hungry_a cry_n when_o they_o buy_v of_o the_o rich_a and_o be_v cozen_v by_o the_o rich_a when_o they_o suffer_v in_o the_o cozenage_n and_o suffer_v likewise_o in_o the_o public_a in_o the_o general_a punishment_n for_o the_o cozenage_n for_o this_o our_o land_n mourn_v for_o this_o our_o people_n be_v visit_v our_o house_n be_v shut_v up_o our_o street_n be_v not_o frequent_v ouâ—_n market_n not_o fill_v and_o yet_o the_o hungry_a lament_n and_o the_o thirsty_a do_v mourn_v the_o poor_a can_v neither_o buy_v for_o their_o money_n not_o be_v employ_v in_o their_o willing_a labour_n to_o earn_v they_o money_n 59.11_o be_v 59.11_o nor_o live_v without_o money_n we_o roar_v all_o like_a bear_n and_o mourn_v sore_o like_o dove_n we_o look_v for_o judgement_n but_o there_o be_v none_o for_o salvatien_n but_o it_o be_v far_o from_o we_o therefore_o with_o the_o oppress_a i_o will_v cry_v and_o with_o the_o visit_v also_o i_o will_v cry_v i_o will_v cry_v with_o the_o oppress_a for_o right_a and_o i_o will_v cry_v with_o â—…e_n visit_v for_o health_n how_o long_o lord_n â—ow_o long_o will_v thou_o punish_v we_o 44.22_o c._n 44.22_o o_o remove_n â—…ur_fw-fr sin_n like_o a_o cloud_n blot_n out_o as_o a_o thick_a cloud_n our_o transgression_n and_o as_o a_o cloud_n our_o sin_n return_v unto_o we_o for_o thou_o have_v redeem_v we_o part_n 3_o the_o three_o part_n of_o the_o soliloquie_n show_v that_o sin_n especial_o be_v the_o cause_n of_o the_o pestilence_n the_o disease_a ignorant_a of_o the_o kind_n of_o their_o malady_n cause_v the_o physician_n 〈◊〉_d consult_v with_o their_o pulse_n to_o examine_v their_o â—rine_n and_o by_o symptom_n to_o find_v out_o the_o â—ause_n of_o their_o disturbance_n so_o shall_v the_o sick_a soul_n also_o or_o else_o the_o ignorance_n of_o the_o sin_n may_v hinder_v the_o cure_n general_n complaint_n have_v be_v make_v by_o man_n groan_v under_o the_o burden_n of_o several_a visitation_n but_o do_v the_o pestilance_n come_v by_o the_o same_o rule_n and_o arise_v from_o the_o same_o cause_n surfeit_n and_o consumption_n and_o fever_n and_o palsy_n and_o pleurisy_n and_o other_o such_o sickness_n may_v have_v their_o cause_n in_o nature_n and_o their_o remedy_n oftentimes_o by_o physic_n but_o neither_o be_v the_o cause_n of_o the_o pestilence_n so_o clear_a in_o nature_n nor_o be_v the_o cure_n thereof_o so_o easy_a by_o physic_n or_o if_o it_o be_v yet_o be_v this_o disease_n more_o infectious_a more_o mortal_a and_o therefore_o more_o dreadful_a than_o any_o of_o the_o rest_n it_o shall_v therefore_o be_v my_o first_o care_n to_o find_v out_o the_o cause_n in_o my_o soul_n before_o i_o look_v upon_o the_o effect_n thereof_o in_o the_o body_n of_o sinful_a mortal_n i_o will_v examine_v our_o time_n by_o those_o of_o our_o ancestor_n and_o see_v whether_o this_o general_a contagion_n do_v not_o rather_o proceed_v from_o the_o malice_n of_o the_o soul_n then_o from_o the_o air_n diet_n or_o whatsoever_o else_o the_o physician_n conjecture_v at_o the_o man_n which_o moses_n have_v send_v to_o spy_v out_o the_o land_n of_o canaan_n return_v 14.36_o 1._o num_fw-la 14.36_o and_o make_v all_o the_o congregation_n to_o murmur_v against_o moses_n by_o bring_v up_o a_o slander_n upon_o that_o land_n of_o promise_n &_o those_o very_a man_n that_o do_v bring_v up_o that_o evil_a report_n upon_o the_o land_n 37_o vers_fw-la 37_o dye_v of_o the_o plague_n before_o the_o lord_n what_o of_o the_o plague_n of_o the_o pestilence_n there_o be_v but_o ten_o of_o those_o spy_n and_o those_o ten_o only_o dye_v we_o have_v the_o pestilence_n too_o but_o it_o content_v not_o itself_o with_o ten_o &_o ten_o and_o ten_o and_o ten_o but_o hundred_o dye_n hundred_o be_v visit_v thousand_o complain_v every_o one_o fear_v but_o be_v their_o disease_n the_o same_o as_o we_o be_v not_o they_o a_o inflammation_n of_o their_o tongue_n and_o worm_n issue_v out_o of_o they_o as_o a_o just_a recompenseâ—_n because_o with_o their_o tongue_n they_o have_v lie_v or_o be_v it_o not_o some_o other_o extraordinary_a plague_n from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n or_o be_v it_o not_o that_o pestilence_n which_o be_v threaten_v when_o the_o lord_n say_v unto_o moses_n 11_o vers_fw-la 11_o how_o long_o will_v this_o people_n provoke_v i_o and_o how_o long_o will_v it_o be_v ere_o they_o believe_v i_o for_o all_o the_o sign_n which_o i_o have_v show_v among_o they_o 12_o vers_fw-la 12_o i_o will_v smite_v they_o with_o the_o pestilence_n and_o disinherit_v they_o and_o will_v make_v of_o thou_o a_o great_a nation_n &_o mighty_a than_o they_o whatsoever_o their_o disease_n be_v though_o i_o can_v determine_v it_o yet_o will_v i_o consider_v the_o cause_n thereof_o the_o cause_n be_v a_o sin_n a_o grievous_a sin_n a_o lie_n and_o the_o effect_n of_o this_o be_v a_o sin_n a_o grievous_a sin_n it_o be_v murmur_v o_o thus_o have_v we_o also_o add_v sin_n unto_o sin_n we_o also_o lie_v we_o lie_v grievous_o desperate_o impudent_o like_o unto_o iob_n friend_n we_o be_v forger_n of_o lie_n 13._o job._n 13.4_o ps_n 40.4_o ps_n 58.3_o ps_n 62.4_o eze._n 24_o 12._o hos_fw-la 10_o 13._o we_o turn_v aside_o to_o lie_n we_o go_v astray_o so_o soon_o as_o we_o be_v bear_v and_o speak_v lie_n we_o delight_v in_o lie_n and_o we_o have_v weary_v ourselves_o with_o lie_n just_o therefore_o now_o do_v we_o eat_v the_o fruit_n of_o lie_n and_o yet_o not_o content_v with_o this_o we_o murmur_v too_o against_o our_o superior_n we_o murmur_v for_o not_o govern_v we_o according_a to_o our_o licentious_a and_o sinful_a desire_n against_o the_o rich_a we_o murmur_v because_o we_o float_v not_o in_o their_o plenty_n yea_o even_o against_o god_n himself_o we_o murmur_v because_o he_o grant_v not_o our_o sinful_a desire_n thus_o in_o every_o thought_n and_o in_o every_o word_n we_o either_o find_v a_o sin_n or_o make_v a_o sin_n for_o this_o our_o lie_v for_o this_o our_o murmur_a we_o be_v now_o visit_v we_o be_v now_o strike_v we_o be_v as_o those_o spy_n be_v destroy_v of_o the_o destroyer_n 10.10_o 1._o cor._n 10.10_o the_o rebellious_a israëlites_n be_v threaten_v by_o moses_n that_o every_o sickness_n 28.61_o 2._o deut._n 28.61_o every_o plague_n which_o be_v not_o write_v in_o the_o book_n of_o the_o law_n they_o shall_v the_o lord_n bring_v upon_o they_o until_o they_o be_v destroy_v 62_o vers_fw-la 62_o and_o they_o shall_v be_v leave_v few_o in_o number_n whereas_o they_o be_v as_o the_o star_n of_o