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gentle_o smile_v at_o this_o my_o folly_n when_o they_o shall_v read_v these_o my_o confession_n yet_o true_a it_o be_v that_o such_o a_o one_o than_o i_o be_v chap._n xi_o especial_o find_v the_o manichee_n not_o clear_o to_o answer_v to_o the_o objection_n of_o catholic_n make_v out_o of_o the_o scripture_n yet_o for_o all_o this_o though_o that_o which_o these_o object_v against_o thy_o scripture_n i_o think_v can_v no_o way_n be_v defend_v i_o have_v a_o desire_n to_o confer_v every_o particular_a with_o some_o person_n more_o excellent_o skill_v in_o those_o holy_a book_n and_o to_o know_v the_o uttermost_a of_o the_o church_n opinion_n and_o this_o the_o rather_o because_o one_o helpidius_n dispute_v in_o public_a with_o the_o manichee_n at_o carthage_n have_v not_o a_o little_a move_v i_o in_o press_v many_o thing_n out_o of_o the_o scripture_n against_o which_o i_o seem_v little_o can_v be_v say_v and_o that_o answer_v of_o they_o seem_v very_o weak_a which_o they_o do_v not_o 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not_o my_o god_n not_o only_o good_a but_o goodness_n itself_o from_o who_o have_v i_o then_o to_o will_v evil_o and_o to_o will_v well_o that_o so_o there_o may_v be_v that_o for_o what_o i_o may_v be_v just_o punish_v who_o put_v this_o thing_n into_o i_o who_o plant_v in_o i_o this_o root_n of_o bitterness_n all_o of_o i_o be_v make_v by_o the_o most_o sweet_a creator_n if_o the_o devil_n the_o author_n of_o it_o whence_o then_o the_o devil_n but_o if_o he_o also_o by_o a_o perverse_a will_n of_o a_o good_a angel_n become_v a_o devil_n whence_o come_v in_o he_o this_o evil_a will_n by_o which_o he_o become_v such_o since_o he_o total_o be_v make_v by_o the_o best_a god_n a_o good_a angel_n and_o by_o these_o thought_n be_v i_o plunge_v again_o and_o suffocate_v yet_o not_o so_o low_a as_o that_o infernal_a error_n to_o believe_v that_o thou_o rather_o do_v force_o suffer_v than_o man_n do_v evil_a chap._n iu._n chap._n v._n pursue_v the_o same_o query_n still_o unde_fw-la malum_fw-la yet_o *_o his_o faith_n of_o christ_n to_o be_v our_o lord_n and_o saviour_n remain_v in_o he_o firm_a and_o unshaken_a and_o i_o seek_v from_o whence_o evil_a may_v come_v and_o i_o seek_v evil_o yet_o see_v not_o this_o evil_a in_o my_o inquisition_n and_o my_o spirit_n place_v before_o it_o the_o whole_a universe_n both_o of_o visibles_fw-fr as_o the_o earth_n sea_n air_n starrs_n plant_n animal_n etc._n etc._n and_o of_o invisibles_fw-fr as_o the_o firmament_n of_o heaven_n and_o all_o the_o angel_n and_o spiritual_a inhabitant_n thereof_o after_o this_o i_o consider_v thou_o my_o god_n as_o every_o way_n infinite_a and_o boundless_a environ_v and_o entire_o penetrate_v this_o mass_n as_o a_o shoarless_a sea_n will_v fill_v a_o sponge_n of_o a_o great_a but_o finite_a magnitude_n place_v within_o it_o so_o conceive_v i_o the_o finite_a creature_n fill_v with_o thou_o the_o infinite_a god_n and_o i_o say_v within_o myself_o behold_v god_n and_o behold_v all_o the_o thing_n god_n have_v create_v o_o how_o good_a be_v he_o and_o most_o perfect_o and_o incomparable_o more_o excellent_a and_o better_a than_o they_o yet_o be_v good_a he_o create_v these_o good_a and_o behold_v how_o he_o outward_o encircle_v and_o within_z replenish_v all_o his_o creation_n where_o then_o be_v evil_a or_o whence_o or_o what_o way_n have_v it_o steal_v in_o hither_o what_o be_v the_o root_n and_o what_o the_o seed_n of_o it_o or_o indeed_o be_v it_o at_o all_o why_o fear_v we_o then_o and_o why_o avoid_v we_o that_o which_o be_v not_o or_o if_o we_o vain_o fear_v sure_o this_o fear_n itself_o be_v a_o evil_a by_o which_o our_o soul_n be_v needless_o prick_v and_o torture_v therefore_o either_o there_o be_v a_o evil_n which_o we_o fear_v or_o this_o that_o we_o shall_v so_o fear_v be_v a_o evil_a whence_o be_v it_o then_o because_o god_n make_v all_o these_o thing_n the_o good_a god_n all_o thing_n good_a he_o the_o great_a and_o the_o supreme_a good_a make_v these_o the_o lesser_a but_o yet_o both_o the_o create_v and_o the_o create_v all_o be_v good_a from_o whence_o then_o be_v evil_a or_o out_o of_o what_o do_v god_n make_v these_o thing_n be_v there_o some_o preexistent_a matter_n which_o be_v bad_a and_o he_o form_v and_o rectify_v this_o but_o so_o that_o he_o leave_v something_o in_o it_o not_o convert_v into_o good_a but_o why_o this_o then_o be_v he_o impotent_a to_o change_v it_o all_o that_o so_o no_o more_o evil_a shall_v remain_v in_o it_o who_o yet_o be_v omnipotent_a last_o why_o will_v he_o make_v any_o thing_n at_o all_o of_o it_o and_o not_o rather_o by_o the_o same_o omnipotence_n annihilate_v it_o and_o prepare_v another_o matter_n total_o good_a out_o of_o which_o he_o may_v produce_v all_o thing_n for_o he_o be_v not_o omnipotent_a if_o he_o can_v not_o make_v any_o good_a unless_o he_o be_v first_o furnish_v with_o some_o matter_n which_o himself_o have_v not_o make_v such_o thing_n i_o agitate_a in_o my_o perplex_a breast_n load_v with_o corrode_a care_n from_o fear_n of_o death_n and_o not_o find_v out_o the_o truth_n yet_o the_o faith_n concern_v christ_n both_o our_o lord_n and_o our_o saviour_n retain_v in_o the_o church_n catholic_n be_v irremovable_o fix_v in_o my_o heart_n in_o many_o thing_n indeed_o yet_o unformed_a and_o float_v beside_o the_o rule_n of_o sound_a doctrine_n but_o my_o mind_n do_v never_o forsake_v it_o yea_o daily_o more_o and_o more_o seek_v to_o embrace_v it_o chap._n vi_o and_o *_o the_o lie_a divination_n of_o astrologer_n foretell_v from_o the_o star_n future_a event_n no_o way_n credit_v by_o he_o already_o also_o i_o have_v cast_v off_o the_o lie_a divination_n and_o impious_a dotage_n of_o the_o astrologer_n vulg_n psal_n 106.8_o vulg_n and_o for_o this_o also_o let_v i_o confess_v unto_o thou_o from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n thy_o compassion_n o_o my_o god_n for_o it_o be_v thou_o thou_o alone_o for_o who_o else_o recal_v we_o from_o the_o death_n of_o any_o 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