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affliction_n end_n they_o may_v true_o understand_v their_o own_o state_n to_o send_v they_o some_o infirmity_n or_o permit_v some_o tribulation_n to_o befall_v they_o for_o such_o trial_n be_v his_o touchstone_n whereby_o he_o prove_v his_o servant_n sincerity_n o_o how_o soon_o shall_v you_o discover_v the_o false_a foundation_n whereon_o they_o build_v the_o edifice_n of_o their_o feign_a devotion_n how_o rot_a be_v their_o inward_a man_n and_o how_o full_a of_o secret_a pride_n for_o they_o refuse_v to_o resign_v their_o will_n and_o to_o humble_v their_o heart_n under_o god_n powerful_a hand_n in_o all_o the_o changeable_a course_n of_o prosperity_n and_o adversity_n they_o will_v not_o according_a to_o the_o divine_a example_n of_o god_n humble_a suffer_a son_n subject_n themselves_o to_o all_o creature_n nor_o take_v their_o seem_a enemy_n that_o which_o true_o they_o be_v to_o be_v their_o true_a friend_n as_o be_v instrument_n of_o god_n goodness_n pomotour_n of_o their_o perfection_n and_o helper_n in_o the_o reformation_n of_o their_o unmortified_a passion_n which_o be_v a_o evident_a sign_n of_o their_o dangerous_a state_n for_o the_o eye_n of_o their_o soul_n be_v dazzle_v and_o corrupt_v by_o gaze_v upon_o these_o outward_a action_n though_o good_a arrogate_a to_o themselves_o i_o know_v not_o what_o degree_n of_o perfection_n and_o from_o thence_o fall_v into_o self-conceit_n they_o judge_v rash_o and_o contemn_v other_o nor_o can_v they_o be_v recall_v or_o cure_v unless_o god_n himself_o strike_v strong_o at_o the_o door_n of_o their_o heart_n and_o dissipate_v the_o darkness_n of_o their_o interior_a with_o the_o divine_a ray_n of_o his_o gracious_a light_n make_v they_o see_v their_o own_o danger_n and_o seek_v the_o remedy_n for_o a_o great_a and_o manifest_a sinner_n be_v more_o easy_o reclaim_v than_o a_o seem_a saint_n who_o secret_a iniquity_n be_v shroud_v under_o the_o appearance_n of_o virtue_n and_o piety_n 9_o thus_o than_o it_o be_v manifest_a unto_o ourselves_o true_a perfection_n therefore_o consist_v in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o god_n and_o ourselves_o thou_o o_o my_o belove_a that_o spiritual_a perfection_n consist_v not_o at_o all_o in_o the_o aforesaid_a practice_n and_o persuasion_n know_v therefore_o that_o it_o be_v place_v in_o no_o other_o thing_n than_o in_o the_o true_a knowledge_n of_o god_n goodness_n and_o greatness_n and_o of_o our_o own_o baseness_n misery_n and_o nothing_o and_o of_o the_o proneness_n of_o our_o natural_a affection_n to_o all_o malice_n also_o in_o the_o hatred_n of_o ourselves_o and_o the_o love_n own_o in_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o hatred_n of_o ourselves_o in_o resignation_n to_o god_n will_v and_o deny_v of_o our_o own_o of_o god_n and_o last_o in_o the_o absolute_a deny_v of_o our_o own_o will_n and_o entire_a resignation_n of_o it_o to_o the_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n that_o be_v that_o we_o total_o submit_v ourselves_o not_o only_o to_o the_o almighty_a god_n but_o even_o to_o every_o one_o of_o his_o creature_n for_o his_o sake_n and_o this_o for_o no_o other_o end_n than_o only_o to_o please_v his_o divine_a majesty_n who_o deserve_v to_o be_v pure_o serve_v high_o honour_v perfect_o praise_v and_o glorify_v by_o all_o 10._o this_o be_v the_o abnegation_n which_o example_n all_o which_o christ_n have_v teach_v we_o by_o word_n and_o example_n christ_n our_o saviour_n so_o often_o inculcate_v this_o be_v the_o obedience_n to_o which_o god_n son_n invite_v and_o direct_v his_o faithful_a follower_n both_o by_o his_o word_n and_o by_o his_o example_n this_o be_v the_o desirable_a cross_n which_o his_o diligent_a servant_n be_v to_o lay_v on_o their_o shoulder_n and_o so_o follow_v the_o step_n of_o their_o saviour_n this_o be_v that_o love_n which_o our_o lord_n so_o serious_o frequent_o and_o careful_o recommend_v to_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o especial_o to_o his_o disciple_n as_o his_o particular_a friend_n and_o child_n after_o his_o last_o supper_n 11._o if_o then_o my_o dear_o belove_a thou_o intend_v to_o attain_v to_o this_o high_a victory_n and_o we_o must_v also_o do_v it_o if_o we_o mean_v to_o purchase_v victory_n perfection_n thou_o must_v use_v violence_n to_o thyself_o and_o vanquish_v thy_o own_o affection_n both_o great_a and_o small_a thou_o