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perfection_n which_o our_o lord_n recommend_v when_o he_o say_v to_o the_o rich_a young_a man_n go_v and_o sell_v that_o thou_o have_v and_o give_v to_o the_o poor_a 14.21_o mat._n 14.21_o and_o thou_o shall_v have_v treasure_n in_o heaven_n and_o come_v and_o follow_v i_o and_o not_o by_o my_o own_o power_n but_o by_o his_o grace_n enable_v i_o i_o go_v and_o do_v so_o nor_o shall_v less_o be_v impute_v unto_o i_o herein_o because_o i_o be_v not_o rich_a for_o neither_o be_v the_o apostle_n rich_a who_o do_v this_o before_o i_o and_o how_o much_o i_o have_v advance_v in_o this_o way_n of_o perfection_n i_o myself_o know_v better_a than_o any_o man_n else_o and_o god_n better_a than_o i._o and_o to_o the_o same_o resolution_n with_o my_o uttermost_a endeavour_n i_o do_v exhort_v other_o and_o in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o lord_n have_v some_o associate_n in_o the_o same_o profession_n persuade_v thereunto_o by_o my_o ministry_n ibidem_fw-la qvibus_fw-la non_fw-la provenit_fw-la corona_fw-la martyrii_fw-la neque_fw-la illius_fw-la perfectionis_fw-la de_fw-la vendendis_fw-la rebus_fw-la suis_fw-la consilium_fw-la tam_fw-la grande_fw-fr tamque_fw-la praeclarum_fw-la receperunt_fw-la &_o tamen_fw-la a_o damnabilibus_fw-la immunes_fw-la â—riminibus_fw-la esurientem_fw-la christum_fw-la paverunt_fw-la sitienti_fw-la potum_fw-la dederunt_fw-la nudum_fw-la vestierunt_fw-la peregrinantâ—m_fw-la susceperunt_fw-la non_fw-la sedebunt_fw-la quidem_fw-la cum_fw-la christo_fw-la sublimiter_n judicaruri_fw-la 19.28_o mat._n 19.28_o sed_fw-la ad_fw-la ipsius_fw-la dextram_fw-la stabunt_fw-la misericorditer_fw-la judicandi_fw-la those_o who_o do_v not_o wear_v the_o crown_n of_o martyrdom_n nor_o have_v embrace_v that_o so_o high_a and_o excellent_a counsel_n of_o perfection_n of_o sell_v their_o substance_n &_o yet_o live_v free_a from_o damnable_a crime_n have_v give_v meat_n to_o christ_n a_o hunger_a &_o drink_v to_o he_o thirsty_a have_v clothe_v he_o naked_a and_o 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already_o but_o i_o be_v not_o yet_o able_a to_o feed_v upon_o chap._n xviii_o but_o have_v not_o yet_o a_o right_a opinion_n of_o the_o incarnation_n of_o the_o lord_n jesus_n the_o only_a way_n to_o salvation_n and_o i_o seek_v after_o some_o way_n of_o acquire_v so_o much_o strength_n as_o may_v enable_v i_o to_o enjoy_v thou_o nor_o find_v i_o any_o 14.6_o 1_o tim._n 2.5_o rom._n 9.5_o john_n 14.6_o *_o till_o i_o come_v to_o embrace_v the_o m_n diator_n between_o god_n and_o man_n the_o man_n christ_n jesus_n who_o be_v above_o all_o god_n bless_v for_o ever_o call_v unto_o i_o and_o say_n i_o be_o the_o way_n the_o truth_n and_o the_o life_n and_o *_o till_o i_o meet_v with_o that_o food_n which_o otherwise_o i_o be_v unable_a to_o receive_v mingle_v itself_o with_o our_o flesh_n for_o the_o word_n be_v make_v flesh_n that_o so_o thy_o wisdom_n may_v nurse_v and_o give_v suck_v to_o our_o infancy_n which_o before_o give_v a_o be_v to_o our_o nature_n for_o i_o do_v not_o then_o 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deject_v and_o prostrate_v themselves_o upon_o it_o that_o it_o rising_z again_o may_v also_o raise_v and_o exalt_v they_o with_o it_o chap._n xix_o but_o i_o as_o then_o imagine_v quite_o another_o thing_n and_o have_v a_o estimation_n *_o of_o my_o lord_n christ_n only_o as_o of_o a_o man_n admirable_o wise_a and_o no_o way_n to_o be_v equal_v and_o *_o that_n he_o be_v so_o miraculous_o bear_v of_o a_o virgin_n and_o give_v we_o such_o a_o example_n of_o contemn_v temporal_a thing_n for_o attain_v immortality_n by_o the_o divine_a care_n over_o we_o seem_v well_o to_o deserve_v that_o sovereign_a authority_n to_o be_v the_o master_n of_o the_o world_n but_o concern_v what_o mystery_n thâ—_n word_n make_v flesh_n contain_v in_o it_o i_o have_v not_o then_o the_o
least_o consideration_n only_o i_o knâ—w_v from_o what_o be_v story_v of_o he_o concern_v his_o eat_n drink_v sleep_a rejoice_v sorrow_a discourse_v &c_n &c_n that_o *_o humane_a flesh_n be_v not_o unite_v unto_o thy_o word_n alone_o which_o be_v the_o apollinarian_a error_n but_o together_o with_o it_o *_o a_o humane_a both_o sensitive_a and_o rational_a soul_n and_o i_o hold_v that_o he_o be_v to_o be_v prefer_v before_o all_o other_o not_o *_o as_o be_v the_o very_a person_n of_o the_o truth_n but_o *_o from_o a_o certain_a very_o great_a excellency_n of_o his_o humane_a nature_n and_o from_o his_o more_o perfect_a participation_n of_o the_o divine_a wisdom_n but_o alipius_n imagine_v the_o catholic_n to_o believe_v god_n clothe_v with_o flesh_n in_o such_o a_o manner_n as_o that_o beside_o the_o deity_n and_o the_o flesh_n of_o man_n there_o be_v in_o christ_n no_o soul_n or_o mind_n of_o a_o man_n and_o because_o he_o hold_v it_o for_o certain_a that_o the_o thing_n record_v of_o 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scripture_n especial_o those_o of_o s._n paul_n where_o he_o find_v the_o advancement_n of_o god_n grace_n and_o salvation_n through_o jesus_n christ_n to_o the_o penitent_a and_o humble_a after_o these_o therefore_o with_o a_o extraordinary_a ardour_n i_o betake_v myself_o to_o the_o venerable_a stile_n of_o thy_o spirit_n and_o above_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o apostle_n to_o the_o writing_n of_o s._n paul_n and_o those_o scruple_n present_o vanish_v wherein_o his_o discourse_n have_v sometime_o seem_v to_o i_o contradictory_n to_o itself_o and_o also_o not_o agree_v with_o the_o testimony_n of_o the_o law_n and_o the_o prophet_n and_o now_o it_o appear_v one_o uniform_a piece_n of_o chaste_a and_o pure_a doctrine_n and_o i_o learned_a to_o rejoice_v in_o they_o with_o reverence_n and_o tremble_a and_o i_o attempt_v they_o and_o find_v what_o truth_n i_o have_v read_v in_o the_o other_o book_n to_o be_v say_v here_o also_o but_o with_o great_a recommendation_n and_o advance_v of_o 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prophet_n cry_v out_o how_o long_o dull_a of_o heart_n how_o long_o love_v you_o vanity_n and_o seek_v a_o lie_n and_o know_v you_o that_o the_o lord_n have_v glorify_v his_o holy_a one_o he_o cry_v out_o how_o long_o he_o cri_fw-la be_v out_o know_v you_o and_o i_o so_o long_o not_o know_v have_v love_v vanity_n and_o seek_v after_o a_o lie_n and_o therefore_o i_o hear_v and_o stand_v in_o awe_n because_o this_o be_v speak_v to_o such_o as_o i_o remember_v i_o have_v be_v for_o in_o those_o phantasm_n which_o i_o have_v hold_v for_o truth_n there_o be_v vanity_n and_o a_o lie_n and_o i_o burst_v forth_o into_o many_o serious_a and_o vehement_a expression_n in_o the_o bitterness_n of_o my_o remembrance_n which_o i_o wish_v they_o