their_o help_n much_o more_o vain_a for_o who_o can_v ransom_n the_o soul_n of_o his_o brother_n sure_o man_n must_v let_v that_o alone_a for_o ever_o my_o substance_n be_v a_o mere_a shadow_n and_o my_o rest_n unquietness_n i_o labour_v for_o holiness_n but_o i_o can_v attain_v it_o i_o search_v for_o happiness_n but_o i_o can_v find_v it_o the_o devil_n beguile_v i_o of_o it_o the_o world_n allure_v i_o from_o it_o yea_o so_o sad_a be_v my_o condition_n that_o my_o own_o soul_n be_v against_o my_o own_o contentment_n my_o understanding_n cozen_v i_o my_o affection_n betray_v i_o my_o memory_n forsake_v i_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o will_v do_v i_o can_v and_o i_o daily_o do_v those_o thing_n which_o i_o will_v not_o all_o that_o i_o be_o all_o that_o i_o can_v be_v in_o this_o life_n be_v nothing_o else_o but_o extreme_a vanity_n what_o shall_v i_o think_v of_o all_o this_o and_o wherewith_o shall_v i_o comfort_v i_o by_o thy_o mercy_n lord_n i_o have_v find_v out_o one_o that_o 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there_o be_v satisfy_v in_o behold_v ravish_v in_o enjoy_v bless_v in_o retain_v nothing_o can_v be_v there_o want_v where_o i_o enjoy_v all_o that_o be_v that_o be_v that_o be_v to_o come_v where_o the_o happy_a humanity_n be_v eternal_o unite_v to_o the_o bless_a deity_n where_o i_o be_o christ_n and_o christ_n be_v go_n o_o happy_a condition_n of_o my_o sinful_a body_n o_o bless_a change_n of_o my_o immortal_a soul_n the_o one_o be_v sow_v in_o corruption_n that_o it_o may_v rise_v to_o immortality_n the_o other_o lay_v down_o corruption_n to_o inhere_o it_o glory_n though_o i_o now_o leave_v it_o i_o still_o long_o to_o enjoy_v it_o and_o joy_v exceed_o in_o longing_n for_o it_o because_o i_o know_v i_o shall_v for_o ever_o be_v unite_v to_o it_o but_o woe_n be_v i_o even_o in_o this_o happiness_n i_o be_o still_o miserable_a i_o have_v find_v out_o my_o quiet_n but_o i_o care_v not_o to_o enjoy_v it_o death_n offer_v i_o a_o crown_n and_o i_o refuse_v to_o accept_v it_o be_o i_o so_o senseless_a to_o affect_v my_o own_o unhappiness_n to_o rejoice_v in_o labour_n and_o complain_v of_o rest_n what_o do_v i_o here_o any_o long_o the_o world_n love_v i_o not_o nor_o i_o it_o why_o do_v i_o thus_o dote_v upon_o my_o enemy_n when_o it_o frown_v it_o afflict_v i_o when_o it_o smile_v it_o betray_v i_o there_o be_v nothing_o in_o it_o but_o weariness_n and_o misery_n go_v out_o therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n go_v out_o cheerful_o from_o thy_o prison_n to_o thy_o palace_n god_n be_v thy_o father_n and_o heaven_n thy_o country_n thou_o be_v here_o distress_o poor_a and_o wretched_o naked_a bereave_v of_o grace_n despoil_v of_o goodness_n thou_o have_v there_o much_o treasure_n and_o of_o great_a price_n a_o fair_a mansion_n and_o a_o goodly_a heritage_n christ_n have_v purchase_v it_o and_o be_v go_v before_o to_o prepare_v it_o thou_o long_v much_o in_o this_o life_n to_o behold_v that_o which_o thou_o never_o see_v here_o be_v great_a and_o glorious_a thing_n prepare_v for_o thou_o such_o as_o eye_n have_v not_o see_v ear_n have_v not_o hear_v neither_o have_v enter_v into_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n to_o conceive_v how_o earnest_o shall_v thou_o long_o to_o see_v they_o how_o much_o more_o earnest_o to_o enjoy_v they_o how_o willing_o shall_v this_o make_v thou_o to_o express_v thyself_o with_o holy_a david_n and_o say_v my_o soul_n be_v athirst_a for_o god_n yea_o even_o for_o the_o live_a god_n when_o shall_v i_o come_v and_o appear_v before_o the_o presence_n of_o my_o god_n alas_o my_o soul_n thou_o be_v here_o but_o grope_v in_o the_o dark_a daily_o err_v and_o mistake_v hourly_o stumble_v and_o sall_v into_o sin_n into_o shame_n into_o sorrow_n in_o great_a danger_n of_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n in_o great_a of_o the_o torment_n of_o eternal_a death_n all_o that_o thou_o know_v here_o be_v to_o know_v thyself_o ignorant_a thou_o only_o know_v thing_n here_o by_o their_o event_n thou_o shall_v there_o know_v they_o in_o their_o first_o cause_n thou_o be_v here_o weary_v out_o in_o gain_v this_o imperfect_a lame_a and_o empty_a knowledge_n thou_o shall_v there_o delight_v thyself_o