must_v affect_v this_o fight_n and_o instruct_v thy_o mind_n to_o wage_v this_o holy_a war_n for_o the_o crown_n of_o victory_n be_v confer_v only_o upon_o the_o stout_a and_o lawful_a combatant_n god_n nor_o be_v there_o any_o thing_n more_o glorious_a to_o ourselves_o or_o more_o grateful_a to_o god_n 12._o for_o as_o this_o battle_n we_o now_o treat_v of_o be_v the_o great_a and_o of_o most_o difficulty_n so_o be_v the_o ensue_a victory_n most_o glorious_a to_o ourselves_o and_o most_o grateful_a to_o god_n in_o so_o much_o as_o if_o thou_o overcom_a subdu_a mortifie_v and_o roote_v out_o thy_o own_o disordinate_a and_o unruly_a affection_n thou_o offere_v up_o to_o god_n a_o more_o agreeable_a sacrifice_n than_o if_o neglect_v this_o thou_o shall_v whip_v thy_o body_n till_o it_o be_v imbrue_v in_o its_o own_o blood_n or_o fast_o beyond_o the_o austerity_n of_o the_o strict_a anchorite_n or_o convert_v thousand_o of_o infidel_n and_o sinner_n to_o christ_n faith_n and_o perfect_a penance_n for_o though_o the_o conversion_n of_o soul_n be_v in_o itself_o more_o dear_a to_o our_o lord_n god_n than_o the_o renounce_n of_o our_o own_o will_n in_o small_a matter_n yet_o it_o be_v thy_o part_n to_o will_n and_o do_v that_o chief_o and_o most_o careful_o which_o he_o most_o strict_o require_v of_o thou_o and_o this_o be_v undoubted_o the_o serious_a mortification_n of_o thy_o untamed_a passion_n wherein_o thou_o shall_v better_o please_v he_o than_o in_o any_o other_o high_a and_o holy_a employment_n 13._o be_v thus_o instruct_v o_o dear_o weapon_n but_o to_o obtain_v it_o we_o must_v provide_v four_o necessary_a weapon_n belove_v wherein_o christian_a perfection_n consist_v and_o that_o to_o obtain_v it_o thou_o must_v adventure_v upon_o a_o cruel_a and_o continual_a war_n if_o thou_o intend_v to_o be_v a_o conqueror_n it_o befit_v thou_o like_o a_o stout_a christian_a champion_n to_o arm_v thy-self_n with_o four_o necessary_a weapon_n which_o be_v 1._o diffidence_n of_o thyself_o 2._o confidence_n in_o god_n 3._o continual_a exercise_n 4._o devout_a prayer_n of_o all_o which_o weapon_n i_o shall_v by_o god_n assistance_n now_o brief_o treat_v according_a to_o their_o several_a order_n chap._n ii_o of_o the_o diffidence_n or_o distrust_v of_o ourselves_o this_o diffidence_n of_o thyself_o may_v be_v obtain_v by_o three_o manner_n nothing_o distrust_v of_o ourselves_o which_o be_v get_v first_o by_o a_o deep_a sense_n of_o our_o own_o nothing_o of_o way_n first_o by_o a_o deep_a sense_n of_o thy_o own_o baseness_n and_o misery_n true_o acknowledge_v that_o of_o thyself_o thou_o can_v not_o do_v the_o least_o good_a thing_n for_o man_n can_v no_o more_o effect_v any_o good_a or_o meritorious_a work_n by_o his_o own_o power_n than_o a_o stone_n if_o i_o may_v say_v it_o be_v able_a of_o itself_o to_o ascend_v upward_o and_o he_o have_v almost_o the_o like_a inclination_n to_o evil_a as_o a_o heavy_a stone_n have_v to_o the_o earth_n centre_n 2._o the_o second_o way_n to_o get_v this_o self-distrust_n prayer_n 2._o by_o prayer_n be_v to_o demand_v it_o of_o he_o who_o gracious_a gift_n it_o be_v with_o humble_a and_o earnest_a prayer_n and_o to_o prevail_v in_o thy_o petition_n thou_o must_v first_o yield_v that_o thou_o true_o want_v it_o and_o that_o of_o thyself_o thou_o can_v never_o attain_v to_o it_o and_o thus_o total_o naked_a present_a thy_o prayer_n with_o a_o constant_a faith_n and_o a_o courageous_a hope_n to_o be_v hear_v and_o to_o obtain_v this_o desire_a diffidence_n of_o thyself_o but_o let_v thy_o prayer_n increase_v in_o daily_a fervour_n and_o expect_v with_o perseverance_n the_o divine_a pleasure_n in_o the_o grant_n of_o thy_o petition_n and_o then_o be_v confident_a it_o will_v soon_o or_o late_a be_v grant_v unto_o thou_o 3._o the_o three_o be_v that_o as_o oft_o as_o thou_o weakness_n 3._o by_o often_o reflect_v upon_o our_o own_o weakness_n fail_v and_o fall_v into_o sin_n thou_o present_o turn_v thy_o soul_n eye_n towards_o thy_o own_o baseness_n misery_n and_o inaby_o to_o act_v any_o thing_n that_o be_v good_a for_o until_o this_o be_v true_o know_v and_o humble_o acknowledge_v by_o thou_o never_o hope_v to_o be_v secure_a from_o fall_v 4._o whosoever_o therefore_o aspiâ—es_v to_o learn_v and_o this_o self-knowledge_n be_v leston_n musâ—_n need_v be_v learn_v a_o bless_a union_n with_o the_o increated_a verity_n must_v first_o study_v this_o necessary_a lesson_n of_o selfe-knowledg_n for_o god_n permit_v the_o proud_a &_o presumptuous_a to_o fall_v sometime_o into_o some_o grievous_a sin_n
