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such_o and_o so_o great_a that_o it_o be_v not_o for_o he_o to_o think_v of_o heaven_n or_o mercy_n or_o christ_n a_o great_a temptation_n under_o which_o lie_v lurk_v a_o white_a devil_n to_o relieve_v the_o soul_n in_o this_o case_n i_o shall_v propound_v these_o few_o consideration_n 1._o that_o if_o unworthiness_n be_v a_o sufficient_a ground_n to_o keep_v man_n of_o from_o divine_a favour_n and_o eternal_a happiness_n none_o of_o all_o the_o son_n of_o man_n can_v ever_o be_v save_v for_o all_o have_v sin_v and_o by_o sin_n make_v themselves_o unworthy_a of_o mercy_n 2._o that_o there_o be_v no_o subjective_a worthiness_n antecedent_o require_v unto_o justification_n and_o salvation_n god_n well_o know_v the_o unworthy_a condition_n of_o israel_n when_o he_o make_v they_o his_o people_n enter_v into_o the_o covenant_n of_o life_n and_o peace_n with_o they_o ezek._n 16._o can_v you_o conceive_v that_o there_o be_v any_o inherent_a worthiness_n in_o they_o that_o do_v lie_v welter_v 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himself_o a_o prey_n unto_o satan_n to_o the_o releevement_n of_o the_o soul_n under_o this_o burden_n i_o shall_v duty_n five_o settle_n against_o fail_n in_o duty_n yield_v you_o these_o meditation_n follow_v 1._o that_o the_o best_a of_o god_n servant_n have_v be_v be_v and_o may_v be_v indispose_v in_o holy_a duty_n though_o the_o spirit_n of_o peter_n be_v willing_a yet_o the_o flesh_n be_v weak_a 41._o mat._n 26._o 41._o and_o there_o be_v contrary_a lusting_n of_o the_o flesh_n against_o the_o spirit_n a_o christian_a can_v do_v the_o thing_n he_o will_v o_o how_o do_v flesh_n clog_n and_o dull_v the_o best_a of_o god_n saint_n there_o be_v within_o they_o a_o live_a spring_n without_o a_o lively_a operation_n the_o spring_n i_o say_v be_v open_a but_o the_o operation_n narrow_a so_o as_o it_o be_v with_o they_o in_o the_o manner_n of_o their_o perform_a duty_n as_o it_o be_v with_o a_o sick_a man_n he_o will_v feign_v simile_n walk_v a_o turn_n about_o his_o chamber_n but_o alas_o he_o can_v do_v it_o his_o body_n be_v so_o weak_a 2._o that_o there_o be_v a_o wide_a difference_n between_o a_o heart_n that_o be_v dead_a unto_o duty_n and_o a_o dull_a and_o indispose_a heart_n in_o duty_n a_o dead_a heart_n want_v a_o live_a spring_n and_o be_v contrary_n unto_o all_o duty_n as_o it_o fall_v off_o from_o duty_n so_o it_o give_v itself_o a_o allowance_n and_o dispensation_n in_o the_o same_o and_o can_v and_o do_v find_v no_o trouble_n within_o itself_o under_o all_o non-performance_n of_o duty_n whereas_o a_o christian_a under_o all_o his_o unevenesse_n in_o duty_n have_v a_o inward_a intention_n and_o inclination_n unto_o duty_n such_o man_n in_o their_o dull_a time_n and_o great_a indisposition_n see_v not_o more_o duty_n than_o they_o will_v do_v and_o be_v grieve_v because_o they_o can_v do_v duty_n in_o a_o more_o lively_a and_o spiritual_a manner_n such_o stand_v up_o from_o the_o dead_a and_o be_v ready_a for_o divine_a employment_n there_o be_v a_o pray_a spirit_n in_o they_o so_o as_o they_o can_v say_v with_o paul_n the_o good_a 19_o rom._n 7._o 19_o that_o i_o will_v i_o do_v not_o there_o be_v two_o evidence_n when_o the_o bend_v of_o a_o man_n heart_n be_v for_o duty_n in_o a_o live_n and_o right_a way_n first_o when_o a_o heavy_a kind_n of_o perform_v duty_n be_v displease_v and_o contrary_a unto_o the_o frame_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o spirit_n of_o a_o man_n such_o man_n set_v upon_o duty_n sorrowful_o and_o perform_v duty_n with_o fear_n and_o rise_v from_o duty_n humble_v great_o blame_v themselves_o for_o the_o heaviness_n and_o distraction_n of_o spirit_n which_o they_o observe_v to_o be_v in_o themselves_o second_o when_o the_o desire_n be_v rise_v out_o of_o the_o state_n of_o indisposition_n such_o man_n easy_o fasten_v upon_o the_o way_n of_o quicken_a
