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with_o his_o grace_n wherewith_o she_o be_v so_o strike_v in_o love_n that_o from_o thenceforth_o she_o do_v even_o melt_v with_o the_o desire_n she_o have_v of_o reduce_v soul_n to_o god_n and_o she_o ardent_o pray_v he_o that_o he_o will_v grant_v she_o many_o soul_n and_o in_o the_o fervour_n of_o her_o spirit_n she_o will_v say_v o_o that_o it_o be_v lawful_a for_o i_o to_o go_v into_o the_o indies_n or_o among_o the_o turk_n i_o will_v take_v those_o little_a child_n note_n note_n and_o with_o so_o great_a affection_n teach_v they_o all_o that_o belong_v to_o our_o holy_a religion_n that_o whatsoever_o pain_n i_o may_v endure_v shall_v be_v of_o much_o comfort_n to_o i_o but_o because_o she_o can_v not_o perform_v this_o she_o will_v often_o take_v occasion_n to_o speak_v with_o some_o of_o the_o simple_a sort_n of_o the_o religious_a and_o be_v ever_o instruct_v they_o about_o heavenly_a thing_n and_o about_o the_o perfection_n of_o a_o religious_a life_n and_o so_o great_a delight_n she_o take_v herein_o that_o for_o this_o she_o will_v forget_v both_o her_o food_n and_o her_o rest_n moreover_o to_o the_o end_n that_o god_n may_v be_v please_v for_o her_o sake_n to_o draw_v sinful_a soul_n unto_o himself_o she_o will_v in_o the_o horror_n of_o the_o night_n take_v severe_a discipline_n and_o imprison_v her_o flesh_n within_o pierce_a hair_n clothes_n sometime_o in_o the_o most_o secret_a place_n of_o the_o covent_n she_o will_v pray_v most_o ardent_o sometime_o she_o will_v exhibit_v â—ertaine_a act_n of_o humility_n to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n whereby_o he_o may_v be_v please_v with_o the_o lightning_n of_o his_o love_n to_o pierce_v â—he_v stony_a hart_n of_o sinner_n reduce_v they_o â—t_z last_o to_o penance_n but_o especial_o in_o the_o time_n of_o shroâ—etide_n when_o the_o divine_a goodness_n be_v most_o offend_v she_o will_v redouble_v those_o holy_a exercise_n consume_v sometime_o the_o whole_a night_n in_o prayer_n and_o continual_a lamentation_n oftentimes_o she_o be_v hear_v to_o say_v these_o word_n i_o beseech_v thou_o o_o my_o jesus_n that_o thou_o will_v grant_v i_o so_o many_o soul_n as_o i_o be_o to_o move_v pace_n in_o this_o day_n sometim_n be_v set_v on_o fire_n by_o this_o flame_n of_o charity_n she_o will_v leave_v exercise_n wherein_o she_o be_v &_o cast_v herself_o upon_o her_o knee_n will_v with_o sigh_n and_o tear_n desire_v of_o jesus_n christ_n that_o sinner_n may_v be_v convert_v to_o he_o at_o other_o time_n she_o will_v take_v a_o crucifix_n into_o her_o hand_n and_o after_o have_v whole_o offer_v herself_o to_o god_n she_o will_v discharge_v herself_o further_o in_o these_o word_n thou_o o_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o die_v upon_o the_o cross_n and_o to_o bestow_v all_o thy_o blood_n upon_o sinner_n and_o i_o also_o o_o lord_n will_v be_v glad_a to_o give_v my_o blood_n and_o be_v depriveâ—_n of_o life_n that_o they_o may_v be_v convert_v by_o this_o mean_n she_o give_v desire_n to_o the_o religious_a of_o endure_v any_o pain_n for_o the_o reduction_n of_o soul_n to_o god_n and_o because_o jesus_n have_v show_v sometime_o to_o she_o in_o rapt_v how_o hideous_o deform_v a_o soul_n be_v which_o live_v in_o darkness_n of_o sin_n she_o will_v say_v sometime_o that_o she_o see_v no_o difference_n in_o the_o uglines_n thereof_o from_o that_o of_o the_o infernal_a spirit_n she_o say_v she_o will_v willing_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o