in_o know_v all_o that_o be_v desirable_a by_o know_v he_o in_o who_o be_v all_o the_o treasure_n of_o wisdom_n and_o knowledge_n these_o drop_n of_o transitory_a joy_n be_v full_a of_o bitterness_n those_o river_n of_o eternal_a pleasure_n be_v derive_v from_o the_o fountain_n of_o eternal_a sweetness_n thou_o have_v here_o vain_a pomp_n to_o delight_v thou_o thou_o have_v there_o a_o far_o great_a and_o more_o exceed_a weight_n of_o glory_n to_o encompass_v thou_o thou_o be_v here_o enthrall_v by_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n thou_o be_v there_o enlarge_v by_o the_o blesedness_n of_o death_n bless_a lord_n all_o this_o by_o grace_n i_o know_v and_o faithful_o believe_v and_o yet_o by_o nature_n i_o be_o still_o blind_a and_o ignorant_a unable_a to_o discern_v unwilling_a to_o desire_v those_o bless_a thing_n which_o be_v belong_v to_o my_o everlasting_a peace_n but_o when_o thou_o in_o thy_o rich_a mercy_n shall_v once_o open_v my_o eye_n to_o see_v the_o beauty_n of_o my_o heavenly_a home_n i_o shall_v then_o entire_o love_v it_o and_o unfeigned_o long_a for_o it_o i_o shall_v then_o most_o willing_o forsake_v these_o totter_a wall_n of_o my_o frail_a flesh_n to_o dwell_v with_o thou_o in_o perfect_a holiness_n and_o endless_a happiness_n that_o frailty_n may_v be_v swallow_v up_o of_o immortality_n and_o immortality_n may_v be_v embrace_v by_o eternity_n o_o thou_o which_o be_v and_o be_v to_o come_v who_o have_v sweeten_v death_n by_o thy_o perfect_a obedience_n and_o perfume_v the_o grave_n by_o thy_o bless_a suffering_n suffer_v i_o not_o in_o my_o last_o hour_n for_o any_o pain_n of_o death_n or_o terror_n of_o hell_n to_o fall_v from_o the_o fast_o hold_v of_o a_o true_a and_o lively_a faith_n in_o thy_o promise_n to_o lose_v the_o precious_a hope_n of_o immortality_n and_o sweet_a enjoyment_n of_o eternity_n lord_n let_v i_o then_o say_v with_o thy_o bless_a apostle_n that_o i_o know_v who_o i_o have_v trust_v that_o he_o will_v keep_v what_o i_o have_v deliver_v to_o he_o and_o restore_v it_o safe_o unto_o i_o at_o that_o day_n let_v i_o serious_o consider_v of_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n and_o blessedness_n of_o death_n acquaint_v i_o every_o day_n with_o the_o remembrance_n of_o it_o and_o bless_v i_o every_o hour_n with_o a_o desire_n unto_o it_o that_o i_o may_v willing_o unclothe_v myself_o of_o sin_n and_o misery_n and_o joyful_o be_v clothe_v upon_o with_o immortality_n o_o lord_n prepare_v i_o for_o that_o bless_a hour_n and_o in_o my_o great_a weakness_n and_o extremity_n even_o then_o when_o all_o the_o comfort_n of_o this_o wretched_a life_n shall_v fail_v i_o lord_n jesus_n forsake_v i_o not_o be_v not_o thou_o far_o from_o i_o o_o give_v i_o then_o that_o inward_a joy_n that_o bless_a comfort_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n that_o may_v support_v and_o comfort_v i_o in_o all_o the_o terror_n and_o amazement_n of_o this_o dark_a and_o unknown_a passage_n in_o all_o the_o dreadful_a accusation_n of_o the_o devil_n and_o my_o own_o accuse_a conscience_n lord_n let_v thy_o bless_a spirit_n then_o witness_v to_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o be_o thy_o child_n that_o thou_o will_v purge_v away_o all_o my_o dross_n and_o take_v away_o all_o my_o sin_n that_o i_o be_o powerful_o protect_v by_o thy_o grace_n and_o shall_v assure_o be_v make_v partaker_n of_o thy_o glory_n amen_n chap._n 36._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o opportunity_n in_o do_v good_a unto_o the_o saint_n lord_n when_o i_o call_v to_o mind_v the_o richness_n and_o the_o largeness_n of_o thy_o bounty_n
