what_o be_v the_o reason_n that_o when_o a_o woman_n say_v unto_o christ_n 11.27_o luk._n 11.27_o blessed_n be_v the_o womb_n that_o bear_v thou_o and_o the_o pap_n which_o thou_o have_v suck_v i_o say_v what_o be_v the_o reason_n that_o our_o lord_n make_v she_o this_o answer_n 28._o 28._o yea_o rather_o bless_v be_v they_o that_o hear_v the_o word_n of_o god_n and_o keep_v it_o i_o say_v again_o why_o do_v he_o say_v so_o if_o it_o be_v better_a for_o people_n not_o to_o hear_v then_o to_o hear_v god_n word_n by_o the_o way_n be_v it_o remember_v that_o the_o son_n of_o god_n say_v it_o be_v a_o blessedness_n to_o hear_v god_n word_n and_o the_o pope_n who_o take_v upon_o he_o to_o be_v the_o deputy_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n he_o say_v it_o be_v not_o a_o blessedness_n he_o forbid_v it_o if_o any_o understanding_n conscionable_a roman_a catholic_a be_v between_o god_n and_o his_o own_o soul_n to_o tell_v what_o he_o think_v to_o be_v the_o main_a cause_n why_o the_o pope_n do_v not_o allow_v god_n word_n to_o be_v common_o buy_v and_o sell_v in_o italy_n spain_n etc._n etc._n and_o so_o to_o be_v read_v in_o church_n my_o conscience_n give_v i_o that_o he_o will_v say_v thus_o it_o be_v very_o likely_a that_o thereby_o many_o will_v be_v draw_v from_o his_o obedience_n and_o many_o thing_n which_o be_v now_o in_o great_a request_n among_o the_o people_n shall_v then_o be_v despise_v as_o sure_o as_o the_o lord_n god_n live_v i_o take_v this_o to_o be_v the_o main_a cause_n a_o great_a number_n of_o thing_n in_o that_o religion_n can_v by_o no_o mean_n stand_v if_o the_o book_n of_o god_n be_v common_o to_o be_v have_v in_o the_o people_n own_o language_n therefore_o they_o be_v not_o suffer_v to_o hear_v god_n speak_v i_o appeal_v to_o the_o conscience_n of_o every_o man_n whether_o it_o be_v likly_a that_o those_o thing_n which_o be_v of_o god_n shall_v be_v put_v out_o of_o request_n by_o the_o word_n of_o god_n it_o be_v not_o likely_a it_o be_v quite_o contrary_a i_o do_v most_o humble_o entreat_v all_o english_a man_n and_o woman_n i_o entreat_v they_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o our_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n that_o they_o will_v forbear_v to_o believe_v the_o roman_a religion_n until_o it_o have_v god_n word_n and_o church-seruice_n read_v and_o say_v in_o people_n own_o language_n when_o you_o come_v to_o public_a service_n call_v it_o mass_n or_o what_o you_o will_v be_v you_o not_o of_o the_o company_n that_o there_o ought_v to_o join_v in_o prayer_n unto_o god_n why_o then_o be_v not_o your_o prayer_n in_o your_o own_o tongue_n why_o be_v it_o in_o latin_a let_v any_o man_n answer_n as_o i_o ask_v the_o question_n in_o the_o fear_n of_o god_n what_o reason_n be_v there_o that_o people_n shall_v pray_v or_o join_v with_o any_o pray_v in_o a_o language_n which_o they_o understand_v not_o be_v it_o not_o much_o to_o be_v fear_v that_o satan_n the_o prince_n of_o darkness_n have_v a_o strong_a hand_n in_o this_o to_o keep_v poor_a people_n in_o blindness_n and_o ignorance_n i_o have_v upon_o my_o conscience_n and_o in_o charity_n without_o any_o thought_n of_o personal_a reproach_n unto_o any_o one_o make_v bold_a to_o say_v thus_o much_o if_o any_o in_o zeal_n of_o that_o religion_n have_v a_o mind_n to_o say_v so_o much_o yea_o ten_o time_n so_o much_o to_o i_o let_v he_o speak_v in_o the_o fear_n of_o god_n and_o in_o charity_n and_o spare_v not_o or_o if_o he_o listen_v to_o fly_v upon_o i_o with_o word_n of_o choler_n i_o will_v join_v with_o he_o to_o say_v much_o more_o against_o myself_o than_o he_o can_v and_o yet_o leave_v he_o to_o judge_v himself_o without_o i_o when_o i_o be_o mind_v to_o read_v any_o part_n of_o god_n book_n i_o must_v kneel_v down_o before_o the_o face_n of_o god_n and_o pray_v thus_o o_o most_o gracious_a and_o merciful_a lord_n god_n thou_o have_v of_o thy_o great_a goodness_n vouchsafe_v to_o give_v unto_o i_o thy_o holy_a bible_n which_o be_v able_a to_o make_v i_o wise_a unto_o salvation_n i_o do_v humble_o thank_v thou_o for_o it_o and_o hearty_o i_o beseech_v thy_o bless_a majesty_n to_o give_v i_o the_o grace_n that_o i_o may_v fervent_o read_v it_o right_o understand_v it_o and_o diligenty_n mark_v it_o through_o jesus_n christ_n thy_o only_a son_n my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n