chap._n 71._o scarce_o have_v she_o end_v her_o office_n of_o the_o mistress_n of_o the_o novice_n and_o be_v confirm_v therein_o for_o three_o other_o year_n when_o in_o the_o year_n 1602._o she_o be_v overtake_v with_o a_o continual_a catarrh_n which_o wrought_v upon_o she_o in_o such_o sort_n as_o whole_o to_o deprive_v she_o of_o her_o strength_n in_o a_o very_a short_a tyme._n yet_o she_o make_v small_a account_n thereof_o will_v never_o excuse_v herself_o from_o the_o rigour_n of_o the_o life_n she_o lead_v nay_o she_o increase_v it_o by_o more_o sharp_a pennance_n be_v in_o doubt_n that_o it_o may_v arrive_v by_o the_o art_n of_o her_o enemy_n to_o alienate_v she_o thereby_o from_o austerity_n for_o this_o cause_n she_o will_v say_v o_o how_o watchful_a ought_v we_o to_o be_v over_o ourselves_o so_o dull_a and_o cowardly_a be_v this_o sense_n of_o we_o which_o will_v esteem_v that_o to_o be_v weakness_n &_o infirmity_n note_n note_n whiâ—h_v indeed_o be_v noth_z ng_z but_o drowsiness_n for_o the_o get_n oâ—ly_o of_o some_o repose_n and_o to_o herself_o look_v on_o herself_o she_o will_v say_v i_o know_v thou_o well_o enough_o and_o i_o will_v never_o do_v after_o thy_o fancy_n but_o glad_o employ_v myself_o in_o accomplishment_n of_o the_o will_n of_o god_n in_o the_o mean_a time_n her_o sickness_n increase_v and_o in_o the_o month_n of_o apâ—ill_n 160â—_n a_o vein_n break_v in_o her_o breast_n so_o as_o she_o cast_v up_o great_a quantity_n of_o blood_n which_o weaken_v she_o much_o but_o for_o all_o this_o nothing_o daunt_v she_o will_v never_o think_v of_o restore_v herself_o esteem_v that_o by_o the_o favour_n of_o god_n she_o may_v overcome_v the_o inconvenience_n yet_o sometime_o she_o herself_o will_v say_v i_o be_o many_o time_n consider_v whether_o i_o be_v she_o that_o i_o be_v or_o no_o because_o heretofore_o i_o conceive_v that_o with_o a_o strong_a resolution_n i_o can_v overcome_v any_o difficulty_n and_o now_o the_o more_o i_o force_v myself_o so_o much_o the_o more_o feeble_a and_o faint_a i_o be_o neither_o woâ—ld_v her_o superior_n presume_v have_v see_v in_o she_o so_o great_a wonder_n to_o command_v she_o by_o holy_a obedience_n that_o she_o shall_v go_v into_o the_o bed_n and_o forbear_v the_o austeritye_n of_o her_o life_n though_o they_o fail_v not_o earnest_o to_o desire_v it_o of_o she_o but_o contrary_a wise_a she_o make_v earnest_a prayer_n mingle_v with_o salt_n tear_n to_o god_n that_o he_o will_v not_o permit_v that_o she_o shall_v seem_v sick_a final_o she_o be_v reduce_v to_o such_o term_n that_o she_o can_v not_o take_v any_o food_n nor_o make_v two_o pace_n without_o much_o affliction_n and_o her_o superior_n command_v she_o to_o go_v to_o bed_n immediate_o she_o do_v as_o they_o enjoin_v such_o account_n do_v she_o make_v of_o holy_a obedience_n note_n note_n but_o because_o as_o have_v be_v say_v she_o fear_v much_o that_o this_o may_v happen_v by_o the_o stratagem_n of_o the_o devil_n while_o she_o take_v convenient_a remedye_n for_o her_o body_n she_o be_v much_o trouble_v in_o her_o mind_n she_o continue_v so_o till_o the_o second_o of_o august_n with_o singular_a patience_n when_o be_v first_o surprise_v with_o a_o extraordinary_a accident_n of_o her_o cough_n there_o follow_v a_o very_a great_a abundance_n of_o blood_n which_o she_o can_v not_o forbear_v to_o cast_v up_o the_o physician_n be_v in_o some_o doubt_n lest_o perhaps_o she_o may_v be_v suffocate_v with_o that_o blood_n and_o so_o continue_v she_o till_o the_o day_n of_o s._n laurence_n there_o be_v find_v no_o remedy_n by_o which_o her_o bleed_a may_v be_v stay_v at_o that_o time_n all_o the_o religious_a stand_v round_o about_o her_o bed_n even_o overwhelm_v with_o affliction_n but_o to_o all_o of_o they_o she_o give_v courage_n and_o assure_v they_o confident_o that_o she_o be_v not_o then_o to_o die_v but_o that_o she_o must_v make_v a_o end_n of_o her_o office_n of_o mistress_n of_o the_o novice_n as_o indeed_o it_o happen_v for_o short_o after_o be_v in_o great_a part_n deliver_v of_o her_o infirmity_n upon_o the_o feast_n of_o all_o the_o saint_n she_o resume_v her_o charge_n to_o the_o joy_n of_o the_o whole_a monastery_n our_o lord_n tell_v she_o in_o a_o rapt_v that_o she_o be_v to_o suffer_v much_o till_o her_o death_n she_o be_v elect_v subprioresse_n by_o the_o religious_a and_o soon_o after_o she_o be_v assault_v by_o her_o last_o sickness_n chap._n 72._o upon_o the_o day_n of_o s._n john_n baptist_n in_o the_o year_n 1604._o she_o be_v rapt_v in_o extasis_fw-la this_o be_v the_o last_o rapt_v which_o be_v manifest_v to_o the_o religious_a and_o she_o understand_v by_o god_n that_o from_o thenceforth_o even_o to_o her_o death_n she_o be_v to_o be_v afflict_v with_o continual_a sickness_n she_z with_o a_o cheerful_a countenance_n make_v answer_v o_o my_o jesus_n will_v thou_o have_v i_o become_v as_o a_o little_a infant_n nay_o will_v thou_o that_o i_o be_v bear_v again_o and_o be_v all_o in_o admiration_n she_o add_v o_o how_o little_o shall_v i_o become_v again_o by_o reason_n of_o wh_z ch_z littleness_n these_o soul_n of_o i_o will_v know_v i_o no_o long_o she_o will_v by_o this_o infer_v as_o afterward_o by_o obedience_n she_o relate_v that_o by_o occasion_n of_o her_o sickness_n she_o be_v now_o to_o lead_v a_o life_n so_o different_a from_o the_o former_a that_o it_o will_v seem_v to_o they_o a_o be_v bear_v again_o because_o she_o be_v to_o bear_v the_o naked_a cross_n this_o succeed_v punctual_o for_o from_o that_o time_n forward_o she_o find_v so_o great_a poverty_n of_o spirit_n as_o it_o may_v seem_v after_o a_o sort_n that_o she_o be_v abandoneâ—_n by_o god_n yet_o she_o nevertheless_o be_v still_o more_o earnest_a in_o the_o execution_n of_o the_o divine_a will_n and_o show_v herself_o ready_a to_o suffer_v any_o affliction_n whatsoever_o &_o they_o short_o after_o return_v out_o of_o rapt_v in_o the_o mean_a time_n she_o end_v her_o office_n of_o mistress_n of_o the_o novice_n and_o because_o new_a officer_n be_v to_o be_v choose_v she_o fear_v very_o much_o that_o some_o other_o charge_n may_v be_v give_v she_o do_v humble_o propose_v her_o case_n and_o much_o desire_v to_o repose_v a_o little_a in_o she_o so_o great_a weakness_n and_o withal_o in_o respect_n of_o her_o sickness_n which_o so_o continual_o call_v upon_o she_o this_o she_o say_v not_o for_o the_o ease_n of_o her_o body_n but_o to_o avoid_v all_o kind_n of_o superiority_n the_o religious_a be_v assemble_v among_o themselves_o consider_v the_o great_a goodness_n of_o this_o holy_a soul_n they_o choose_v she_o by_o common_a consent_n to_o be_v subprioresse_n of_o the_o monastery_n in_o the_o month_n of_o october_n of_o the_o same_o year_n she_o accept_v the_o office_n but_o with_o much_o grief_n of_o mind_n esteem_v herself_o unable_a to_o satisfy_v so_o great_a a_o