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perfection_n which_o our_o lord_n recommend_v when_o he_o say_v to_o the_o rich_a young_a man_n go_v and_o sell_v that_o thou_o have_v and_o give_v to_o the_o poor_a 14.21_o mat._n 14.21_o and_o thou_o shall_v have_v treasure_n in_o heaven_n and_o come_v and_o follow_v i_o and_o not_o by_o my_o own_o power_n but_o by_o his_o grace_n enable_v i_o i_o go_v and_o do_v so_o nor_o shall_v less_o be_v impute_v unto_o i_o herein_o because_o i_o be_v not_o rich_a for_o neither_o be_v the_o apostle_n rich_a who_o do_v this_o before_o i_o and_o how_o much_o i_o have_v advance_v in_o this_o way_n of_o perfection_n i_o myself_o know_v better_a than_o any_o man_n else_o and_o god_n better_a than_o i._o and_o to_o the_o same_o resolution_n with_o my_o uttermost_a endeavour_n i_o do_v exhort_v other_o and_o in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o lord_n have_v some_o associate_n in_o the_o same_o profession_n persuade_v thereunto_o by_o my_o ministry_n ibidem_fw-la qvibus_fw-la non_fw-la provenit_fw-la corona_fw-la martyrii_fw-la neque_fw-la illius_fw-la perfectionis_fw-la de_fw-la vendendis_fw-la rebus_fw-la suis_fw-la consilium_fw-la tam_fw-la grande_fw-fr tamque_fw-la praeclarum_fw-la receperunt_fw-la &_o tamen_fw-la a_o damnabilibus_fw-la immunes_fw-la â—riminibus_fw-la esurientem_fw-la christum_fw-la paverunt_fw-la sitienti_fw-la potum_fw-la dederunt_fw-la nudum_fw-la vestierunt_fw-la peregrinantâ—m_fw-la susceperunt_fw-la non_fw-la sedebunt_fw-la quidem_fw-la cum_fw-la christo_fw-la sublimiter_n judicaruri_fw-la 19.28_o mat._n 19.28_o sed_fw-la ad_fw-la ipsius_fw-la dextram_fw-la stabunt_fw-la misericorditer_fw-la judicandi_fw-la those_o who_o do_v not_o wear_v the_o crown_n of_o martyrdom_n nor_o have_v embrace_v that_o so_o high_a and_o excellent_a counsel_n of_o perfection_n of_o sell_v their_o substance_n &_o yet_o live_v free_a from_o damnable_a crime_n have_v give_v meat_n to_o christ_n a_o hunger_a &_o drink_v to_o he_o thirsty_a have_v clothe_v he_o naked_a and_o 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i_o deem_v he_o and_o i_o to_o be_v but_o one_o soul_n as_o it_o be_v in_o different_a body_n and_o therefore_o my_o life_n be_v a_o horror_n to_o i_o who_o will_v not_o live_v thus_o a_o half_n and_o death_n yet_o a_o great_a affright_n to_o i_o lest_o he_o shall_v perish_v all_o who_o i_o so_o passionate_o love_v confessio_fw-la love_v s._n austin_n review_v this_o work_n in_o his_o retractation_n 2._o l._n 6._o c._n censure_v this_o expression_n quasi_fw-la declamatio_fw-la levis_fw-la potius_fw-la quam_fw-la gravis_fw-la confessio_fw-la chap._n vii_o he_o forsake_v the_o place_n of_o their_o acquaintance_n and_o go_v to_o carthage_n o_o fond_a madness_n that_o know_v not_o how_o to_o love_v man_n men-like_a o_o sottish_a man_n so_o impatient_o take_v to_o heart_n accident_n only_o humane_a such_o as_o poor_a i_o then_o be_v therefore_o i_o storm_v and_o sigh_v and_o weep_v and_o be_v distract_v bereave_v both_o of_o content_n and_o counsel_n for_o i_o carry_v about_o a_o soul_n 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