatus_fw-la sum_fw-la illum_fw-la ex_fw-la totis_fw-la precordijs_fw-la meis_fw-la when_o i_o know_v say_v solomon_n that_o i_o can_v not_o be_v continent_n but_o by_o the_o spiritual_a gift_n of_o god_n now_o continent_n be_v here_o the_o general_a word_n which_o embrace_v not_o only_o the_o contain_v or_o restrain_v that_o passion_n which_o be_v against_o chastity_n but_o all_o the_o other_o 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