amen_n beside_o the_o mean_n and_o help_v to_o understand_v the_o scripture_n as_o the_o proportion_n of_o religion_n contain_v in_o the_o creed_n and_o commandment_n the_o circumstance_n of_o each_o several_a place_n and_o the_o compare_v of_o one_o place_n with_o other_o place_n read_v of_o exposition_n and_o hear_v other_o man_n judgement_n our_o saviour_n give_v a_o very_a notable_a direction_n for_o the_o attainment_n of_o special_a aid_n from_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n and_o it_o be_v a_o ready_a way_n for_o a_o man_n to_o come_v to_o the_o knowledge_n of_o the_o truth_n touch_v any_o necessary_a point_n in_o controversy_n and_o this_o it_o be_v to_o the_o jew_n doubt_v whether_o christ_n doctrine_n be_v of_o god_n yea_o or_o no_o he_o say_v if_o any_o man_n will_v do_v the_o will_n of_o god_n he_o shall_v know_v of_o the_o doctrine_n whether_o it_o be_v of_o god_n or_o whether_o i_o speak_v of_o myself_o joh._n 7.17_o the_o conscionable_a practice_n of_o those_o duty_n which_o be_v very_o plain_o set_v down_o in_o god_n word_n will_v in_o and_o through_o jesus_n christ_n be_v a_o mean_n to_o procure_v unto_o we_o a_o gracious_a and_o comfortable_a enlighten_v of_o our_o mind_n to_o understand_v the_o mind_n and_o meaning_n of_o god_n in_o his_o word_n daily_o more_o &_o more_o for_o the_o secret_a of_o the_o lord_n be_v with_o they_o that_o fear_v he_o and_o he_o will_v show_v they_o his_o covenant_n psal_n 25.14_o if_o i_o come_v to_o a_o place_n of_o scripture_n hard_a to_o be_v understand_v i_o will_v mark_v it_o and_o so_o stay_v myself_o in_o hope_n of_o grace_n from_o god_n at_o his_o good_a pleasure_n read_v any_o part_n of_o scripture_n very_o leisurely_o and_o heedful_o i_o must_v endeavour_v to_o take_v special_a knowledge_n of_o some_o principal_a notable_a point_n and_o then_o commend_v they_o unto_o the_o blessing_n of_o god_n thus_o o_o most_o mighty_a and_o merciful_a lord_n god_n i_o do_v most_o humble_o and_o hearty_o thank_v thou_o for_o that_o thou_o have_v make_v i_o in_o read_v this_o part_n of_o thy_o bible_n to_o understand_v and_o mark_v this_o &_o this_o etc._n etc._n i_o beseech_v thou_o that_o if_o i_o have_v mistake_v any_o thing_n i_o may_v have_v grace_n to_o see_v my_o error_n and_o to_o leave_v it_o i_o beseech_v thou_o that_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o have_v right_o understand_v i_o may_v well_o remember_v and_o as_o need_v shall_v require_v profitable_o use_v to_o thy_o good_a pleasure_n and_o glory_n in_o benefit_v myself_o and_o other_o through_o jesus_n christ_n thy_o only_a son_n my_o lord_n and_o saviour_n to_o who_o with_o thou_o o_o father_n and_o with_o the_o holy_a ghost_n three_o person_n and_o one_o only_a good_a lord_n god_n be_v all_o praise_n honour_n and_o glory_n for_o evermore_o amen_n thus_o much_o of_o god_n word_n and_o god_n speak_v all_o these_o word_n say_v he_o that_o make_v one_o commandment_n make_v all_o the_o rest_n therefore_o i_o must_v not_o presume_v to_o break_v any_o one_o of_o they_o but_z if_o i_o will_v not_o be_v confound_v i_o must_v upright_o intend_v and_o careful_o endeavour_v to_o be_v obedient_a unto_o all_o the_o commandment_n of_o god_n psal_n 119.6_o exod._n 20.2_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n etc._n etc._n this_o word_n lord_n in_o the_o jew_n language_n be_v call_v jehovah_n and_o signify_v such_o a_o one_o as_o be_v of_o himself_o and_o give_v be_v unto_o all_o thing_n else_o special_o unto_o his_o own_o promise_n which_o he_o most_o faithful_o and_o powerful_o perform_v in_o due_a time_n this_o wonderful_a lord_n be_v thorough_o know_v of_o none_o but_o himself_o yet_o under_o his_o gracious_a correction_n i_o do_v thus_o conceive_v of_o he_o the_o lord_n jehovah_n be_v a_o spirit_n single_a durable_a unmeasurable_a mighty_a wise_a holy_a bless_a and_o glorious_a god_n be_v a_o spirit_n joh._n 4.24_o a_o spirit_n have_v not_o flesh_n and_o bone_n luk._n 24.39_o then_o how_o be_v man_n say_v to_o he_o like_v unto_o god_n in_o the_o nature_n and_o property_n of_o the_o soul_n why_o do_v the_o bible_n sometime_o speak_v of_o god_n as_o if_o he_o have_v eye_n ear_n hand_n etc._n etc._n it_o speak_v according_a to_o our_o capacity_n because_o god_n will_v have_v we_o to_o be_v plain_o and_o full_o persuade_v that_o he_o have_v sight_n hear_v knowledge_n power_n etc._n
