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ruin_v and_o demolish_v for_o we_o indeed_o in_o depart_v from_o thence_o fall_n and_o come_v to_o ruin_n but_o our_o house_n in_o this_o our_o absence_n which_o be_v thy_o eternity_n can_v never_o fall_v lib_fw-la v._o chap._n i._n oblation_n of_o his_o confession_n to_o god_n their_o end_n be_v to_o set_v forth_o his_o praise_n accept_v o_o lord_n the_o sacrifice_n of_o these_o my_o confession_n offer_v unto_o thou_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o my_o tongue_n 35.10_o psal_n 35.10_o make_v and_o move_v by_o thou_o to_o confess_v unto_o thy_o name_n and_o heal_v thou_o all_o my_o bone_n that_o they_o may_v say_v o_o lord_n who_o be_v like_a unto_o thou_o it_o be_v not_o at_o all_o to_o teach_v thou_o that_o which_o be_v do_v within_o he_o when_o any_o one_o confess_v it_o unto_o thou_o for_o the_o closeness_n of_o the_o heart_n exclude_v not_o thy_o eye_n nor_o the_o hardness_n of_o it_o repel_v thy_o hand_n but_o that_o thou_o do_v often_o in_o pity_n and_o otherwile_v also_o in_o 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she_o see_v so_o much_o more_o grant_v she_o by_o thou_o concern_v i_o than_o ever_o she_o have_v petition_v thou_o for_o with_o all_o those_o her_o miserable_a and_o lamentable_a groan_n for_o in_o such_o a_o full_a manner_n do_v thou_o convert_v i_o unto_o thou_o that_o i_o seek_v now_o no_o more_o after_o wife_n nor_o after_o any_o other_o hope_n of_o this_o world_n stand_v now_o with_o she_o upon_o that_o rule_n of_o faith_n c._n faith_n see_v 3._o l._n 11._o c._n as_o thou_o have_v in_o a_o vision_n represent_v i_o unto_o she_o so_o many_o year_n before_o 30.11_o psal_n 30.11_o and_o thus_o thou_o turn_v her_o mourning_n into_o gladness_n into_o a_o gladness_n much_o more_o plentiful_a than_o that_o she_o have_v aspire_v to_o and_o much_o more_o precious_a and_o chaste_a than_o that_o she_o have_v promise_v herself_o from_o her_o grandchild_n of_o my_o body_n lib_fw-la ix_o chap._n i._n doxology_n and_o thanksgiving_n for_o this_o his_o freedom_n from_o his_o former_a lust_n and_o 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