other_o creature_n in_o order_n to_o our_o service_n in_o our_o redemption_n he_o send_v no_o angel_n but_o his_o only_a son_n to_o pay_v our_o ransom_n not_o by_o the_o corruptible_a value_n of_o gold_n and_o silver_n but_o by_o the_o infinite_a price_n of_o his_o own_o precious_a blood_n and_o by_o his_o dolorous_a and_o disgraceful_a death_n in_o our_o preservation_n preservation_n preservation_n each_o hour_n and_o moment_n fight_v our_o battle_n for_o we_o against_o our_o enemy_n prevent_v and_o accompany_v we_o with_o his_o heavenly_a grace_n and_o leave_v with_o we_o his_o dear_a son_n always_o ready_a for_o our_o support_n and_o sustenance_n in_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o altar_n these_o very_o benefit_n and_o many_o other_o benefit_n and_o many_o more_o be_v evident_a token_n of_o the_o high_a price_n he_o put_v upon_o our_o meanness_n and_o misery_n and_o of_o the_o love_n which_o our_o great_a creator_n bear_v to_o we_o his_o poor_a and_o caitif_a creature_n and_o 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this_o our_o rational_a will_n to_o side_n with_o they_o and_o sometime_o that_o othertime_n this_o render_v her_o subject_n and_o obedient_a to_o they_o 3._o but_o this_o battle_n be_v of_o no_o great_a will_v and_o the_o true_o virtuous_a person_n yield_v prompt_o to_o god_n will_v difficulty_n to_o they_o who_o be_v either_o true_o virtuous_a or_o downright_a vicious_a for_o they_o who_o be_v virtuous_a come_v no_o soon_o to_o the_o knowledge_n of_o god_n holy_a will_n but_o they_o present_o yield_v their_o consent_n and_o bridle_v their_o brutish_a sensuality_n and_o the_o wicked_a do_v sensuality_n and_o the_o vicious_a to_o their_o sensuality_n contrary_o according_a to_o their_o appetite_n check_v the_o divine_a will_n which_o contradict_v it_o they_o therefore_o chiefl_o feel_v the_o brunt_n of_o this_o battle_n especial_o at_o first_o who_o have_v be_v great_a sinner_n and_o be_v now_o resolve_v upon_o amendment_n and_o to_o this_o end_n sever_v themselves_o from_o worldly_a and_o fleshly_a delight_n the_o better_a to_o love_v and_o serve_v their_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n for_o the_o future_a for_o the_o inward_a feel_n and_o stroke_n of_o god_n will_v which_o their_o conflict_n but_o they_o who_o of_o sinner_n be_v become_v convert_v have_v the_o great_a conflict_n reason_n receive_v from_o above_o and_o the_o cruel_a contradiction_n and_o adverse_a motion_n of_o their_o sensuality_n which_o it_o must_v necessary_o suffer_v from_o below_o be_v so_o powerful_a on_o each_o side_n that_o the_o poor_a reason_n be_v between_o they_o both_o bring_v into_o extreme_a strait_n and_o perplexity_n 4_o wherefore_o let_v none_o think_v to_o pleasure_n who_o must_v therefore_o resolve_v to_o bear_v patient_o the_o loss_n of_o their_o pleasure_n gain_v the_o victory_n who_o be_v not_o instruct_v prepare_v and_o resolve_v to_o support_v patient_o all_o such_o pain_n as_o he_o shall_v endure_v in_o leave_v his_o past_a pleasure_n for_o this_o sure_o seem_v one_o of_o 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just_o so_o likewise_o they_o will_v not_o purchase_v honour_n unlawful_o but_o they_o love_v and_o desire_v they_o passionate_o they_o will_v keep_v the_o command_v fasting_n punctual_o but_o care_v not_o to_o mortify_v their_o gluttony_n they_o will_v live_v continent_o but_o be_v loath_a to_o leave_v please_v company_n which_o hinder_v their_o union_n with_o god_n and_o great_o retard_v they_o in_o their_o tendance_n to_o perfection_n from_o all_o which_o and_o the_o like_a petty-affection_n imperfection_n who_o affection_n be_v accompany_v with_o much_o imperfection_n it_o follow_v that_o their_o good_a work_n be_v perform_v with_o a_o certain_a irksomeness_n of_o mind_n and_o be_v accompany_v with_o divers_a self-interest_n and_o secret_a imperfection_n yea_o with_o self-conceit_n and_o good_a like_n of_o their_o own_o action_n and_o with_o a_o long_a desire_n to_o be_v like_v and_o love_v by_o other_o but_o all_o these_o not_o only_o make_v no_o progress_n in_o the_o way_n of_o spirituality_n but_o even_o return_v backward_o and_o spirituality_n and_o who_o make_v no_o progress_n in_o spirituality_n be_v in_o eminent_a hazard_n to_o fall_v into_o their_o former_a folly_n because_o