heaven_n for_o multitude_n these_o be_v the_o menace_n these_o be_v the_o threat_n to_o the_o child_n of_o israël_n but_o among_o all_o these_o sickness_n where_o be_v that_o which_o reign_v among_o we_o have_v god_n prepare_v a_o new_a punishment_n for_o we_o such_o as_o the_o israëlite_n never_o suffer_v nor_o the_o law_n ever_o mention_v nor_o skill_n ever_o cure_v doubtless_o thus_o god_n can_v afflict_v we_o but_o he_o choose_v rather_o to_o punish_v we_o as_o he_o do_v other_o that_o so_o we_o may_v find_v out_o the_o cause_n as_o other_o have_v do_v he_o be_v please_v to_o tell_v the_o israëlite_n the_o cause_n of_o their_o plague_n which_o he_o will_v send_v upon_o they_o 62_o vers_fw-la 62_o even_o because_o they_o will_v not_o obey_v the_o voice_n of_o the_o lord_n their_o god_n just_o thus_o he_o punish_v we_o as_o he_o punish_v they_o even_o until_o we_o be_v almost_o quite_o destroy_v and_o he_o tell_v we_o our_o sin_n our_o offence_n too_o by_o his_o word_n by_o his_o minister_n by_o our_o own_o conscience_n even_o that_o we_o refuse_v to_o obey_v the_o voice_n of_o the_o lord_n just_o therefore_o most_o just_a it_o be_v that_o see_v we_o have_v we_o do_v we_o will_v thus_o sin_n even_o thus_o yea_o thus_o severe_o likewise_o we_o shall_v be_v punish_v yea_o we_o deserve_v it_o in_o a_o far_o great_a manner_n in_o a_o sarre_o great_a measure_n he_o who_o threaten_v those_o that_o will_v walk_v contrary_a unto_o he_o and_o will_v not_o hearken_v unto_o he_o 21._o lev_n 26_o 21._o that_o he_o will_v bring_v seven_o time_n more_o plague_n upon_o they_o according_a to_o their_o sin_n he_o who_o by_o moses_n threaten_v they_o that_o if_o they_o will_v not_o observe_v to_o do_v all_o the_o word_n of_o that_o law_n which_o be_v write_v in_o that_o book_n 28.58_o deut_n 28.58_o that_o they_o may_v fear_v this_o glorious_a name_n the_o lord_n thy_o god_n 59_o vers_fw-la 59_o then_o the_o lord_n shall_v make_v their_o plague_n wonderful_a and_o the_o plague_n of_o their_o seed_n even_o great_a plague_n and_o of_o long_a continuance_n and_o sore_a sickness_n and_o of_o long_a continuance_n the_o self-same_a god_n have_v find_v we_o walk_v contrary_a unto_o he_o and_o therefore_o have_v
subject_a tear_n of_o a_o woman_n in_o a_o deep_a consumption_n or_o in_o any_o other_o languish_a disease_n the_o soliloquie_n consist_v of_o three_o part_n viz_o 1_o a_o complaint_n and_o description_n of_o the_o nature_n of_o the_o disease_n 2_o the_o cause_n of_o the_o malady_n 3_o the_o hope_n of_o recovery_n part_n 1_o the_o first_o part_n of_o the_o soliloquie_n express_v a_o complaint_n and_o description_n of_o the_o nature_n of_o the_o disease_n the_o ejaculation_n psal_n 5._o vers_fw-la 1._o give_v ear_n to_o my_o word_n o_o lord_n consider_v my_o meditation_n vers_fw-la 2._o harken_v unto_o the_o voice_n of_o my_o cry_n my_o king_n and_o my_o god_n for_o unto_o thou_o will_v i_o pray_v all_o flesh_n be_v as_o grass_n say_v the_o apostle_n 24._o 1._o pet_n 1_o 24._o and_o all_o the_o glory_n of_o man_n as_o the_o flower_n of_o the_o grass_n the_o grass_n wither_v and_o the_o flowâ—_n thereof_o fall_v away_o bless_a apostle_n hoâ—_n true_o have_v thou_o describe_v the_o condition_n oâ—_n humanity_n o_o how_o sensible_a be_o i_o of_o thâ—_n pierce_v truth_n of_o that_o sacred_a text_n those_o who_o age_n enforce_v to_o decline_v do_v easy_o feel_v their_o approach_a autumn_n 4.35_o io_n 4.35_o and_o when_o they_o lift_v up_o their_o eye_n and_o look_n on_o the_o fieldâ—_n on_o the_o droop_a year_n of_o their_o parch_a self_n they_o easy_o conclude_v themselves_o to_o be_v white_a already_o unto_o the_o horvest_n but_o must_v death_n be_v confine_v to_o the_o leisure_n of_o antiquity_n and_o always_o be_v lock_v out_o until_o it_o have_v comply_v with_o age_n to_o destroy_v the_o prison_n o_o no_o i_o find_v it_o otherwise_o death_n may_v as_o easy_o enteâ—_n at_o the_o gate_n of_o disease_n as_o at_o the_o stoop_a salie-port_n of_o numerous_a year_n i_o thinke_v see_v it_o stare_v and_o gape_v upon_o i_o with_o aâ—_n eager_a appetite_n and_o when_o i_o plead_v the_o minority_n of_o my_o time_n it_o tell_v i_o that_o the_o flow_v may_v be_v crop_v in_o their_o spring_n true_a it_o be_v that_o every_o one_o in_o the_o prime_n of_o year_n be_v like_a unto_o grass_n pride_v himself_o in_o the_o verdure_n of_o youth_n if_o yet_o he_o be_v permit_v to_o enjoy_v iâ—_n with_o delight_n we_o grow_v up_o with_o the_o strength_n of_o a_o juycie_a stem_n and_o bear_v the_o flower_n oâ—_n beauty_n and_o glory_n but_o when_o our_o pomp_n have_v jolly_v itself_o in_o the_o pleasure_n of_o earth_n and_o our_o strength_n have_v wanton_v among_o the_o paint_a flower_n of_o the_o spring_a field_n at_o length_n the_o sap_n shall_v return_v the_o sun_n shall_v withdraw_v itself_o the_o plant_n shall_v wither_v and_o the_o since_o shall_v cut_v it_o down_o but_o be_v this_o true_a in_o those_o alone_a who_o hairy_a head_n incline_v to_o the_o earth_n and_o who_o stoop_a body_n be_v bow_v by_o antiquity_n alas_o no_o disease_n have_v a_o power_n as_o great_a as_o have_v age_n and_o can_v work_v the_o carkeise_n in_o the_o self_n same_o mould_n as_o do_v length_n of_o day_n i_o be_o sure_a it_o be_v so_o i_o find_v it_o so_o i_o see_v it_o so_o i_o feel_v it_o so_o in_o the_o continuance_n of_o my_o infirmity_n the_o natural_a heat_n &_o moisture_n of_o my_o body_n decline_v like_o the_o juice_n of_o the_o flower_n in_o the_o time_n of_o their_o autumn_n and_o what_o a_o number_n of_o year_n can_v not_o easy_o have_v effect_v the_o sharpness_n of_o a_o malady_n can_v quick_o conclude_v man_n die_v say_v job_n 14.10_o job_n 14.10_o and_o waste_v away_o yea_o man_n give_v up_o the_o ghost_n and_o where_o be_v he_o too_o true_a too_o true_a it_o be_v that_o i_o die_v while_o i_o live_v and_o i_o be_v away_o when_o i_o hope_v to_o increase_v my_o life_n be_v but_o a_o linger_a death_n for_o my_o meat_n nourish_v i_o not_o my_o drink_n comfort_v i_o not_o my_o physic_n restore_n i_z not_o my_o clothes_n content_v i_o not_o and_o my_o bed_n ease_v i_o not_o when_o i_o hope_v that_o my_o meat_n will_v nourish_v i_o than_o the_o weakness_n of_o my_o stomach_n chide_v i_o for_o my_o hope_n and_o tell_v we_o i_o that_o it_o be_v weary_a of_o the_o labour_n of_o the_o tooth_n when_o i_o desire_v that_o my_o drink_n shall_v comfort_v i_o than_o the_o in-disposition_n of_o my_o concoction_n frustrate_v my_o desire_n and_o