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requisite_a that_o thou_o thyself_o endeavour_n all_o that_o in_o thou_o lie_v that_o god_n may_v prosper_v this_o thy_o good_a purpose_n de._n what_o think_v you_o needful_a for_o i_o to_o do_v hum_o my_o son_n i_o will_v tell_v thou_o if_o thy_o desire_n be_v to_o remain_v here_o among_o we_o and_o not_o to_o be_v expel_v from_o hence_o by_o my_o virgin_n thou_o must_v take_v my_o young_a daughter_n which_o bring_v thou_o in_o hither_o who_o be_v call_v nihili-pensio_a that_o be_v contempt_n of_o all_o unnecessary_a care_n &_o she_o thou_o must_v obey_v as_o thy_o governess_n or_o mistress_n to_o who_o purposely_o we_o have_v commit_v the_o charge_n to_o entertain_v stranger_n and_o be_v the_o directix_n of_o novice_n &_o whosoever_o refuse_v to_o be_v obedient_a to_o she_o never_o persevere_v in_o that_o they_o undertake_v de._n most_o willing_o i_o admit_v she_o and_o receive_v she_o my_o governess_n and_o desire_v to_o know_v of_o you_o lady_n mother_n your_o name_n stock_n 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