they_o be_v neither_o enamour_a with_o true_a virtue_n nor_o grateful_a to_o their_o love_a creator_n who_o have_v free_v they_o from_o the_o tyranny_n of_o the_o devil_n they_o be_v moreover_o strike_v with_o ignorance_n and_o blindness_n since_o they_o blindness_n but_o be_v full_a of_o ignorance_n and_o blindness_n neither_o understand_v nor_o see_v their_o owâ—_n danger_n but_o false_o and_o foolish_o fancy_v themselves_o to_o be_v in_o a_o state_n of_o security_n 5._o and_o here_o thou_o may_v perceive_v a_o discover_v text._n a_o danger_n in_o the_o choice_n of_o spiritual_a exercise_n discover_v very_a perilous_a and_o pernicious_a deceit_n which_o very_o few_o take_v true_a notice_n of_o for_o many_o beginner_n in_o a_o spiritual_a course_n out_o of_o self-love_n make_v 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thyself_o with_o these_o several_a way_n and_o ward_n against_o thy_o foe_n it_o
sincere_a affection_n when_o shall_v i_o o_o only_a life_n of_o my_o soul_n relinquish_v all_o self-will_n and_o vanquish_v all_o my_o passion_n and_o imperfection_n 8._o in_o these_o and_o the_o like_a devotion_n thou_o may_v spend_v the_o evening_n and_o morning_n to_o excite_v cherish_v and_o increase_v thy_o desire_n to_o receive_v thy_o dear_a saviour_n that_o so_o thou_o may_v perfect_o please_v he_o and_o be_v most_o happy_o unite_v unto_o he_o and_o in_o thy_o pious_a practice_n of_o these_o thing_n take_v this_o caveat_n be_v sure_a to_o keep_v each_o power_n and_o faculty_n of_o thy_o soul_n pure_a and_o curiosity_n but_o take_v heed_n of_o vanity_n and_o curiosity_n free_a from_o all_o curiosity_n of_o worldly_a thing_n and_o from_o all_o idle_a and_o vain_a thought_n take_v also_o the_o like_a care_n of_o thy_o outward_a sense_n lest_o thy_o heart_n steal_v out_o by_o they_o and_o so_o thou_o lose_v all_o thy_o devotion_n explication_n the_o time_n of_o the_o sacred_a 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bless_a sacrament_n thus_o humble_a confound_v and_o abysm_n thyself_o humble_a and_o confound_v thyself_o thyself_o at_o the_o serious_a consideration_n of_o thy_o sin_n malice_n and_o misery_n but_o then_o raise_v up_o thy_o heart_n with_o hope_n by_o the_o follow_a word_n sed_fw-la hope_n but_o still_o raise_v up_o thy_o heart_n with_o hope_n tantum_fw-la dic_fw-la verbo_fw-la &_o sanabitur_fw-la anima_fw-la mea_fw-la do_v thou_o only_o speak_v the_o word_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o soul_n will_v be_v save_v enter_v o_o my_o love_n into_o this_o unworthy_a harbour_n and_o make_v use_n of_o thy_o infinite_a power_n and_o goodness_n in_o pardon_v my_o sin_n supply_v my_o defect_n and_o protect_v i_o from_o my_o enemy_n 9_o and_o after_o thou_o have_v receive_v expression_n text._n have_v communicate_v entertain_v thy_o guest_n with_o amorous_a expression_n this_o divine_a sacrament_n betake_v thou_o present_o to_o the_o innermost_a closet_n of_o thy_o heart_n and_o there_o enter_v into_o communication_n with_o thy_o holy_a guest_n use_v these_o or_o the_o like_a love_a and_o respectful_a expression_n what_o have_v move_v thou_o o_o great_a king_n of_o king_n to_o enter_v in_o to_o i_o who_o be_o nothing_o but_o a_o miserable_a despicable_a vild_a blind_a and_o naked_a creature_n and_o he_o will_v answer_v thou_o love_n for_o thou_o be_v my_o dove_n my_o friend_n my_o sister_n my_o spouse_n and_o my_o dear_o belove_v then_o thou_o may_v reply_v o_o increated_a love_n o_o sweet_a dilection_n o_o friendly_a and_o faithful_a charity_n what_o will_v thou_o have_v i_o do_v what_o demand_v thou_o what_o desire_v thou_o i_o ask_v nothing_o say_v he_o but_o love_n i_o will_v have_v nothing_o burn_v in_o the_o hearth_n of_o thy_o heart_n but_o the_o fire_n of_o my_o love_n that_o it_o may_v devour_v all_o foreign_a love_n within_o thou_o and_o destroy_v all_o self-will_a and_o seek_v this_o this_o be_v my_o desire_n because_o i_o will_v be_v true_o thou_o and_o will_v have_v thou_o likewise_o be_v total_o i_o which_o can_v never_o be_v compass_v until_o thou_o free_o deliver_v up_o thyself_o to_o my_o will_n and_o pleasure_n for_o without_o this_o entire_a resignation_n thy_o fancy_n will_v be_v always_o fasten_v to_o the_o love_a and_o like_n of_o thyself_o and_o thy_o own_o action_n be_v they_o never_o so_o mean_a i_o desire_v therefore_o that_o thou_o shall_v hate_v thyself_o that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o love_n