cause_v my_o stomach_n to_o render_v back_o the_o present_a in_o contempt_n of_o the_o bribery_n when_o i_o too_o serious_o rely_v upon_o the_o skill_n of_o the_o physician_n and_o have_v a_o kind_n of_o confidence_n that_o his_o physic_n shall_v restore_v i_o then_o either_o his_o ignorance_n of_o my_o disease_n or_o the_o debility_n of_o my_o deadened_a body_n or_o the_o in-disposition_n of_o the_o drug_n flowte'_v i_o for_o my_o confidence_n and_o tell_v we_o i_o i_o must_v die_v when_o my_o clothes_n be_v present_v to_o the_o heat_n of_o the_o fire_n and_o request_v to_o convey_v the_o warmth_n to_o my_o chillowed_a body_n then_o either_o the_o air_n lie_v in_o wait_n and_o rob_v they_o of_o the_o heat_n or_o else_o the_o strictness_n of_o the_o poares_z of_o my_o shrivel_a skin_n deny_v it_o access_n by_o those_o contract_a door_n 16_o job._n 7.13_o vers_fw-la 14_o vers_fw-la 15_o vers_fw-la 16_o when_o i_o say_v my_o bed_n shall_v comfort_v i_o my_o couch_n shall_v ease_v my_o complaint_n they_o be_o i_o skare_v with_o dream_n and_o terrify_v through_o vision_n so_o that_o my_o soul_n choose_v death_n rather_o than_o life_n i_o loathe_v it_o i_o will_v not_o live_v allway_o let_v i_o alone_o for_o my_o day_n be_v vanity_n 22.15_o ps_n 22.15_o my_o strength_n be_v dry_v up_o like_o a_o potsherd_a my_o tongue_n cleave_v to_o my_o jaw_n and_o i_o be_o bring_v into_o the_o dust_n of_o death_n i_o be_o chastened_a with_o pain_n upon_o my_o bed_n 22.17_o job_n 33_o 19_o ps_n 22.17_o and_o the_o multitude_n of_o my_o bone_n with_o strong_a pain_n i_o may_v tell_v all_o my_o bone_n they_o look_v and_o stareâ—_n upon_o i_o lord_n what_o a_o walk_a ghost_n be_o i_o become_v even_o able_a to_o affright_v the_o world_n with_o amazement_n and_o wonder_n at_o the_o power_n of_o a_o consumption_n eye_n fare_v you_o well_o you_o shall_v no_o more_o be_v admire_v by_o spectator_n nor_o convey_v enticement_n of_o wickedness_n to_o my_o delude_a heart_n ear_n fare_v you_o well_o you_o shall_v no_o more_o enjoy_v the_o fond_a delight_n of_o earthly_a music_n nor_o shall_v the_o ecchoe_v choristars_n of_o the_o yield_n ajer_n any_o more_o bewitch_v you_o with_o the_o melody_n of_o their_o voice_n and_o you_o the_o rest_n of_o my_o sense_n take_v your_o leaf_n labour_v no_o more_o the_o service_n of_o my_o body_n for_o bitterness_n have_v seize_v upon_o my_o taste_n roughness_n my_o touch_n and_o dullness_n my_o smell_a my_o eye_n have_v now_o none_o other_o object_n than_o the_o bare_a peruse_n of_o â—he_n craggy_a mountain_n of_o my_o rise_a bone_n and_o â—he_v pale_a dull_a lead-colloured_n skin_n be_v so_o brivelled_a and_o deform_v just_a like_o the_o parchment_n which_o be_v contract_v and_o pucker_v by_o the_o â—eate_v of_o the_o fire_n my_o ear_n be_v entertain_v with_o no_o other_o sound_n be_v then_o a_o hollow_a cough_n which_o borrow_v from_o my_o lung_n as_o much_o of_o their_o froth_n as_o they_o can_v spare_v at_o a_o time_n and_o make_v i_o see_v how_o i_o hourly_o consume_v by_o mammock_n all_o that_o i_o have_v be_v pain_n and_o all_o that_o i_o be_o be_v a_o burden_n to_o myself_o when_o i_o think_v to_o walk_v my_o knee_n complain_v my_o foot_n be_v unwilling_a &_o if_o the_o charitable_a hand_n of_o a_o friend_n support_v i_o i_o be_o to_o begin_v again_o to_o learn_v to_o go_v when_o i_o think_v to_o discourse_v the_o first_o word_n bid_v i_o be_v silent_a and_o speak_v no_o more_o lest_o my_o spirit_n shall_v slink_v from_o i_o in_o the_o ajer_n of_o my_o speech_n i_o be_o grow_v as_o much_o a_o trouble_n to_o society_n as_o they_o do_v appear_v a_o burden_n unto_o i_o i_o be_o not_o so_o weak_a in_o my_o digestion_n as_o i_o be_o various_a in_o my_o appetite_n and_o if_o speedy_o i_o be_o not_o furnish_v with_o what_o i_o long_o for_o i_o be_o present_o passionate_a if_o it_o come_v as_o i_o desire_v i_o be_o cloy_v with_o the_o sight_n i_o puzzle_v my_o invention_n to_o become_v my_o caterer_n and_o if_o i_o obtain_v what_o i_o think_v upon_o i_o be_o surfiet_v with_o look_v upon_o it_o full_o i_o be_o of_o pain_n but_o distinct_o and_o most_o predominant_o i_o know_v not_o where_o every_o part_n have_v a_o share_n in_o the_o anguish_n and_o yet_o i_o can_v say_v which_o part_n be_v most_o afflict_a i_o cry_v when_o i_o be_o pain_v
desert_n peradventure_o to_o corect_v my_o pride_n this_o thorn_n in_o my_o flesh_n may_v be_v a_o messenger_n of_o satan_n send_v to_o buffet_v i_o 12.7_o 2_o cor._n 12.7_o as_o once_z saint_n paul_n have_v one_o send_v unto_o he_o for_o who_o of_o all_o our_o sex_n be_v not_o guilty_a of_o this_o folly_n among_o we_o be_v the_o tender_a and_o the_o delicate_a woman_n such_o as_o be_v among_o the_o israelite_n who_o will_v not_o adventure_v to_o set_v the_o sole_a of_o the_o foot_n upon_o the_o ground_n 28.56_o deut._n 28.56_o for_o delicatenesse_n and_o tenderness_n and_o not_o to_o flatter_v or_o deceive_v myself_o i_o may_v peradventure_o be_v one_o of_o they_o or_o if_o i_o have_v not_o have_v power_n to_o put_v in_o practice_n what_o i_o desire_v yet_o it_o may_v be_v that_o my_o desire_n have_v be_v to_o be_v as_o delicate_a as_o the_o chief_a and_o fine_a of_o our_o sex_n satan_n be_v say_v to_o have_v go_v forth_o from_o the_o presence_n of_o the_o lord_n 2.7_o job_n 2.7_o and_o to_o have_v smite_v job_n with_o sore_a boil_n from_o the_o sole_a of_o the_o foot_n to_o the_o crown_n of_o his_o head_n o_o that_o i_o be_v but_o half_o so_o righteous_a as_o be_v holy_a job_n of_o who_o god_n himself_o bear_v witness_v that_o there_o be_v none_o like_o he_o in_o the_o earth_n 1.8_o c._n 1.8_o a_o perfect_a and_o a_o upright_a man_n one_o that_o fear_v god_n and_o eschew_v evil_a but_o alas_o i_o be_o no_o such_o person_n for_o i_o have_v by_o my_o wickedness_n as_o it_o be_v teach_v the_o serpent_n to_o go_v forth_o from_o the_o presence_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o to_o smite_v i_o with_o this_o sickness_n this_o rise_n this_o swell_a worse_o than_o those_o boil_v which_o infest_a job._n david_n have_v a_o sore_a too_o 13.14_o 1_o sam._n 13.14_o a_o run_a sore_n allithough_o he_o be_v a_o man_n after_o god_n own_o heart_n 77.2_o psa_fw-la 77.2_o for_o so_o he_o complain_v say_v my_o sore_n run_v in_o the_o night_n and_o cease_v not_o my_o soul_n refuse_v comfort_n but_o his_o sore_o be_v not_o like_a unto_o i_o for_o his_o be_v in_o the_o fierce_a combat_n which_o he_o have_v with_o distrust_n and_o it_o may_v as_o