the_o extraordinary_a gift_n which_o she_o have_v receive_v of_o god_n note_n note_n that_o they_o may_v be_v grant_v to_o her_o neighbour_n &_o that_o for_o her_o part_n it_o will_v suffice_v if_o she_o may_v keep_v her_o good_a desire_n of_o be_v able_a to_o love_n and_o serve_v his_o divine_a majesty_n for_o this_o cause_n she_o will_v also_o deprive_v herself_o sometime_o of_o her_o dear_a discourse_n with_o god_n that_o she_o may_v be_v a_o help_n to_o her_o sister_n for_o as_o she_o often_o say_v she_o make_v great_a account_n of_o be_v able_a to_o assist_v other_o then_o of_o all_o the_o excess_n of_o mind_n that_o she_o may_v have_v for_o in_o these_o excess_n say_v she_o i_o be_o holpen_v by_o god_n but_o by_o assist_v my_o neighbour_n i_o help_v god_n beside_o she_o consider_v so_o earnest_o â—he_v creature_n in_o their_o spiritual_a part_n that_o â—he_v name_v they_o not_o otherwise_o then_o by_o â—he_n name_n of_o soul_n not_o regard_v any_o â—hing_n in_o they_o but_o the_o participation_n which_o they_o have_v with_o god_n in_o be_v creâ—ted_v after_o his_o image_n she_o obtain_v of_o god_n by_o her_o prayer_n the_o conversion_n of_o many_o sinful_a soul_n chap._n 51._o but_o great_a sign_n of_o her_o zeal_n towards_o the_o salvation_n of_o other_o be_v then_o see_v when_o be_v in_o prayer_n she_o be_v kindle_v with_o such_o desire_n as_o make_v she_o say_v once_o i_o find_v that_o now_o the_o world_n be_v grow_v to_o be_v in_o worse_a state_n than_o ever_o for_o now_o there_o be_v no_o more_o to_o be_v find_v any_o charity_n i_o have_v envy_n against_o the_o bird_n of_o the_o air_n who_o can_v fly_v up_o and_o down_o where_o they_o will_v and_o make_v every_o body_n hear_v their_o sweet_a note_n &_o they_o can_v every_o where_o renew_v their_o delightful_a music_n without_o ever_o rest_v o_o thou_o word_n so_o will_v i_o be_v able_a to_o do_v i_o will_v fly_v through_o out_o the_o world_n and_o make_v myself_o to_o be_v heaâ—_n by_o every_o one_o that_o so_o i_o may_v imprint_v this_o loâ—_n and_o this_o delight_n in_o the_o heart_n of_o thy_o creature_n after_o this_o she_o show_v by_o her_o wordâ—_n that_o she_o see_v a_o priest_n far_o of_o from_o thâ—_n way_n of_o god_n whereupon_o she_o give_v herself_o to_o pray_v unto_o the_o divin_v majesty_n with_o sucâ—_n fervour_n of_o spirit_n with_o word_n so_o affectuous_a and_o with_o such_o abundance_n of_o tear_n for_o the_o reduction_n of_o that_o person_n that_o she_o obtain_v to_o see_v he_o in_o good_a estate_n be_v for_o this_o reason_n grow_v as_o cheerful_a as_o may_v be_v imagine_v she_o break_v forth_o into_o this_o speech_n at_o last_o o_o word_n my_o prayer_n have_v obtain_v their_o end_n yet_o do_v not_o this_o qualify_v the_o burn_a fire_n of_o her_o great_a charity_n but_o do_v rather_o kindle_v it_o so_o much_o the_o more_o for_o not_o content_a with_o this_o she_o begin_v to_o pray_v our_o lord_n for_o the_o conversion_n of_o other_o priest_n who_o she_o see_v defile_v with_o diverse_a sin_n and_o this_o she_o urge_v by_o so_o devout_a reason_n as_o seem_v after_o a_o sort_n even_o to_o convince_v and_o oblige_v almighty_a god_n to_o infuse_v divine_a grace_n into_o those_o sinful_a soul_n whereby_o they_o may_v be_v illuminate_v for_o