but_o also_o traitorous_o incline_v the_o join_n of_o god_n mercy_n and_o justice_n together_o be_v thus_o first_o it_o please_v he_o to_o be_v merciful_a unto_o such_o and_o such_o exod._n 33.19_o second_o he_o appoint_v that_o they_o unto_o who_o he_o purpose_v to_o show_v mercy_n shall_v be_v join_v by_o the_o holy_a ghost_n unto_o his_o only_a son_n who_o for_o that_o purpose_n be_v at_o such_o a_o time_n to_o take_v unto_o he_o a_o body_n and_o a_o soul_n and_o so_o be_v both_o god_n and_o man_n after_o a_o most_o holy_a and_o guiltless_a life_n to_o suffer_v a_o cruel_a death_n to_o purchase_v for_o they_o the_o forgiveness_n of_o sin_n and_o cleansement_n from_o their_o wicked_a inclination_n tit._n 2.14_o god_n be_v bless_v full_o bless_v exceed_o bless_v he_o that_o be_v full_o bless_v have_v freedom_n from_o all_o manner_n of_o thing_n which_o may_v give_v he_o any_o discontent_n and_o not_o only_o so_o but_o also_o want_v nothing_o that_o may_v content_v or_o delight_v he_o such_o be_v the_o blessedness_n of_o god_n choose_v servant_n not_o in_o this_o world_n but_o in_o heaven_n for_o the_o bible_n say_v they_o be_v bless_v which_o die_v in_o the_o faith_n and_o favour_n of_o the_o lord_n that_o so_o they_o may_v rest_v from_o their_o labour_n and_o their_o work_n follow_v they_o reu._n 14.13_o their_o rest_v from_o labour_n be_v their_o freedom_n from_o all_o cause_n of_o discontent_n their_o work_n follow_v they_o be_v the_o crown_n of_o everlasting_a contentment_n give_v unto_o they_o in_o regard_n of_o their_o work_n and_o far_o surpass_v all_o possible_a merit_n in_o they_o this_o blessedness_n god_n give_v unto_o his_o saint_n the_o blessedness_n which_o he_o have_v in_o himself_o differ_v from_o this_o not_o only_o as_o the_o cause_n from_o the_o effect_n but_o also_o in_o two_o other_o special_a point_n first_o god_n have_v his_o bliss_n of_o himself_o and_o therefore_o it_o be_v say_v of_o he_o that_o he_o only_o have_v immortality_n that_o be_v absolute_a and_o necessary_a freedom_n from_o death_n 1._o tim._n 6.16_o also_o of_o he_o it_o be_v say_v that_o he_o have_v the_o well_o of_o life_n psal_n 36.9_o that_o be_v to_o say_v he_o be_v the_o very_a first_o cause_n of_o life_n and_o of_o all_o perfection_n second_o the_o blessedness_n of_o god_n be_v beyond_o all_o measure_n most_o exceed_o exceed_v for_o as_o his_o understanding_n be_v infinite_a that_o be_v endless_a so_o be_v all_o his_o perfection_n if_o god_n be_v most_o exceed_o bless_v why_o do_v we_o oftentimes_o say_v bless_a be_v god_n as_o though_o we_o wish_v blessedness_n unto_o he_o we_o do_v praise_n and_o magnify_v his_o blessedness_n in_o mind_n and_o in_o word_n by_o acknowledge_v and_o publish_v the_o same_o yea_o and_o the_o party_n that_o hearty_o love_v god_n be_v so_o full_a of_o good_a will_n towards_o he_o that_o he_o can_v but_o wish_v that_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a god_n may_v be_v a_o thousand_o thousand_o time_n more_o happy_a and_o bless_a then_o he_o be_v and_o such_o be_v the_o most_o honourable_a and_o gracious_a kindness_n of_o god_n that_o he_o take_v this_o wish_n in_o very_o good_a part_n so_o the_o great_a man_n of_o this_o world_n accept_v the_o good_a will_n of_o their_o poor_a friend_n god_n be_v glorious_a glory_n be_v proper_o the_o goodly_a show_n seem_v sight_n or_o appearance_n of_o any_o thing_n it_o also_o many_o time_n signify_v the_o famous_a report_n of_o some_o notable_a goodness_n in_o both_o these_o meaning_n glory_n be_v a_o title_n most_o proper_a unto_o god_n touch_v goodly_a show_n the_o glory_n of_o god_n appear_v two_o way_n in_o himself_o and_o in_o his_o work_n in_o god_n himself_o there_o be_v such_o a_o shine_a excellent_a majesty_n that_o the_o very_a angel_n be_v not_o able_a to_o endure_v the_o full_a appearance_n thereof_o as_o we_o may_v perceive_v by_o the_o vision_n of_o the_o prophet_n esay_n who_o do_v see_v certain_a very_o glorious_a angel_n before_o the_o face_n of_o god_n cover_v their_o face_n esa_n 6.2_o in_o all_o and_o every_o of_o god_n work_n appear_v a_o show_n of_o some_o one_o or_o more_o of_o his_o excellent_a property_n as_o of_o wisdom_n power_n justice_n mercy_n etc._n etc._n esa_n 6.3_o the_o whole_a earth_n be_v full_a of_o his_o glory_n therefore_o s._n paul_n say_v the_o very_a heathen_a