obligation_n yet_o be_v resign_v to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n she_o instant_o quiet_v herself_o and_o begin_v her_o charge_n with_o singular_a example_n but_o as_o it_o please_v almighty_a god_n eight_o daâ—es_n be_v not_o past_a when_o she_o be_v assail_v by_o a_o vehement_a fever_n and_o intense_a pain_n of_o â—he_n head_n she_o be_v force_v to_o retire_v to_o bed_n although_o she_o use_v all_o endeavour_n to_o rise_v every_o morning_n with_o the_o other_o religious_a to_o hear_v mass_n and_o to_o receive_v the_o food_n of_o the_o angel_n return_v afterward_o into_o her_o cell_n so_o weak_a will_v she_o be_v grow_v with_o it_o and_o so_o afflict_v that_o even_o for_o pure_a weakness_n she_o be_v like_a to_o swoon_n yet_o be_v urge_v by_o the_o great_a devotion_n she_o carry_v towards_o that_o heavenly_a food_n she_o embrace_v every_o morning_n the_o same_o trouble_n so_o that_o she_o be_v often_o assault_v by_o a_o extraordinary_a access_n of_o a_o fever_n even_o at_o that_o tyme._n nay_o even_o for_o this_o very_a cause_n she_o suffer_v every_o morning_n most_o bitter_a pain_n until_o her_o death_n because_o her_o body_n not_o be_v able_a to_o maintain_v itself_o through_o the_o great_a weakness_n wherein_o it_o be_v unless_o from_o three_o to_o three_o hour_n it_o be_v successive_o feed_v she_o endure_v patient_o all_o that_o misery_n that_o she_o may_v communicate_v sometime_o be_v exhort_v by_o the_o religious_a that_o for_o this_o reason_n she_o will_v not_o frequent_v the_o b._n sacrament_n every_o morning_n but_o by_o forbear_v it_o the_o better_o attend_v to_o the_o recover_n of_o her_o health_n the_o good_a mother_n make_v answer_v if_o it_o seem_v fit_a to_o you_o that_o i_o forbear_v for_o my_o unworthines_n willing_o i_o will_v be_v deprive_v ut_fw-mi if_o you_o be_v move_v by_o other_o respect_v i_o will_v never_o yeâ—ld_v to_o it_o though_o
saint_n of_o his_o holy_a catholic_a church_n to_o the_o wonder_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n even_o in_o despite_n of_o all_o sensuality_n and_o impiety_n since_o so_o man_n glorious_a king_n &_o queen_n delicate_a virgin_n valiant_a captain_n profound_a doctor_n have_v giâ—en_v over_o in_o several_a age_n all_o the_o whole_a world_n at_o once_o and_o cast_v the_o care_n of_o greatness_n of_o pleasure_n of_o liberty_n of_o humane_a knowledge_n behind_o their_o back_n for_o ever_o that_o they_o may_v only_o attend_v to_o the_o all-sufficient_a contemplation_n of_o châ—ist_n jesus_n nail_v upon_o a_o cross_n who_o how_o and_o with_o what_o hart_n can_v the_o eye_n of_o any_o christian_n consideration_n behold_v â—o_o shameful_o naked_a and_o so_o merciles_o scourge_v so_o dolorous_o crown_v and_o so_o impious_o blaspheme_v for_o he_o and_o i_o and_o all_o mankind_n without_o a_o just_a indignation_n against_o ourselves_o and_o implacable_a hatred_n of_o sin_n and_o a_o most_o ardent_a love_n towards_o so_o dear_a a_o saviour_n wâ—th_v a_o most_o tender_a compassion_n of_o his_o unspeakable_a torment_n at_o least_o catholic_n that_o find_v not_o such_o holy_a affection_n in_o themselves_o as_o thâ—se_a will_v never_o flatter_v themselves_o with_o a_o conceit_n of_o 〈◊〉_d indeed_o true_a christian_n whereas_o the_o adversary_n of_o the_o doctrine_n of_o penance_n think_v themselves_o bind_v to_o no_o other_o painful_a act_n but_o of_o the_o mind_n but_o when_o i_o name_v compassion_n i_o mean_v not_o a_o mere_a and_o only_a affection_n of_o the_o mind_n whereby_o we_o use_v to_o grieve_v for_o the_o misery_n of_o another_o man_n but_o i_o mean_v by_o it_o a_o kind_n of_o joint-tenancy_n as_o it_o be_v in_o suffer_v as_o he_o suffer_v and_o as_o his_o saint_n have_v suffer_v through_o hiâ—_n assistance_n and_o by_o his_o example_n by_o fast_v &_o pray_v and_o retire_v and_o mortify_v and_o submit_v ourselves_o to_o affront_n and_o corporal_a pain_n for_o the_o satisfaction_n of_o god_n justice_n due_a to_o former_a sin_n and_o that_o afterwards_o neither_o sensuality_n nor_o ambition_n nor_o any_o other_o passion_n may_v dishonour_v and_o deflower_v our_o soul_n now_o if_o these_o thing_n be_v as_o they_o have_v be_v here_o deliver_v and_o as_o indeed_o they_o be_v in_o what_o glory_n i_o say_v shall_v we_o believe_v this_o holy_a and_o admirable_a suor_n maria_n maddalena_n de_fw-fr patsi_n to_o remain_v who_o whole_a pilgrimage_n in_o this_o world_n may_v be_v account_v to_o have_v be_v but_o one_o continue_a act_n of_o do_v penance_n as_o by_o the_o read_n of_o her_o life_n will_v appear_v whereof_o as_o she_o take_v the_o example_n from_o the_o best_a example_n of_o antiquity_n so_o she_o have_v deliver_v over_o she_o own_o to_o all_o posterity_n and_o in_o what_o obscurity_n &_o true_a misery_n do_v they_o remain_v who_o be_v whole_o blind_v by_o their_o passion_n and_o even_o press_v almost_o to_o death_n by_o dangerous_a object_n procure_v to_o make_v the_o very_a reasonable_a part_n of_o their_o soul_n believe_v that_o the_o liberty_n of_o the_o gospel_n of_o christ_n do_v free_a christian_n from_o the_o â—ye_z of_o keep_v his_o commandment_n and_o that_o because_o christ_n have_v suffer_v for_o we_o all_o therefore_o he_o have_v suffer_v all_o for_o we_o and_o that_o we_o have_v no_o corporal_a penance_n lâ—ft_v we_o by_o obligation_n to_o undergo_v either_o with_o he_o or_o for_o ourselves_o when_o any_o speech_n be_v use_v to_o they_o by_o we_o concern_v fast_v they_o tell_v we_o out_o of_o the_o scripture_n that_o those_o thing_n defile_v not_o the_o man_n that_o enter_v in_o but_o those_o other_o that_o issue_n out_o of_o man_n when_o we_o speak_v to_o they_o of_o other_o pennance_n they_o ask_v we_o still_o out_o of_o scripture_n who_o command_v these_o thing_n at_o our_o hand_n and_o when_o we_o yet_o come_v further_o to_o such_o particular_n as_o carry_v with_o they_o any_o extraordinary_a maceration_n of_o the_o body_n by_o hayrecloathe_n or_o the_o draw_n of_o a_o little_a blood_n by_o discipline_n or_o the_o tame_n of_o a_o man_n self_n by_o long_a watch_n and_o the_o like_a they_o stuff_n our_o ear_n &_o they_o will_v stop_v our_o mouth_n with_o speech_n concern_v those_o false_a prophet_n who_o be_v say_v in_o holy_a scripture_n to_o have_v lance_v and_o wound_v themselves_o with_o knife_n and_o other_o that_o sacrifice_v their_o son_n &_o daughter_n to_o the_o devil_n it_o be_v well_o if_o once_o they_o will_v begin_v to_o think_v of_o what_o they_o say_v and_o find_v that_o it_o be_v not_o to_o the_o purpose_n they_o may_v give_v over_o sucâ—_n impertinency_n as_o these_o for_o concern_v the_o firsâ—_o of_o these_o three_o place_n our_o b._n saviour_n himself_o who_o give_v we_o the_o example_n and_o who_o by_o tell_v we_o how_o we_o be_v to_o carry_v ourselves_o in_o fast_v do_v imply_v a_o precept_n of_o the_o thing_n itself_o he_o himself_o