of_o i_o i_o demand_v thy_o heart_n for_o my_o habitation_n that_o i_o may_v join_v and_o unite_v it_o unto_o i_o for_o to_o this_o end_n be_v my_o heart_n open_v to_o thou_o upon_o the_o altar_n of_o my_o cross_n my_o will_n be_v i_o say_v o_o my_o dear_o belove_a spouse_n that_o thou_o desire_v nothing_o think_v nothing_o understand_v nothing_o see_v nothing_o feel_v nothing_o but_o myself_o only_o that_o so_o i_o only_o may_v be_v in_o thâ—e_n and_o thou_o total_o turn_v into_o i_o and_o that_o thou_o may_v possess_v in_o i_o perfect_a quiet_a and_o i_o in_o thou_o pleasant_a context_n 10._o last_o thou_o shall_v offer_v the_o holy_a father_n and_o last_o offer_v up_o the_o divine_a son_n to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n son_n to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n for_o thyself_o for_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o for_o the_o soul_n depart_v in_o memory_n and_o union_n of_o that_o divine_a oblation_n which_o he_o offer_v upon_o the_o holy_a cross_n present_v in_o like_a manner_n all_o the_o unbloody_a sacrifice_n to_o the_o divine_a majesty_n which_o be_v that_o day_n offer_v up_o in_o his_o universal_a church_n chap._n xxxi_o of_o spiritual_a communion_n although_o my_o beloved_a thou_o can_v receive_v thy_o sweet_a saviour_n communicate_v 1._o thou_o may_v thus_o often_o communicate_v sacramental_o only_o once_o a_o day_n yet_o thou_o may_v receive_v he_o spiritual_o every_o hour_n and_o moment_n for_o nothing_o can_v hinder_v thou_o from_o this_o but_o only_o thy_o own_o fault_n and_o negligence_n and_o this_o spiritual_a communion_n may_v sometime_o prove_v more_o profitable_a to_o thy_o soul_n and_o please_v to_o thy_o saviour_n than_o the_o sacramental_a especial_o if_o there_o be_v a_o defect_n in_o thy_o due_a and_o diligent_a preparation_n 2._o for_o as_o often_o as_o thou_o desire_v desire_n by_o frequent_a desire_n to_o receive_v thy_o love_a lord_n god_n thus_o spiritual_o into_o thy_o soul_n thou_o shall_v find_v he_o ever_o ready_a to_o feast_v thou_o with_o his_o own_o sacred_a hand_n and_o thou_o may_v thus_o easy_o dispose_v thyself_o unto_o it_o turn_v thyself_o to_o thy_o saviour_n to_o this_o end_n reflect_v upon_o thy_o own_o frailty_n and_o frequent_a fail_n and_o conceive_v a_o inward_a sorrow_n and_o detestation_n of_o thy_o defect_n then_o make_v thy_o supplication_n with_o a_o love_a affection_n that_o he_o will_v not_o disdain_v to_o enter_v thy_o poor_a cottage_n and_o feast_v thou_o with_o his_o own_o true_a body_n and_o blood_n 3._o so_o also_o when_o thou_o be_v 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i_o abhor_v and_o detest_v whatsoever_o i_o have_v do_v say_v think_v or_o desire_v contrary_a to_o thy_o holy_a will_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o love_n i_o renounce_v all_o company_n and_o occasion_n which_o may_v induce_v i_o to_o offend_v thou_o 7._o i_o cast_v myself_o at_o thy_o sacred_a foot_n to_o be_v thy_o slave_n for_o ever_o with_o a_o firm_a resolution_n to_o bear_v thy_o cross_n till_o death_n and_o to_o do_v penance_n and_o satisfaction_n for_o my_o past_a pride_n and_o pleasure_n desire_v nothing_o but_o to_o live_v at_o thy_o foot_n like_o the_o penitent_a magdalen_n in_o solitude_n silence_n submission_n o_o good_a jesus_n out_o of_o thy_o infinite_a mercy_n merit_n and_o meekness_n suffer_v not_o i_o thy_o poor_a creature_n to_o be_v damn_v and_o separate_v from_o thou_o eternal_o o_o amiable_a eternity_n o_o eternal_a amity_n of_o god_n shall_v i_o leave_v and_o lose_v thou_o for_o filthy_a pleasure_n frail_a creature_n fond_a friendship_n fade_a honour_n no_o dear_a lord_n no_o lâ—â—_n it_o please_v thou_o rather_o to_o take_v my_o soul_n out_o of_o my_o body_n than_o thy_o love_n out_o of_o my_o soul_n let_v i_o rather_o die_v miserable_o than_o sin_n mortal_o let_v i_o pass_v on_o the_o rest_n of_o my_o pilgrimage_n in_o thy_o grace_n and_o fear_n that_o i_o may_v end_v my_o day_n in_o thy_o friendship_n and_o favour_n which_o i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o grant_v i_o o_o most_o powerful_a and_o merciful_a saviour_n by_o the_o love_n of_o thy_o sweet_a heart_n by_o the_o merit_n of_o thy_o bitter_a death_n and_o passion_n by_o the_o intercession_n of_o thy_o bless_a mother_n and_o by_o the_o suffrage_n of_o all_o holy_a happy_a and_o devout_a soul_n upon_o all_o which_o rely_v as_o upon_o so_o many_o sure_a