people_n know_v god_n by_o his_o work_n because_o his_o eternal_a power_n and_o divine_a property_n do_v in_o his_o work_n by_o the_o creation_n of_o the_o world_n evident_o appear_v rom._n 1._o ver_fw-la 20._o he_o who_o port_n be_v true_o glorious_a be_v worthy_a of_o a_o glorious_a report_n and_o that_o principal_o be_v our_o lord_n god_n of_o who_o most_o stately_a port_n and_o royal_a behaviour_n there_o be_v a_o notable_a report_n psal_n 104.1_o bless_v thou_o lord_n o_o my_o soul_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n thou_o be_v very_o great_a thou_o be_v clothe_v with_o honour_n and_o majesty_n etc._n etc._n god_n appear_v in_o his_o work_n so_o glorious_o our_o duty_n be_v to_o take_v knowledge_n of_o his_o glory_n and_o to_o do_v what_o we_o can_v to_o make_v the_o same_o know_v unto_o other_o one_o great_a cause_n of_o undevotion_n and_o coldness_n in_o religion_n be_v the_o not_o consider_v of_o god_n work_n special_o that_o most_o admirable_a work_n of_o redemption_n manifest_v in_o the_o gospel_n psal_n 107.43_o whosoever_o be_v wise_a and_o will_v mark_v these_o thing_n even_o they_o shall_v understand_v the_o love_a kindness_n of_o the_o lord_n 2._o cor._n 3.18_o but_o we_o all_o with_o open_a face_n behold_v as_o in_o a_o glass_n the_o glory_n of_o the_o lord_n be_v change_v into_o the_o same_o likeness_n from_o glory_n to_o glory_n even_o as_o by_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n 2._o cor._n 4.6_o for_o god_n who_o command_v the_o light_n to_o shine_v out_o of_o darkness_n have_v shine_v in_o our_o heart_n to_o give_v the_o light_n of_o the_o knowledge_n of_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n in_o the_o face_n of_o jesus_n christ_n how_o shall_v we_o make_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n know_v unto_o other_o two_o way_n first_o by_o the_o holiness_n of_o our_o life_n that_o so_o other_o may_v see_v the_o glorious_a work_n of_o god_n grace_n in_o we_o matth._n 5.16_o second_o by_o the_o due_a praise_v of_o god_n that_o other_o may_v hear_v the_o report_n of_o his_o glorious_a act_n and_o do_n psas_n 145.12_o to_o make_v know_v unto_o the_o son_n of_o man_n his_o mighty_a act_n and_o the_o glorious_a majesty_n of_o his_o kingdom_n it_o be_v a_o question_n whether_o such_o profess_a christian_n and_o special_o church-minister_n as_o have_v by_o open_a profaneness_n or_o any_o unholy_a behaviour_n blemish_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n be_v not_o bind_v to_o make_v open_a confession_n that_o so_o what_o in_o they_o be_v they_o may_v salve_v and_o remedy_v the_o wide_a wound_n which_o they_o have_v give_v unto_o the_o doctrine_n and_o religion_n of_o god_n and_o christ_n my_o judgement_n in_o this_o point_n shall_v i_o trust_v in_o god_n appear_v by_o my_o practice_n both_o in_o this_o book_n and_o also_o in_o the_o residue_n of_o my_o life_n in_o the_o mean_a time_n this_o i_o profess_v my_o poor_a soul_n do_v vehement_o desire_v to_o give_v glory_n unto_o god_n in_o the_o revengeful_a abase_v of_o myself_o for_o the_o grievous_a displeasure_n &_o great_a dishonour_n which_o i_o have_v all_o my_o life_n long_o cause_v and_o do_v unto_o his_o most_o holy_a majesty_n thus_o much_o of_o the_o name_n jehovah_n the_o lord_n thy_o god_n etc._n etc._n the_o language_n wherein_o god_n speak_v these_o word_n read_v thus_o thy_o god_n as_o speak_v of_o more_o than_o one_o this_o whatsoever_o the_o poor_a jew_n say_v to_o the_o contrary_a show_v that_o in_o god_n there_o be_v more_o person_n than_o one_o which_o person_n how_o many_o and_o who_o they_o be_v the_o good_a lord_n jesus_n be_v one_o of_o they_o do_v plain_o show_v in_o say_v unto_o his_o disciple_n matth._n 28.19_o teach_v all_o nation_n baptise_v they_o in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o father_n and_o of_o the_o son_n and_o of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n the_o first_o person_n be_v the_o father_n who_o beget_v the_o son_n o_o most_o marvelous_a beget_n the_o son_n be_v as_o old_a as_o the_o father_n the_o son_n have_v the_o very_a selfsame_o nature_n and_o substance_n with_o his_o father_n yea_o 14.10_o joh._n 14.10_o he_o be_v within_o his_o father_n and_o his_o father_n be_v within_o he_o the_o second_o person_n in_o the_o godhead_n be_v the_o son_n who_o be_v beget_v of_o the_o father_n as_o a_o word_n be_v beget_v of_o a_o man_n mind_n and_o therefore_o he_o be_v sometime_o call_v the_o word_n as_o also_o because_o he_o make_v the_o father_n and_o the_o