not_o only_a safety_n inviolable_a but_o peace_n untterable_a safety_n in_o life_n and_o sweetness_n in_o death_n and_o now_o lord_n when_o i_o inquire_v for_o what_o cause_n thou_o give_v i_o all_o this_o i_o find_v nothing_o but_o thy_o mere_a love_n unto_o i_o when_o i_o ask_v what_o thou_o require_v for_o all_o this_o i_o hear_v thou_o demand_v no_o thing_n but_o the_o return_n of_o love_n what_o be_v more_o easy_a what_o more_o sweet_a than_o love_n and_o what_o object_n more_o aimable_fw-fr than_o that_o glorious_a be_v that_o be_v the_o perfection_n of_o all_o love_n &_o that_o love_n the_o beauty_n of_o all_o perfection_n thou_o can_v not_o give_v lord_n what_o thou_o have_v not_o the_o glory_n of_o thy_o creation_n be_v but_o a_o glimpse_n of_o that_o grater_n glory_n of_o thy_o essence_n lord_n who_o can_v deny_v thou_o love_n how_o sweet_a be_v this_o yoke_n how_o light_a this_o burden_n when_o i_o love_v thou_o i_o enjoy_v thou_o and_o myself_o in_o thou_o i_o possess_v thou_o i_o rest_v in_o thou_o for_o ever_o o_o my_o god_n all_o that_o thou_o give_v i_o all_o that_o thou_o require_v of_o i_o be_v to_o make_v i_o happy_a to_o thou_o be_v glory_n for_o ever_o amen_n bless_a lord_n all_z this_o i_o joyful_o confess_v thou_o have_v do_v for_o i_o and_o yet_o the_o whole_a course_n of_o my_o corrupt_a life_n have_v be_v nothing_o else_o but_o a_o continue_a rebellion_n against_o thou_o my_o eye_n full_a of_o adultery_n my_o tongue_n of_o corrupt_a communication_n my_o hand_n of_o oppression_n my_o ear_n open_a to_o iniquity_n my_o heart_n full_a of_o hypocricy_n my_o foot_n lame_a in_o thy_o path_n and_o swift_a to_o walk_v in_o the_o way_n of_o sinner_n my_o whole_a man_n nothing_o else_o but_o the_o very_a body_n of_o death_n and_o destruction_n i_o have_v sin_v against_o precept_n against_o promise_n against_o mercy_n against_o judgement_n against_o the_o check_n of_o my_o own_o conscience_n and_o the_o bless_a motion_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n i_o have_v even_o tempt_v my_o temptation_n by_o make_v daily_o and_o hourly_a provision_n for_o sin_n and_o have_v be_v so_o far_o from_o sorrow_v for_o all_o this_o that_o i_o have_v resolve_v to_o continue_v yet_o still_o and_o yet_o so_o great_a be_v thy_o compassion_n towards_o i_o that_o still_o thou_o store_v up_o new_a mercy_n for_o i_o lord_n i_o bewail_v my_o weakness_n i_o lament_v my_o wilfulness_n i_o abhor_v my_o filthiness_n i_o hearty_o desire_v and_o earnest_o endeavour_v to_o unrip_v my_o soul_n to_o ransack_v my_o heart_n to_o unlock_v the_o very_a secret_n of_o my_o thought_n that_o i_o may_v have_v all_o my_o sin_n continual_o before_o i_o even_o in_o their_o worst_a appearance_n and_o i_o may_v loathe_v they_o and_o leave_v they_o and_o obtain_v thy_o gracious_a pardon_n for_o they_o i_o confess_v lord_n that_o i_o be_o utter_o unworthy_a to_o enjoy_v this_o bless_a light_n which_o i_o have_v so_o much_o abuse_v to_o thy_o great_a dishonour_n much_o more_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n by_o which_o thou_o lead_v i_o to_o that_o of_o glory_n and_o that_o it_o be_v more_o just_a with_o thou_o for_o ever_o to_o deprive_v i_o of_o these_o happy_a light_n and_o to_o expose_v i_o to_o the_o terror_n of_o eternal_a darkness_n lord_n i_o have_v finned_a and_o can_v choose_v but_o sin_n i_o be_o a_o great_a and_o grievous_a sinner_n and_o yet_o i_o be_o thy_o child_n have_v pity_n upon_o i_o have_v pity_n upon_o i_o for_o i_o be_o in_o misery_n into_o the_o bosom_n of_o thy_o tender_a love_n i_o thrust_v my_o sinful_a soul_n for_o safety_n and_o protection_n o_o let_v not_o thy_o justice_n triumph_n in_o my_o ruin_n but_o thy_o mercy_n in_o my_o deliverance_n so_o shall_v thou_o have_v the_o glory_n and_o i_o the_o sweetness_n of_o my_o eternal_a happiness_n hear_v i_o o_o lord_n and_o help_v i_o for_o thy_o name_n sake_n for_o thy_o promise_n sake_n for_o thy_o son_n sake_n amen_n chap._n 3._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o divine_a providence_n a_o meditation_n for_o noon_n bless_a god_n without_o thy_o holy_a providence_n no_o creature_n can_v subsist_v by_o thy_o almighty_a power_n they_o be_v create_v out_o of_o nothing_o and_o if_o thou_o shall_v not_o sustain_v they_o they_o must_v needs_o return_v to_o nothing_o how_o wise_o how_o wonderful_o do_v thou_o guide_v and_o govern_v these_o inferior_a creature_n all_o thing_n be_v at_o once_o dispose_v of_o by_o thou_o and_o move_v successive_o to_o their_o appoint_a end_n but_o above_o all_o how_o gracious_o have_v thou_o provide_v for_o the_o good_a of_o man_n what_o variety_n of_o food_n how_o secret_o how_o sweet_o dispose_v it_o to_o sustentation_n no_o creature_n can_v be_v nourish_v without_o thou_o and_o with_o thou_o i_o enjoy_v not_o only_a nutriment_n but_o delectation_n how_o sweet_a be_v this_o thy_o goodness_n to_o my_o