anchor_n of_o my_o hope_n i_o commit_v and_o resign_v myself_o to_o thy_o disposition_n and_o providence_n for_o time_n and_o eternity_n o_o my_o lord_n my_o love_n and_o my_o all_o full_o trust_v that_o thou_o will_v merciful_o pardon_v my_o sin_n careful_o assist_v i_o in_o my_o want_n and_o weakness_n and_o in_o the_o end_n happy_o bring_v i_o to_o eternal_a bliss_n by_o such_o mean_n as_o thy_o divine_a wisdom_n know_v most_o convenient_a for_o i_o for_o thursday_n of_o subdue_a sensuality_n to_o reason_n the_o four_o exercise_n 1._o my_o spirit_n be_v willing_a o_o most_o glorious_a and_o gracious_a lord_n god_n to_o serve_v thou_o love_v thou_o honour_v thou_o and_o follow_v thou_o but_o my_o flesh_n be_v weak_a frail_a and_o refractory_a i_o do_v not_o what_o i_o desire_v o_o my_o god_n and_o what_o thou_o demand_v but_o i_o act_n that_o which_o i_o hate_v and_o what_o thou_o forbidde_v i_o feel_v o_o my_o lord_n a_o law_n of_o sensuality_n contradict_v the_o law_n of_o my_o mind_n captivate_v my_o reason_n cloud_v my_o judgement_n and_o continual_o strive_v to_o cast_v i_o down_o headlong_o into_o sin_n and_o perdition_n unhappy_a man_n that_o i_o be_o who_o will_v free_v i_o from_o this_o body_n of_o death_n ah_o my_o brutish_a body_n ah_o my_o burdensome_a flesh_n thou_o be_v my_o dangerous_a and_o deadly_a enemy_n it_o be_v thy_o weight_n that_o depress_v my_o soul_n thy_o earth_n that_o clog_v and_o corrupt_v my_o air_n thy_o contagion_n and_o perversity_n which_o infect_v and_o debase_v my_o better_a part_n and_o heavenly_a portion_n thy_o sensuality_n which_o draw_v on_o endanger_v and_o almost_o destroy_v my_o reason_n 2._o ah_o sensuality_n the_o source_n of_o all_o my_o misery_n how_o just_o do_v i_o now_o hate_v thou_o and_o how_o willing_o will_v i_o leave_v thou_o at_o my_o first_o acquaintance_n with_o thou_o thou_o defile_v i_o with_o original_a sin_n in_o my_o infancy_n thou_o make_v a_o beast_n of_o i_o and_o now_o in_o my_o ripe_a year_n thou_o still_o pursue_v i_o proclaime_v open_a war_n with_o i_o blind_a my_o understanding_n with_o darkness_n ignorance_n and_o error_n make_v my_o will_n refractory_a to_o good_a and_o ready_a to_o all_o evil_a distract_a my_o memory_n with_o vain_a and_o vile_a fancy_n and_o perpetual_o tosse_v i_o to_o and_o fro_o between_o love_n and_o hatred_n joy_n and_o grief_n hope_v and_o fear_n and_o the_o rest_n of_o thy_o numerous_a and_o enormous_a irascible_a and_o concupiscible_a power_n and_o passion_n ay_o i_o how_o sad_a be_v my_o state_n how_o deplorable_a my_o condition_n oh_o how_o long_o lord_n must_v i_o dwell_v with_o these_o devil_n how_o long_o must_v i_o endure_v the_o violence_n of_o these_o passion_n o_o my_o lord_n my_o strength_n and_o my_o salvation_n break_v these_o fetter_n for_o i_o command_v a_o calm_a o_o thou_o only_a ruler_n of_o sea_n and_o wind_n and_o appease_v the_o surge_n of_o these_o my_o unmortified_a appetite_n oh_o restore_v i_o to_o myself_o again_o reduce_v reason_n to_o her_o lose_a dominion_n in_o my_o soul_n and_o bring_v back_o i_o thy_o poor_a creature_n to_o thou_o my_o powerful_a creator_n o_o let_v not_o this_o passenger_n perish_v amid_o these_o boisterous_a billow_n nor_o suffer_v utter_a shipwarck_n in_o these_o fearful_a tempest_n i_o suffer_v violence_n o_o my_o lord_n answer_v for_o i_o the_o companion_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o have_v deceive_v i_o sense_n have_v corrupt_v and_o conquer_v my_o judgement_n oh_o how_o i_o be_o drag_v up_o and_o down_o by_o my_o al-mastering_a appetite_n command_v by_o my_o servant_n and_o fetter_v by_o my_o slave_n o_o tyranny_n o_o indignity_n ah_o my_o soul_n o_o noble_a spirit_n fair_a as_o the_o angel_n form_v to_o thy_o creator_n lovely_a resemblance_n stamp_v with_o his_o divine_a character_n and_o heir_n apparent_a to_o his_o glorious_a kingdom_n to_o be_v thus_o subject_a to_o the_o base_a and_o brutal_a desire_n of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n o_o intolerable_a bondage_n o_o unworthy_a servitude_n 3._o o_o father_n of_o mercy_n and_o only_a physician_n of_o my_o soul_n thou_o be_v almighty_a and_o al-mercy_n and_o i_o be_o all_o weakness_n and_o all_o misery_n there_o be_v no_o part_n leave_v sincere_a in_o my_o whole_a body_n and_o soul_n from_o the_o contagious_a poison_n of_o passion_n from_o the_o infectious_a leprosy_n of_o sin_n and_o sensuality_n all_o be_v out_o of_o order_n o_o my_o