well_o be_v mean_v that_o his_o hand_n by_o night_n reach_v out_o in_o prayer_n and_o cease_v not_o or_o by_o that_o sore_n may_v be_v mean_v the_o run_n of_o his_o eye_n which_o drop_v in_o the_o night_n for_o his_o grievous_a crime_n and_o cease_v not_o as_o well_o as_o a_o imposthume_n or_o ulceration_n but_o i_o be_v not_o such_o it_o be_v a_o sore_a indeed_o a_o carbuncle_n a_o pestilential_a sore_n although_o as_o yet_o it_o be_v not_o come_v to_o such_o maturity_n as_o to_o do_v as_o david_n speak_v of_o he_o it_o be_v yet_o but_o a_o swell_a a_o hard_a swell_a a_o rise_n and_o for_o its_o swell_n and_o for_o its_o hardness_n it_o may_v either_o be_v my_o very_a heart_n remove_v from_o the_o seat_n appoint_v it_o by_o nature_n or_o else_o it_o may_v be_v send_v to_o put_v i_o in_o mind_n of_o the_o proud_a swell_n and_o the_o malicious_a hardness_n of_o my_o impenitent_a heart_n alas_o if_o i_o do_v but_o serious_o consider_v of_o that_o little_a morsel_n of_o proud_a flesh_n or_o rather_o stone_n hard_a stone_n then_o flesh_n that_o adamantine_a heart_n what_o have_v i_o not_o deserve_v for_o that_o wicked_a heart_n which_o other_o be_v ever_o punish_v with_o worse_o far_o worse_o do_v i_o deserve_v then_o ever_o do_v judah_n i_o only_o want_v a_o prophet_n to_o lament_v my_o estate_n as_o isaiah_n do_v she_o for_o the_o judgement_n of_o god_n inflict_v upon_o she_o for_o her_o rebellion_n 1.5_o be_v 1.5_o and_o to_o cry_v the_o whole_a head_n be_v sick_a and_o the_o whole_a heart_n be_v faint_a from_o the_o sole_a of_o the_o foot_n even_o to_o the_o head_n there_o be_v no_o soundness_n in_o it_o 6._o vers_fw-la 6._o but_o wound_n and_o bruise_n and_o putrify_a sore_n they_o have_v not_o be_v close_v neither_o bind_v up_o neither_o mollify_v with_o ointment_n but_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v in_o this_o distress_n may_v not_o these_o poison_a humour_n that_o have_v conspire_v together_o in_o this_o present_a tumour_n as_o well_o be_v some_o other_o disease_n as_o the_o infectious_a pestilence_n lord_n how_o fain_o will_v sinner_n live_v in_o ignorance_n and_o never_o either_o understand_v the_o offence_n which_o they_o have_v commit_v or_o know_v the_o manner_n and_o the_o kind_n of_o their_o punishment_n how_o fain_o will_v the_o sick_a delude_v themselves_o with_o a_o conceit_n of_o health_n and_o hope_v for_o life_n cozen_v their_o knowledge_n with_o the_o falsehood_n of_o opinion_n i_o can_v deny_v but_o it_o be_v the_o sickness_n which_o i_o be_o strike_v with_o the_o infectious_a sickness_n the_o dreadful_a pestilence_n and_o i_o can_v have_v no_o hope_n of_o life_n if_o once_o it_o seize_v on_o my_o tremble_a heart_n to_o prevent_v that_o danger_n therefore_o since_o my_o heart_n have_v hitherto_o be_v so_o stony_a so_o hard_o to_o entertain_v the_o motion_n of_o the_o bless_a spirit_n i_o will_v request_v it_o now_o to_o continue_v its_o obduracy_n not_o against_o my_o great_a god_n but_o against_o this_o sad_a and_o deadly_a sickness_n what_o it_o have_v usual_o retain_v almost_o to_o the_o utter_a undoeing_a and_o destruction_n of_o my_o soul_n i_o will_v entreat_v it_o to_o continue_v now_o for_o the_o preservation_n of_o my_o body_n or_o if_o that_o will_v not_o do_v if_o it_o resolve_v to_o yield_v in_o this_o time_n of_o distress_n far_o rather_o then_o i_o will_v seek_v to_o that_o i_o will_v humble_o besiech_v my_o offend_a lord_n to_o take_v possession_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o if_o he_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o grant_v my_o petition_n then_o come_v what_o can_v come_v i_o be_o sure_a i_o shall_v have_v comfort_n because_o i_o shall_v have_v the_o society_n of_o my_o god_n but_o what_o if_o my_o heart_n be_v preserve_v from_o these_o malignant_a humour_n have_v i_o â—hen_o any_o assurance_n that_o my_o disease_n be_v not_o mortal_a alas_o no_o but_o i_o must_v use_v the_o mean_n and_o besiech_v my_o god_n to_o give_v they_o his_o blessing_n i_o must_v apply_v those_o thing_n which_o will_v mollify_v this_o swell_a it_o must_v be_v soften_v be_v break_v be_v draw_v before_o it_o can_v be_v heal_v thus_o even_o thus_o must_v i_o deal_v with_o my_o heart_n too_o the_o malicious_a humour_n of_o sin_n and_o corruption_n have_v already_o assemble_v there_o and_o cause_v it_o to_o swell_v i_o will_v hasten_v therefore_o to_o job_n be_v physician_n 23.16_o job._n 23.16_o who_o soften_v his_o heart_n and_o trouble_v he_o and_o i_o will_v besiech_v he_o for_o christ_n sake_n to_o mollify_v i_o for_o there_o be_v more_o than_o the_o seven_o abomination_n of_o a_o dissembler_n in_o it_o 4.4_o prov._n 26.25_o joël_n 2.13_o hos_fw-la 10.12_o psa_fw-la 69.20_o jer._n 4.4_o i_o will_v pray_v he_o to_o rend_v it_o to_o break_v it_o to_o break_v up_o the_o fallow_a ground_n of_o it_o for_o he_o better_o can_v break_v i_o than_o the_o misery_n of_o repreach_n can_v break_v the_o heart_n of_o the_o prophet_n david_n i_o will_v entreat_v he_o to_o take_v away_o the_o foreskinne_n of_o it_o and_o to_o wash_v it_o from_o wickedness_n that_o so_o i_o may_v be_v save_v and_o that_o no_o vain_a thought_n may_v lodge_v in_o it_o 17.10_o vers_fw-la 14._o c._n 17.10_o i_o will_v request_v he_o to_o search_v it_o that_o he_o will_v lay_v something_o to_o it_o 3._o be_v 47.7_o ps_n 147_o 3._o even_o all_o the_o wickedness_n that_o ever_o i_o have_v commit_v then_o when_o he_o have_v break_v it_o i_o know_v that_o he_o will_v heal_v it_o and_o bound_v up_o the_o wound_n of_o it_o for_o to_o this_o purpose_n he_o send_v his_o son_n his_o onely-begotten_a son_n my_o redeemer_n my_o jesus_n even_o to_o bind_v up_o the_o break_a heart_a 61.1_o be_v 61.1_o but_o when_o this_o great_a cure_n shall_v be_v wrought_v for_o i_o what_o have_v i_o to_o render_v unto_o he_o by_o way_n of_o thankfulness_n alas_o nothing_o even_o just_a nothing_o at_o all_o unless_o he_o will_v accept_v of_o that_o break_a yet_o therein_o that_o whole_a and_o cure_v heart_n that_o then_o shall_v be_v he_o and_o i_o know_v that_o he_o will_v accept_v of_o it_o for_o so_o say_v david_n that_o man_n after_o his_o own_o heart_n a_o break_a 51.17_o act._n 13.22_o ps_n 51.17_o and_o a_o contrite_a heart_n o_o god_n thou_o will_v not_o despise_v from_o the_o malice_n of_o this_o heart_n do_v proceed_v the_o malignity_n of_o this_o my_o disease_n for_o sin_n be_v the_o cause_n of_o every_o sickness_n but_o all_o this_o while_n i_o do_v but_o talk_v of_o this_o malady_n i_o sieke_n not_o for_o a_o remedy_n alas_o