chap._n 71._o scarce_o have_v she_o end_v her_o office_n of_o the_o mistress_n of_o the_o novice_n and_o be_v confirm_v therein_o for_o three_o other_o year_n when_o in_o the_o year_n 1602._o she_o be_v overtake_v with_o a_o continual_a catarrh_n which_o wrought_v upon_o she_o in_o such_o sort_n as_o whole_o to_o deprive_v she_o of_o her_o strength_n in_o a_o very_a short_a tyme._n yet_o she_o make_v small_a account_n thereof_o will_v never_o excuse_v herself_o from_o the_o rigour_n of_o the_o life_n she_o lead_v nay_o she_o increase_v it_o by_o more_o sharp_a pennance_n be_v in_o doubt_n that_o it_o may_v arrive_v by_o the_o art_n of_o her_o enemy_n to_o alienate_v she_o thereby_o from_o austerity_n for_o this_o cause_n she_o will_v say_v o_o how_o watchful_a ought_v we_o to_o be_v over_o ourselves_o so_o dull_a and_o cowardly_a be_v this_o sense_n of_o we_o which_o will_v esteem_v that_o to_o be_v weakness_n &_o infirmity_n note_n note_n whiâ—h_v indeed_o be_v noth_z ng_z but_o 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and_o be_v all_o in_o admiration_n she_o add_v o_o how_o little_o shall_v i_o become_v again_o by_o reason_n of_o wh_z ch_z littleness_n these_o soul_n of_o i_o will_v know_v i_o no_o long_o she_o will_v by_o this_o infer_v as_o afterward_o by_o obedience_n she_o relate_v that_o by_o occasion_n of_o her_o sickness_n she_o be_v now_o to_o lead_v a_o life_n so_o different_a from_o the_o former_a that_o it_o will_v seem_v to_o they_o a_o be_v bear_v again_o because_o she_o be_v to_o bear_v the_o naked_a cross_n this_o succeed_v punctual_o for_o from_o that_o time_n forward_o she_o find_v so_o great_a poverty_n of_o spirit_n as_o it_o may_v seem_v after_o a_o sort_n that_o she_o be_v abandoneâ—_n by_o god_n yet_o she_o nevertheless_o be_v still_o more_o earnest_a in_o the_o execution_n of_o the_o divine_a will_n and_o show_v herself_o ready_a to_o suffer_v any_o affliction_n whatsoever_o &_o they_o short_o after_o return_v out_o of_o rapt_v in_o the_o mean_a time_n she_o end_v her_o 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miserable_a wretched_a creature_n without_o any_o labour_n of_o i_o and_o which_o be_v more_o without_o any_o merit_n provision_n be_v make_v by_o the_o religion_n whereby_o my_o body_n may_v be_v sustain_v and_o not_o only_o do_v i_o commit_v this_o offence_n but_o that_o other_o also_o in_o make_v that_o spouse_n of_o thy_o speak_v so_o many_o word_n and_o yet_o i_o know_v that_o in_o that_o place_n it_o be_v not_o lawful_a to_o speak_v at_o all_o behold_v o_o my_o lord_n how_o in_o all_o my_o operation_n i_o find_v that_o i_o have_v offend_v thou_o how_o then_o shall_v i_o appear_v in_o thy_o presence_n to_o demand_v gift_n and_o grace_n of_o thou_o and_o to_o recommend_v thy_o creature_n to_o thou_o i_o who_o have_v so_o much_o offend_v thou_o that_o i_o deserve_v no_o mercy_n for_o myself_o but_o that_o love_n which_o move_v thou_o to_o come_v down_o on_o earth_n and_o to_o shed_v thy_o blood_n let_v that_o move_v thou_o to_o show_v mercy_n towards_o my_o soul_n when_o 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that_o i_o hope_v for_o pardon_n and_o how_o much_o do_v i_o fail_v o_o god_n when_o i_o have_v that_o other_o work_n to_o do_v in_o not_o take_v a_o little_a pain_n to_o move_v those_o few_o pace_n i_o say_v i_o fail_v of_o that_o which_o i_o be_v bind_v to_o do_v i_o entreat_v other_o that_o they_o will_v â—oâ—e_v that_o charity_n and_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n i_o fail_v of_o do_v it_o to_o my_o own_o soul_n i_o take_v more_o care_n that_o i_o may_v not_o take_v a_o little_a pain_n than_o i_o do_v lest_o thou_o shall_v depart_v â—rom_o i_o in_o all_o my_o work_n i_o find_v defect_n o_o my_o god_n ut_fw-la thou_o not_o