i_o say_v it_o be_v who_o tell_v the_o jew_n how_o man_n be_v not_o defile_v by_o eat_a meat_n with_o unwashed_a hand_n for_o which_o they_o tax_v he_o but_o by_o wicked_a cogitation_n bring_v forth_o by_o the_o tongue_n and_o so_o pour_v into_o the_o ear_n of_o other_o man_n for_o which_o he_o reprove_v they_o by_o this_o doctrine_n he_o discover_v their_o hypocrisy_n and_o confound_v their_o presumption_n but_o he_o do_v nothing_o less_o than_o disallow_v either_o of_o those_o fast_n to_o which_o his_o church_n shall_v have_v power_n to_o oblige_v our_o conscience_n or_o of_o those_o other_o which_o every_o man_n in_o his_o own_o private_a devotion_n shall_v think_v fit_a to_o make_v either_o in_o contemplation_n of_o his_o love_n or_o in_o union_n with_o his_o pain_n and_o penance_n as_o impertinent_o do_v they_o ask_v we_o who_o command_v these_o thing_n at_o our_o hand_n for_o that_o be_v say_v by_o the_o prophet_n to_o the_o people_n which_o glorify_v themselves_o for_o the_o punctuality_n wherewith_o they_o perform_v certain_a exterior_a and_o ceremonial_a thing_n when_o in_o the_o mean_a â—â—me_n they_o persecute_v the_o prophet_n they_o oppress_v the_o people_n they_o dishonour_v god_n by_o â—ayly_a and_o hourly_o and_o grievous_a sin_n without_o any_o meaning_n to_o reform_v their_o life_n pervade_v themselves_o absurd_o that_o they_o have_v liberty_n to_o be_v as_o wicked_a as_o they_o will_v so_o that_o withal_o they_o carry_v any_o appearance_n of_o piety_n â—n_o the_o exterior_a now_o what_o have_v this_o objection_n to_o do_v with_o we_o who_o be_v teach_v by_o the_o catholic_a church_n that_o our_o principal_a endeavour_n be_v to_o be_v place_v in_o the_o perform_n of_o the_o will_n of_o god_n the_o root_n out_o of_o ill_a habit_n and_o â—he_v plant_v of_o solid_a virtue_n in_o their_o place_n and_o â—et_o that_o exterior_a mortification_n and_o pennance_n aught_o in_o all_o reason_n to_o be_v imbracâ—d_v as_o mean_n whereby_o the_o mind_n may_v be_v bring_v back_o to_o god_n and_o to_o make_v some_o poor_a kind_n of_o amends_n for_o the_o unlawful_a pleasure_n which_o we_o take_v in_o creature_n to_o the_o great_a offence_n of_o the_o creator_n and_o especial_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n in_o câ—rist_n jesus_n our_o saviour_n who_o suffer_v so_o grievous_a thing_n for_o us._n we_o shall_v therefore_o not_o only_o be_v wicked_a but_o extreme_o base_a if_o we_o dispose_v not_o ourselves_o to_o pay_v the_o gold_n of_o his_o pain_n with_o the_o dross_n of_o our_o penance_n and_o therefore_o when_o they_o ask_v we_o who_o command_v these_o thing_n at_o our_o hand_n we_o answer_v with_o oâ—â—_n who_o say_v most_o worthy_o that_o the_o law_n of_o gâ—_n command_v we_o but_o a_o little_a but_o the_o love_n of_o gâ—_n a_o great_a deal_n yet_o beside_o all_o this_o there_o be_v â—mong_o other_o example_n in_o holy_a scripture_n bothâ—_n the_o old_a and_o new_a testament_n which_o be_v pregnant_a proof_n of_o what_o we_o ought_v to_o do_v in_o thâ—_n particular_a 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i_o be_o one_o day_n to_o judge_n thou_o with_o power_n and_o majesty_n 14._o thou_o shall_v esteem_v thy_o rule_n and_o constitution_n thereof_o together_o with_o the_o vow_n as_o i_o will_v have_v thou_o esteem_v myself_o procure_v to_o engrave_v in_o the_o heart_n of_o all_o the_o religious_a the_o zeal_n of_o that_o state_n to_o which_o i_o have_v call_v they_o and_o of_o thy_o religion_n 15._o thou_o shall_v have_v great_a desire_n to_o be_v make_v subject_n unto_o all_o and_o thou_o shall_v have_v it_o in_o horror_n to_o be_v prefer_v before_o the_o mean_a and_o least_o of_o the_o company_n 16._o thou_o shall_v not_o conceive_v that_o thy_o comfort_n repose_n and_o solace_n consist_v in_o any_o other_o thing_n then_o in_o contempt_n and_o in_o humility_n 17._o thou_o shall_v forbear_v to_o let_v the_o creature_n know_v what_o thy_o desire_n be_v and_o what_o my_o will_n be_v except_v those_o who_o i_o have_v give_v to_o live_v with_o thou_o and_o my_o christ_n 18._o thou_o 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all_o the_o while_n she_o retire_v herself_o into_o a_o secret_a place_n of_o the_o monastery_n where_o she_o afflict_v her_o body_n with_o a_o grievous_a discipline_n but_o first_o as_o soon_o as_o she_o return_v from_o she_o say_v rapt_v she_o recommend_v all_o the_o creature_n to_o almighty_a god_n and_o offer_v up_o for_o they_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n jesus_n she_o remain_v in_o extasis_fw-la eight_o day_n and_o eight_o night_n speak_v of_o high_a mysterye_n and_o every_o morning_n at_o the_o hour_n of_o tertia_fw-la she_o receive_v the_o holy_a
be_v worse_o with_o so_o many_o relapse_n be_v dispose_v to_o do_v so_o little_a penance_n and_o how_o much_o more_o may_v iâ—_n confound_v all_o protestant_n who_o do_v plain_o in_o effect_n protest_v against_o all_o corporal_a penance_n and_o make_v themselves_o believe_v that_o one_o single_a sigâ—_n be_v able_a to_o set_v all_o account_n straight_o between_o goâ—_n and_o they_o and_o at_o on_o instant_a to_o free_v their_o soulâ—_n all_o fester_a with_o the_o sin_n of_o a_o most_o lascivious_a enormous_a life_n not_o only_o from_o the_o guilt_n of_o sinâ—_n â—ut_v from_o all_o manner_n of_o temporal_a punishment_n which_o in_o the_o justice_n of_o god_n may_v be_v due_a unto_o 〈◊〉_d they_o be_v best_o say_v again_o that_o these_o thing_n â—ere_z abrogate_a as_o a_o part_n of_o the_o ceremonial_a â—w_n but_o i_o have_v touch_v that_o point_n already_o &_o â—hey_n may_v say_v that_o sin_n as_o well_o as_o the_o penâ—ance_n due_a to_o sin_n be_v take_v way_n as_o if_o the_o â—ambe_n be_v not_o occisus_fw-la ab_fw-la origine_fw-la uâ—unâ—i_fw-la and_o in_o the_o law_n of_o moses_n they_o be_v save_v 〈◊〉_d less_o than_o we_o by_o faith_n in_o christ_n they_o in_o the_o â—ayth_n of_o christ_n to_o come_v and_o we_o in_o the_o faith_n of_o â—hrist_n come_v already_o but_o faith_n in_o christ_n be_v so_o â—r_o from_o be_v contrary_a to_o penance_n as_o that_o 〈◊〉_d true_a faith_n be_v there_o express_v where_o penâ—ance_n for_o sin_n be_v not_o embrace_v and_o of_o the_o two_o 〈◊〉_d be_v clear_a that_o we_o be_v much_o more_o oblige_v to_o â—e_v do_v of_o severe_a penance_n when_o we_o sin_n â—hen_o they_o be_v before_o the_o come_n of_o christ_n our_o â—aviour_n by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o potent_a and_o efficacious_a mean_n for_o the_o abstayning_a from_o â—ne_n we_o have_v than_o they_o by_o the_o application_n â—f_fw-mi our_o saviour_n blood_n which_o so_o frequent_o 〈◊〉_d derive_v towards_o we_o in_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o church_n in_o that_o which_o follow_v i_o bind_v myself_o 〈◊〉_d be_v very_o brief_a and_o i_o will_v but_o point_v out_o another_o penitent_a