no_o wisdom_n nor_o safety_n in_o so_o do_v four_o though_o in_o purpose_v to_o speak_v this_o or_o that_o your_o mind_n be_v very_o upright_o yet_o make_v careful_a choice_n of_o word_n and_o phrase_n for_o that_o which_o be_v utter_v one_o way_n can_v not_o be_v ill_o take_v may_v in_o a_o other_o suit_n of_o word_n seem_v very_o harsh_a and_o be_v likely_a to_o do_v more_o harm_n then_o good_a o_o for_o a_o mortify_a minister_n he_o will_v not_o speak_v thus_o and_o thus_o because_o he_o will_v but_o so_o and_o so_o because_o he_o be_v will_v this_o if_o i_o mistake_v not_o may_v be_v call_v the_o meekness_n of_o wisdom_n which_o whatsoever_o any_o man_n can_v say_v to_o the_o contrary_a do_v most_o befit_v a_o minister_n of_o the_o gospel_n special_o in_o these_o latter_a day_n wherein_o natural_a corruption_n take_v upon_o it_o to_o be_v zealous_a and_o precise_a for_o god_n glory_n you_o need_v not_o ask_v i_o whether_o in_o that_o my_o great_a danger_n i_o vow_v unto_o god_n a_o strict_a reformation_n of_o life_n i_o do_v indeed_o but_o when_o my_o danger_n be_v over_o i_o perform_v not_o my_o vow_n now_o i_o must_v fetch_v a_o compass_n back_o again_o to_o speak_v of_o my_o disease_n and_o of_o some_o trouble_v withal_o my_o body_n have_v be_v windy_a and_o rheumatic_a from_o my_o childhood_n by_o a_o natural_a distemper_n as_o i_o take_v it_o of_o my_o liver_n the_o hotenesse_n whereof_o have_v cause_v much_o evil_n unto_o i_o in_o the_o winter_n six_o hundred_o and_o six_o i_o then_o be_v curate_n of_o southfleet_n in_o kent_n after_o a_o extreme_a cough_n do_v sensible_o perceive_v blindness_n enter_v into_o my_o eye_n for_o diverse_a moat_n seem_v to_o fly_v before_o i_o which_o way_n soever_o i_o turn_v my_o sight_n yea_o and_o special_o before_o my_o right_a eye_n a_o thing_n in_o fashion_n of_o a_o kind_n of_o chain_n sometime_o fold_v or_o turn_v diverse_a way_n and_o sometime_o at_o length_n what_o infirmity_n in_o the_o eye_n cause_v this_o appearance_n let_v learned_a physician_n judge_v thus_o it_o have_v all_o this_o while_n be_v with_o i_o increase_v more_o and_o more_o so_o that_o now_o i_o have_v much_o ado_n to_o write_v or_o to_o read_v and_o be_o force_v to_o hold_v my_o eye_n and_o the_o book_n very_o near_o together_o the_o next_o winter_n after_o in_o the_o great_a frost_n i_o be_v take_v with_o a_o windy_a disease_n in_o the_o low_a part_n of_o my_o breast_n which_o so_o grievous_o vex_v i_o that_o i_o look_v for_o nothing_o but_o death_n in_o the_o very_a extremity_n of_o this_o painfulness_n doctor_n barlow_n then_o bishop_n of_o rochester_n who_o not_o long_o before_o by_o the_o death_n of_o mr._n winter_n come_v to_o have_v the_o parsonage_n of_o southfleet_n where_o i_o be_v curate_n be_v by_o some_o through_o my_o own_o undiscretion_n incense_v against_o i_o take_v a_o occasion_n to_o put_v i_o out_o of_o the_o curatship_n about_o that_o time_n i_o do_v set_v forth_o a_o little_a book_n call_v the_o burden_n of_o a_o load_a conscience_n which_o have_v occasion_v many_o heavy_a burden_n to_o be_v lay_v upon_o i_o by_o those_o who_o holiness_n be_v know_v unto_o god_n and_o not_o unto_o i_o a_o many_o precise_a folk_n that_o know_v not_o other_o man_n heart_n howsoever_o they_o know_v their_o own_o my_o old_a kind_a schoolfellow_n mr._n william_n eyre_n fellow_n in_o emanuel_n college_n who_o twice_o before_o have_v be_v my_o refuge_n under_o god_n understand_v that_o i_o be_v without_o place_n do_v by_o mean_n of_o mr._n john_n cotton_n fellow_n in_o the_o same_o college_n help_v i_o to_o the_o curateship_n of_o s._n alkmunds_n in_o derby_n of_o derbyshier_n there_o i_o be_v a_o year_n and_o a_o quarter_n very_o love_o use_v my_o stipend_n be_v full_o so_o much_o as_o ever_o before_o also_o m._n robert_n bate_v of_o little_a chester_n give_v i_o my_o diet_n and_o lodging_n all_o that_o time_n his_o wife_n a_o virtuous_a woman_n now_o in_o heaven_n have_v a_o very_a tender_a care_n of_o i_o because_o of_o my_o sickness_n unwise_o i_o leave_v that_o place_n and_o put_v myself_o into_o a_o world_n of_o trouble_n by_o take_v the_o curateship_n of_o all-hallows_n in_o the_o same_o town_n in_o this_o great_a and_o burdenous_a