regard_v my_o offence_n of_o thy_o own_o goodness_n have_v draw_v i_o to_o thou_o again_o where_o thou_o give_v i_o so_o much_o light_n as_o if_o thou_o ave_v it_o to_o any_o other_o â—ule_n it_o will_v make_v more_o profit_n by_o it_o then_o i_o most_o wretched_a and_o miss_v rabble_n creature_n do_v again_o i_o go_v to_o restore_v myself_o with_o corporal_a food_n neither_o yet_o do_v i_o â—all_n to_o mind_v the_o many_o poor_a one_o that_o want_n wherewith_o to_o feed_v themselves_o whereas_o for_o i_o o_o my_o lord_n thou_o have_v so_o liberal_o provide_v and_o now_o i_o offer_v thy_o own_o blood_n again_o for_o so_o many_o offence_n as_o i_o have_v make_v against_o thou_o alas_o o_o my_o lord_n how_o true_a it_o be_v that_o we_o be_v in_o darkness_n and_o i_o have_v not_o perform_v any_o work_n without_o offend_v thou_o what_o then_o remain_v for_o i_o to_o do_v o_o my_o god_n though_o i_o have_v offend_v thou_o so_o much_o in_o this_o day_n â—et_o will_v i_o not_o commit_v this_o last_o and_o great_a offence_n which_o be_v if_o i_o shall_v not_o confide_v in_o thou_o and_o in_o thy_o mercy_n i_o know_v well_o o_o lord_n that_o i_o deserve_v no_o pardon_n but_o the_o blood_n which_o thou_o have_v shed_v for_o i_o will_v make_v i_o hope_v in_o thou_o and_o that_o thou_o will_v forgive_v i_o have_v make_v this_o examen_fw-la be_v in_o rapt_v all_o the_o while_n she_o retire_v herself_o into_o a_o secret_a place_n of_o the_o monastery_n where_o she_o afflict_v her_o body_n with_o a_o grievous_a discipline_n but_o first_o as_o soon_o as_o she_o return_v from_o she_o say_v rapt_v she_o recommend_v all_o the_o creature_n to_o almighty_a god_n and_o offer_v up_o for_o they_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n jesus_n she_o remain_v in_o extasis_fw-la eight_o day_n and_o eight_o night_n speak_v of_o high_a mysterye_n and_o every_o morning_n at_o the_o hour_n of_o tertia_fw-la she_o receive_v the_o holy_a
follow_v she_o that_o she_o may_v also_o possess_v her_o dear_a spouse_n christ_n jesus_n she_o be_v much_o trouble_v by_o the_o temptation_n of_o gluttony_n chap._n 34._o in_o this_o mean_a time_n the_o devil_n never_o cease_v to_o molest_v she_o come_v with_o a_o temptation_n of_o extreme_a gluttony_n and_o although_o any_o vice_n of_o this_o kind_n be_v whole_o contrary_a even_o to_o her_o natural_a inclination_n beside_o the_o resolution_n that_o she_o have_v make_v to_o feed_v only_o upon_o bread_n and_o water_n yet_o nevertheless_o she_o be_v urge_v withal_o violence_n by_o that_o malign_a spirit_n sometim_n to_o take_v meat_n by_o stealth_n sometime_o to_o desire_v those_o meat_n which_o howsoever_o they_o be_v in_o themselves_o shut_v up_o yet_o they_o seem_v visible_o to_o be_v represent_v before_o his_o eye_n for_o have_v occasion_n to_o pass_v often_o by_o those_o place_n where_o the_o provision_n be_v keep_v she_o will_v instant_o see_v the_o door_n and_o cupboard_n to_o fly_v open_a before_o she_o so_o as_o by_o occasion_n thereof_o she_o be_v extraordinary_o trouble_v with_o that_o tentation_n but_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o she_o esteem_v that_o sin_n to_o be_v absurd_o undecent_a and_o deform_a note_n note_n so_o much_o the_o more_o do_v the_o motion_n thereof_o give_v her_o cause_n to_o humiliate_v herself_o and_o she_o will_v use_v to_o say_v to_o one_o of_o her_o sister_n that_o god_n almighty_a can_v not_o suffer_v the_o devil_n to_o trouble_v she_o in_o any_o thing_n which_o give_v she_o great_a affliction_n then_o by_o