and_o yet_o it_o be_v a_o pain_n to_o i_o to_o cry_v yea_o and_o it_o be_v folly_n to_o cry_v because_o i_o receive_v 〈◊〉_d certain_a hurt_n by_o it_o but_o no_o release_n from_o thâ—_n which_o i_o cryfor_o i_o envy_v all_o that_o enjoy_v theâ—_n health_n and_o each_o moment_n i_o be_o ready_a to_o repit_a at_o he_o who_o have_v bring_v i_o so_o low_o thâ—_n smile_n of_o a_o visitant_n be_v a_o dagger_n at_o my_o heart_n for_o while_o i_o find_v myself_o thus_o linger_v in_o a_o sickness_n i_o look_v that_o the_o whole_a world_n shall_v decay_v for_o company_n i_o be_o fretful_a and_o peevish_a and_o disturb_v with_o every_o thing_n yea_o even_o by_o a_o continuance_n of_o the_o fretfulblesse_n itself_o one_o while_o i_o fain_o will_v have_v my_o life_n prolong_v another_o while_o i_o cry_v out_o for_o a_o speedy_a departure_n sometime_o i_o have_v a_o kind_n of_o glimmer_a oâ—_n health_n and_o then_o i_o be_o so_o proud_a of_o it_o that_o 〈◊〉_d adventure_n too_o much_o either_o i_o eat_v too_o much_o or_o i_o walk_v too_o much_o or_o i_o discourse_v too_o much_o or_o one_o thing_n or_o other_o exceed_v its_o proportion_n speed_v i_o back_o again_o to_o my_o former_a weakness_n &_o then_o be_o i_o sorry_a for_o what_o i_o have_v do_v and_o yet_o be_o i_o apt_a either_o to_o deny_v or_o excuse_v it_o thus_o o_o thus_o be_v my_o body_n perplex_v but_o all_o this_o while_n i_o say_v nothing_o of_o my_o soul_n i_o be_o sensible_a of_o the_o anguish_n which_o i_o feel_v in_o my_o body_n but_o in_o what_o estate_n or_o condition_n do_v i_o find_v my_o foul_a my_o body_n be_v almost_o resolve_v into_o that_o whereof_o it_o be_v frame_v my_o soul_n therefore_o be_v not_o long_o to_o continue_v upon_o earth_n when_o they_o shall_v part_v it_o will_v prove_v either_o a_o day_n of_o triumphant_a bliss_n or_o else_o a_o dismal_a timeâ—t_n â—t_z will_v be_v of_o horror_n and_o confusion_n o_o come_v come_v thou_o fond_a and_o foolish_a woman_n look_v â—o_o that_o darling_n which_o ere_o long_o shall_v be_v crown_v with_o a_o diadem_n of_o glory_n or_o else_o be_v damn_v with_o the_o rebellious_a ghost_n well_o i_o be_o resolve_v i_o will_v now_o take_v up_o &_o banish_v the_o thought_n or_o hope_n of_o recovery_n i_o will_v prepare_v myself_o that_o i_o may_v meet_v my_o god_n o_o my_o god_n assist_v i_o in_o this_o my_o resolution_n and_o bless_v i_o in_o the_o performance_n part_n 2_o the_o second_o part_n of_o the_o soliloquie_n express_v the_o cause_n of_o the_o malady_n have_v adam_n continue_v in_o his_o integrity_n man_n shall_v have_v be_v free_v from_o the_o torture_n of_o sickness_n the_o dead_a and_o trample_a earth_n shall_v not_o have_v be_v free_a from_o thorn_n and_o thistle_n than_o man_n the_o live_a earth_n from_o malady_n and_o infirmity_n but_o o_o i_o feel_v the_o sourness_n of_o the_o apple_n in_o the_o bitterness_n and_o sharpness_n of_o my_o disease_n and_o needs_o must_v i_o therefore_o remember_v my_o original_a corruption_n this_o be_v the_o cause_n of_o my_o languish_a this_o be_v the_o ground_n of_o my_o feebleness_n but_o be_v this_o all_o have_v i_o nothing_o but_o the_o stain_n which_o i_o inherit_v from_o my_o parent_n to_o be_v term_v the_o cause_n of_o this_o my_o misery_n one_o only_a offence_n to_o my_o great_a creator_n have_v power_n enough_o to_o purchase_v my_o disquiet_n but_o have_v i_o but_o one_o be_v my_o hereditary_a sin_n my_o only_a crime_n sure_o i_o fear_v that_o i_o have_v something_o amiss_o in_o my_o own_o thought_n and_o word_n and_o action_n as_o well_o as_o in_o my_o parent_n un-kind_n legacy_n i_o can_v believe_v that_o god_n do_v afflict_v my_o body_n with_o these_o chastisement_n yea_o and_o threaten_v my_o soul_n too_o with_o eternal_a torture_n and_o all_o this_o only_a for_o a_o sin_n of_o adam_n so_o many_o age_n since_o commit_v thus_o indeed_o he_o may_v do_v and_o yet_o i_o shall_v not_o choose_v but_o justify_v he_o when_o he_o shall_v speak_v 51.4_o ps_n 51.4_o and_o clear_v he_o when_o he_o shall_v judge_n oh_o but_o i_o feel_v something_o else_o at_o my_o heart_n as_o weighty_a as_o lead_v which_o make_v i_o cry_v out_o it_o be_v something_o at_o my_o conscience_n which_o tell_v i_o that_o i_o have_v more_o to_o answer_v for_o then_o the_o pollution_n of_o nature_n it_o assure_v i_o that_o i_o have_v offend_v cruel_o deep_o desperate_o i_o have_v offend_v it_o be_v true_a o_o my_o angry_a my_o disturb_a conscience_n i_o must_v confess_v i_o have_v oh_o my_o heart_n i_o feel_v there_o i_o feel_v there_o something_o more_o than_o a_o universal_a guilt_n i_o have_v offend_v i_o have_v sin_v actual_o great_o mighty_o bloody_o in_o every_o thought_n in_o every_o word_n in_o every_o action_n i_o have_v so_o industrious_o employ_v my_o time_n to_o the_o dishonour_n of_o my_o god_n that_o i_o can_v remember_v i_o ever_o please_v he_o guilty_a guilty_a i_o must_v i_o do_v confess_v myself_o high_o guilty_a of_o fearful_a crime_n such_o as_o disturb_v i_o in_o the_o very_a remembrance_n o_o my_o god_n vouchsafe_v i_o a_o repent_a heart_n for_o they_o yet_o never_o without_o the_o assurance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o pardon_n through_o the_o sufferance_n of_o thy_o son_n how_o can_v i_o choose_v but_o find_v my_o sin_n even_o in_o my_o very_a feeble_a and_o consume_a sickness_n since_o i_o have_v so_o many_o testimony_n in_o the_o sacred_a page_n that_o god_n be_v no_o revenger_n until_o i_o be_v delinquent_n all_o disturbance_n of_o the_o body_n do_v un-doubted_o arise_v from_o the_o pollution_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o prophet_n david_n confess_v it_o and_o say_v 38.3_o ps_n 38.3_o there_o be_v no_o soundness_n in_o my_o flesh_n because_o of_o thy_o anger_n neither_o be_v there_o any_o rest_n in_o my_o bone_n by_o reason_n of_o my_o sin_n my_o redeemer_n justify_v it_o when_o he_o who_o have_v be_v shake_v with_o a_o palsy_n be_v bring_v unto_o he_o lie_v upon_o his_o bed_n for_o he_o cure_v he_o 9.2_o mat_n 9.2_o and_o say_v son_n be_v of_o good_a cheer_n thy_o sin_n be_v forgive_v thou_o and_o again_o when_o thirty_o &_o eight_o year_n have_v be_v spend_v by_o a_o man_n in_o a_o linger_a disease_n and_o after_o that_o my_o jesus_n have_v cure_v he_o when_o he_o find_v he_o in_o the_o temple_n 5.14_o io_n 5.14_o his_o word_n to_o he_o be_v behold_v thou_o be_v make_v whole_a sin_n no_o more_o lest_o a_o