in_o the_o new_a testament_n and_o thâ—_n be_v s._n paul_n who_o be_v not_o only_o a_o doctor_n of_o thâ—_n lesson_n of_o penance_n but_o a_o disciple_n also_o wheâ—_n speak_v of_o what_o himself_o do_v suffer_v he_o say_v a_o dimpleo_fw-la ea_fw-la quae_fw-la desunt_fw-la passionum_fw-la chrâ—sti_fw-la pro_fw-la corpore_fw-la eius_fw-la quae_fw-la est_fw-la ecclesia_fw-la fulfil_v those_o thing_n which_o be_v want_v to_o tâ—_n suffering_n of_o christ_n for_o his_o body_n which_o be_v tâ—_n church_n not_o that_o the_o passion_n of_o our_o saviour_n be_v not_o in_o the_o belief_n of_o s._n paul_n as_o it_o be_v in_o oâ—_n superabundant_o sufficient_a who_o least_o act_n hâ—_n be_v able_a and_o meritorious_a to_o save_v a_o thousaâ—_n and_o million_o of_o world_n but_o that_o in_o respect_n we_o this_o be_v still_o want_v that_o as_o he_o suffereâ—_n in_o the_o quality_n of_o a_o head_n so_o we_o as_o member_n must_v also_o suffer_v yea_o and_o corporal_o suffer_v as_o 〈◊〉_d have_v do_v and_o s._n paul_n affirm_v that_o he_o 〈◊〉_d his_o part_n be_v do_v his_o duty_n in_o supply_v 〈◊〉_d defect_n again_o he_o advise_v or_o rather_o describe_v true_a christian_n semper_fw-la mortificatinem_fw-la jesu_fw-la christi_fw-la in_o corpore_fw-la nostro_fw-la poâ—tantes_fw-la ut_fw-la &_o vita_fw-la jesu_fw-la manifestetur_fw-la in_o coâ—poribus_fw-la nostris_fw-la to_o carry_v always_o in_o our_o body_n the_o mortification_n of_o christ_n jesus_n thâ—_n the_o life_n of_o jesus_n may_v be_v manifest_v in_o our_o bodâ—_n he_o say_v not_o that_o the_o mortification_n of_o christ_n â—esus_fw-la be_v to_o be_v carry_v only_o in_o the_o mind_n by_o â—hinking_v on_o he_o nor_o in_o the_o tongue_n by_o talk_v of_o he_o but_o in_o the_o body_n of_o flesh_n &_o blood_n 〈◊〉_d feel_v displeasure_n and_o pain_n in_o we_o for_o â—is_n sake_n as_o he_o do_v in_o his_o for_o we_o in_o such_o sort_n 〈◊〉_d that_o according_a to_o his_o holy_a apostolical_a doctrine_n the_o excellency_n and_o purity_n &_o patience_n 〈◊〉_d the_o life_n of_o jesus_n be_v make_v manifest_a to_o the_o â—orld_n by_o the_o penance_n which_o christian_n use_v â—en_o upon_o their_o body_n which_o because_o it_o be_v of_o 〈◊〉_d much_o repugnance_n to_o flesh_n and_o blood_n it_o do_v â—mong_o other_o proof_n establish_v the_o divinity_n of_o â—hrist_n our_o saviour_n against_o jew_n and_o turk_n â—nd_v pagan_n when_o they_o see_v what_o we_o suffer_v &_o â—ith_n how_o much_o joy_n and_o longanimity_n we_o do_v it_o 〈◊〉_d honour_n of_o he_o who_o they_o blaspheme_v but_o â—e_v adore_v in_o another_o place_n he_o thus_o profess_v cler_o 〈◊〉_d his_o own_o person_n itaque_fw-la curro_fw-la non_fw-la tamâ—am_fw-la in_o incertum_fw-la sic_fw-la pugno_fw-la non_fw-la tamâ—am_fw-la aërem_fw-la verberans_fw-la sed_fw-la castigo_fw-la corpus_fw-la â—eum_fw-la &_o in_o seruitutem_fw-la redigo_fw-la ne_fw-la cùm_fw-la â—js_fw-la praedicaverim_fw-la ipse_fw-la reprobus_fw-la efficiar_fw-la â—herfore_o do_v run_v not_o as_o to_o obtain_v a_o price_n unâ—taine_n i_o so_o fight_v not_o as_o if_o i_o do_v but_o whip_n or_o beat_v the_o air_n but_o i_o chastise_v or_o beat_v mâ—_n body_n &_o i_o bring_v it_o into_o subjection_n lest_o wheâ—_n i_o shall_v have_v preach_v salvation_n to_o other_o myself_o may_v become_v a_o reprobate_n now_o if_o a_o sâ—_n paul_n who_o be_v convert_v by_o a_o express_a anâ—_n personal_a apparition_n of_o our_o b._n saviour_n after_o his_o ascension_n who_o be_v make_v a_o apostle_n anâ—_n canonize_v by_o the_o mouth_n of_o god_n himself_o to_o bâ—_n not_o only_o a_o vessel_n elect_v for_o his_o honour_n bâ—_n even_o a_o very_a vessel_n of_o election_n and_o that_o hâ—_n shall_v carry_v his_o name_n before_o the_o king_n of_o thâ—_n earth_n who_o have_v be_v rapt_v up_o in_o extasis_fw-la 〈◊〉_d high_a as_o the_o very_a three_o heaven_n itself_o wheâ—_n such_o arcana_fw-la such_o deep_a mysterye_n have_v beenâ—_n impart_v to_o he_o as_o it_o be_v not_o lawful_a for_o mâ—_n to_o utter_v be_v not_o only_o still_o importune_v anâ—_n even_o buffet_v with_o tentation_n of_o sense_n for_o hâ—_n great_a humiliation_n and_o probation_n but_o fâ—_n the_o bring_n and_o keep_v of_o his_o body_n in_o subjection_n and_o servitude_n to_o his_o mind_n for_o feaâ—_n lest_o otherwise_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o his_o preach_n of_o salvation_n to_o other_o himself_o may_v become_v a_o reprobaee_n do_v not_o only_o beat_v the_o air_n wiâ—_n hiâ—_n tongue_n as_o the_o protestant_n and_o loose_a catholics_n use_v to_o do_v while_o they_o only_o talk_v 〈◊〉_d what_o christ_n suffer_v but_o do_v also_o beat_v his_o bâ—_n 〈◊〉_d as_o himself_o record_v how_o will_v it_o become_v we_o 〈◊〉_d carry_v ourselves_o in_o point_n of_o penance_n when_o â—e_n shall_v have_v consider_v of_o all_o the_o difference_n â—hat_n be_v between_o s._n paul_n and_o we_o how_o â—uch_o must_v we_o begin_v to_o suffer_v with_o christ_n our_o lord_n who_o do_v not_o so_o drink_v up_o the_o chalice_n of_o tribulation_n but_o that_o he_o leave_v certain_a drop_n 〈◊〉_d be_v swallow_v afterwards_o by_o we_o when_o first_o â—en_z they_o shall_v be_v sanctify_v to_o we_o by_o he_o â—ow_o careful_o must_v we_o mortify_v and_o how_o wilâ—ngly_o must_v we_o punish_v ourselves_o or_o at_o least_o â—ow_o much_o may_v we_o be_v ashamed_a if_o we_o do_v it_o not_o â—nd_v if_o protestant_n or_o any_o other_o libertine_n â—ill_v still_o be_v laugh_v at_o we_o for_o our_o labour_n whilst_o they_o laugh_v at_o we_o we_o shall_v do_v well_o to_o â—eep_v for_o they_o as_o s._n augustine_n upon_o another_o occasion_n do_v for_o other_o so_o that_o now_o the_o example_n of_o scripture_n 〈◊〉_d both_o testament_n and_o indeed_o of_o the_o holy_a church_n in_o all_o age_n and_o above_o all_o of_o christ_n our_o â—nly_a saviour_n and_o redeemer_n do_v command_v we_o and_o even_o urge_v and_o force_v we_o charitas_fw-la christi_fw-la urget_fw-la nos_fw-la in_o some_o sort_n to_o show_v that_o â—e_n be_v in_o earnest_n when_o we_o tell_v ourselves_o that_o â—e_n believe_v in_o christ_n and_o that_o he_o die_v for_o we_o â—hat_n we_o may_v die_v to_o sensuality_n and_o sin_n and_o live_v to_o he_o either_o by_o continue_v in_o innocency_n or_o by_o do_v of_o penance_n for_o my_o part_n i_o know_v no_o reason_n why_o this_o consequence_n shall_v nâ—_n hold_v that_o if_o you_o will_v judge_v your_o self_n you_o shall_v not_o be_v judge_v which_o be_v the_o word_n of_o the_o apostle_n so_o if_o we_o shall_v chastise_v &_o punish_v ourselves_o in_o this_o life_n it_o will_v be_v a_o greaâ—_n mean_n among_o other_o to_o move_v god_n to_o mercy_n and_o to_o obtain_v that_o the_o punishment_n of_o the_o nexâ—_n may_v be_v prevent_v and_o this_o be_v the_o voice_n noâ—_n only_o of_o so_o