that_o tentation_n of_o gluttony_n but_o yet_o say_v she_o i_o must_v be_v fain_o to_o swallow_v down_o these_o bit_n which_o be_v both_o sweet_a and_o bitter_a sweet_a because_o they_o be_v make_v by_o the_o permission_n of_o god_n and_o bitter_a for_o the_o shame_n and_o pain_n which_o they_o carry_v in_o themselves_o in_o the_o eat_n now_o and_o then_o of_o a_o apple_n when_o she_o be_v permit_v to_o use_v food_n of_o lent_n she_o will_v through_o the_o contemplation_n of_o the_o beauty_n thereof_o so_o dive_v into_o the_o providence_n &_o liberality_n of_o he_o that_o make_v it_o that_o she_o find_v no_o taste_n or_o savour_n at_o all_o in_o the_o thing_n itself_o with_o these_o exercise_n but_o above_o all_o with_o the_o consideration_n of_o her_o own_o weakness_n since_o so_o vile_a and_o poor_a a_o thing_n as_o the_o desire_n of_o meat_n be_v able_a to_o make_v such_o war_n against_o we_o she_o humble_v herself_o so_o much_o the_o more_o be_v daily_o overcome_v all_o diabolical_a suggestion_n she_o be_v tempt_v with_o desperation_n of_o those_o succour_n which_o god_n by_o his_o saint_n do_v grant_v she_o and_o of_o the_o remedye_n which_o she_o find_v chap._n 35._o yet_o the_o say_a suggestion_n do_v not_o cease_v for_o the_o infernal_a enemy_n observe_v her_o great_a constancy_n begin_v furious_o to_o tempt_v she_o with_o despair_n and_o therefore_o he_o represent_v to_o she_o sometime_o that_o she_o be_v to_o be_v damn_v and_o that_o god_n have_v abandon_v she_o for_o her_o grievous_a sin_n at_o other_o time_n he_o will_v in_o like_a manner_n strive_v to_o persuade_v she_o that_o she_o be_v never_o to_o find_v mercy_n with_o god_n &_o very_o often_o he_o urge_v she_o to_o kill_v herself_o with_o her_o own_o hand_n sâ—_n entice_a she_o sometime_o to_o thrust_v a_o knife_n into_o her_o throat_n and_o sometime_o to_o cast_v a_o halter_n about_o her_o neck_n and_o so_o to_o end_v her_o life_n but_o she_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o these_o passage_n as_o afterwards_o she_o tell_v the_o prioress_n with_o abundant_a tear_n make_v a_o vow_n to_o god_n that_o she_o will_v never_o offend_v he_o and_o so_o our_o lord_n be_v not_o want_v to_o strengthen_v she_o in_o those_o temptation_n with_o many_o celestial_a favour_n for_o upon_o the_o day_n of_o s._n thomas_n of_o aquine_n be_v alienate_v from_o her_o sense_n she_o see_v he_o in_o the_o glory_n of_o heaven_n adorn_v with_o 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pronounce_v the_o end_n of_o those_o word_n but_o that_o with_o tear_n she_o will_v protest_v that_o she_o will_v soon_o die_v then_o fail_v to_o yield_v obedience_n to_o her_o superior_n whereupon_o she_o will_v in_o the_o hand_n of_o mother_n prioress_n make_v cheerful_o her_o profession_n and_o our_o lord_n at_o that_o time_n to_o make_v her_o profit_n more_o in_o holy_a virtue_n do_v inspire_v her_o superior_n to_o double_a her_o pennance_n and_o mortification_n which_o she_o with_o a_o cheerful_a mind_n do_v execute_v not_o without_o admirable_a example_n to_o other_o and_o she_o be_v often_o rapt_v in_o extasis_fw-la and_o strengthen_v towards_o the_o endure_a of_o new_a spiritual_a combat_n it_o happen_v in_o particular_a manner_n upon_o the_o day_n of_o the_o holy_a annunciata_n in_o the_o same_o year_n that_o be_v rapt_v in_o spirit_n she_o speak_v for_o the_o space_n of_o six_o hour_n of_o the_o incarnation_n of_o the_o word_n in_o so_o high_a manner_n that_o whosoever_o 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