body_n how_o much_o more_o sweet_a thy_o mercy_n to_o my_o soul_n and_o if_o thy_o temporal_a refreshment_n be_v so_o good_a how_o ravish_v be_v that_o celestial_a food_n with_o which_o thy_o saint_n and_o angel_n be_v delight_v lord_n how_o undeserving_a be_o i_o of_o these_o thy_o many_o favour_n thou_o give_v rain_n to_o the_o earth_n and_o it_o become_v fruitful_a thou_o load_a i_o daily_o with_o thy_o blessing_n and_o lo_o i_o be_o unthankful_a even_o those_o creature_n that_o be_v insensible_a be_v daily_o nourish_v into_o augmentation_n and_o man_n alone_o who_o thou_o have_v make_v to_o live_v for_o ever_o content_v himself_o with_o daily_a diminution_n this_o woeful_o appear_v by_o my_o deadness_n and_o dulness_n in_o my_o christian_a calling_n by_o my_o back_n wardness_n to_o holy_a duty_n by_o my_o carelessness_n and_o coldness_n in_o prayer_n weariness_n in_o read_v irkomenesse_n in_o meditation_n by_o my_o faint_a hope_n sick_a faith_n lukewarm_a love_n freeze_a charity_n lame_a patience_n languish_v zeal_n and_o all_o those_o other_o visible_a decay_n of_o goodness_n which_o be_v none_o other_o than_o the_o very_a symptom_n of_o a_o die_a soul_n ah_o now_o lord_n how_o miserable_o deform_a must_v i_o needs_o appear_v in_o thy_o fight_n that_o be_o thus_o ugly_a in_o my_o own_o thou_o that_o have_v compassion_n on_o i_o when_o i_o be_v in_o my_o blood_n and_o then_o say_v unto_o i_o live_v that_o have_v wash_v i_o clean_o from_o sin_n and_o pollution_n and_o espouse_v i_o into_o thy_o own_o bolom_o will_v thou_o also_o love_v i_o in_o death_n will_v thou_o court_v i_o in_o the_o grave_n how_o just_o may_v thou_o for_o ever_o leave_v i_o to_o my_o own_o ruin_n that_o can_v so_o easy_o so_o willing_o forsake_v thou_o for_o the_o pleasure_n of_o sin_n and_o yet_o how_o sweet_o how_o affectionate_o do_v thou_o order_v all_o thing_n for_o i_o even_o my_o very_a sin_n invite_v i_o to_o a_o more_o happy_a to_o a_o near_a union_n with_o thou_o to_o thou_o therefore_o o_o my_o god_n the_o life_n of_o my_o life_n the_o very_a be_v and_o assure_a comfort_n of_o my_o sinful_a soul_n and_o wretched_a body_n do_v i_o address_v myself_o for_o mercy_n and_o forgiveness_n i_o confess_v myself_o unworthy_a of_o thy_o gracious_a providence_n in_o sustain_v this_o frail_a and_o infirm_a body_n much_o more_o unworthy_a o_o lord_n of_o thy_o unspeakable_a love_n in_o revive_v relieve_v embrace_v my_o deform_a soul_n bless_a lord_n who_o be_o i_o of_o who_o thou_o be_v thus_o tender_o compassionate_a when_o i_o be_v in_o the_o womb_n i_o be_v defile_v with_o sin_n when_o i_o come_v out_o of_o it_o i_o be_v cover_v with_o shame_n the_o world_n bewitch_v i_o the_o flesh_n besot_v i_o the_o devil_n beguile_v i_o lord_n when_o no_o eye_n pity_v i_o than_o thou_o bid_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o now_o at_o last_o when_o i_o be_o run_v from_o thou_o when_o i_o have_v adulterate_v my_o first_o love_n when_o i_o be_o become_v poor_a and_o wretched_a and_o miserable_a and_o blind_a and_o naked_a thou_o free_o forgive_v i_o thou_o call_v i_o thy_o fair_a one_o and_o give_v i_o thy_o love_n o_o my_o god_n i_o admire_v thy_o goodness_n i_o deplore_v and_o abhor_v my_o own_o wretchedness_n o_o let_v the_o sweetness_n of_o thy_o love_n in_o christ_n inflame_v the_o die_a spark_n of_o my_o benumb_a soul_n to_o praise_v thou_o without_o cease_v expatiatc_n my_o narrow_a thought_n with_o day'y_a contemplation_n of_o my_o heavenly_a home_n with_o joyful_a expectation_n of_o the_o sweet_a fruition_n of_o eternity_n o_o give_v i_o such_o a_o bless_a raptasie_n of_o soul_n that_o i_o may_v live_v above_o the_o reach_n of_o humane_a misery_n and_o reign_v with_o thou_o hereafter_o in_o immortal_a glory_n chap._n 4._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o sinfulness_n shortness_n and_o uncertainty_n of_o life_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o evening_n
