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A26870 A breviate of the life of Margaret, the daughter of Francis Charlton ... and wife of Richard Baxter ... : there is also published the character of her mother, truly described in her published funeral sermon, reprinted at her daughters request, called, The last work of a believer, his passing-prayer recommending his departing spirit to Christ, to be received by him. Baxter, Richard, 1615-1691. 1681 (1681) Wing B1194; ESTC R1213 62,400 127

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