worse_a thing_n come_v unto_o thou_o saint_n paul_n assure_v the_o corinthian_n that_o because_o they_o do_v unworthy_o approach_v the_o table_n of_o the_o lord_n 11.30_o 1._o cor_n 11.30_o even_o for_o this_o cause_n many_o be_v weak_a and_o sick_a among_o they_o and_o many_o sleep_v thus_o the_o punishment_n be_v send_v from_o god_n but_o the_o offence_n be_v both_o in_o and_o from_o ourselves_o but_o have_v all_o disease_n the_o same_o original_n be_v sin_n the_o ground_n of_o every_o sickness_n can_v i_o be_v afflict_v with_o this_o languish_a malady_n but_o it_o must_v needs_o proceed_v from_o the_o wickedness_n i_o have_v commit_v no_o doubtless_o for_o this_o very_a kind_n and_o manner_n of_o sickness_n have_v particular_o be_v threaten_v yea_o and_o send_v too_o as_o a_o punishment_n for_o disobedience_n a_o languish_a have_v be_v threaten_v and_o send_v upon_o the_o very_a creature_n for_o the_o sin_n and_o wickedness_n of_o the_o offend_a people_n thus_o the_o prophet_n bemoan_v the_o punishment_n of_o the_o jew_n for_o their_o great_a rebellion_n and_o say_v the_o earth_n mourn_v 24.4_o be_v 24.4_o and_o fade_v away_o the_o world_n languish_v and_o fade_v away_o the_o height_n of_o the_o people_n of_o the_o earth_n do_v languish_v 14.2_o jer_n 14.2_o thus_o in_o a_o grievous_a famine_n judah_n mourn_v and_o the_o gate_n thereof_o languish_v they_o be_v black_a unto_o the_o ground_n and_o jerusalem_n be_v go_v up_o 16.8_o be_v 16.8_o thus_o the_o field_n of_o hesbon_n languish_v and_o the_o vine_n of_o shibmah_n the_o lord_n of_o the_o heathen_a brake_n down_o the_o principal_a plant_n thereof_o 1.10_o joel_n 1.10_o thus_o among_o the_o jew_n the_o field_n be_v waste_v the_o land_n mourn_v for_o the_o corn_n be_v waste_v the_o new_a wine_n be_v dry_v up_o the_o oil_n languish_v 12_o vers_fw-la 12_o the_o vine_n be_v dry_v up_o and_o the_o figtree_n languish_v thus_o in_o the_o confusion_n of_o egypt_n the_o fisher_n mourn_v 19.8_o be_v 19.8_o and_o all_o that_o do_v cast_v the_o angle_n into_o the_o brook_n lament_v and_o they_o that_o spread_v net_n upon_o the_o water_n do_v languish_v thus_o among_o the_o enemy_n of_o the_o church_n the_o earth_n mourn_v and_o languish_v 33.9_o c_o 33.9_o lebanon_n be_v ashamed_a and_o hew_v
down_o sharon_n be_v like_o a_o wilderness_n and_o bashan_n and_o carmel_n do_v shake_v off_o their_o fruit_n but_o what_o be_v the_o reason_n of_o all_o these_o judgement_n of_o all_o this_o languish_v send_v upon_o the_o creature_n i_o need_v not_o go_v far_o to_o seek_v the_o cause_n the_o prophet_n will_v soon_o determine_v it_o for_o he_o complain_v of_o the_o people_n that_o by_o swear_v and_o lie_v 4.2_o hos_fw-la 4.2_o and_o kill_v and_o steal_v and_o commit_v adultery_n they_o break_v forth_o and_o blood_n touch_v blood_n these_o be_v their_o sin_n but_o what_o be_v the_o effect_n the_o self_n same_o prophet_n immediate_o after_o threaten_v they_o with_o it_o say_v 3._o vers_fw-la 3._o therefore_o shall_v the_o land_n mourn_v and_o every_o one_o that_o dwell_v therein_o shall_v languish_v with_o the_o beast_n of_o the_o field_n and_o with_o the_o fowl_n of_o heaven_n here_o be_v the_o earth_n and_o the_o world_n the_o city_n and_o the_o field_n and_o the_o vine_n and_o the_o plant_n and_o the_o land_n and_o the_o corn_n and_o the_o oil_n and_o the_o figtree_n and_o all_o languish_a grievous_o languish_v and_o the_o cause_n thereof_o be_v the_o people_n sin_n but_o yet_o i_o be_v this_o can_v much_o concern_v i_o shall_v i_o for_o a_o smootie_a ear_n of_o corn_n or_o two_o or_o for_o the_o dry_n of_o the_o branch_n of_o a_o vine_n or_o a_o figtree_n present_o conclude_v that_o the_o wither_v of_o they_o can_v parallel_v my_o consumption_n yes_o doubtless_o i_o must_v if_o i_o look_v into_o the_o cause_n the_o tree_n and_o the_o other_o of_o the_o small_a plant_n can_v never_o either_o be_v guilty_a of_o a_o offence_n or_o be_v sensible_a of_o a_o punishment_n but_o the_o man_n the_o man_n they_o be_v the_o offender_n and_o for_o their_o transgression_n their_o mother_n earth_n have_v she_o second_o curse_n i_o can_v plead_v my_o own_o innocency_n or_o pretend_v that_o i_o be_o free_a from_o the_o guilt_n of_o enormity_n no_o no_o i_o can_v i_o may_v therefore_o conceive_v myself_o one_o of_o the_o tree_n which_o i_o find_v so_o curse_v for_o my_o branch_n my_o arm_n my_o leg_n &_o my_o thigh_n do_v pine_v away_o my_o fruit_n my_o work_n and_o my_o labour_n be_v now_o decay_v and_o what_o can_v i_o say_v or_o plead_v for_o myself_o i_o be_o one_o of_o those_o tree_n which_o the_o apostle_n speak_v of_o who_o fruit_n wither_v 12_o jud._n 12_o without_o fruit_n twice_o dead_a and_o now_o be_o i_o ready_a to_o be_v pluck_v up_o by_o the_o root_n yet_o for_o all_o this_o my_o stubborn_a heart_n i_o be_v stand_v his_o out_o and_o will_v fain_o persuade_v i_o that_o the_o curse_n of_o the_o tree_n resemble_n not_o my_o disease_n but_o i_o hope_v that_o i_o shall_v come_v this_o heart_n of_o i_o and_o put_v it_o to_o silence_n when_o i_o shall_v search_v more_o narrow_o in_o to_o the_o sacred_a book_n wherefore_o do_v the_o prophet_n say_v that_o he_o hear_v from_o the_o lord_n god_n of_o host_n a_o consumption_n 28.22_o be_v 28.22_o determine_v even_o upon_o the_o whole_a earth_n be_v it_o not_o because_o the_o people_n say_v 15_o vers_fw-la 15_o they_o have_v make_v a_o covenant_n with_o death_n and_o with_o hell_n they_o be_v at_o agreement_n when_o the_o overflow_a scourge_n shall_v pass_v through_o it_o shall_v not_o come_v nigh_o they_o for_o they_o have_v make_v lie_v their_o refuge_n and_o under_o falsehood_n they_o have_v hide_v themselves_o do_v not_o the_o lord_n by_o the_o mouth_n of_o moses_n threaten_v the_o people_n say_v if_o you_o will_v not_o hearken_v unto_o i_o 16_o lev_n 26_o 14._o vers_fw-la 16_o and_o will_v not_o do_v these_o commandment_n i_o will_v also_o do_v this_o unto_o you_o i_o will_v even_o appoint_v over_o you_o terror_n consumption_n and_o the_o burn_a ague_n that_o shall_v consume_v the_o eye_n and_o cause_n sorrow_n of_o heart_n do_v he_o not_o again_o menace_v they_o and_o say_v 28._o deut_n 28._o the_o lord_n shall_v smite_v thou_o with_o a_o consumption_n and_o a_o fever_n and_o with_o a_o inflammation_n and_o with_o a_o extreme_a burn_n do_v not_o the_o prophet_n tell_v the_o people_n say_v 23._o be_v 10.22_o vers_fw-la 23._o the_o consumption_n decree_v shall_v overflow_n in_o righteousness_n for_o the_o