suffer_v death_n for_o the_o salvation_n of_o mankind_n other_o amorous_a excess_n towards_o christ_n jesus_n whereof_o she_o discharge_v her_o hart_n chap._n 12._o the_o celestial_a fire_n of_o love_n do_v daily_o more_o and_o more_o increase_n in_o this_o dear_a spouse_n of_o jesus_n in_o so_o much_o that_o for_o the_o excessive_a inward_a heat_n that_o she_o feel_v she_o can_v not_o oftentim_n in_o the_o very_a midst_n of_o winter_n keep_v on_o her_o woollen_a body_n it_o be_v further_o necessary_a for_o she_o to_o have_v she_o other_o garment_n extraordinary_o loose_a about_o she_o to_o the_o end_n that_o her_o inflame_a affection_n may_v be_v able_a to_o pass_v more_o free_o and_o oftentimes_o she_o be_v force_v to_o drink_v cold_a water_n &_o in_o great_a quantity_n into_o the_o very_a water_n she_o will_v also_o thrust_v her_o arm_n and_o bathe_v her_o face_n and_o cast_v part_n thereof_o into_o her_o bosom_n affirm_v that_o she_o find_v herself_o not_o only_o to_o burn_v but_o even_o to_o consume_v then_o turn_v herself_o up_o to_o heaven_n with_o enamour_a countenance_n she_o often_o repeat_v these_o word_n i_o can_v no_o long_o endure_v so_o great_a a_o flame_n and_o certain_o if_o she_o have_v not_o be_v succour_v by_o supernatural_a help_n impossible_a it_o have_v be_v that_o she_o can_v have_v live_v beside_o these_o ardent_a affect_n one_o other_o that_o be_v very_o strange_a may_v be_v recount_v which_o she_o show_v on_o the_o day_n of_o the_o invention_n or_o find_v of_o the_o holy_a cross_n when_o have_v first_o communicate_v she_o stand_v for_o the_o space_n of_o a_o hour_n like_o a_o strong_a immovable_a tower_n and_o speak_v at_o large_a of_o the_o excellency_n and_o nobility_n of_o the_o cross_n of_o jesus_n with_o most_o ardent_a affection_n of_o mind_n and_o after_o insist_v upon_o the_o contemplation_n of_o the_o incarnate_a word_n which_o be_v nail_v thereon_o she_o begin_v thus_o to_o exclaim_v o_o love_n o_o love_n how_o â—ttle_a be_v thou_o know_v and_o belove_a note_n note_n if_o thou_o â—anst_v not_o find_v a_o place_n wherein_o to_o rest_v come_v o_o â—ue_v come_v all_o into_o i_o for_o i_o shall_v not_o fail_v to_o deceive_v thou_o o_o you_o soul_n create_v by_o love_n â—hy_o do_v you_o not_o love_v this_o love_n and_o what_o â—hing_n be_v love_n but_o only_o god_n deus_fw-la charitas_fw-la est_fw-la 〈◊〉_d love_n thou_o make_v i_o even_o melt_v &_o consume_v thou_o make_v i_o die_v and_o yet_o i_o live_v and_o i_o â—eele_v pain_n by_o thy_o make_v i_o know_v how_o little_a â—hou_n be_v belove_v and_o know_v in_o the_o mean_a time_n she_o use_v such_o â—eere_o and_o pious_a gesture_n as_o kindle_v in_o the_o beholder_n a_o unspeakable_a devotion_n sometime_o she_o will_v spread_v her_o arm_n abroad_o sometime_o she_o will_v clap_v her_o hand_n together_o and_o never_o cease_v from_o say_v o_o come_v you_o soul_n to_o love_v my_o love_n come_v &_o love_v your_o god_n but_o how_o hot_a this_o fire_n of_o love_n be_v which_o burn_v she_o most_o pure_a hart_n may_v well_o be_v know_v by_o her_o face_n which_o be_v even_o like_a to_o fire_v itself_o and_o so_o with_o her_o clothes_n and_o the_o veil_n of_o her_o head_n she_o be_v force_v sometime_o to_o fan_v herself_o for_o the_o mitigate_a of_o the_o extreme_a heat_n wherein_o she_o be_v and_o yet_o in_o the_o very_a midst_n of_o it_o she_o will_v often_o run_v with_o great_a speed_n sometime_o through_o the_o covent_n and_o sometime_o throughout_o the_o whole_a garden_n affirm_v that_o she_o go_v up_o and_o down_o seek_v of_o soul_n which_o may_v know_v and_o love_v this_o love._n when_o she_o happen_v to_o meet_v some_o one_o of_o her_o sister_n in_o the_o way_n she_o will_v take_v she_o by_o the_o hand_n and_o wring_v she_o very_o hard_a will_v say_v o_o thou_o soul_n do_v thou_o love_v this_o love_n what_o shift_n do_v thou_o make_v to_o live_v do_v thou_o not_o feel_v thyself_o consume_v and_o even_o die_v for_o love_n and_o when_o for_o a_o good_a while_o she_o have_v walk_v thus_o up_o and_o down_o she_o will_v take_v into_o her_o hand_n the_o rope_n of_o the_o bell_n and_o ring_v they_o exclaim_v with_o a_o loud_a voice_n o_o you_o soul_n come_v love_n come_v love_v this_o love_n by_o who_o you_o be_v so_o much_o belove_v with_o these_o affect_n of_o her_o spirit_n it_o will_v not_o be_v credible_a to_o tell_v how_o the_o mind_n of_o the_o religious_a there_o present_a be_v inflame_v to_o devotion_n and_o withal_o to_o wonder_v but_o among_o all_o her_o amorous_a excess_n which_o be_v so_o many_o one_o of_o they_o be_v admirable_a which_o in_o one_o of_o she_o raptes_fw-la she_o express_v she_o have_v pass_v a_o whole_a day_n in_o heavenly_a contemplation_n &_o speak_v with_o so_o much_o fervour_n of_o soul_n of_o the_o divine_a love_n that_o she_o seem_v some_o angelical_a spirit_n which_o may_v have_v be_v descend_v from_o heaven_n to_o express_v the_o excellency_n thereof_o by_o mean_n of_o this_o labour_n she_o be_v grow_v exceed_o weary_a and_o void_a of_o strength_n and_o be_v desirous_a to_o refresh_v and_o restore_v herself_o she_o take_v a_o crucifix_n into_o her_o hand_n and_o apply_v her_o mouth_n to_o the_o wound_n thereof_o she_o be_v see_v by_o the_o religious_a to_o swallow_v in_o the_o same_o very_a sort_n as_o man_n use_v to_o do_v when_o they_o feed_v upon_o some_o delightful_a meat_n and_o moreover_o she_o deliver_v such_o word_n as_o whereby_o it_o may_v clear_o be_v understand_v that_o she_o be_v then_o delicious_o feed_v through_o the_o wound_n of_o jesus_n and_o she_o return_v from_o she_o rapt_v with_o such_o sweetness_n of_o spirit_n and_o so_o over-flowed_n with_o joy_n as_o well_o may_v show_v that_o she_o have_v be_v nourish_v with_o celestial_a manna_n of_o a_o examination_n of_o her_o conscience_n that_o she_o make_v in_o rapt_v whereby_o the_o great_a purity_n of_o her_o soul_n may_v be_v see_v chap._n 13._o how_o diligent_a she_o be_v in_o the_o examination_n of_o her_o conscience_n and_o how_o she_o fix_v the_o eye_n of_o her_o mind_n upon_o every_o little_a moor_v that_o may_v pretend_v to_o defile_v her_o hart_n may_v be_v consider_v by_o the_o inquiry_n that_o she_o make_v upon_o herself_o of_o what_o she_o have_v do_v that_o day_n &_o she_o make_v it_o in_o a_o rapt_v while_o she_o be_v in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n she_o begin_v therefore_o lie_v half_o prostrate_a with_o her_o knee_n upon_o the_o ground_n to_o recite_v those_o psalm_n domine_fw-la quid_fw-la multiplicati_fw-la sunt_fw-la etc._n etc._n qui_fw-la habitat_fw-la in_o adiutoâ—io_fw-la etc._n etc._n which_o as_o soon_o as_o she_o have_v end_v thus_o she_o say_v o_o my_o jesus_n what_o be_v the_o first_o think_v which_o i_o have_v to_o day_n i_o grieve_v that_o it_o be_v not_o of_o thou_o note_n note_n but_o i_o be_v fearful_a lest_o it_o have_v be_v too_o late_o to_o call_v thy_o spouse_n to_o praise_v thou_o nor_o be_v my_o