105_o the_o bend_v of_o the_o heart_n in_o duty_n page_n 263._o c._n comfort_n of_o the_o spirit_n page_n 15._o contentment_n page_n 17._o clearness_n of_o conscience_n page_n 49_o care_n for_o conscience_n page_n 55._o content_a of_o conscience_n p._n 67_o 68_o confession_n of_o sin_n page_n 88_o change_v of_o life_n page_n 89._o compassion_n due_a to_o the_o wound_a in_o spirit_n page_n 121._o consideration_n to_o pity_v such_o p._n 123._o continuance_n under_o wound_n cause_v 6._o way_n p._n 133._o clear_v of_o warrant_n what_o p_o 173_o cause_n of_o god_n suspend_v his_o love_n page_z 177._o d._n desperation_n two_o fold_n page_n 79._o degree_n of_o wound_a page_n 81._o difference_n in_o the_o wound_a p_o 82_o detestation_n of_o sin_n page_n 89._o dress_v the_o wound_n page_n 145._o danger_n by_o sin_v page_n 168._o darken_v of_o warrant_n page_n 175._o doubt_n in_o their_o nature_n cause_v difference_n and_o sort_n page_n 195._o difference_n between_o christian_n and_o other_o in_o do_v duty_n page_n 266._o e._n inquire_v after_o sin_n page_n 87._o fruitless_a endeavour_n page_n 280._o f._n faith_n do_v four_o thing_n to_o strengthen_v the_o spirit_n page_n 19_o it_o do_v four_o way_n relieve_v the_o soul_n page_n 23._o fear_v of_o trouble_n twofold_a p._n 28_o 29._o faintness_n page_n 31._o a_o case_n about_o faint_v of_o spirit_n p._n 33._o faith_n in_o operation_n page_n 54._o feed_v of_o conscience_n what_o p._n 64_o sin_n feel_v three_o way_n page_n 85._o the_o fail_v of_o conscience_n what_o page_n 97._o to_o fear_v the_o wound_n of_o spirit_n page_n 126._o former_a feeling_n of_o love_n four_o sign_n of_o it_o page_z 185._o foundation_n of_o divine_a love_n to_o the_o soul_n page_n 192_o faith_n and_o doubt_n go_v together_o page_z 207._o faith_n to_o be_v cherish_v and_o advance_v pageâ—27_n â—27_z fail_n in_o duty_n page_n 260._o g._n a_o good_a cause_n for_o suffering_n p_o 41._o a_o good_a carriage_n under_o suffer_v in_o seven_o thing_n page_n 45._o the_o goodness_n of_o spirit_n see_v in_o seven_o thing_n page_n 48._o grace_n two_o way_n considerable_a page_n 254._o h._n humiliation_n a_o effect_n of_o the_o wound_n page_n 43._o hope_v page_n 44._o humility_n page_n 86._o harken_v to_o satan_n page_n 138._o humble_v necessary_a for_o three_o thing_n page_n 162._o i_o infirmity_n double_a p._n 3._o self_n jealousy_n p._n 99_o illnesse_n of_o diet_n p._n 136._o k._n six_o rule_n for_o keep_v off_o wound_n from_o the_o spirit_n p._n 128_o the_o knowledge_n of_o the_o wound_n of_o the_o spirit_n necessary_a p._n 114._o l._n liberty_n of_o spirit_n p._n 49._o the_o law_n and_o two_o thing_n about_o it_o p._n 94_o 95._o the_o life_n of_o sense_n p._n 137_o 225._o three_o thing_n about_o love_n and_o duty_n p._n 170._o love_n one_o for_o kind_a different_a in_o degree_n p._n 184._o littleness_n of_o faith_n cause_v doubt_n p._n 206._o little_a grace_n apprehend_v p._n 245._o m._n mean_n of_o make_v conscience_n good_a p._n 51._o the_o