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morning_n 1._o because_o it_o be_v the_o first-fruit_n of_o the_o day_n and_o the_o first-fruit_n be_v holy_a all_o the_o rest_n be_v fanctify_v 2._o because_o our_o thought_n be_v then_o not_o soil_v with_o worldly_a business_n will_v not_o be_v so_o subject_a to_o be_v distract_v 3._o because_o the_o body_n itself_o be_v more_o serene_a then_o after_o meal_n and_o this_o duty_n need_v a_o empty_a stomach_n not_o only_o because_o the_o head_n will_v be_v more_o clear_a and_o fit_a for_o meditation_n but_o also_o because_o many_o passage_n of_o meditation_n require_v so_o much_o intention_n of_o the_o mind_n and_o fervency_n of_o affection_n that_o they_o do_v hinder_v digestion_n 4._o because_o that_o
which_o do_v speak_v of_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o sin_n or_o of_o the_o majesty_n of_o god_n and_o his_o terrible_a wrath_n execute_v judgement_n upon_o sinner_n all_o which_o serve_v rather_o to_o terrify_v a_o poor_a droop_a soul_n then_o to_o comfort_v it_o but_o let_v he_o rather_o meditate_v upon_o those_o scripture_n which_o do_v speak_v of_o the_o merciful_a nature_n of_o god_n of_o the_o full_a satisfaction_n of_o christ_n and_o of_o his_o great_a love_n to_o poor_a sinner_n as_o to_o paul_n manasses_n mary_n magdalen_n and_o some_o such_o other_o great_a sinner_n who_o god_n have_v pardon_v 5._o let_v your_o meditation_n be_v suitable_a to_o the_o ordinance_n that_o you_o be_v to_o be_v make_v partaker_n of_o as_o if_o you_o be_v to_o receive_v the_o sacrament_n then_o meditate_v upon_o your_o preparatory_a concomitant_a and_o subsequent_a duty_n meditate_v upon_o the_o love_n of_o god_n the_o father_n upon_o the_o love_n of_o god_n the_o son_n jesus_n christ_n consider_v the_o excellency_n of_o his_o person_n the_o greatness_n of_o his_o suffering_n and_o how_o valid_a they_o be_v to_o the_o satisfaction_n of_o god_n justice_n and_o so_o likewise_o to_o consider_v of_o the_o excellency_n nature_n and_o use_v of_o the_o sacrament_n so_o if_o thou_o have_v a_o child_n to_o be_v baptize_v consider_v the_o duty_n and_o promise_n of_o belong_v to_o that_o ordinance_n the_o duty_n thereof_o belong_v to_o thou_o for_o the_o present_a but_o to_o the_o child_n for_o the_o future_a 6._o the_o scripture_n be_v not_o to_o be_v meditate_a on_o as_o it_o be_v to_o be_v read_v there_o be_v no_o part_n of_o the_o scripture_n but_o what_o be_v to_o be_v read_v by_o we_o but_o there_o be_v a_o great_a deal_n of_o scripture_n which_o can_v be_v a_o fit_a suject_n for_o we_o to_o meditate_v upon_o but_o such_o as_o i_o shall_v mention_v though_o there_o be_v many_o part_n of_o scripture_n beside_o which_o may_v be_v fit_a proper_a subject_n for_o we_o to_o meditate_v upon_o but_o these_o most_o especial_o as_o the_o psalm_n of_o david_n many_o chapter_n of_o the_o proverb_n of_o solomon_n some_o choice_a place_n of_o the_o canticle_n most_o of_o the_o holy_a gospel_n and_o most_o of_o the_o epistle_n something_o of_o the_o revelation_n and_o then_o all_o promise_n in_o general_a and_o that_o for_o two_o reason_n the_o one_o be_v because_o