charge_n i_o have_v now_o be_v almost_o five_o year_n during_o this_o time_n my_o windy_a disease_n together_o with_o a_o faintness_n grow_v so_o upon_o i_o that_o i_o fall_v into_o diverse_a deadly_a fit_n of_o the_o cholike_a not_o only_o in_o cold_a weather_n but_o in_o the_o heat_n of_o summer_n now_o i_o come_v to_o tell_v you_o of_o intolerable_a torment_n gravel_n have_v breed_v in_o i_o from_o my_o youth_n and_o oftentimes_o i_o be_v pain_v with_o it_o whereupon_o i_o use_v to_o take_v a_o great_a deal_n of_o small_a drink_n and_o so_o avoid_v it_o i_o remember_v that_o my_o worshipful_a friend_n m._n richard_n se_o of_o southfleete_n say_v once_o unto_o i_o what_o will_v you_o do_v when_o your_o stomach_n can_v receive_v so_o much_o drink_v ah_o gentle_a m._n sed_o the_o time_n be_v now_o come_v and_o now_o i_o can_v do_v nothing_o to_o help_v myself_o but_o call_n upon_o the_o name_n of_o god_n about_o the_o end_n of_o july_n in_o the_o year_n sixteen_o hundred_o and_o twelve_o i_o be_v take_v with_o many_o fit_n of_o cholike_a and_o stone_n one_o fit_a anon_o after_o another_o then_o i_o cry_v god_n mercy_n and_o promise_v zealous_a amendment_n of_o life_n the_o fit_v leave_v i_o but_o i_o amend_v not_o the_o next_o summer_n after_o i_o have_v some_o three_o or_o four_o several_a fit_n now_o mark_v i_o pray_v you_o and_o believe_v i_o i_o beseech_v you_o the_o second_o of_o november_n last_o 1613._o at_o night_n i_o go_v to_o bed_n feel_v a_o fit_a of_o the_o cholike_a and_o stone_n come_v upon_o i_o wherefore_o i_o be_v in_o great_a anguish_n pray_v earnest_o unto_o god_n that_o for_o his_o mercy_n sake_n he_o will_v then_o ease_v i_o of_o that_o pain_n with_o condition_n that_o if_o i_o do_v not_o present_o enter_v into_o a_o very_a reform_a course_n of_o life_n the_o disease_n shall_v return_v upon_o i_o and_o kill_v i_o it_o present_o be_v go_v and_o all_o that_o night_n i_o have_v quiet_a rest_n the_o morrow_n i_o perform_v not_o my_o promise_n towards_o night_n i_o feel_v a_o threaten_n of_o it_o again_o and_o therefore_o according_a to_o doct._n bambrigs_n direction_n i_o take_v purge_v pill_n to_o prevent_v it_o which_o kind_n of_o physic_n have_v former_o ease_v i_o the_o pill_v wrought_v yet_o the_o morrow_n morning_n a_o violent_a fit_n come_v upon_o i_o how_o grievous_o i_o be_v that_o day_n torment_v some_o that_o in_o kindness_n come_v to_o see_v i_o namely_o m._n thomas_n stringer_n and_o m._n john_n haughton_n do_v i_o be_o sure_a very_o well_o remember_v my_o breast_n quake_v as_o a_o leaf_n shake_v with_o the_o wind_n you_o may_v think_v i_o have_v then_o great_a cause_n to_o fear_v that_o the_o wrath_n of_o my_o lord_n be_v kindle_v against_o i_o i_o humble_o beseech_v he_o to_o rebuke_v the_o disease_n yet_o once_o more_o and_o then_o unless_o i_o force_v myself_o to_o enter_v in_o at_o the_o strait_a door_n of_o repentance_n no_o more_o he_o be_v a_o gracious_a lord_n his_o name_n be_v praise_v at_o even_o he_o rebuke_v the_o disease_n and_o it_o leave_v i_o yet_o all_o that_o night_n i_o be_v glad_a to_o have_v mr._n duxburie_n sit_v with_o i_o i_o be_v so_o weaken_v one_o while_o i_o be_v up_o a_o other_o while_o down_o and_o o_o my_o good_a lord_n what_o i_o think_v upon_o thou_o know_v my_o soul_n most_o humble_o and_o lamentable_o appeal_v unto_o thy_o infinite_a mercy_n after_o this_o i_o purpose_v as_o i_o think_v very_o steadfast_o to_o reform_v myself_o according_a to_o the_o word_n of_o god_n yea_o so_o far_o forth_o that_o i_o write_v unto_o cantrell_n leg_n printer_n in_o cambridg_n a_o note_n to_o be_v set_v before_o the_o five_o impression_n of_o my_o former_a little_a book_n in_o that_o note_n bear_v date_n novemb._n 27._o 1613._o i_o signify_v that_o my_o conscience_n be_v unburthen_v &_o that_o i_o will_v short_o publish_v the_o manner_n thereof_o whereas_o god_n know_v i_o be_v far_o short_a of_o be_v unburthen_v now_o yet_o mark_v i_o pray_v you_o all_o my_o former_a fit_n be_v about_o the_o right_a kidnie_n in_o januarie_n and_o february_n i_o feel_v a_o painful_a gather_n of_o somewhat_o about_o my_o left_a kidnie_n which_o prickingly_a continue_v cause_v a_o grievous_a torment_n in_o the_o water_n passage_n out_o of_o my_o body_n many_o time_n my_o water_n come_v drop-meale_n with_o burn_a pain_n that_o long_o practise_v religious_a physician_n doct._n hunton_n of_o newarke_n upon_o