and_o with_o thy_o bless_a apostle_n that_o i_o know_v assure_o that_o the_o suffering_n of_o this_o life_n shall_v work_v for_o i_o a_o far_o great_a and_o more_o exceed_a weight_n of_o glory_n in_o that_o to_o come_v to_o thou_o therefore_o o_o thou_o bless_a guardian_n of_o my_o sinful_a soul_n and_o wretched_a body_n do_v i_o address_v myself_o for_o safety_n and_o protection_n i_o confess_v o_o lord_n there_o be_v no_o one_o minute_n of_o my_o whole_a life_n can_v be_v safe_a without_o thy_o gracious_a providence_n and_o yet_o so_o wretched_a have_v i_o be_v that_o few_o or_o none_o of_o they_o have_v be_v devote_v to_o thy_o service_n lord_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a of_o the_o least_o of_o all_o thy_o mercy_n and_o of_o all_o thy_o truth_n thou_o have_v afford_v i_o even_o the_o very_o best_a of_o all_o my_o action_n have_v just_o merit_v the_o very_o worst_a of_o all_o thy_o punishment_n and_o yet_o thou_o daily_a load_a i_n with_o thy_o blessing_n although_o i_o hourly_o sin_n against_o thou_o by_o my_o great_a transgression_n forgive_v i_o my_o unmindfulnesse_n of_o these_o thy_o mercy_n my_o great_a unthankfulness_n for_o all_o thy_o favour_n and_o fix_v my_o sinful_a soul_n more_o willing_o more_o joyful_o more_o fervent_o more_o constant_o on_o thy_o service_n teach_v i_o to_o keep_v a_o catalogue_n of_o thy_o mercy_n to_o let_v none_o pass_v without_o a_o thankful_a and_o devout_a acknowledgement_n to_o set_v some_o day_n apart_o from_o the_o year_n some_o hour_n from_o each_o day_n to_o praise_v thou_o for_o they_o forgive_v the_o pride_n of_o my_o prosperity_n my_o carelessness_n of_o thou_o my_o coldness_n unto_o thou_o my_o crossness_n unto_o other_o my_o cruelty_n to_o myself_o lord_n pardon_v my_o repine_n in_o adversity_n my_o distaste_n of_o thy_o power_n my_o distrust_n of_o thy_o providence_n my_o denial_n of_o thy_o wisdom_n my_o refusal_n of_o thy_o love_n my_o contempt_n of_o thy_o favour_n my_o neglect_n of_o thy_o grace_n my_o despair_n of_o thy_o goodness_n o_o give_v i_o such_o a_o bless_a frame_n of_o heart_n that_o i_o may_v cheerful_o and_o joyful_o content_v myself_o to_o walk_v in_o whatsoever_o path_n thy_o bless_a providence_n shall_v lead_v i_o to_o o_o hold_v thou_o up_o my_o go_n in_o those_o path_n that_o my_o foot_n slip_v not_o teach_v i_o to_o make_v a_o gracious_a and_o a_o sweet_a improvement_n of_o these_o outward_a cross_n a_o bless_a and_o a_o wise_a advantage_n of_o thy_o inward_a grace_n lord_n lead_v i_o by_o thy_o counsel_n here_o and_o afterward_o receive_v i_o to_o thy_o glory_n amen_n chap._n 16._o upon_o sinful_a anger_n and_o the_o great_a disturbance_n thereof_o lord_n when_o i_o consider_v of_o thy_o patience_n and_o long-suffering_a towards_o i_o a_o miserable_a sinner_n of_o the_o lowliness_n of_o thy_o saint_n and_o of_o the_o great_a humility_n and_o meekness_n of_o my_o saviour_n in_o his_o suffering_n i_o much_o deplore_v the_o woeful_a weakness_n of_o my_o own_o infirmity_n and_o more_o admire_v the_o richness_n of_o thy_o goodness_n in_o admit_v i_o to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o what_o pleasure_n lord_n can_v thou_o take_v in_o that_o service_n which_o be_v all_o sin_n how_o can_v thou_o delight_v in_o that_o which_o thou_o abhor_v thou_o be_v a_o god_n of_o pure_a eye_n and_o can_v not_o behold_v iniquity_n if_o all_o my_o righteousness_n be_v in_o thy_o sight_n as_o filthy_a rag_n and_o menstivous_a clothes_n how_o full_a of_o ugliness_n and_o deformity_n will_v my_o sin_n then_o appear_v before_o thou_o ah_o lord_n thou_o have_v often_o seâ—n_o how_o easy_o how_o sudden_o how_o wretched_o i_o have_v be_v swallow_v up_o of_o sinful_a passion_n how_o i_o have_v violate_v that_o invaluable_a peace_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o by_o revengeful_a thought_n by_o despiteful_a word_n by_o disturb_v action_n i_o know_v nothing_o in_o my_o corrupt_a nature_n but_o to_o know_v myself_o miserable_a i_o see_v nothing_o in_o this_o misery_n but_o terror_n and_o confusion_n affliction_n to_o my_o body_n destruction_n to_o my_o soul_n all_o occurrence_n of_o this_o life_n shall_v have_v rather_o add_v to_o my_o growth_n of_o grace_n than_o disturbance_n of_o nature_n i_o have_v hitherto_o be_v gross_o mistake_v in_o call_v that_o a_o defect_n of_o my_o body_n which_o be_v in_o truth_n a_o error_n in_o my_o soul_n nature_n be_v at_o first_o create_v pure_a no_o disobedience_n be_v then_o in_o the_o passion_n man_n have_v mar_v it_o by_o his_o fall_n all_o the_o stream_n that_o be_v now_o trouble_v flow_n from_o this_o