lord_n god_n of_o host_n shall_v make_v a_o consumption_n even_o determine_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o all_o the_o land_n o_o my_o conscience_n my_o conscience_n thou_o be_v now_o at_o a_o stand_v o_o my_o heart_n my_o hard_a heart_n thou_o be_v now_o strike_v dead_a loe_o here_o be_v my_o very_a disease_n my_o consumption_n and_o be_v here_o not_o my_o sin_n too_o have_v i_o never_o make_v a_o covenant_n with_o death_n or_o be_v at_o agreement_n with_o hell_n have_v i_o never_o make_v lie_v my_o refuge_n or_o hide_v myself_o under_o falsehood_n have_v i_o not_o refuse_v to_o hearken_v to_o my_o god_n and_o to_o do_v his_o commandment_n o_o how_o fain_o will_v i_o have_v attribute_v my_o disease_n to_o fecond_v cause_n and_o rather_o have_v thank_v the_o physician_n than_o the_o divine_a for_o tell_v i_o the_o ground_n but_o now_o i_o be_o at_o a_o stand_n and_o must_v needs_o confess_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o my_o torment_n that_o i_o find_v in_o they_o the_o displeasure_n of_o my_o maker_n i_o can_v urge_v one_o act_n of_o goodness_n that_o ever_o i_o do_v to_o plead_v my_o pardon_n for_o the_o least_o for_o the_o small_a sin_n which_o i_o have_v commit_v alas_o i_o find_v my_o destiny_n in_o the_o book_n of_o psalm_n where_o the_o prophet_n tell_v i_o that_o the_o wicked_a shall_v perish_v 37.20_o ps_n 37.20_o and_o the_o enemy_n of_o the_o lord_n shall_v be_v as_o the_o fat_a of_o lamb_n they_o shall_v consume_v into_o smoke_n shall_v they_o consume_v away_o o_o be_v i_o but_o worthy_a to_o be_v rank_v in_o the_o form_n with_o aoraham_n i_o may_v as_o well_o as_o he_o be_v style_v the_o friend_n of_o god_n 2.23_o jam_fw-la 2.23_o but_o my_o conscience_n tell_v i_o that_o though_o god_n be_v my_o friend_n in_o his_o goodness_n and_o long-suffering_n yet_o never_o be_v i_o hitherto_o a_o friend_n of_o he_o such_o a_o friend_n to_o he_o indeed_o i_o be_o as_o he_o be_v who_o in_o his_o meekness_n he_o call_v a_o friend_n 12._o mat_n 22_o 12._o he_o who_o shift_v in_o for_o a_o dinner_n among_o the_o guest_n that_o be_v invite_v but_o what_o become_v of_o he_o alas_o when_o he_o be_v find_v not_o have_v on_o a_o wedding_n garment_n 13_o vers_fw-la 11_o vers_fw-la 13_o the_o lord_n then_o say_v unto_o his_o servant_n bound_v he_o hand_n and_o foot_n and_o take_v he_o away_o and_o cast_v he_o into_o outward_a darkness_n there_o shall_v be_v weep_v and_o gnash_v of_o tooth_n o_o this_o dreadful_a sentence_n have_v i_o deserve_v beside_o this_o consumption_n which_o i_o now_o groan_n under_o and_o all_o because_o i_o be_o a_o enemy_n of_o the_o lord_n this_o shall_v be_v the_o plague_n say_v the_o prophet_n wherewith_o the_o lord_n shall_v smite_v all_o the_o people_n that_o have_v fight_v against_o jerusalem_n 14.12_o zech_n 14.12_o their_o flesh_n shall_v consume_v away_o while_o they_o stand_v upon_o their_o foot_n and_o their_o eye_n shall_v consume_v away_o in_o their_o hole_n and_o their_o tongue_n shall_v consume_v away_o in_o their_o mouth_n jerusalem_n be_v the_o vision_n of_o peace_n 4.26_o gal_n 4.26_o but_o i_o have_v always_o war_v against_o it_o the_o church_n upon_o earth_n have_v find_v i_o a_o adversary_n and_o that_o jerusalem_n which_o be_v above_o have_v find_v i_o a_o enemy_n this_o be_v my_o fault_n and_o just_o therefore_o do_v i_o feel_v this_o punishment_n for_o this_o offence_n my_o flesh_n consume_v away_o while_o i_o stand_v on_o my_o foot_n my_o eye_n be_v misty_v and_o overcast_v with_o dimness_n and_o my_o tongue_n be_v so_o feeble_a that_o i_o can_v scarce_o complain_v i_o may_v now_o cry_v out_o as_o hezekiah_n do_v and_o say_v my_o age_n be_v depart_v 38.12_o be_v 38.12_o and_o be_v remove_v from_o i_o as_o a_o sheep-heard's_a tent_n i_o have_v cut_v off_o like_o a_o weaver_n my_o life_n he_o will_v cut_v i_o off_o with_o pine_a sickness_n from_o day_n even_o to_o night_n will_v thou_o make_v a_o end_n of_o i_o but_o let_v i_o not_o forget_v the_o sin_n of_o hezekiah_n his_o heart_n be_v lift_v up_o 32.25_o 2._o châ—…_n 32.25_o therefore_o there_o be_v wrath_n upon_o he_o and_o upon_o judah_n and_o upon_o jerusalem_n let_v i_o not_o forget_v my_o own_o sin_n my_o heart_n have_v be_v lift_v up_o too_o i_o have_v be_v proud_a yea_o i_o have_v swell_v with_o scorn_n and_o contempt_n o_o that_o with_o hezekiah_n too_o 26_o vers_fw-la 26_o i_o can_v humble_v myself_o for_o the_o pride_n of_o my_o
heart_n so_o that_o the_o wrath_n of_o the_o lord_n may_v not_o come_v upon_o i_o o_o that_o i_o can_v pray_v with_o hezekiah_n &_o weep_v with_o hezekiah_n that_o the_o lord_n may_v say_v unto_o i_o as_o he_o do_v unto_o he_o 38.5_o be_v 38.5_o i_o have_v hear_v thy_o prayer_n i_o have_v see_v thy_o tear_n that_o curse_n which_o david_n prophetical_o lay_v upon_o the_o wicked_a in_o his_o time_n 58.7_o ps_n 58.7_o i_o be_v do_v seem_v at_o the_o first_o severe_a but_o yet_o it_o be_v just_a let_v they_o melt_v away_o as_o water_n which_o run_v continual_o 8._o vers_fw-la 8._o as_o a_o snail_n which_o melt_v let_v every_o one_o of_o they_o pass_v away_o like_o the_o untimely_a sruit_n of_o a_o woman_n that_o they_o may_v not_o see_v the_o sun_n the_o snail_n consume_v wheresoëver_v it_o crawl_v and_o yet_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n be_v such_o that_o the_o consume_a snail_n be_v often_o find_v a_o remedy_n for_o the_o consumption_n thus_o what_o be_v good_a for_o my_o disease_n be_v trouble_v with_o the_o same_o and_o that_o which_o some_o have_v find_v to_o be_v a_o remedy_n be_v to_o i_o a_o certain_a remembrancer_n of_o my_o misery_n o_o that_o every_o thing_n may_v put_v i_o in_o mind_n as_o well_o of_o the_o cause_n of_o this_o my_o disease_n lord_z how_o my_o flesh_n do_v quiver_n though_o but_o little_a be_v leave_v of_o it_o how_o my_o heart_n do_v tremble_v as_o if_o no_o comfort_n be_v leave_v i_o i_o have_v sin_v i_o have_v do_v very_o wicked_o but_o do_v the_o cure_n of_o my_o sickness_n as_o much_o exceed_v the_o power_n of_o my_o god_n as_o the_o skill_n of_o my_o physician_n no_o no_o he_o may_v if_o he_o please_v restore_v i_o to_o health_n again_o and_o he_o may_v when_o he_o please_v commit_v i_o to_o the_o worm_n all_o be_v in_o his_o hand_n o_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v to_o purchase_v his_o favour_n what_o shall_v i_o do_v to_o have_v he_o reconcile_v fain_o i_o will_v weep_v for_o my_o sin_n but_o i_o know_v not_o how_o fain_o i_o