thought_n to_o offer_v myself_o to_o thou_o nor_o to_o honour_v thou_o afterward_o o_o my_o jesus_n i_o go_v to_o offer_v myself_o to_o thou_o in_o the_o choir_n but_o i_o dâ—d_v not_o resign_v myself_o entire_o and_o absolute_o to_o thy_o will_n o_o most_o bountiful_a god_n and_o what_o grace_n may_v i_o hope_v to_o receive_v of_o thou_o i_o who_o do_v not_o resign_v myself_o whole_o unto_o thou_o have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o o_o lord_n although_o i_o deserve_v it_o not_o but_o do_v rather_o dâ—serue_v a_o thousand_o hell_n again_o when_o i_o go_v to_o sing_v praise_n unto_o thou_o i_o be_v trouble_v more_o to_o see_v that_o some_o of_o my_o sister_n be_v want_v in_o performance_n of_o the_o ceremonyâ—s_n and_o religious_a action_n than_o i_o take_v care_n to_o honour_v thou_o and_o to_o offer_v up_o my_o praise_n in_o union_n of_o such_o as_o be_v present_v by_o the_o heavenly_a spirit_n i_o may_v well_o beg_v thy_o mercy_n o_o thou_o great_a god_n when_o even_o in_o that_o which_o immediate_o apperteine_n to_o thou_o and_o to_o thy_o praise_n i_o have_v commit_v so_o many_o imperfection_n when_o i_o come_v to_o receive_v thy_o body_n and_o blood_n which_o i_o ought_v to_o have_v do_v with_o all_o possible_a devotion_n i_o accuse_v myself_o that_o i_o make_v no_o intention_n to_o do_v it_o in_o memory_n of_o thy_o passion_n as_o thou_o have_v direct_v i_o shall_v do_v neither_o yet_o do_v i_o think_v of_o unite_n my_o soul_n to_o thou_o but_o i_o consider_v what_o course_n i_o may_v take_v for_o the_o quiet_v of_o my_o hart_n i_o do_v first_o hear_v the_o divine_a word_n but_o i_o think_v more_o whether_o it_o be_v true_a that_o we_o be_v such_o as_o thou_o do_v cause_v we_o to_o be_v tell_v by_o thy_o christ_n than_o
mind_n that_o she_o do_v not_o perform_v the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o especial_o in_o go_v barefoot_n and_o in_o wear_v one_o only_a coat_n as_o well_o in_o winter_n as_o in_o summer_n yea_o and_o the_o better_a to_o persuade_v she_o the_o devil_n appear_v to_o she_o at_o that_o time_n in_o the_o show_n of_o two_o religious_a woman_n the_o one_o apparel_v in_o white_a note_n note_n the_o other_o in_o black_a who_o both_o advertise_v she_o that_o the_o manner_n of_o her_o life_n be_v nothing_o grateful_a and_o acceptable_a to_o god_n nay_o that_o she_o offend_v he_o thereby_o &_o if_o she_o continue_v in_o such_o obstinacy_n she_o will_v fall_v into_o his_o displeasure_n herewith_o she_o be_v much_o afflict_v but_o confer_v the_o whole_a matter_n with_o mother_n prioress_n and_o have_v make_v much_o prayer_n with_o much_o fervour_n she_o rest_v certain_a that_o those_o have_v be_v but_o deceit_n of_o the_o devil_n whereby_o to_o remove_v she_o from_o her_o course_n begin_v hereof_o she_o be_v yet_o more_o assure_v by_o god_n in_o a_o rapt_v which_o she_o have_v upon_o the_o vigil_n of_o s._n simon_n and_o jude_n wherein_o she_o receive_v many_o other_o spiritual_a consolation_n she_o see_v jesus_n in_o such_o sort_n as_o he_o be_v show_v by_o pilate_n to_o the_o jew_n a_o little_a bundle_n of_o the_o myrrh_n of_o his_o passion_n be_v grant_v to_o she_o and_o jesus_n be_v put_v into_o her_o arm_n as_o he_o be_v new_o bear_v chap._n 27._o we_o must_v not_o pass_v over_o in_o silence_n a_o singular_a favour_n which_o our_o lord_n god_n vouchsafe_v to_o this_o bless_a soul_n upon_o the_o tuesday_n before_o lent_n which_o come_v upon_o the_o 5._o of_o february_n 1585._o as_o they_o be_v make_v a_o devout_a procession_n in_o the_o monastery_n to_o appease_v the_o divine_a justice_n lest_o otherwise_o he_o may_v have_v take_v due_a vengeance_n for_o the_o many_o offence_n which_o on_o that_o day_n use_v to_o be_v commit_v against_o he_o she_o be_v rapt_v in_o 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she_o affectuous_o pray_v that_o saint_n that_o he_o will_v dispose_v she_o to_o receive_v it_o worthy_o &_o that_o her_o mind_n by_o the_o blood_n of_o jesus_n may_v be_v purify_v and_o when_o she_o have_v name_v the_o instrument_n of_o the_o passion_n by_o one_o and_o one_o she_o open_v her_o arm_n make_v show_n of_o receive_v so_o great_a a_o benefit_n and_o afterward_o join_v her_o hand_n in_o form_n of_o a_o cross_n upon_o her_o breast_n she_o say_v fasciculus_fw-la myrrhae_fw-la dilectus_fw-la meus_fw-la inter_fw-la ubera_fw-la mea_fw-la commorabitur_fw-la my_o belove_a be_v as_o a_o bundle_n of_o myrrh_n which_o shall_v remain_v between_o my_o breast_n after_o this_o action_n she_o fall_v all_o tremble_n to_o the_o ground_n make_v show_n of_o suffer_v beyond_o measure_n for_o as_o afterwards_o she_o relate_v by_o holy_a obedience_n in_o that_o instant_n she_o endure_v most_o bitter_a torment_n not_o only_o interiorly_a but_o exterior_o also_o but_o she_o understand_v at_o the_o same_o time_n that_o her_o belove_a jesus_n have_v grant_v her_o grace_n whereby_o she_o may_v have_v forcible_a arm_n to_o resist_v the_o encounter_n of_o her_o spiritual_a enemy_n who_o then_o do_v much_o more_o combat_n with_o she_o neither_o be_v there_o here_o a_o end_n of_o celestial_a favour_n for_o our_o lord_n god_n have_v give_v she_o a_o â—ittle_a bundle_n of_o myrrh_n the_o gift_n of_o sadness_n and_o grief_n he_o be_v please_v to_o release_v the_o pain_n which_o she_o endure_v in_o receive_v thereof_o by_o a_o recompense_n of_o incomparable_a joy_n for_o she_o have_v a_o long_a time_n aspire_v to_o see_v she_o jesus_n in_o such_o sort_n as_o he_o be_v when_o he_o part_v from_o the_o pure_a womb_n of_o maria_n not_o only_o do_v she_o remain_v full_o satisfy_v but_o it_o be_v grant_v she_o that_o for_o sometime_o she_o may_v hold_v the_o tender_a infant_n in_o her_o own_o arm_n it_o be_v too_o hard_a a_o task_n to_o express_v the_o unspeakable_a joy_n which_o at_o that_o time_n she_o show_v by_o her_o countenance_n and_o with_o her_o word_n full_a of_o love_a fervour_n and_o devotion_n and_o with_o what_o act_n of_o humility_n she_o do_v solemnize_v and_o reverence_v that_o celestial_a infant_n and_o willing_o i_o can_v be_v content_a to_o leave_v it_o to_o the_o contemplation_n of_o such_o devout_a spirit_n as_o shall_v read_v these_o line_n it_o suffice_v for_o the_o present_a to_o add_v that_o she_o be_v fortify_v by_o these_o so_o great_a grace_n be_v from_o thenceforth_o better_a able_a to_o resist_v all_o diabolical_a temptation_n of_o the_o sight_n which_o god_n give_v she_o of_o her_o own_o defect_n and_o of_o the_o great_a comfort_n which_o she_o receive_v by_o a_o certain_a act_n of_o humility_n chap._n 28._o the_o say_a tentation_n grow_v upon_o she_o every_o day_n the_o devil_n seek_v someâ—yms_n to_o kindle_v in_o she_o a_o desire_n of_o honour_n and_o worldly_a greatness_n sometime_o to_o cast_v â—er_o upon_o despair_n and_o withal_o to_o persuade_v she_o that_o she_o shall_v not_o