the_o promise_v themselves_o put_v we_o upon_o the_o duty_n and_o then_o the_o promise_n bring_v comfort_n far_o be_v it_o from_o we_o to_o despise_v the_o consolation_n of_o our_o heavenly_a lord_n meditate_v also_o upon_o the_o holy_a and_o bless_a command_n of_o god_n and_o the_o example_n of_o saint_n and_o let_v this_o be_v your_o meditation_n to_o say_v thus_o within_o yourselves_o why_o shall_v abraham_n love_v god_n or_o david_n love_v god_n more_o than_o i_o why_o shall_v the_o angel_n love_v god_n more_o than_o i_o god_n have_v forgive_v i_o thousand_o of_o iniquity_n and_o transgression_n but_o never_o forgive_v the_o angel_n one_o when_o thou_o read_v holy_a example_n of_o the_o old_a testament_n you_o may_v see_v that_o not_o only_o such_o and_o such_o thing_n be_v feasible_a but_o that_o with_o far_o less_o help_v it_o be_v do_v than_o now_o we_o in_o these_o gospel_n time_n have_v to_o do_v it_o with_o 7._o let_v christ_n be_v very_o much_o the_o subject_a of_o your_o meditation_n when_o i_o consider_v the_o whole_a business_n of_o the_o worship_n of_o god_n from_o the_o begin_n of_o the_o world_n to_o christ_n and_o how_o god_n do_v acquiesse_n in_o christ_n and_o that_o the_o high_a angel_n desire_v to_o know_v he_o i_o full_o conclude_v that_o christ_n be_v wonderful_o worththy_a to_o take_v up_o our_o thought_n our_o chief_a love_n and_o our_o great_a joy_n so_o that_o the_o question_n will_v not_o be_v whether_o christ_n be_v worthy_a of_o our_o love_n but_o rather_o whether_o our_o love_n be_v worthy_a of_o christ_n and_o as_o the_o other_o so_o this_o be_v unquestionable_a and_o of_o doubt_n that_o it_o be_v not_o instance_n of_o solemn_a divine_a meditation_n meditation_n i._n alas_o my_o god_n i_o be_o in_o a_o sad_a condition_n my_o affliction_n grow_v daily_o upon_o i_o and_o that_o which_o be_v my_o unsupportable_a misery_n my_o corruption_n grow_v fast_o upon_o i_o than_o my_o affliction_n what_o before_o make_v i_o weep_v will_v not_o now_o make_v i_o sigh_v the_o heavy_a burden_n of_o a_o great_a abomination_n do_v not_o lie_v upon_o i_o so_o much_o as_o before_o i_o be_v oppress_v with_o a_o vain_a thought_n in_o my_o prayer_n alas_o lord_n alas_o i_o be_o undo_v alas_o my_o corruption_n have_v almost_o make_v i_o love_v they_o and_o make_v i_o weary_a of_o duty_n and_o careless_a of_o grace_n my_o joy_n be_v go_v and_o my_o sorrow_n be_v go_v that_o be_v suitable_a to_o thy_o word_n and_o now_o my_o joy_n be_v but_o the_o laughter_n of_o fool_n and_o my_o sorrow_n be_v carnal_a sensual_a and_o more_o of_o hell_n in_o they_o then_o of_o heaven_n and_o as_o now_o i_o can_v scarce_o tell_v my_o sorrow_n so_o have_v i_o scarce_o any_o sorrow_n to_o tell_v i_o have_v sit_v down_o and_o weep_v to_o consider_v the_o great_a decay_n of_o holiness_n in_o i_o but_o now_o i_o can_v see_v my_o god_n go_v from_o i_o and_o when_o as_o now_o he_o be_v even_o out_o of_o sight_n my_o eye_n be_v as_o dry_a as_o my_o heart_n be_v hard_a alas_o lord_n if_o thou_o will_v not_o return_v thou_o will_v lose_v a_o poor_a soul_n that_o have_v love_v thou_o and_o be_v somewhat_o trouble_v now_o