fountain_n this_o barren_a excuse_n therefore_o be_v so_o far_o from_o lessen_v sin_n that_o it_o make_v it_o big_a i_o be_o now_o so_o much_o the_o more_o stain_v by_o commit_v actual_a sin_n as_o i_o shall_v have_v be_v more_o holy_a and_o be_o not_o since_o original_n lord_n let_v this_o teach_v i_o to_o deal_v true_o with_o my_o soul_n to_o unclothe_v myself_o of_o all_o sinful_a excuse_n that_o so_o sin_n may_v appear_v true_o what_o it_o be_v and_o may_v become_v out_o of_o measure_n sinful_a that_o my_o anger_n may_v be_v holy_a my_o application_n of_o it_o happy_a that_o nothing_o may_v disturb_v i_o but_o sin_n that_o i_o may_v be_v a_o lion_n in_o thy_o cause_n a_o lamb_n in_o my_o own_o that_o when_o i_o hate_v the_o sin_n i_o may_v love_v the_o person_n when_o i_o rebuke_v the_o offence_n i_o may_v pray_v hearty_o for_o the_o offender_n so_o shall_v i_o zealous_o enjoy_v thou_o my_o god_n religious_o embrace_v my_o neighhour_n patient_o possess_v my_o own_o soul_n and_o now_o lord_n as_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o a_o heart_n to_o confess_v my_o sin_n of_o impatience_n before_o thou_o so_o give_v i_o a_o sweet_a assurance_n in_o my_o saviour_n that_o by_o he_o i_o have_v assure_v pardon_n for_o they_o if_o thou_o lord_n for_o my_o sinful_a anger_n shall_v inflict_v upon_o i_o thy_o severe_a wrath_n and_o for_o my_o long_o continue_v in_o my_o sin_n the_o long_a duration_n of_o thy_o punishment_n yet_o let_v not_o thy_o severity_n exceed_v the_o measure_n of_o my_o christian_a charity_n though_o thou_o continue_v my_o misery_n yet_o withdraw_v not_o thy_o mercy_n o_o make_v i_o more_o and_o more_o humble_a unto_o thou_o my_o god_n and_o more_o and_o more_o meek_a among_o thy_o child_n conform_v i_o to_o that_o bless_a pattern_n of_o true_a piety_n and_o patience_n that_o as_o a_o sheep_n in_o thy_o hand_n my_o bless_a shearer_n so_o i_o may_v be_v dumb_a and_o not_o open_v my_o mouth_n against_o thou_o lord_n banish_v from_o i_o all_o desire_n of_o revenge_n let_v patience_n have_v its_o perfect_a work_n to_o quiet_v i_o here_o and_o crown_v i_o hereafter_o i_o confess_v myself_o to_o be_v a_o great_a and_o grievous_a sinner_n and_o yet_o i_o be_o thy_o creature_n my_o body_n be_v thou_o and_o my_o soul_n be_v thou_o both_o be_v join_v in_o thy_o creation_n and_o both_o be_v join_v in_o my_o devotion_n both_o have_v sin_v against_o thou_o o_o let_v they_o both_o be_v humble_v before_o thou_o not_o to_o satisfy_v thy_o justice_n but_o to_o implore_v thy_o mercy_n not_o to_o merit_v thy_o grace_n but_o to_o magnify_v thy_o goodness_n lord_n make_v i_o true_o sensible_a of_o the_o greatness_n of_o thy_o misery_n that_o i_o may_v the_o more_o devout_o the_o more_o sincere_o sue_v to_o thou_o for_o mercy_n forgive_v the_o many_o violent_a eruption_n of_o my_o sinful_a passion_n give_v i_o a_o meek_a and_o humble_a spirit_n that_o i_o may_v happy_o enjoy_v thy_o presence_n and_o my_o own_o content_a lord_n grant_v that_o i_o may_v patient_o and_o joyful_o embrace_v the_o wrong_n and_o injury_n of_o this_o life_n for_o thy_o sake_n who_o have_v be_v patient_a even_o to_o death_n for_o i_o let_v that_o be_v make_v easy_a unto_o i_o by_o thy_o grace_n which_o by_o nature_n be_v impossible_a that_o nothing_o may_v delight_v i_o but_o thy_o love_n nothing_o grieve_v i_o but_o thy_o displeasure_n nothing_o offend_v i_o but_o thy_o dishonour_n amen_n chap._n 17._o upon_o man_n inordinate_a love_n to_o the_o creature_n woe_n be_v i_o that_o i_o be_o constrain_v to_o live_v in_o meshech_n and_o to_o dwell_v in_o the_o tent_n of_o cedar_n woe_n be_v i_o that_o i_o be_v conceive_v in_o sin_n that_o i_o be_v bear_v in_o sin_n and_o that_o i_o have_v so_o long_o be_v captive_a to_o the_o power_n of_o sin_n how_o vain_a be_o i_o how_o wretched_a to_o beguile_v myself_o of_o rest_n and_o quietness_n o_o how_o unworthy_a to_o defile_v my_o marriage_n vow_n to_o prostitute_v my_o love_n to_o these_o unclean_a and_o false_a embrace_n of_o a_o sâ—nfull_a world_n to_o dig_v unto_o myself_o these_o break_a cistern_n of_o impure_a and_o empty_a joy_n and_o to_o forsake_v those_o live_a water_n of_o