lord_n i_o acknowledge_v it_o to_o my_o own_o shame_n and_o confusion_n each_o sense_n be_v go_v astray_o each_o member_n of_o my_o body_n be_v corrupt_v each_o power_n of_o my_o soul_n be_v pervert_v my_o understanding_n be_v obscure_v with_o self-love_n my_o memory_n distract_v with_o sensual_a â—bâ—ects_n my_o will_n possess_v with_o peevish_a inclination_n my_o affection_n be_v vain_a my_o passion_n violent_a my_o disposition_n vicious_a my_o body_n be_v burdensome_a my_o imagination_n troublesome_a my_o life_n irksome_a these_o be_v my_o wound_n o_o my_o heavenly_a surgeon_n o_o put_v to_o thy_o help_a hand_n i_o beseech_v thou_o see_v fear_v and_o search_v they_o before_o the_o gangrene_n enter_v and_o the_o grief_n grow_v incurable_a my_o soul_n be_v sick_a even_o to_o death_n if_o thou_o will_v o_o my_o lord_n thou_o can_v both_o cleanse_v and_o cure_v i_o to_o this_o end_n thou_o descend_v from_o jerusalem_n to_o jericho_n o_o pious_a samaritan_n from_o heaven_n to_o earth_n o_o compassionate_a saviour_n where_o thou_o find_v i_o in_o this_o pitiful_a plight_n sore_o beat_v wound_a half_a dead_a and_o utter_o despoil_v of_o all_o natural_a and_o spiritual_a riches_n by_o thief_n and_o robber_n which_o be_v the_o sense_n of_o my_o body_n and_o the_o faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n o_o pass_v not_o by_o i_o sweet_a jesus_n but_o merciful_o bind_v up_o my_o bleed_a wound_n with_o the_o swath_a band_n of_o thy_o death_n and_o passion_n power_n upon_o they_o the_o wine_n of_o thy_o precious_a blood_n and_o supple_a they_o with_o the_o oil_n of_o thy_o heavenly_a grace_n 4._o i_o intend_v o_o my_o lord_n strengthen_v i_o in_o this_o hour_n i_o intend_v o_o sweet_a saviour_n a_o total_a reformation_n of_o life_n and_o manner_n a_o entire_a mortification_n of_o my_o corporeal_a sense_n and_o spiritual_a faculty_n a_o absolute_a change_n in_o my_o whole_a man_n o_o grant_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o love_a lord_n the_o powerful_a assistance_n of_o thy_o special_a grace_n for_o the_o performance_n of_o this_o great_a and_o good_a purpose_n teach_v i_o now_o o_o my_o bless_a master_n to_o live_v inward_o pious_o spiritual_o as_o i_o love_v former_o to_o live_v outward_o vain_o sensual_o o_o let_v i_o henceforth_o yield_v to_o thy_o divine_a motion_n obey_v thy_o call_n imitate_v thy_o example_n and_o follow_v thy_o will_n o_o let_v i_o never_o more_o act_v or_o omit_v any_o thing_n be_v it_o never_o so_o little_a for_o my_o own_o like_n but_o pure_o and_o perfect_o for_o thy_o love_n 5._o grant_v o_o good_a jesus_n that_o at_o each_o word_n of_o my_o mouth_n at_o each_o glance_n
and_o secure_v lesson_n leave_v all_o thing_n and_o thou_o shall_v find_v one_o thing_n which_o be_v all_o in_o all_o take_v courage_n and_o fight_v valiant_o against_o thy_o own_o bad_a nature_n pray_v suffer_v stoop_v bear_v repugnance_n swallow_v down_o contradiction_n digest_v injury_n the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n suffer_v violence_n the_o end_n thou_o ayme_v at_o be_v perfection_n the_o reward_n of_o thy_o conqucst_a be_v eternal_a love_n eternal_a life_n eternal_a happiness_n behold_v o_o my_o lord_n my_o strength_n and_o my_o salvation_n i_o be_o full_o resolve_v to_o lay_v the_o axe_n to_o the_o root_n of_o this_o wicked_a tree_n help_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o with_o thy_o grace_n from_o above_o that_o i_o may_v hew_v myself_o out_o of_o myself_o that_o i_o may_v kill_v crucify_v and_o mortify_v my_o inveigle_a sensuality_n cut_v off_o my_o evil_a inclination_n rectify_v my_o disorder_a passion_n and_o root_v out_o each_o thought_n or_o desire_n which_o tend_v not_o direct_o to_o thy_o honour_n will_n and_o love_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n 3._o i_o know_v lord_n that_o it_o be_v bootless_a to_o study_v perfection_n without_o the_o practice_n of_o mortification_n i_o confess_v i_o can_v never_o love_v thou_o true_o but_o in_o as_o much_o as_o i_o hate_v myself_o real_o such_o be_v the_o antipathy_n between_o self-love_n and_o thy_o holy_a affection_n ah_o how_o can_v a_o spirit_n distract_v with_o contrary_a inclination_n be_v free_o and_o full_o vacant_a to_o thy_o divine_a contemplation_n put_v therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o a_o sluice_n to_o my_o unmortified_a passion_n put_v a_o bind_v to_o my_o distraught_a heart_n and_o powerful_o keep_v back_o