weary_v her_o â—elfe_n in_o vain_a nor_o employ_v herself_o so_o without_o profit_n in_o lead_v a_o austere_a religious_a life_n she_o be_v bring_v hereby_o to_o â—uch_v term_n as_o she_o think_v that_o in_o every_o â—f_n her_o action_n she_o offend_v god_n before_o â—hose_v image_n sometime_o pass_v be_v surprise_v by_o extraordinary_a devotion_n she_o will_v with_o tenderness_n let_v herself_o fall_v â—owne_n and_o in_o one_o rapt_v of_o two_o hour_n â—ur_n lord_n make_v she_o see_v all_o the_o fault_n and_o defect_n though_o never_o so_o light_a which_o in_o 〈◊〉_d her_o life_n she_o have_v commit_v this_o sight_n make_v she_o weep_v bitter_o and_o she_o say_v willing_o will_v i_o go_v into_o hell_n if_o thereby_o can_v purchase_v this_o that_o i_o may_v never_o hauâ—_n offend_v thou_o o_o my_o god_n yet_o even_o here_o thâ—_n tentation_n stay_v not_o nor_o yet_o do_v shâ—_n give_v over_o the_o discovery_n of_o new_a way_n whereby_o she_o 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as_o thou_o be_v when_o thy_o mother_n lose_v thou_o in_o the_o temple_n and_o last_o as_o thou_o be_v when_o thou_o be_v prepare_v for_o thy_o passion_n she_o have_v no_o soon_o speak_v these_o word_n but_o this_o suit_n of_o she_o be_v grant_v and_o jesus_n show_v himself_o to_o she_o punctual_o as_o she_o desire_v in_o the_o time_n of_o his_o infancy_n so_o as_o full_a of_o joy_n turn_v her_o eye_n towards_o he_o she_o begin_v to_o speak_v in_o this_o manner_n o_o here_o behold_v my_o little_a one_o in_o the_o age_n of_o three_o or_o four_o year_n o_o admirable_a thing_n thou_o be_v so_o very_o little_a and_o yet_o thou_o be_v god_n but_o thy_o littleness_n make_v i_o know_v thy_o greatness_n o_o greatness_n and_o littleness_n of_o my_o god_n i_o shall_v never_o be_v satisfy_v in_o behold_v thou_o o_o little_a and_o great_a god_n so_o beautiful_a and_o attractive_a she_o than_o see_v the_o same_o jesus_n in_o the_o state_n of_o ripe_a childhood_n and_o be_v then_o surprise_v with_o 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these_o three_o day_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n whereof_o she_o consume_v the_o great_a part_n in_o extasis_fw-la there_o be_v communicate_v to_o her_o many_o celestial_a secret_n and_o she_o speak_v so_o high_o of_o the_o greatness_n that_o be_v in_o god_n as_o do_v exceed_v all_o humane_a thought_n but_o i_o pass_v on_o for_o greateâ—_n brevity_n by_o her_o prayer_n she_o obteyn_v from_o god_n space_n of_o life_n for_o the_o confessarius_fw-la of_o the_o monastery_n chap._n 42._o in_o the_o year_n 1590._o the_o confessarius_fw-la of_o the_o monastery_n be_v grievous_o sick_a and_o near_o to_o death_n have_v already_o be_v anneal_v this_o servant_n of_o god_n both_o wâ—th_a sigh_n and_o tear_n dispose_v herself_o to_o pray_v our_o lord_n so_o earnest_o that_o for_o the_o spiritual_a benefit_n of_o her_o monastery_n he_o will_v prolong_v his_o life_n that_o the_o say_v confessarius_fw-la being_n age_a of_o 77._o year_n in_o â—hort_a time_n recover_v his_o force_n so_o well_o â—hat_n he_o leave_v his_o bed_n and_o at_o the_o solemnity_n of_o the_o corpus_fw-la domini_fw-la which_o be_v at_o hand_n he_o confess_v and_o communicate_v the_o religious_a to_o their_o great_a comfort_n and_o by_o â—his_n prolong_v of_o his_o life_n come_v much_o spiritual_a profit_n to_o the_o monastery_n to_o â—his_n miracle_n all_o the_o religious_a do_v give_v â—laine_a testimony_n who_o yet_o live_v &_o be_v present_a at_o the_o work_n thereof_o she_o see_v the_o soul_n of_o her_o mother_n ascend_v up_o to_o heaven_n and_o she_o also_o see_v a_o good_a priest_n who_o enjoy_v eternal_a happiness_n chap._n 43._o in_o the_o month_n of_o september_n of_o the_o same_o year_n 1590._o our_o lord_n jesus_n be_v please_v to_o refresh_v his_o belove_a spouse_n with_o a_o extreme_a consolation_n for_o the_o agonye_n which_o be_v so_o patient_o endure_v by_o she_o in_o the_o time_n of_o her_o probation_n for_o she_o be_v in_o rapt_a he_o show_v she_o the_o soul_n of_o her_o mother_n who_o 15._o day_n before_o be_v depart_v out_o of_o this_o life_n and_o so_o be_v environ_v by_o eternal_a splendour_n she_o go_v up_o to_o heaven_n accompany_v by_o her_o patron-saint_n there_o be_v give_v she_o by_o her_o mother_n three_o advice_n which_o by_o holy_a obedience_n she_o be_v enjoin_v to_o declare_v first_o that_o to_o the_o uttermost_a of_o her_o power_n she_o shall_v endeavour_v to_o profit_v in_o holy_a humility_n second_o that_o she_o shall_v be_v a_o true_a observer_n of_o obedience_n and_o three_o that_o in_o all_o thing_n she_o shall_v strive_v to_o exercise_v prudence_n have_v give_v these_o holy_a counsel_n her_o happy_a mother_n take_v herself_o out_o of_o sight_n and_o go_v to_o enjoy_v supreme_a happiness_n soon_o after_o also_o she_o see_v the_o soul_n of_o a_o venerable_a priest_n who_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n have_v labour_v much_o in_o spiritual_a exercise_n and_o he_o go_v to_o inhabit_v his_o celestial_a country_n be_v rich_a in_o glory_n by_o these_o mean_n she_o go_v still_o profit_v in_o holy_a virtue_n and_o be_v kindle_v more_o and_o more_o towards_o the_o purchase_n of_o true_a felicity_n of_o the_o manner_n of_o her_o life_n from_o the_o time_n that_o she_o enter_v into_o her_o probation_n until_o her_o death_n chap._n 44._o this_o courageous_a warrior_n of_o jesus_n be_v to_o encounter_v with_o diverse_a tentation_n lead_v a_o life_n whole_o illuminate_v by_o god_n and_o full_a of_o mortification_n and_o penance_n for_o in_o the_o five_o year_n of_o her_o proâ—ation_n note_n note_n she_o sustain_v not_o her_o body_n otherwise_o in_o effect_n then_o by_o bread_n and_o water_n by_o the_o space_n of_o three_o year_n she_o be_v admonish_v by_o advice_n from_o heaven_n go_v bare_a footed_a and_o consequent_o be_v of_o delicate_a complexion_n she_o can_v not_o without_o extreme_a pain_n endure_v those_o bitter_a cold_n of_o winter_n so_o much_o the_o more_o because_o for_o her_o great_a mortification_n she_o employ_v herself_o as_o have_v be_v say_v already_o in_o those_o painful_a exercise_n of_o draw_v water_n and_o do_v of_o other_o inferior_a thing_n and_o neither_o make_v any_o account_n of_o the_o rain_n or_o snow_n she_o go_v up_o and_o down_o sometime_o in_o the_o garden_n and_o sometym_n in_o other_o place_n of_o the_o monastery_n so_o that_o through_o the_o most_o bitter_a season_n of_o the_o year_n her_o flesh_n will_v break_v and_o open_v in_o such_o sort_n as_o to_o shed_v blood_n in_o great_a quantity_n and_o that_o will_v make_v most_o painful_a sore_n therefore_o out_o of_o compassion_n the_o religious_a will_v sometime_o swath_n her_o leg_n but_o she_o care_v for_o no_o such_o compliment_n with_o a_o cheerful_a countenance_n will_v say_v give_v i_o leave_v to_o suffer_v for_o my_o sin_n she_o wear_v only_o one_o coat_n which_o be_v old_a and_o patch_v as_o well_o in_o the_o sharp_a season_n of_o the_o year_n as_o â—t_z other_o time_n so_o as_o now_o and_o then_o through_o the_o extreme_a can_v she_o tremble_v â—n_v such_o sort_n as_o she_o can_v hardly_o speak_v moreover_o the_o usual_a time_n of_o feed_v or_o sleep_v she_o do_v ordinary_o spend_v in_o continual_a prayer_n or_o in_o excess_n of_o mind_n and_o yet_o even_o when_o she_o will_v dispose_v herself_o to_o take_v any_o rest_n she_o sleep_v in_o her_o clothes_n and_o almo_fw-la t_z ever_o upon_o a_o hard_a sack_n of_o straw_n or_o else_o upon_o the_o bare_a ground_n her_o sleep_n be_v extreme_o short_a for_o that_o mind_n which_o be_v accustom_v in_o those_o nocturnal_a hour_n to_o transform_v itself_o often_o into_o god_n by_o divine_a contemplation_n can_v hardly_o induce_v itself_o to_o give_v long_o repose_v to_o the_o body_n though_o it_o be_v much_o weaken_v with_o affliction_n and_o yet_o more_o to_o exercise_v herself_o in_o