misery_n of_o conscience_n in_o silence_n in_o three_o thing_n p._n 97._o mistake_v about_o the_o wound_n of_o conscience_n p._n 115._o melancholy_n be_v not_o this_o wound_n p._n 117_o 118._o motive_n to_o pity_v wound_v spirit_n p._n 124._o mean_v to_o get_v off_o the_o wound_n of_o spirit_n three_o p._n 140._o misplace_v of_o warrant_n p._n 174._o motive_n and_o mean_n against_o doubt_n p._n 216._o n._n new_a rise_n of_o old_a sin_n p._n 102._o spiritual_a niceness_n 137._o o._n overlade_v of_o conscience_n what_o and_o how_o p._n 63._o operation_n of_o melancholy_n p._n 116._o open_v of_o the_o wound_n needful_a p._n 142._o p._n patience_n of_o the_o spirit_n p._n 16._o prevention_n p._n 69._o rule_n for_o preserve_v the_o spirit_n from_o wound_n p._n 6_o 128._o provision_n p._n 147._o promise_v the_o ground_n assure_v love_n p._n 185._o q._n quietness_n of_o conscience_n p._n 48._o a_o question_n about_o the_o inequality_n of_o grace_n p._n 256._o r._n religion_n express_v under_o the_o cross_n p._n 43._o the_o remoovall_n of_o sin_n p._n 64._o seven_o reason_n prove_v the_o burden_n of_o conscience_n insupportable_a p._n 106._o releevement_n under_o the_o suspension_n of_o god_n love_n p._n 159._o for_o the_o regain_n of_o god_n love_n in_o sense_n four_o thing_n p._n 167._o ten_o releevement_n against_o doubt_n p._n 204._o ten_o releevement_n under_o imperfection_n of_o grace_n p._n 248._o five_o releevement_n against_o fail_n in_o duty_n p._n 261._o relapse_n afâ—er_v resolution_n p._n 286._o cause_n of_o relapse_n nine_o p._n 288._o the_o misery_n of_o relapse_n p._n 296._o the_o kind_n of_o relapse_n p._n 301._o s._n a_o twofold_a spirit_n p._n 6._o conscience_n call_v a_o spirit_n p._n 8._o man_n spirit_n consider_v two_o way_n ibid._n strength_n of_o spirit_n gradual_a p._n 36._o sink_v of_o spirit_n double_a p._n 37._o slight_v of_o cross_n evil_a p._n 39_o sin_n that_o be_v most_o wound_a p._n 92_o a_o sear_v spirit_n p._n 114._o sense_n of_o love_n gradual_a p._n 167._o to_o settle_v the_o soul_n in_o assurance_n of_o love_n p._n 176._o sin_n to_o be_v subdue_v p._n 231._o t._n thankfulness_n p._n 43_o 125._o tenderness_n of_o spirit_n p._n 49._o tempt_v of_o conscience_n of_o what_o p._n 58._o to_o taste_v divine_a wrath_n p._n 96._o testimony_n of_o satan_n put_v by_o two_o way_n p._n 219._o thought_n 1._o in_o their_o sort_n p_o 319._o 2._o in_o their_o trouble_n 3._o in_o their_o trial_n 4._o in_o their_o cure_n v._o uprightness_n of_o conscience_n p._n 48._o use_v conscience_n p._n 65._o conscience_n vex_v p._n 58._o vnstedfastnesse_n in_o walk_v p._n 163_o unworthiness_n p._n â—34_n w._n weakness_n of_o spirit_n p._n 28._o wound_v of_o spirit_n p._n 73._o want_v of_o good_a p._n 103._o will_v of_o cure_n p._n 141._o wash_v the_o wound_n p._n 143._o god_n wage_n p._n 281._o wait_a must_v be_v add_v to_o do_v page_n 283._o finis_fw-la a_o postscript_n to_o the_o reader_n thou_o have_v a_o promise_n of_o case_n in_o the_o epistle_n unto_o thou_o i_o have_v no_o soon_o make_v it_o but_o it_o be_v call_v for_o by_o desire_v and_o need_v christian_n time_n and_o leisure_n also_o serve_v it_o be_v bring_v forth_o as_o fit_o agree_v with_o the_o subject_n handle_v and_o deem_v by_o man_n more_o judicious_a than_o myself_o very_o comfort_v and_o settle_v unto_o perplex_a soul_n i._o s._n errata_fw-la page_n 116._o for_o be_v the_o next_o instrument_n read_v or_o page_n 323._o for_o former_o read_v formal_o