pray_v thus_o o_o my_o creator_n thou_o see_v how_o it_o be_v with_o i_o thy_o goodness_n be_v most_o wonderful_a my_o wickedness_n be_v most_o uncurable_a and_o unsufferable_a o_o make_v a_o speedy_a end_n of_o my_o sin_n which_o way_n soever_o it_o please_v thou_o &_o bless_v for_o evermore_o be_v thy_o name_n amen_n the_o morrow_n i_o straggle_v not_o abroad_o but_o my_o affection_n be_v very_o unruly_a yea_o and_o that_o which_o be_v strange_a i_o can_v not_o frame_v my_o mind_n to_o take_v any_o deep_a conceit_n of_o the_o wickedness_n of_o my_o heart_n thus_o it_o be_v when_o a_o man_n heart_n be_v settle_v in_o the_o love_n of_o any_o evil_n he_o be_v not_o able_a to_o think_v so_o of_o it_o as_o it_o be_v friday_n the_o first_o of_o july_n i_o dine_v with_o a_o guest_n a_o learned_a friend_n of_o i_o who_o take_v occasion_n to_o speak_v somewhat_o sharp_o against_o precisian_n this_o i_o think_v he_o do_v the_o rather_o because_o some_o inform_v he_o that_o i_o be_v too_o familiar_a with_o such_o people_n therefore_o to_o satisfy_v both_o that_o minister_n &_o all_o other_o who_o it_o may_v concern_v i_o most_o humble_o crave_v the_o benefit_n of_o modest_a liberty_n to_o speak_v without_o offence_n what_o my_o poor_a soul_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n think_v touch_v this_o division_n it_o have_v be_v a_o mean_n of_o great_a advantage_n both_o to_o popery_n &_o profaneness_n yea_o this_o wretchedness_n be_v cause_v by_o it_o upon_o either_o side_n diverse_a have_v nothing_o else_o to_o commend_v they_o but_o only_o this_o that_o they_o be_v of_o that_o side_n yea_o and_o the_o side_n be_v glad_a to_o make_v use_n of_o they_o be_v it_o not_o a_o lamentable_a case_n that_o some_o appear_v to_o have_v almost_o no_o conscience_n but_o against_o ceremony_n other_o none_o but_o for_o ceremony_n the_o precisian_n do_v in_o my_o conscience_n not_o without_o great_a cause_n cry_v out_o against_o ignorant_a idle_a and_o profane_a minister_n but_o where_o be_v the_o fault_n the_o coast_n have_v be_v well_o clear_v by_o this_o time_n of_o the_o day_n have_v not_o satan_n cause_v church-government_n to_o be_v both_o by_o way_n of_o soberness_n and_o in_o the_o fashion_n of_o maddenes_n very_o fierce_o assail_v but_o to_o what_o end_n to_o reform_v the_o church_n no_o to_o deform_v it_o this_o be_v my_o belief_n concern_v church-government_n can_v any_o man_n true_o say_v such_o a_o lord_n bishop_n do_v not_o seek_v his_o own_o worldly_a commodity_n but_o the_o edify_n of_o his_o diocese_n and_o the_o glory_n of_o jesus_n christ_n do_v it_o evident_o appear_v that_o his_o whole_a bent_n be_v in_o the_o diligent_a discharge_n of_o his_o office_n to_o approve_v himself_o unto_o god_n and_o unto_o every_o conscience_n of_o man_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n then_o will_v i_o conclude_v upon_o my_o soul_n peril_n there_o be_v the_o apostolical_a church-governement_n of_o jesus_n christ_n if_o any_o such_o there_o be_v who_o can_v in_o some_o good_a measure_n be_v true_o so_o report_v of_o the_o calamity_n be_v great_a the_o judgement_n very_o fearful_a yet_o because_o of_o personal_a fault_n to_o destroy_v a_o divine_a ordinance_n and_o bring_v in_o confusion_n the_o calamity_n will_v be_v great_a the_o judgement_n more_o fearful_a indeed_o church-discipline_n be_v not_o reverence_v for_o want_v of_o holy_a severity_n the_o punishment_n of_o fornication_n and_o adultery_n etc._n etc._n be_v little_a else_o but_o large_a fee_n a_o filthy_a gain_n fie_o upon_o it_o i_o will_v entreat_v leave_n to_o speak_v once_o more_o touch_v the_o ministry_n beside_o what_o i_o have_v by_o the_o way_n signify_v already_o i_o humble_o pray_v great_a scholar_n and_o all_o that_o seek_v after_o riches_n and_o advancement_n in_o the_o church_n to_o ponder_v these_o my_o word_n the_o gospel_n of_o the_o son_n of_o god_n must_v and_o will_v first_o throw_v down_o pride_n and_o covetousness_n before_o it_o work_v a_o universal_a good_a in_o this_o kingdom_n those_o two_o great_a sin_n can_v be_v uphold_v any_o way_n but_o only_o by_o popery_n for_o they_o must_v be_v accompany_v with_o a_o superstitious_a conceit_n that_o pomp_n be_v religion_n which_o when_o all_o have_v say_v what_o they_o can_v say_v the_o gospel_n will_v not_o endure_v so_o i_o have_v do_v the_o same_o friday_n