poorsad_a soul_n that_o it_o be_v so_o wicked_a as_o it_o be_v meditat._n ii_o lord_n thou_o see_v the_o strange_a distemper_a temper_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o spirit_n ah_o bless_a god_n i_o shall_v take_v more_o comfort_n if_o i_o shall_v see_v my_o heartblood_n run_v forth_o before_o my_o eye_n then_o to_o see_v my_o eye_n so_o dry_a and_o my_o heart_n so_o hard_o i_o have_v wear_v out_o almost_o all_o motive_n to_o holiness_n they_o now_o take_v no_o impression_n in_o i_o which_o before_o be_v too_o strong_a for_o i_o to_o bear_v they_o ravish_v i_o which_o now_o do_v not_o move_v i_o i_o scarce_o ever_o go_v to_o prayer_n but_o i_o have_v enough_o and_o too_o many_o spiritual_a complaint_n to_o employ_v it_o to_o express_v if_o every_o day_n i_o have_v not_o just_a cause_n to_o bewail_v a_o continue_a decay_n of_o grace_n i_o may_v have_v some_o respite_n of_o my_o grief_n but_o what_o shall_v i_o now_o do_v when_o every_o day_n shall_v bear_v witness_n against_o i_o and_o every_o night_n my_o sin_n shall_v go_v to_o bed_n with_o i_o and_o lie_v in_o my_o bosom_n and_o rise_v in_o the_o morning_n more_o strong_a then_o at_o night_n ah_o when_o my_o former_a holy_a life_n shall_v be_v more_o terrible_a than_o other_o wicked_a life_n when_o my_o former_a prayer_n shall_v be_v like_o the_o gall_n of_o asp_n unto_o i_o when_o those_o duty_n which_o shall_v be_v my_o comfort_n be_v my_o terror_n alas_o what_o can_v my_o poor_a soul_n do_v when_o my_o present_a sin_n and_o my_o past_a duty_n which_o of_o they_o be_v the_o heavy_a burden_n unto_o i_o i_o do_v not_o know_v what_o shall_v i_o do_v when_o i_o consider_v these_o thing_n than_o the_o thought_n of_o the_o affliction_n that_o lie_v upon_o i_o make_v i_o weep_v a_o tear_n or_o two_o and_o my_o vain_a heart_n my_o deceitful_a heart_n will_v persuade_v i_o that_o i_o weep_v for_o my_o sin_n those_o in_o desertion_n be_v in_o a_o bless_a condition_n to_o i_o they_o be_v sad_a and_o i_o be_o miserable_a i_o be_o guilty_a of_o that_o which_o their_o conscience_n do_v but_o accuse_v they_o off_o alas_o have_v i_o my_o communion_n with_o god_n my_o sweet_a communion_n and_o the_o power_n i_o have_v to_o prevail_v with_o he_o for_o any_o mercy_n almost_o that_o i_o pray_v for_o now_o i_o can_v pray_v and_o pray_v and_o pray_v and_o go_v away_o without_o a_o blessing_n i_o can_v almost_o be_v content_a to_o be_v wicked_a thou_o know_v my_o heart_n or_o else_o my_o tear_n will_v deceive_v thou_o as_o well_o as_o i_o if_o they_o be_v worldly_a thought_n that_o have_v estrange_v i_o from_o thou_o thou_o know_v how_o to_o cure_v i_o if_o my_o utter_a impoverishing_n will_v cure_v i_o let_v i_o be_v as_o poor_a job_n if_o thou_o be_v not_o such_o a_o physician_n as_o thou_o be_v i_o be_v past_o cure_n meditat._n iii_o lord_n i_o be_o come_v now_o to_o power_n out_o my_o soul_n before_o thou_o and_o my_o tear_n in_o thy_o bosom_n to_o tell_v thou_o the_o sad_a thought_n and_o sorrow_n of_o my_o heart_n ah_o my_o god_n in_o this_o bitterness_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o with_o tear_n in_o my_o eye_n and_o pride_n