will_v shed_v some_o penitent_a tear_n but_o hardly_o will_v nature_n afford_v i_o moisture_n enough_o but_o i_o resolve_v howsoever_o that_o no_o excuse_n shall_v save_v a_o tear_n or_o a_o throb_v since_o without_o these_o i_o can_v hope_v for_o excuse_n and_o pardon_n alas_o my_o sin_n lie_v heavy_a at_o the_o door_n 4.7_o gen_n 4.7_o but_o i_o will_v roll_v they_o away_o with_o the_o force_n of_o a_o water_n course_n i_o will_v grieve_v for_o my_o offend_v so_o merciful_a a_o god_n i_o will_v lament_v for_o the_o offence_n which_o i_o have_v commit_v against_o he_o that_o visit_v i_o i_o have_v but_o a_o little_a time_n to_o continue_v upon_o earth_n unless_o it_o shall_v please_v he_o to_o restore_v i_o to_o health_n earth_n i_o be_o i_o must_v confess_v it_o but_o i_o will_v not_o be_v dry_a i_o will_v not_o be_v dust_n until_o i_o be_o lay_v to_o sleep_v in_o the_o dust_n 9.6_o io_n 9.6_o he_o who_o make_v clay_n with_o his_o spittle_n to_o cure_v the_o blind_a can_v open_v my_o eye_n with_o the_o blessing_n of_o a_o tear_n i_o be_v i_o be_o like_a unto_o the_o corn_n that_o be_v ground_n in_o a_o mill_n for_o so_o be_o i_o tear_v so_o be_o i_o crumble_v &_o wear_v into_o meal_n but_o since_o i_o be_o so_o i_o will_v make_v dough_n of_o this_o meal_n i_o will_v leaven_n it_o with_o my_o sorrow_n i_o will_v add_v unto_o it_o the_o water_n of_o my_o tear_n i_o will_v kneade_v it_o by_o contrition_n and_o bake_v it_o with_o the_o heat_n of_o that_o zeal_n which_o i_o will_v preserve_v in_o my_o heart_n and_o then_o will_v i_o pray_v that_o it_o may_v be_v a_o present_a accept_v by_o my_o god_n thus_o will_v i_o weep_v in_o my_o languish_a sickness_n thus_o will_v i_o lament_v for_o the_o cause_n of_o my_o sickness_n but_o i_o will_v weep_v in_o faith_n and_o i_o will_v lament_v in_o hope_n that_o my_o jesus_n will_v say_v unto_o i_o as_o he_o do_v to_o the_o woman_n that_o touch_v his_o garment_n 9.22_o mat_n 9.22_o daughter_n be_v of_o good_a comfort_n thy_o faith_n have_v make_v thou_o whole_a thy_o sin_n be_v forgive_v thou_o part_n 3_o the_o three_o part_n of_o the_o soliloquie_n set_v forth_o the_o patient_n hope_n of_o recovery_n the_o hour_n of_o death_n seem_v near_o approach_v and_o put_v i_o in_o remembrance_n of_o my_o last_o account_n the_o weakness_n of_o my_o body_n tell_v i_o now_o that_o the_o time_n be_v come_v wherein_o i_o must_v appear_v at_o the_o great_a tribunal_n i_o think_n be_v these_o lean_a and_o languish_a joint_n do_v seem_v to_o wonder_v at_o i_o for_o so_o long_o entertain_v the_o fleet_a air_n and_o do_v groan_n under_o the_o burden_n of_o this_o sharp_a disease_n lord_n i_o can_v hope_v to_o continue_v here_o long_o since_o the_o little_a house_n of_o my_o body_n be_v so_o totter_a and_o shake_v and_o yet_o i_o think_v i_o have_v not_o sufficient_o complete_v the_o work_n of_o my_o repentance_n and_o can_v therefore_o account_v myself_o ready_a to_o meet_v my_o god_n i_o repent_v indeed_o of_o whatsoever_o former_o i_o have_v do_v amiss_o and_o yet_o i_o can_v choose_v but_o do_v amiss_o again_o even_o as_o soon_o as_o i_o have_v repent_v i_o tremble_v when_o i_o think_v upon_o the_o punishment_n due_a to_o offender_n and_o yet_o i_o tremble_v not_o when_o i_o commit_v when_o i_o act_v my_o offence_n ready_a i_o be_o not_o to_o die_v too_o desirous_a i_o will_v not_o be_v to_o live_v and_o yet_o die_v i_o must_v and_o yet_o live_v i_o may_v lord_n if_o thou_o prolonge_v my_o life_n renew_v my_o obedience_n i_o will_v be_v content_v to_o live_v but_o then_o i_o will_v live_v without_o sin_n i_o can_v yield_v to_o continue_v a_o while_n that_o i_o may_v perfect_v my_o repentance_n but_o then_o i_o be_o sure_a i_o shall_v add_v to_o the_o number_n of_o those_o sin_n whereof_o i_o repent_v i_o will_v resolve_v therefore_o neither_o to_o hasten_v my_o death_n nor_o yet_o too_o eager_o will_v i_o desire_v life_n i_o must_v needs_o confess_v that_o i_o be_o willing_a enough_o to_o live_v lord_n grant_v that_o if_o i_o do_v live_v i_o may_v live_v to_o thy_o glory_n and_o if_o i_o do_v recover_v my_o health_n i_o may_v express_v my_o thanks_o in_o a_o religious_a life_n thus_o i_o pray_v with_o my_o lip_n but_o do_v i_o pray_v so_o with_o my_o heart_n i_o be_o apt_a to_o promise_v unto_o god_n more_o than_o i_o fear_v i_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o perform_v and_o all_o these_o promise_n be_v make_v in_o hope_n that_o i_o may_v recover_v my_o strength_n yea_o and_o it_o may_v please_v he_o who_o be_v the_o physician_n both_o of_o the_o soul_n and_o body_n to_o restore_v my_o body_n to_o health_n and_o strength_n i_o know_v that_o it_o be_v in_o his_o power_n he_o may_v do_v it_o if_o he_o please_v 26._o mat_n 19_o 26._o with_o man_n indeed_o this_o seem_v impossible_a but_o with_o god_n all_o thing_n be_v possible_a if_o i_o live_v i_o will_v spend_v my_o time_n in_o his_o service_n and_o upon_o these_o condition_n i_o may_v hope_v to_o live_v yea_o and_o so_o i_o will_v hope_v why_o shall_v i_o not_o he_o in_o who_o alone_o i_o do_v hope_n have_v power_n to_o grant_v the_o thing_n that_o i_o hope_v for_o yea_o and_o to_o give_v a_o blessing_n thereto_o if_o he_o fullfilleth_a my_o hope_n by_o he_o even_o dead_a body_n have_v be_v restore_v to_o life_n it_o be_v not_o hard_o therefore_o for_o he_o to_o restore_v a_o live_a body_n to_o health_n when_o tabytha_n be_v dead_a 39_o act_n 9.37_o vers_fw-la 39_o and_o wash_v and_o lay_v out_o peter_n go_v into_o the_o upper_a chamber_n where_o all_o the_o widow_n stand_v by_o he_o weep_v and_o show_v the_o coat_n and_o garment_n which_o dorcâ—s_n have_v make_v while_o yet_o she_o be_v with_o they_o 40_o vers_fw-la 40_o then_o the_o apostle_n put_v they_o all_o forth_o and_o kneel_v down_o and_o pray_v and_o turn_v he_o to_o the_o body_n he_o say_v tabytha_n arise_v and_o she_o open_v her_o eye_n &_o when_o she_o see_v peter_n she_o sit_v up_o here_o be_v a_o wonder_n wrought_v by_o a_o man_n far_o great_a than_o the_o recovery_n of_o my_o health_n will_v prove_v but_o this_o man_n receive_v his_o power_n from_o god_n 9.8_o mat._n 9.8_o well_o may_v the_o people_n marveile_v when_o they_o see_v such_o thing_n and_o glorify_v god_n who_o have_v give_v such_o power_n unto_o man_n but_o saint_n peter_n be_v dead_a and_o in_o these_o latter_a time_n those_o miracle_n be_v cease_v of_o restore_v the_o dead_a what_o then_o i_o be_o yet_o alive_a and_o my_o cure_n be_v not_o difficult_a to_o