she_o mean_v here_o that_o this_o bless_a soul_n love_v the_o internal_a inspiration_n which_o the_o word_n send_v to_o his_o hart_n and_o he_o do_v execute_v they_o the_o best_a he_o can_v luigi_n be_v a_o unknown_a martyr_n because_o he_o that_o love_v thou_o o_o my_o god_n know_v thou_o to_o be_v so_o great_a and_o so_o infinite_o amiable_a that_o it_o be_v a_o great_a martyrdom_n for_o he_o to_o find_v that_o he_o can_v love_v thou_o as_o he_o desire_v and_o much_o more_o to_o find_v that_o thou_o be_v not_o belove_v by_o thy_o creature_n but_o offend_v he_o make_v himself_o also_o of_o himself_o a_o martyr_n o_o how_o much_o do_v he_o love_v on_o earth_n and_o therefore_o now_o he_o enjoy_v god_n in_o heaven_n in_o a_o greatfullnes_n of_o love_n the_o word_n shoot_v through_o his_o hart_n as_o with_o a_o dart_n when_o he_o be_v mortal_a and_o now_o that_o he_o be_v in_o heaven_n those_o dart_n do_v repose_v in_o his_o hart_n because_o these_o communication_n whichhe_v deserve_v by_o the_o act_n of_o love_n and_o the_o union_n which_o he_o make_v which_o be_v the_o dart_n now_o he_o understand_v and_o enjoy_v she_o see_v then_o that_o this_o saint_n pray_v earnest_o for_o those_o who_o in_o earth_n have_v give_v he_o any_o spiritual_a help_n whereupon_o she_o say_v and_o i_o also_o will_v endeavour_v to_o help_v soul_n that_o if_o any_o of_o they_o go_v to_o heaven_n it_o may_v pray_v for_o i_o as_o luigi_n do_v for_o such_o as_o give_v he_o help_v on_o earth_n the_o reverend_a father_n of_o the_o society_n of_o jesus_n have_v afterwards_o understand_v that_o suor_n maria_n maddalena_n have_v in_o rapt_v receive_v so_o great_a a_o proof_n of_o the_o sanctity_n of_o this_o their_o beato_n desire_v of_o the_o monastery_n which_o great_a instance_n a_o copy_n of_o as_o much_o as_o have_v be_v here_o deliver_v and_o because_o the_o say_a father_n have_v ever_o give_v great_a help_n to_o this_o monastery_n in_o spiritual_a matter_n their_o desire_n be_v easy_o 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concern_v the_o glory_n of_o b._n ludovicus_n of_o gonzaga_n but_o than_o what_o affliction_n of_o hart_n she_o feel_v for_o she_o expect_v nothing_o less_o than_o â—o_o be_v examine_v about_o such_o thing_n can_v by_o any_o mean_n be_v express_v note_n note_n nor_o be_v â—he_n to_o be_v recomfort_v so_o much_o she_o do_v abhor_v that_o her_o praise_n shall_v be_v publish_v &_o she_o say_v be_v much_o grieve_a â—s_v it_o possible_a that_o a_o vile_a creature_n such_o a_o one_o as_o â—_o be_o shall_v be_v note_v and_o write_v down_o in_o â—ookes_n and_o mention_v by_o the_o month_n of_o man_n final_o for_o the_o quiet_v of_o she_o in_o some_o measure_n it_o be_v needful_a that_o the_o confessarius_fw-la shall_v tell_v she_o that_o this_o happen_v â—y_a the_o will_n of_o his_o divine_a majesty_n to_o the_o â—nd_n that_o his_o glory_n may_v the_o more_o appear_v in_o that_o of_o his_o beato_n she_o reduce_v a_o butt_n of_o wine_n which_o be_v spoil_v to_o the_o former_a goodness_n she_o free_v one_o of_o the_o religious_a from_o the_o pain_n of_o the_o stone_n &_o two_o other_o from_o other_o dangerous_a sickness_n chap._n 70._o in_o the_o year_n 1602._o there_o happen_v a_o accident_n like_o another_o whereof_o there_o be_v speech_n before_o for_o a_o butt_n of_o wine_n be_v spoil_v in_o the_o monastery_n the_o religious_a have_v recourse_n to_o suor_n maria_n maddalena_n and_o she_o one_o morning_n after_o be_v communicate_v go_v thither_o where_o thâ—_n butt_n be_v and_o have_v make_v some_o shorâ—_n prayer_n the_o wine_n return_v miraculous_o to_o the_o former_a goodness_n and_o the_o religious_a who_o yet_o live_v do_v testify_v this_o miracle_n upon_o oath_n in_o the_o same_o year_n suor_n catharinâ—_n ginori_fw-la a_o religious_a profess_a who_o have_v beeâ—_n afflict_v &_o torment_v with_o the_o pain_n oâ—_n the_o stone_n for_o the_o space_n of_o three_o year_n waâ—_n once_o among_o other_o time_n more_o vexeâ—_n without_o take_v any_o rest_n at_o all_o for_o the_o space_n of_o six_o whole_a day_n &_o night_n &_o she_o come_v in_o fine_a to_o those_o teâ—ms_n that_o she_o can_v not_o support_v the_o rage_n of_o her_o torment_n but_o be_v visit_v by_o suor_n maria_n maddalena_n look_v towards_o she_o she_o say_v o_o my_o mother_n i_o beseech_v you_o note_n note_n pray_v unto_o our_o lord_n to_o mitigate_v my_o pain_n that_o with_o patience_n i_o may_v bear_v they_o for_o i_o doubt_v much_o that_o they_o may_v cast_v i_o upon_o despair_n as_o soon_o as_o the_o bless_a mother_n hear_v that_o word_n she_o instant_o put_v herself_o into_o prayer_n and_o present_o the_o sick_a person_n fall_v a_o sleep_n and_o awake_v she_o find_v herself_o intiere_o tree_n and_o whole_a by_o the_o earnest_a prayer_n of_o the_o servant_n of_o god_n as_o she_o herself_o now_o live_v testify_v upon_o her_o oath_n it_o happen_v another_o time_n that_o suor_n maria_n maddalena_n mori_n be_v trouble_v extreme_a lie_n with_o the_o sciatica_n which_o have_v keep_v she_o 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this_o monastery_n obtain_v by_o her_o merit_n but_o for_o brevitye_n sake_n they_o be_v omit_v it_o may_v suffice_v that_o there_o be_v no_o one_o in_o the_o monastery_n who_o receive_v not_o singular_a benefit_n of_o god_n by_o her_o prayer_n and_o they_o who_o at_o the_o present_a live_v have_v all_o of_o they_o testify_v upon_o oath_n and_o do_v continual_o avow_v the_o marvellous_a thing_n which_o our_o lord_n do_v work_v by_o this_o dear_a spouse_n of_o he_o be_v grievous_o siâ—ke_v she_o do_v not_o at_o the_o first_o excuse_v herself_o from_o her_o rigorous_a manner_n of_o life_n but_o grow_v to_o spit_v blood_n in_o great_a quantity_n she_o attend_v to_o the_o recou_fw-mi ry_z of_o her_o health_n be_v after_o curâ—d_n she_o return_v to_o her_o office_n