a_o father_n thou_o will_v abhor_v that_o sin_n that_o have_v so_o much_o provoke_v his_o displeasure_n thou_o will_v most_o solemn_o protest_v against_o it_o and_o serious_o resolve_v for_o ever_o to_o avoid_v it_o thy_o sin_n will_v be_v ever_o before_o thou_o to_o humble_v thou_o here_o to_o exalt_v thou_o hereafter_o thy_o degree_n of_o sin_n will_v have_v thy_o degree_n of_o sorrow_n thy_o measure_n of_o pollution_n will_v require_v thy_o measure_n of_o sanctification_n as_o thou_o have_v give_v up_o thy_o member_n to_o be_v servant_n of_o sin_n so_o thou_o must_v now_o yield_v they_o up_o to_o be_v weapon_n of_o righteousness_n as_o thou_o have_v be_v drown_v in_o pleasure_n so_o thou_o must_v be_v drench_v in_o tear_n yea_o those_o tear_n will_v be_v thy_o daily_a food_n to_o nourish_v thou_o in_o grace_n to_o enrich_v thou_o in_o glory_n o_o how_o truly-blessed_n be_v that_o soul_n which_o have_v unfeigned_o resolve_v on_o this_o good_a this_o great_a this_o necessary_a work_n that_o can_v cheerful_o and_o joyful_o express_v itself_o with_o holy_a david_n and_o say_v lord_z i_o be_o bow_v down_o great_o i_o go_v mourn_v all_o the_o day_n long_o i_o have_v roar_v out_o for_o very_a anguish_n and_o unquietness_n of_o heart_n if_o thou_o have_v david_n sorrow_n o_o my_o soul_n thou_o shall_v assure_o have_v david_n joy_n thou_o shall_v say_v with_o he_o also_o lord_n i_o be_o thy_o child_n and_o the_o son_n of_o thy_o handmaid_n thou_o have_v break_v my_o bond_n in_o sunder_o psal_n 116.16_o satan_n may_v now_o tempt_v thou_o and_o through_o thy_o frailty_n and_o infirmity_n prevail_v against_o thou_o but_o to_o become_v a_o customer_n to_o evil_a the_o power_n of_o hell_n can_v entice_v thou_o a_o thousand_o world_n be_v not_o now_o of_o that_o value_n with_o thou_o as_o the_o joyful_a remembrance_n of_o thy_o pass_a danger_n thy_o present_a comfort_n thy_o future_a safety_n thou_o have_v now_o see_v o_o my_o soul_n how_o absolute_o necessary_a this_o great_a work_n be_v think_v now_o how_o happy_a will_v be_v the_o performance_n how_o full_a of_o danger_n the_o delay_n the_o long_a thou_o continue_v in_o sin_n the_o more_o remote_a thou_o be_v from_o grace_n what_o extreme_a folly_n be_v this_o in_o thou_o to_o deprive_v thyself_o of_o that_o friend_n of_o who_o thou_o have_v most_o need_n if_o thou_o find_v thyself_o so_o backward_o to_o this_o holy_a duty_n now_o how_o averse_a will_v thou_o be_v hereafter_o when_o sin_n be_v more_o deep_o root_v in_o thou_o the_o devil_n in_o more_o firm_a possession_n of_o thou_o and_o god_n himself_o remove_v further_o off_o from_o thou_o from_o whence_o now_o be_v these_o false_a hope_n these_o vain_a promise_n of_o future_a happiness_n how_o dare_v thou_o refuse_v these_o gracious_a offer_n of_o eternity_n how_o full_a of_o doubtfulness_n and_o extreme_a hazard_n be_v this_o false_a assurance_n of_o that_o holy_a spirit_n which_o thou_o have_v so_o often_o grieve_v be_v not_o deceive_v god_n be_v not_o mock_v look_v what_o a_o man_n sow_v even_o that_o shall_v he_o reap_v he_o that_o sow_v in_o the_o flesh_n shall_v reap_v corruption_n he_o that_o sow_v in_o the_o spirit_n life_n everlasting_a if_o thou_o will_v not_o hear_v god_n call_v in_o this_o life_n he_o will_v not_o hear_v thou_o in_o that_o to_o come_v if_o thou_o will_v not_o mourn_v for_o thy_o sin_n here_o thou_o shall_v howl_v for_o they_o for_o ever_o and_o who_o shall_v then_o have_v pity_n upon_o thou_o or_o who_o shall_v be_v sorry_a for_o thou_o or_o who_o shall_v pray_v for_o thy_o peace_n thou_o have_v abandon_v i_o say_v god_n thou_o have_v go_v from_o i_o and_o now_o will_v i_o stretch_v out_o my_o hand_n against_o thou_o to_o destroy_v thou_o jerem._n 15.5_o 6_o lord_n let_v this_o teach_v i_o to_o deal_v true_o with_o myself_o to_o search_v narrow_o for_o sin_n timely_a for_o sorrow_n and_o speedy_o for_o pardon_v seek_v the_o lord_n o_o my_o soul_n while_o he_o may_v be_v find_v for_o in_o the_o great_a water-flood_n of_o his_o eternal_a wrath_n thou_o shall_v not_o come_v nigh_o he_o lord_n i_o have_v sin_v and_o i_o desire_v to_o repent_v i_o have_v lie_v long_o fester_v in_o the_o grave_n of_o sin_n and_o can_v be_v now_o raise_v without_o a_o miracle_n i_o have_v sin_v in_o delight_n in_o consent_n in_o action_n in_o custom_n in_o long_a continuance_n of_o custom_n without_o remorse_n of_o conscience_n