those_o innumerous_a concupiscence_n and_o corrupt_a imagination_n violent_o succeed_v each_o other_o that_o my_o unite_a affection_n may_v intend_v thou_o only_o the_o only_a object_n of_o all_o happiness_n gather_v o_o my_o lord_n the_o disperse_a force_n of_o my_o soul_n from_o all_o multiplicity_n of_o worldly_a affection_n to_o the_o union_n of_o thy_o only_a love_n keep_v i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o understanding_n will_n memory_n imagination_n and_o all_o my_o inward_a and_o outward_a sense_n from_o roam_v abroad_o that_o careful_o attend_v and_o entertain_v thy_o divine_a presence_n in_o my_o soul_n i_o may_v attain_v true_a introversion_n simplification_n and_o union_n of_o my_o spirit_n with_o thou_o reform_v o_o my_o lord_n all_o the_o natural_a corruption_n of_o my_o outward_a man_n and_o redress_v all_o the_o spiritual_a infirmity_n of_o my_o inward_a man_n destroy_v and_o disperse_v all_o internal_a and_o external_a enemy_n and_o opposer_n of_o thy_o holy_a love_n possess_v i_o perfect_o and_o dispose_v of_o i_o entire_o according_a to_o thy_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n 4._o to_o this_o end_n o_o bless_v my_o weak_a endeavour_n almighty_a and_o al-merciful_a lord_n god_n i_o will_v subtract_v all_o superfluity_n from_o my_o body_n and_o accustom_v it_o to_o all_o sort_n of_o suffering_n that_o so_o i_o may_v fit_v it_o up_o for_o thou_o o_o holy_a spirit_n who_o dwell_v not_o with_o they_o that_o be_v sensual_a and_o subject_a to_o sin_n alas_o i_o have_v not_o yet_o resist_v to_o the_o effusion_n of_o my_o blood_n and_o shall_v i_o spill_v each_o drop_n of_o blood_n in_o my_o body_n in_o this_o holy_a quarrel_n how_o little_o ought_v i_o to_o regard_v it_o in_o respect_n of_o the_o great_a good_a i_o expect_v i_o will_v therefore_o crucify_v thou_o o_o my_o flesh_n with_o all_o thy_o concupiscence_n i_o will_v mortify_v my_o outward_a sense_n the_o window_n by_o which_o death_n steal_v into_o my_o soul_n the_o hinderer_n of_o my_o heart_n tranquillity_n the_o destroyer_n of_o true_a devotion_n the_o disperser_n of_o inward_a recollection_n and_o the_o utter_a ruiner_n of_o all_o the_o good_a desire_n which_o i_o conceive_v and_o kindle_v in_o my_o prayer_n ah_o how_o soon_o be_v this_o divine_a fire_n cool_v and_o quench_v not_o only_o by_o sin_n but_o also_o by_o the_o distract_n image_n of_o outward_a object_n i_o will_v keep_v a_o special_a and_o strict_a watch_n over_o my_o tongue_n on_o which_o depend_v my_o spiritual_a life_n or_o death_n and_o cherish_v thou_o o_o belove_a silence_n which_o be_v the_o key_n of_o piety_n the_o keeper_n of_o innocency_n and_o the_o preserver_n of_o purity_n i_o will_v trample_v down_o my_o inferior_a spirit_n this_o be_v the_o chief_a exercise_n of_o god_n child_n not_o to_o be_v carry_v away_o with_o affection_n of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n but_o to_o conduct_v themselves_o according_a to_o god_n spirit_n nature_n with_o all_o it_o be_v evil_a affection_n and_o motion_n of_o love_n hatred_n joy_n sadness_n desire_n fear_v hope_v anger_n etc._n etc._n i_o will_v order_v dispose_n and_o direct_v it_o according_a to_o the_o law_n of_o reason_n and_o thy_o divine_a inspiration_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n grant_v i_o courage_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o quell_v and_o curb_v this_o most_o dangerous_a and_o my_o great_a enemy_n which_o be_v the_o source_n of_o all_o my_o misery_n the_o citadel_n from_o whence_o sin_n assail_v i_o and_o satan_n fetch_v his_o force_n to_o fight_v against_o i_o grant_v good_a lord_n that_o i_o may_v they_o therefore_o every_o one_o must_v strive_v to_o know_v his_o own_o natural_a inclination_n and_o then_o employ_v all_o his_o force_n and_o apply_v all_o his_o prayer_n and_o spiritual_a exercise_n to_o quell_v they_o never_o yield_v to_o this_o wicked_a eve_n persuade_v adam_n my_o superior_a will_n to_o eat_v the_o forbid_a fruit_n to_o consent_n to_o unlawful_a pleasure_n o_o that_o i_o can_v tame_v these_o cruel_a beast_n my_o natural_a passion_n how_o soon_o shall_v i_o be_v master_n of_o all_o moral_a virtue_n o_o that_o i_o can_v so_o till_o this_o vineyard_n so_o delve_v this_o garden_n so_o purge_v it_o from_o all_o ill_a weed_n of_o affection_n and_o prune_v all_o superfluous_a surgeon_n and_o shoot_n of_o passion_n that_o 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