may_v have_v hear_v who_o even_o until_o now_o love_v that_o vanity_n and_o seek_v after_o that_o lie_n perhaps_o they_o will_v have_v be_v pain_v and_o have_v empty_v themselves_o of_o that_o poison_n 4._o ver._n 4._o and_o so_o thou_o will_v hear_v they_o when_o they_o cry_v unto_o thou_o for_o not_o in_o a_o vain_a and_o lie_a appearance_n but_o by_o a_o true_a death_n of_o his_o flesh_n he_o die_v for_o we_o who_o now_o intercede_v and_o cry_v unto_o thou_o for_o we_o and_o thou_o hear_v he_o i_o further_o read_v there_o 2.5_o there_o ver_fw-la 5._o irascimini_fw-la &_o nolite_fw-la peccare_fw-la rom_n 2.5_o be_v angry_a and_o sin_n not_o and_o how_o be_v i_o move_v therewith_o o_o my_o god_n who_o have_v already_o learn_v to_o be_v angry_a with_o myself_o for_o my_o past_a sin_n that_o i_o may_v for_o the_o future_a forbear_v sin_v and_o with_o good_a reason_n angry_a because_o it_o be_v not_o any_o other_o nature_n of_o the_o nation_n of_o darkness_n that_o sin_v in_o i_o as_o they_o say_v who_o therefore_o be_v not_o angry_a with_o themselves_o for_o it_o and_o so_o treasure_n up_o anger_n against_o the_o day_n of_o anger_n and_o of_o the_o revelation_n of_o thy_o just_a judgement_n neither_o be_v now_o my_o bona_fw-la my_o 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pleasure_n i_o have_v hear_v also_o that_o speech_n from_o thy_o bounty_n with_o which_o i_o be_o much_o take_v neither_o if_o we_o eat_v shall_v we_o abound_v neither_o if_o we_o eat_v not_o shall_v we_o lack_v that_o be_v neither_o will_v the_o one_o render_v i_o plentiful_a nor_o the_o other_o deficient_a another_o voice_n i_o have_v hear_v for_o i_o have_v learn_v in_o whatsoever_o state_n i_o be_o therewith_o to_o be_v content_a 4.11_o phil._n 4.11_o i_o know_v both_o how_o to_o abound_v and_o how_o to_o suffer_v need_n through_o christ_n that_o strengthen_v i_o i_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n 15.32_o psal_n 103.14_o gen._n 3._o luke_n 15.32_o see_v here_o a_o soldier_n of_o the_o celestial_a host_n and_o not_o such_o earth_n and_o dust_n as_o we_o be_v but_o remember_v thou_o o_o lord_n that_o we_o be_v but_o dust_n and_o that_o of_o the_o dust_n thou_o make_v man_n and_o he_o be_v lose_v but_o be_v find_v neither_o be_v this_o man_n able_a of_o himself_o to_o do_v such_o thing_n because_o he_o be_v the_o same_o dust_n who_o by_o thy_o inspiration_n say_v such_o thing_n i_o do_v so_o dear_o affect_v but_o i_o say_v he_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n through_o he_o who_o strengthenâ—h_v i_o strengthen_v thou_o i_o also_o that_o i_o may_v be_v able_a give_v what_o thou_o command_v and_o command_v what_o thou_o please_v he_o also_o confess_v 6._o 1_o cor._n 4._o â—_o 1_o cor._n 1_o 31._o eccles_n 23_o 5_o 6._o that_o he_o have_v receive_v it_o and_o what_o he_o glorifi_v oâ—â—e_n glorifi_v of_o in_o the_o lord_n another_z i_o have_v hear_v ask_v of_o thou_o that_o he_o may_v receive_v take_v thou_o fâ—om_v i_o say_v hâ—_n the_o greediness_n of_o the_o belly_n whence_o it_o appear_v my_o holy_a god_n that_o thou_o give_v when_o it_o be_v do_v what_o thou_o command_v to_o be_v do_v thou_o have_v teach_v i_o also_o 14.3_o rom._n 14.20_o 1_o tim._n 4.4_o 1_o cor._n 8.8_o col._n 2.16_o rom._n 14.3_o good_a â—aâ—her_n unto_o the_o pure_a that_o all_o thing_n be_v pure_a 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