after_o that_o i_o have_v dine_v it_o come_v into_o my_o mind_n to_o go_v into_o the_o town_n as_o former_o i_o have_v do_v but_o i_o feel_v in_o my_o heart_n no_o desire_n to_o go_v therefore_o come_v into_o my_o chamber_n i_o begin_v to_o wonder_v at_o myself_o what_o shall_v ail_v i_o fear_v lest_o some_o secret_a deadliness_n have_v seize_v upon_o my_o heart_n at_o last_o i_o break_v out_o into_o these_o word_n whatsoever_o be_v the_o cause_n bless_a be_v the_o name_n of_o god_n o_o good_a lord_n let_v whatsoever_o come_v upon_o i_o so_o that_o my_o spirit_n may_v be_v settle_v in_o this_o disposition_n and_o i_o shall_v be_v bind_v to_o praise_v thou_o most_o joyful_o for_o evermore_o amen_n that_o day_n i_o keep_v myself_o within_o and_o the_o morrow_n and_o the_o sabbath_n day_n have_v get_v one_o to_o supply_v my_o place_n all_o the_o next_o week_n i_o continue_v so_o and_o the_o sabbath_n follow_v my_o place_n be_v supply_v by_o one_o preacher_n in_o the_o forenoon_n and_o a_o other_o in_o the_o afternoon_n wednesday_n the_o thirteen_o of_o july_n i_o still_o keep_v within_o pray_v thus_o o_o most_o holy_a and_o dreadful_a lord_n god_n with_o what_o face_n can_v so_o heinous_a a_o sinner_n as_o i_o be_o dare_v to_o speak_v unto_o thy_o most_o glorious_a majesty_n or_o be_v so_o bold_a to_o ask_v any_o thing_n of_o thou_o thy_o most_o wonderful_a goodness_n embolden_v i_o and_o yet_o still_o i_o think_v i_o be_o past_a grace_n because_o sin_n do_v so_o abound_v in_o i_o o_o lord_n my_o sin_n be_v as_o the_o sand_n of_o the_o sea_n unnumberable_a &_o therefore_o my_o soul_n must_v needs_o be_v thorough_o and_o thorough_o stain_v for_o every_o sin_n so_o often_o as_o it_o be_v yield_v unto_o work_v a_o black_a blemish_n into_o my_o soul_n woe_n be_v i_o my_o soul_n be_v whole_o overrun_v with_o a_o most_o foul_a filthy_a leprosy_n this_o be_v all_o my_o comfort_n that_o thy_o servant_n say_v rom._n 5.20_o where_o sin_n abound_v grace_n do_v much_o more_o abound_v the_o more_o deadly_a the_o disease_n the_o more_o sovereign_a the_o medicine_n the_o more_o excellent_a the_o physician_n that_o cure_v it_o o_o god_n thou_o be_v able_a to_o do_v whatsoever_o powerful_a work_n thou_o will_v yea_o thou_o can_v do_v infinite_o more_o than_o thou_o will_v but_o here_o be_v the_o great_a wonder_n that_o thou_o shall_v vouchsafe_v to_o work_v a_o most_o admirable_a cure_n upon_o he_o unto_o who_o thou_o may_v most_v just_o say_v away_o from_o i_o thou_o most_o damnable_a sinner_n away_o out_o of_o my_o light_n i_o will_v not_o pardon_v thou_o because_o thou_o have_v most_o grievous_o displease_v and_o unpardonable_o dishonour_v i_o in_o break_v the_o law_n of_o my_o kingdom_n in_o refuse_v my_o proffer_a grace_n in_o take_v upon_o thou_o to_o be_v a_o preacher_n of_o my_o righteousness_n and_o deny_v the_o power_n thereof_o yet_o bless_a lord_n so_o long_o as_o the_o judge_n do_v not_o give_v order_n that_o the_o condemn_a prisoner_n be_v take_v from_o the_o bar_n the_o poor_a wretch_n cry_v for_o his_o precious_a life_n say_v mercy_n good_a my_o lord_n judge_n mercy_n for_o jesus_n christ_n sake_n the_o name_n jesus_n with_o a_o earthly_a christian_a judge_n can_v but_o be_v of_o great_a force_n &_o must_v needs_o move_v he_o very_o much_o for_o it_o be_v the_o name_n of_o his_o dear_a saviour_n the_o only_a name_n whereby_o he_o trust_v to_o be_v save_v but_o of_o all_o and_o above_o all_o the_o name_n jesus_n be_v most_o precious_a in_o thy_o sight_n be_v not_o superstitious_o parrate_v but_o mournful_o present_v unto_o thou_o therefore_o though_o a_o thousand_o thousand_o several_a inditement_n be_v find_v against_o i_o and_o though_o the_o law_n of_o thy_o kingdom_n do_v condemn_v i_o yet_o see_v that_o it_o be_v thy_o good_a pleasure_n to_o suffer_v i_o to_o stand_v in_o thy_o presence_n and_o not_o to_o be_v take_v out_o of_o this_o world_n i_o cry_v unto_o thou_o say_v mercy_n lord_n god_n almighty_a mercy_n for_o thy_o only_o beget_v son_n sake_n jesus_n christ_n god_n &_o man_n crucify_v for_o the_o love_n of_o he_o bless_a lord_n be_v merciful_a unto_o i_o the_o worst_a of_o all_o sinner_n amen_n amen_n towards_o evening_n i_o be_v punish_v with_o the_o hot_a passage_n of_o my_o water_n painfulness_n about_o the_o left_a kidnie_n and_o burn_v of_o the_o right_a foot_n be_v much_o afraid_a of_o a_o deadly_a