without_o thought_n of_o repentance_n i_o be_o grow_v old_a and_o impudent_a in_o sin_n and_o be_o no_o more_o worthy_a to_o be_v call_v thy_o child_n lord_n i_o be_o become_v loathsome_a to_o myself_o how_o much_o more_o odious_a unto_o thou_o who_o be_v a_o god_n of_o pure_a eye_n and_o can_v behold_v none_o iniquity_n i_o have_v sin_v against_o thou_o i_o can_v repent_v but_o by_o thou_o my_o transgression_n be_v active_a my_o obedience_n passive_a i_o can_v no_o more_o arise_v from_o sin_n than_o death_n even_o this_o desire_n of_o sorrow_n be_v from_o thou_o the_o repair_n of_o my_o corruption_n be_v the_o work_n of_o thy_o creation_n when_o thou_o have_v raise_v i_o by_o thy_o grace_n thou_o supporte_v i_o by_o thy_o goodness_n thou_o lead_v i_o by_o thy_o providence_n thou_o draw_v i_o by_o thy_o patience_n thou_o compelle_v i_o by_o thy_o power_n such_o be_v my_o weakness_n such_o be_v my_o feebleness_n by_o nature_n that_o i_o can_v rise_v without_o thou_o that_o i_o can_v stand_v without_o thou_o when_o i_o be_o raise_v by_o thou_o such_o be_v my_o strength_n such_o be_v my_o ability_n by_o grace_n that_o i_o be_o able_a to_o go_v with_o thou_o that_o i_o be_o joyful_a to_o run_v after_o thou_o lord_z quicken_z and_o revive_v i_o from_o the_o death_n of_o sin_n and_o grave_n of_o misery_n sustain_v my_o wound_a conscience_n with_o the_o sweetness_n of_o thy_o save_a promise_n let_v thy_o patience_n and_o long-suffering_a lead_v i_o in_o to_o repentance_n thy_o holy_a spirit_n unto_o perfect_a holiness_n and_o endless_a happiness_n lord_n jesus_n draw_v i_o and_o i_o shall_v joyful_o run_v after_o thou_o my_o body_n in_o obedience_n to_o my_o soul_n my_o soul_n and_o body_n in_o obedience_n to_o thy_o bless_a will_n more_o zealous_o more_o willing_o more_o constant_o to_o my_o life_n end_v amen_n chap._n 21._o upon_o servile_a fear_n and_o the_o danger_n thereof_o no_o child_n can_v fear_v his_o father_n as_o lie_v aught_o that_o be_v not_o jealous_a of_o his_o father_n honour_n that_o be_v not_o feel_o affect_v with_o his_o injury_n and_o zealous_o devote_v to_o perpetuate_v his_o praise_n and_o it_o be_v as_o equal_o impossible_a that_o this_o father_n can_v affect_v that_o son_n who_o obedience_n be_v rather_o enforce_v by_o power_n than_o invite_v by_o affection_n if_o this_o be_v so_o in_o nature_n it_o be_v much_o more_o so_o in_o grace_n for_o thou_o o_o lord_n be_v now_o a_o double_a father_n to_o i_o thou_o be_v my_o father_n by_o creation_n and_o my_o father_n by_o redemption_n lord_n as_o thou_o have_v double_v thy_o goodness_n towards_o i_o i_o shall_v have_v double_v my_o return_n of_o thankfulness_n towards_o thou_o thy_o love_n to_o i_o be_v absolute_a no_o breach_n can_v dissolve_v it_o no_o time_n determine_v it_o thy_o love_n to_o i_o be_v from_o the_o beginning_n and_o who_o thou_o love_v thou_o love_v to_o the_o end_n my_o love_n to_o thou_o be_v fickle_a false_a and_o full_a of_o imperfection_n and_o if_o my_o filial_a fear_n even_o in_o my_o rest_n performance_n be_v full_a of_o spot_n and_o blemish_n in_o thy_o sight_n how_o most_o deform_v shall_v i_o appear_v when_o i_o serve_v thou_o with_o a_o irreligious_a and_o ungodly_a fear_n when_o i_o do_v thy_o will_n repine_o and_o cold_o not_o for_o love_v of_o thy_o mercy_n but_o for_o fear_n of_o thy_o justice_n when_o i_o be_o know_o and_o willing_o consent_v to_o thy_o great_a dishonour_n when_o i_o be_o so_o zealous_a in_o the_o world_n cause_n yea_o too_o too_o often_o in_o the_o devil_n cause_n and_o so_o benumb_v in_o thou_o when_o sorrow_n dismay_v i_o and_o sin_n delight_v i_o ah_o lord_n how_o far_o be_o i_o from_o what_o i_o ought_v to_o be_v if_o i_o go_v on_o in_o this_o path_n i_o perish_v everlasting_o while_o i_o continue_v in_o this_o course_n of_o disobedience_n i_o hang_v over_o hell_n fire_n by_o the_o slender_a twig_n of_o a_o uncertain_a life_n and_o if_o that_o once_o break_v my_o loss_n be_v irrecoverable_a thou_o lord_n have_v say_v it_o and_o thy_o word_n be_v truth_n he_o which_o deni_v i_o before_o man_n he_o will_v i_o deny_v before_o my_o father_n which_o be_v in_o heaven_n lord_n let_v this_o teach_v i_o to_o delight_v in_o thy_o service_n to_o be_v jealous_a of_o thy_o honour_n to_o thirst_v for_o thy_o